A Strange Feeling as of Late...

I have been following this thread with interest. I feel like something big is coming too - a big change, an uncomfortable change.

I've been dealing with a hip problem for the past 3 years. I had my first Reiki session this week, and it was really intense. I was pretty skeptical going into it, I just thought it might be relaxing.

During the session, I felt heat pulsing at the base of my spine, and then it traveled up my spine to my head. My ears got really clogged up suddenly, like I had a cold. And then the pressure dissipated in about 5 minutes.

The rest of the week I have been exhausted, and my hip was worse than ever. Not sure it that is related to the Reiki or not.

Last night I had the most vivid dream. I was completely healed in the dream, I was dancing in the living room. I opened the door to the front yard, and it was so beautiful outside. I was about to go out when I felt there was something malicious behind me. I turned around and yelled, "Go!" and felt the presence recede out the window.

I went to the window to make sure it was gone, and it was. I was suddenly so tired (in my dream), that I had to lay down on the bed. When I did that, I felt hands pulling my legs to straighten out my hips, and I felt they were healing me. I was surprised, but I welcomed it.

That's about it, but what a week it has been.

Feeling pretty grounded and optimistic today. Leg is still acting up though, no miraculous healing to report!

I am up for a group meditation too, if we decide to do that

[edit on 5/8/2010 by Tadarida]

[edit on 5/9/2010 by Tadarida]

I am up for the group meditation. Just need several days notice, of course, so can make sure I am well rested. Can't doze off during something like that. LOL

I tell ya what, I make more typos and my computer does the weirdest things, but only when I am replying here. Like, I have keyboard shortcuts turned off, but stuff will pop up and I am not hitting alt or ctrl, and I have felt for a while that something keeps trying to make me not post. ANYHOO, get some rest everyone. I have been reading and responding to this thread for a couple of hours now. Gonna go brave the wind and rain again for a few, and then read what everyone else is talking about around here. Love to all of you!

Your not sick man. Your experiencing the death of a Nation, the one that was formerly know as the beacon of hope for the world. It died on January 20th 2009. The carcass is now begining to really stink from decay. That's why you are feeling something you have never felt before.
It is abject absolute fear and mourning. Your spirit knows it but you have not consciously accepted the fact.

I feel great, I just turned 50 and I feel better than when I was 30. 2009 was a great year and 2010 is turning out to be the best year ever for me. I have zero issues with anyone or anything, you could say my life is blessed, and I see even 2011 and onward as being better and better.

Damn it is a great time to be alive, and I wish more of you would see it too.

group meditation? sounds interesting... i'm in! I'm at GMT -4 (currently 3:48 AM).

what can I tell... I usd to be perfectly healthy as a kid, then verything messed up with my turning into a woman. When I was 12 y.o. and my hormones went crazy not in the normal way. Aside of the secondary hypothyroidism I have hormonal hypermenorrhea (here starts the period comments, so if you don't want to read about this, skip till it's over ) that means my period was a nasty red river that lasted for 7-9 days... My mom never believed me that it was complex, I was always pending about stain marks on my school uniform or the chairs I was sitted on (I used to carry a spare uniform in my locker "just in case"... and I needed to wear it more than twice). If the common woman wears 2-3 regular pads in a day, I used to wear 6 or 7 heavy flux ones in just one day. Nights were so stressful, because I never knew if the pads were secure enough... my bed in that time had a lot of blood stains in the matress and I changed sheets all days. Finally, one night, when I was 18, I pulled my mom from an arm to show her the mess I had in the bathroom (it was 5 AM) and cried her to carry me to her gynecologyst because leaving a bathroom by 5 AM like a crime scene wasn't normal in ANY way. They took me a $hiton of tests, trying to discard POS and another issues. Hormones. and nothing more than hormones. Oh, and since my mom didn't paid attention at time, I need to bear with cronical anemia forever because of all that heavy blood lose from all those years... Hopefully I like lentils and liver, I need to eat those forever... And I cannot donate blood forever.
(nasty period talking off)

Oh an also I have two alimentary dissoreders, that are cyclical. I swing between anorexia and COD, that a weird case of bulimia. COD (compulsive overeating dissorder) it's almost a bulimia, but without purgating after the overeating. Last year i gained around 40 lbs in 2 months because of that... with some dieting I'm closer to my norml weight, but the last pounds are always the hardest... so here it comes my non friend anorexia. I notice that I haven't eat propperly in some days, and that's a clear sign that anorexia is near. I still feel hunger, but in some weeks i would not. It's a cycle. And I have been trapped on this since I was 15 y.o....

that same year, I started to suffer a weird depression that lasted years, with no apparent reason. As I've said, I had suicidal thoughts almost everyday, life seemed to be so cold and grey, there wasn't anything that made me shine by that days... I had some love relationships and all went wrong because my extreme laziness and coldness (in EVERY sense of the word, I felt cold like a rock too). The guys got bored on me, cheated on me, left me alone and so on. In the last serious relationship I had I started to catch colds almost every week. My ex BF (a very nice guy, he still owns a piece of my heart, we are just friends now) pushed me to go to a doctor and get some tests. And OH WOW! my t4 count was 90% under the normal!
One of my grandaunts appointed an hour with her endocrynologyst for me, an he putted me in sodic levothyroxyn (I don't know the names outside my country, but here's called Eutirox) FOREVER. And my life really changed overnight. I was like before hitting the 15 y.o, so happy, cheerful, etc. Enough said that this little pill did more for me than the psychiatrist and psychologyst I was going in for years and also left the antidepressants.

... but now I need to get a calibration of my medicine and since this pathology was discovered when my mom didn't live with me, she didn't take it serious. I have been begging her for money like 3 months ago and nothing. She said she was going to send me the money last week and nothing happned yet. One of my best friends gave me the money so I'm going next week even if my mom doesn't want it. I need a fix, I'm weaker and weaker every day.... I cannot focus, and my short term memory sucks. Also my nails brittle like mad and I've messed up a work for college thanks to that. I don't want to feel like my mom doesn't care about me.... but it's hard to feel like this when I haven't paid my monthly college fee because she hadn't sent me anny money and I'm not wearing my glasses because the ones I had broke... 6 months ago (I¡m nlind as a mole...). I know that the family business isn't going well but it's hard to live like I am now... I felt like I'm not even important for her, and she's my only parent and sometimes my only family (my aunt, the one I live with... that's also not my aunt but my grandaunt, seems to be the only one who cares... and that makes me so sad, my family is kinda big and nobody says anything positive about me. Never. I won several awards when in Journalism, literature awards. Nothin, not even a "well done!" came from their mouths...)

sorry, I needed to rant a bit and my so called "friends" already said that they're tired of my rants... my health is going downhill an my poor grandaunt it's not working anymore due her age, just receiving her retirement that covers just the basic services of the house, like food, electricty, phone, internet...( having internet here isn't luxury, is a basic service... the same with cellphones. It's a weird place. Sometimes you don't have money to buy food - happened to me more than once - but internet it's always on)

Sometimes I just want to go to leep and never wake up again... like tonight. But I know that tomorrow I'm gonna wake up like today, do my assignments dor college too late, didn't finish them and cry to my teachers because of that. as always...

(sorry for my poor redaction, it's late...)

[edit on 9-5-2010 by Caggy]

Originally posted by Xtrozero
I feel great, I just turned 50 and I feel better than when I was 30. 2009 was a great year and 2010 is turning out to be the best year ever for me. I have zero issues with anyone or anything, you could say my life is blessed, and I see even 2011 and onward as being better and better.

Damn it is a great time to be alive, and I wish more of you would see it too.

Xtro- I'm really happy to hear that everything is going so well for you. I hope your life continues down this path and you have nothing but sunshine and smiles. I know that probably sounds sarcastic, I promise it's not though.

Althouuugghh ... This absolutely "zero issues" does make me say, um ... so wtf is your position? That sounds like an issue to me.

Peace

~Tragic~


[edit on 9-5-2010 by Tragic]

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Wow Cags, That's some pretty serious stuff. Im sorry to hear of it all and I wish there was some way I could help. But I want you to know that you ARE important. Whether your mother is acknowleding that or not, you are. Hang in there hon, keep your head up and don't forget that we care about you.

~Tragic~

Originally posted by Tragic
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It's true Cags, we really do care about you. Like others have said, if you ever need someone to talk to or to give you some positive vibes, just give us a U2U.

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I always get so excited when I see this thread get bumped. I am constantly checking recent posts, and I got really happy when I saw this thread right there on the top of the list.

There is truly something magical about this particular thread, and I really do appreciate all of you and love this little family thing we got going on in here.

Keep posting everyone. It makes me happy to see this thread prosper.



[edit on 9-5-2010 by SolarE-Souljah]

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Agreed. I would actually be really upset if people stopped posting lol. I think there was an evening not long ago where no one posted for like 3 or 4 hours during prime evening hours and I actually got freaked out. It was strange everyone was so quiet. lol

~Tragic~

Hi All!

Wow some very intense posts as of late! Much love to all of you.

The near death experiences is very interesting. I have had many in my life.

First, my mother was told that her chances for conceiving a child were very unlikely. She has what is called poly-cystic ovarian disease. I think that is how you spell it. My mom proved the doctors wrong and conceived me.

When my mother was 6th months pregnant, her and my father got into a car accident. Her frontal body went through the windshield. The only thing that saved her and me, was the seatbelt. Otherwise she would have been thrown from the car.

When I was born, which was 3 weeks early, I was born with my lungs not completely developed. This is what my mom and dad have told me. I was in an incubator for about 3 weeks to a month. I developed pneumonia during this time. The doctors told my parents to prepare for the worse. I was not suppose to make it, but I proved them wrong and fought for life.

When I was about 3 my parents had taken a camping trip to Maine with family. There was a lake that everyone like to fish on with a dock. My family all takes about the time how I went running down the dock, completely clothed and jumped into the dark, muddy water. My dad said I sank like a brick and that he jumped in after me. He said that the water was so dark he didn't know how he was going to find me. He did and I was completely okay.

There were events that could have resulted in a near death occurrence, car accidents, eating poison plants, falling out of trees, etc. but those three major events stick most in my head. I don't think I remember any of the happenings, only know from what I have been told.

Now, someone mentioned their cats acting strange. My cat (Sofi) and I had the strangest thing happen to us last night. There was a very intense wind storm outside, trees blowing and branches breaking. My boyfriend and I had just arrived home from visiting with family. It was around 11:30PM. When we got home we were both exhausted and went to bed. Sofi curled up next to me and was nudging me to pet her. So I did so, cause if I don't she will meow all night for affection. She is a very needy kitty, but we love her so.

Anyways, my boyfriend feel into a dead sleep. I myself could not sleep. So I decided to read a little. As I was reading, I felt the bed move and my legs shake as if someone was grabbing them and shaking them. It only happened for maybe 10 seconds. The strange thing was is that Sofi lifted her head and look right at me in the eyes. As if she had felt it too. I know it was not my boyfriend because he was in a dead sleep next to me. I tried to wake him but couldn't.

I don't know how to explain the feeling. It was like a vibration going through my lower half. I thought maybe it was a little earthquake. Which is rare in my area. No idea. Anyone experience anything like this before?

Much love to everyone!

Originally posted by Happyfeet84
I don't know how to explain the feeling. It was like a vibration going through my lower half. Anyone experience anything like this before?

I have been experiencing this lately before I go to bed. It's a very strange vibrational, almost electrical impulse that slowly moves up from my feet to my legs. I'm almost positive it is the same thing you experienced.

Originally posted by Happyfeet84
I felt the bed move and my legs shake as if someone was grabbing them and shaking them. It only happened for maybe 10 seconds.

I don't know how to explain the feeling. It was like a vibration going through my lower half. I thought maybe it was a little earthquake. Which is rare in my area. No idea. Anyone experience anything like this before?

I have the bed shaking thing happen occasionally. Can't explain it...feels like I'm my own personal earthquake. Usually happens when I awaken in the middle of the night.

Another common thread I am seeing, is a choice at birth as spirit to come here. Almost like, be certain, because if you are, then you will be born, otherwise you still have an out...then later almost a rebirth through water.

In addition to my early birth, around age six I fell into a pool fully clothed and sunk to the bottom. The rise to the top felt like an eternity. I can relive the experience in my head easily.
Also, one of my most vivid dreams was me relaxing in the bathtub, in my dream I fell asleep, only to wake in my dream under the water and struggling for air. Still in the dream I emerged froom the water choking and gagging...that's when I woke up IRL continuing to gag.

Just thought the common symbolism was interesting.

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I forgot that you had mentioned this earlier. IT was like an electrical pulse. That is so fascinating. Do you have any ideas as to what may have caused it? I have had my body twitch before sleep before, but nothing that felt like this. It felt as if it was coming from something other than my own body and the vibrations went through my legs, from my feet to my hips.

Originally posted by tk2dsky

Originally posted by Happyfeet84
I felt the bed move and my legs shake as if someone was grabbing them and shaking them. It only happened for maybe 10 seconds.

I don't know how to explain the feeling. It was like a vibration going through my lower half. I thought maybe it was a little earthquake. Which is rare in my area. No idea. Anyone experience anything like this before?

I have the bed shaking thing happen occasionally. Can't explain it...feels like I'm my own personal earthquake. Usually happens when I awaken in the middle of the night.

Another common thread I am seeing, is a choice at birth as spirit to come here. Almost like, be certain, because if you are, then you will be born, otherwise you still have an out...then later almost a rebirth through water.

In the past 2 days, I've started experiencing this bed shaking phenomenon as well. I'm in the south eastern US. It really does feel like a subtle earthquake. I checked the USGS website and there is zero earthquake activity reported for my area. I'm not on a faultline.

I've never experienced this sort of phenomenon before. I suspect there is some kind of logical explanation based in the physical sciences.

Yeah I checked too. There was nothing in my area as well. I am in the Northeastern U.S. I didn't think it was an earthquake seeing how where I live rarely has them. It is defiantly an interesting phenomenon.

I was reading through the thread and was reading how people would like to do a group meditation. I think that is a great idea. The only thing is, is that I am so new to this "awakening" (I am not sure if that is the right word.)I am not sure if I even know how to meditate correctly.

I have always experience different experiences in my life that have been unexplainable, but I always just thought it was somewhat normal and people just never talked about it. Such as dreams, feelings, etc. I am now realizing that it does not happen to everyone.

This is one fascinating journey and I am excited to take it, but it is still very intimidating for me.

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After I take a nap, I can send you a U2U that describes how to meditate productively. I have learned many tips and tricks over the years about meditation, and I will gladly share them with you after some much needed rest. See you all in a couple hours. Heck or maybe even in my dreams!

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Thank you! Sweet dreams

Originally posted by Tragic

Althouuugghh ... This absolutely "zero issues" does make me say, um ... so wtf is your position? That sounds like an issue to me.

My posts you linked to it is just one of many possibilities that can affect us on a small or large scale. It’s just a discussion that Mother Nature is much greater than humans in changing the environment. …having no issues doesn’t mean I do not have opinions or debate those opinions, it just means I wake up feeling great without a lot of stress and negitive thoughts.

My side to this is every one of us will create the life we choice to have, whether that life is good, bad, full of strife, or carefree…

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I have experienced the shaking thing sort of a lot. Usually when I am just waking up, so I don't know if it's a sleep related thing. Funny thing is, it almost always happens if I take a nap during the day, but only sometimes at night. It feels like someone is shaking the bed up and down in a very quick manner. I look at my hands and they don't shake, but the bed shakes. It used to scare me a little, now it just annoys be because I wish I knew what it's cause was.