A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Yes actually, I came out of the womb dead... obviously i was revived...
My baby pictures are the proof... black eyes, bruses all over... like something was trying to hold me in....

Then when i was 5 years old I just stopped breathing in my sleep and was brought back with cpr. My rib cage is sort of dented as a result. I always asked my mother what actually happend, but I couldn't even get anything out of her...

My mom always told me that I wasn't ment to die yet and that I had a higher purpose to serve... Now, thats not something that sounds strange when a mother is trying to comfort a child after something tragic, except the fact that our family is definatly out of the ordinary as seein in my last post...


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Hmm good question, interested to see what others say.....

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nothing deadly... but I should've not be here still. Why? My mom was diagnosed with a cyst on one of her ovaries that was like 1 cup in size when I had 3 months in the womb. The cyst was bigger than me (my mom discovered it when she had her first ultrasound (back in that time, they used to think that ultasound was very harmful for babies and don't do more than 3 ultrasound tests in all the pregnancy time), and the only way possible was making my mom an hysterectomy (sp?) and kill the baby as well...
My mom said "hell no!", dismissed her doctor and started to take alternative medicine (herbs, baths... you name it). When she had 8 months she got another ultrasound and poof! the cyst dissapeared.

And I was born 2 weeks after the time, with the cord coiled up my neck 3 times. My mom had a risky cesarean when I had half of my head popping out herself already bcause of that. Both of us lived as you can see.

I had black eyes when I was born, now they're greyish blue.

Eternity - Well, first of all I have to say that your new avatar is seriously creepy lol. Secondly, I'm glad they managed to save you both times. That's just wow. I can't imagine what your poor mother must have been going through. Ok, I can't even begin to imagine and I have no desire to.

Whoa Cags, well I'm glad you're here too for the record! You just posted the same time I did so I missed your story while typing myself. When I was preg with my oldest daughter I had to have a C-section cause the cord was wrapped around her neck and her heart rate was dropping to really scary levels. Her eyes were always blue but when she was born she had violet flecks in them. It was breathtaking, but then maybe I'm biased on the whole breathtaking thing .. No, I'm right. She gorgeous, inside and out.

~Tragic~

I was thinking that I didn't have a story like that until I remembered that I also had a shaky gestational period.
My mother had an appendicitis when she was pregnant with me, and it was uncertian if I'd be born alive or not. After the surgery, she continued to have premature contractions. I was eventually born 3 weeks early, and spent time alone in an incubator. Funny thing is, that I remember being in that incubator.

Yea, well, we(me and sis) got ours... see died at the same age as our "relative" in the witch trials.... and my grandmother.... and her mother... and her mother... Every female in my family has died at the same age of 42... my life is a bucket of paranormal freakyness...

Originally posted by tk2dsky
I was eventually born 3 weeks early, and spent time alone in an incubator. Funny thing is, that I remember being in that incubator.

That's a seriously early memory

My first memory was being left in the back of my mother's car in my carseat on a reallllly hot, sunny day. I remember I couldn't move around like I wanted. Like I didn't have the muscle control to do it. I kept trying to see where she went but all I could see was blue skies and trees out the window. LOL I guess that may be able to count as a second one. Leaving a small baby in a car alone on a day like that WTF. Well, it was back in 1980 so *shrugs* times were different I guess. Going to stop derailing where this was going though. Sorry hehe

Please continue everyone.

Well, in answer to Sol's question, yes.

I can name about 12 times in the past 3 years alone where I felt like something was out to get me....yet I survived. I have never been in a car accident, but so many near misses I feel like I should be dead by now. Every time I almost died, it felt like something just stopped it and said "It's not your time yet. You have something to do first."

My most memorable near death experience was when I was driving home to see my family for Thanksgiving two years ago. I was driving in the middle of a northeastern blizzard through very mountainous terrain. As I started to climb this very icy and very snow coated hill, a logging truck was coming down. The truck jackknifed roughly 100 yards ahead of my truck. I literally had less than a second to either pull over or speed up and hope to god that I didn't get smashed. Something pushed my foot down instinctively, and I floored it. The truck missed my front bumper by literally 2 inches. I could see the horror in the truck driver's face as he zoomed by my car and proceeded to flip over down the road. There have been several more experiences since then, and in my early life, I shouldn't have been born at all. I was 2 months premature and was in an incubator for 2 weeks. The doctors told my parents to make funeral plans. Well, I pulled through, obviously.

Something to note: I remembered a dream that I had last night, and it confirmed what I have been feeling about this particular subject of survivability.

Dream: I was walking down this old abandoned dirt road with woods on either side of it roughly 20 yards away from the road on both sides. This entity shows up about 10 feet down the road and looks me square in the face and says: "Do you fear death?" I get closer to it, grab it by its ethereal throat and say to him, almost growling the words: "I am not afraid of death. And so far, you've been unable to do me in, and if you had the power to do so, you already would have." He laughed and said: "It's coming."

At this point, I squeezed its throat until it could no longer speak and I said: "I am not afraid of you, I am not afraid of death, and I will fight Satan himself if it means our survival." He managed to choke out: "Why do you have a stake in any of this? You are just a misplaced soul. You were never meant to come here. You have no stake in any of this." Before I let it say anything else, I choked it until its neck snapped. Then I woke up.



When Sol mentioned the near death thing, this sparked that dream I had, and I relived it in my head in exact detail. I even remember what flowers were on the ground and what kind of trees were in the woods on either side. I haven't remembered a dream in such detail in years.


It's just so weird because I have always felt like, as Sol said, I have a purpose, and I will not be allowed to have harm come to me until I have fulfilled that purpose. I have always felt (as the being said in my dream) that I didn't have a stake in either side of the battle (if you want to talk about Biblical Heaven vs. Hell). I would gladly slaughter angels as well as demons if it meant keeping my friends, family, and loved ones safe. Of course, I don't think it's as simple as that, and I'm trying to stay away from Biblical references, but it's the closest reference I can make in regards to what I have been feeling.

I just wish that I could put into words the feelings and thoughts I have floating around my head, but they never come out into words as I intend them too. Some things are just too hard to explain with words...



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

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Originally posted by truthseeker1984

Dream: I was walking down this old abandoned dirt road with woods on either side of it roughly 20 yards away from the road on both sides. This entity shows up about 10 feet down the road and looks me square in the face and says: "Do you fear death?" I get closer to it, grab it by its ethereal throat and say to him, almost growling the words: "I am not afraid of death. And so far, you've been unable to do me in, and if you had the power to do so, you already would have." He laughed and said: "It's coming."

At this point, I squeezed its throat until it could no longer speak and I said: "I am not afraid of you, I am not afraid of death, and I will fight Satan himself if it means our survival." He managed to choke out: "Why do you have a stake in any of this? You are just a misplaced soul. You were never meant to come here. You have no stake in any of this." Before I let it say anything else, I choked it until its neck snapped. Then I woke up.

Your dream actually gave me huge chills....especially the part about being a misplaced soul.

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Yeah that is definitely an intense dream. I can feel the emotion in your words when you described it to us. Damn. Crazy stuff.

When I was about 6/7 on holiday in the Canary Islands I nearly drowned. We'd just arrived so I'd gone on a wander looking for the kids swimming pool. I remember standing near the edge of the adult pool near the deep end on tiptoes trying to see where it was.

Next thing I remember is being under the surface of the water, struggling to get to the surface, I couldn't swim, I was sinking further down. Then I remember a lady pulling me out of the water. According to my mum, this lady ranted at her in german for a good 5 minutes before leaving, couldn't understand a word

- Phoenix

Hi All,



Wow, very curious about the blood type thing! I don not know mine either, which until Tragic posted that she does not know hers either; I was embarrassed to admit, neither do I!
LOL!

I am due for a blood test, so I will ask when they get the results


I have been a mess the last few days! Really BAD with sleeping, there is none to be had and then IF I happen to grab an hour or two, really vivd dreams with no recall


Then today I suddenly was filled with anger, this was only while driving to and from work and maybe a few minutes at work?

I could tell that it was not from within me, but rather, from all around me! It really scared me, as it was SO intense and tangible!

I read about the dream from TS that spoke about the gang bangers and I was frightened.

We are going to be having a HUNGE celebration tmw and Sunday here in Denver. For Cinco D

We have both Crips and Bloods here and my friend said that things can go VERY wrong at these events due to the gangs here and then when I read that, and with the feeling from today, I just, well, I HOPE nothing happens!

I also have a strange very subtle sadness forming where my solar plexus is, again from without.

I feel like, yet again, something is just right around the corner

My cats have been acting strangely too. They have become VERY needy and will not leave my side.

Near Death Experiences:

I have had SO many throughout my life it is a bit unsettling.
Not classifiable NDE's by an means, but just situations where you are like "really!"

First my mother tried on two occasions to abort me.
Then in her 8th month she was in a major car accident.
Then I was in at least two situations with strangers that could have ended up worse then what happened. One was at age 6, the other age 8.
Then after I moved to NY when I was 14, that is were I left off in my earlier post.

I went CRAZY: I started doing drugs and was in and out of detention centers, runaway homes and re-hab. I probably should have overdosed on several occasions and was in situations where I was nearly shot, driven off a bridge, driven literally into a brick wall (which just before we turned the corner a voice said "PUT YOUR SEAT BELT ON", I did!

I was then on the streets for a bit too.

Then after all of that.

I was in several near catastrophic auto accidents, a plane fell apart while I was in it, another had a near collision.

And I could go on and on.

Usually, just BEFORE something would happen, the voice would tell me to do this or that, and I would then do what it said and be safe.

I now know that it was my guides and along the way I think I have net a few angels too.

I am BTW clean now for nearly 20 years

I am not certain IF I am here for a purpose, though I have been told I am by many?

I suppose all of us shale see what our destiny holds

Now time to TRY and sleep
LOL

Amy, I'm so proud of you for being clean for 20 yrs first of all. All that you have been through I don't think anyone can even begin to try and condemn you for the drug use. But the fact that you are off it all and made it through sane (well from my point of view ) speaks highly of your strength.
I used to know my blood type. I guess it's just one of those things that fall out of your brain without the normal everyday use of the knowledge. I still haven't gotten a chance to try and find out. I will though hehe.

Truth- that dream was really something. You sure do have a lot of hostility in them. I did dream last night. I can't remember it though! I remember waking up around 4 something and thinking "whoa, I should have put that damn notebook on the bedside table." And then I passed out again lol. Very frustrating.

I'm off to do some more unpacking and organizing. I'll be back later but I've been putting this all off for so long, I actually feel guilty. bleh

~Tragic~

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It's kinda funny Tragic---my dreams normally aren't so hostile. It is only in the past week or so that these dreams have turned into something of a nightmare for me. I feel my "inner beast" coming out in all of them. It's almost as if I'm a parent animal protecting it's offspring. I'm definitely not like that at all in waking life. But then again, the things coming to me in my dreams have been more hostile as of the past week or so, and I'm wondering if it means something more than just pent up aggression. I really do feel a 'protective response' in these dreams, and I guess it's the flight or fight response that forces me to deal with these things in not so nice ways.

Things are getting increasingly heavier in the air, and once again, I cannot put my thumb on what is causing it. If the dreams are any indication, then something is ramping up. These things go in cycles, but with every new cycle, it seems to get stronger.

Interesting to say the least.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

My cat has been acting up too.... Hrmmmm...










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This has happened to me as well, but more so after some highway driving and then coming to a stop, it feels like everything is still coming towards me for a bit sort of as if it was like a warp drive or something slowing down lol

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Hey Tragic...

someone pointing out my quirks is just a little insulting.

I get ya...thing is, with the perspective on life that I have now, I'm more led to belive that the folks who point those things out are the folks who wish they had those traits
I love you mate and i can guarantee that everyone else loves you too!!!!
Forget about 2 minutes ago, concentrate on now, then look forward to tomorrow.


Much love...

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Thank you Mike, I love you guys too.
I try not to let silly little things like that bother me. I think it does just because I really do try to not be judgmental of anyone. (Lord knows I am far from perfect) So when someone points out something, I'm just caught off guard cause I assume others think as I do. But I guess they don't heh. But it's ok, I don't hold onto things usually

Hope life is treating you well dear.

~Tragic~

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Welcome to our happy little family! Good to have you here.

Originally posted by Tragic
now I do feel like a weirdo!

... I'm not weird.

~Tragic~

Wow, do I know what you are talking about! NO!!! You are NOT weird. Wait, maybe you are weird. That's what people always said I was. We can be weird together, ok? LOL ::::hugs::::