A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Originally posted by goobgirl
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I have fibromyalgia and "getting hit by a freight train" is a common phrase used by fibro people to describe the morning after a bad sleep. Look at they symptoms and see if you have any others...just to be sure..

I have it as well, and it is part of the reason I had the big neck issues a few days ago. Some days, I can barely get out of bed, but since I work full time at a labor intensive job, and need the money, not working is not an option. There are certainly days when it is worse than on other days, and I have found that those days have been occurring more and more often, with worse effects. I am less stressed than I used to be, so I know that isn't what the deal is. Then you throw in the insomnia, and the fact that my boss likes to schedule me on widely different shifts (I worked overnight two days ago, one day off where I had to stay awake all day after getting off at 8AM so that I could sleep last night, and then worked 7 to 4 today, and I have to stay up all night tonight so I can sleep in the day tomorrow since I work the overnight again tomorrow night. SIGH), and I am just getting hit hard by this fibro thing.

Originally posted by truthseeker1984
Okay friends, well, as promised, here is my experience in my 1.75 days of absence....haha (I thought it would be a lot longer, but as it turned out, I guess I didn't need that long).


WELCOME BACK!!! Couldn't get you out of my head worrying about ya!


I did not get a good feeling when watching it, unlike some of you who said it resonated with you.

Um, yeah. Just watched them. Yep.. she has a really good voice. REALLY didn't like the videos. For me, and this is of course JMO, but there were moments that seemed almost like there was a subliminal evil message. Like, it was just thrown in there and you weren't supposed to consciously notice it.

Originally posted by truthseeker1984
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And with the experience I had two nights ago, it makes me wonder if something made contact to try and help to expedite the healing process.
Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

It hit me hard when you described what happened, and before you mentioned about the later dream about the alien contact, I knew that that was what had happened to you. It sounds like you are being visited by something that wants you at the top of your game. If your abilities are still in rest mode, you seriously must have been overworking them. Take it easier on yourself and stop trying to correct everything. It will all come back to you when you need it most. If you try to overwork it, you will get "riddled with bullets". We need you here, and I have a STRONG feeling, the world needs you here. We need YOU. Not your abilities. You. Ok? Don't make me smack you around.

Originally posted by Caggy
I wear nightgowns (yah, weird, but they're comfy) and my hair is brown, but too dark to be mistaken with blonde! hahahaha

Honestly? I toss and turn WAY too much to wear anything that will get bunched up under me and cause me more discomfort than sleeping already does. LOL MAYBE a tank top. MAYBE. Always keep the jammies next to the bed. Don't want to get caught in the buff in an emergency. Anyone breaks in and want to see that? More power to them I say. LOL

Originally posted by SolarE-Souljah
Hello all. Just wanted to update my thoughts yet again.

I was still able to connect with mother earth, but sadly she told me she not feeling too well.

That's funny, in a not ha ha way. It is blowing like a tropical storm here, so much that the front door on my store broke off today. Big metal and glass door. Broke off. It is blowing like crazy out there now, pouring rain. I was outside smoking a cig (I know, I know) and was talking to Her, and said much the same thing; that She isn't doing too well right now, and/or is pretty pissed off about something.

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Something is coming, i dont know what it is but its coming.

Originally posted by Ellie Sagan
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like I'm on the edge of losing control, like I'm going to fall apart. I have been having personal problems in life and now this other thing weighs me down. I'm glad I have you all.

Oh Ellie.. this just made me want to reach out and give you a giant hug. :::::::hugs:::::: You are never alone and won't fall apart alone, ok? We are ALL here for you and I KNOW that U2U's to whoever you feel like you need to send them to will be welcome.

Reading some of the comments tonight, I got the thought in my head that now that we have found each other and are commiserating and sharing intel, SOMETHING doesn't want us to do this and is trying to weaken us. Something is trying to break us down and fill us with fear and anxiety. We just have to, as a group. continue to do what we have been doing and make an effort, at least once a week if that is all we can do, and get here and talk about what is going on. That way, we can reinforce each other's thoughts, ideas, and feelings. That way, we can remain strong as a group and as individuals. We ARE due for something big. Some or all of us will have a part to play, even if just in some small way. There is a reason we are all here. Stay strong in the knowledge that NONE of us is alone now.

Originally posted by Tragic
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I have Macdill AF Base about an hours drive south of here. ~Tragic~

I just moved to where I am from VERY near there last June. Just thought I would share.

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Can't help ya with the RH factor. B + here. Not a common blood type by any means, but not a negative either.

Originally posted by Tragic
Totally off topic here but is anyone else having issues with ATS loading like molasses? It's driving me up the wall!

~Tragic~

ATS is loading like gangbusters for me. Just can't get anything else to load quickly the past two days.

LOL Ceri, I will be weird with you any day
Oh boy, that sounded funny lol *shakes her head*

I think I'm seriously overstressed. I don't know wtf is going on but I'm shaking like I'm freezing and grinding my teeth like crazy. I can relax my body if I really focus but when in just 'normal mode' it's off the charts. I'll pay for this tensing up come morning. Yay something to look forward to.

~Tragic~

Originally posted by Ceriddwen
We are ALL here for you and I KNOW that U2U's to whoever you feel like you need to send them to will be welcome.

Absolutely!

Originally posted by SolarE-Souljah

Has there been an event in your life in which you shouldn't have survived?
I have this one, and I always think back to how I shouldn't be alive today. I was on the brink of death, yet I survived.

Do you feel you were meant to survive said event in order to fulfill some kind of purpose for this planet in the future?

-Sol

I mentioned something like this way back at the beginning here. I have had several instances. First was when I was just a couple months old. Couple in teenage years. One 21 years ago. Another one about 5 years ago. I have ALWAYS felt that there is a reason I am here right now. For a long time, I thought it was because I was supposed to give birth to, and then to raise my daughter. Now that she is an adult, and on her own, and I am still here, I now feel that while that is part of it, it is not the whole or even the majority of it. Sadly, she has a lot of growing up to do and life experience to earn before she will be a benefit to society as a whole, but she has a good heart and good potential. So what am I here for now? As I said before, there is something to do with communication, but other than that, I dunno. Guess we will all find out that answer before too long.

Originally posted by Ceriddwen

Originally posted by Ellie Sagan
reply to post by Tragic

 

like I'm on the edge of losing control, like I'm going to fall apart. I have been having personal problems in life and now this other thing weighs me down. I'm glad I have you all.

Oh Ellie.. this just made me want to reach out and give you a giant hug. :::::::hugs:::::: You are never alone and won't fall apart alone, ok? We are ALL here for you and I KNOW that U2U's to whoever you feel like you need to send them to will be welcome.

Reading some of the comments tonight, I got the thought in my head that now that we have found each other and are commiserating and sharing intel, SOMETHING doesn't want us to do this and is trying to weaken us. Something is trying to break us down and fill us with fear and anxiety. We just have to, as a group. continue to do what we have been doing and make an effort, at least once a week if that is all we can do, and get here and talk about what is going on. That way, we can reinforce each other's thoughts, ideas, and feelings. That way, we can remain strong as a group and as individuals. We ARE due for something big. Some or all of us will have a part to play, even if just in some small way. There is a reason we are all here. Stay strong in the knowledge that NONE of us is alone now.

You're on the right track Ceri. Something doesn't want us doing this, or talking about it, or trying to raise our energies. But I think they are more afraid of us than we are of them. They have absolutely no power over me, and I know they don't have power over us as a group of like-minded individuals. I'll be interested in what comes to my dreamscape tonight.

Maybe that's why I have been having such aggressive dreams the past week....I think my defense mode kicks in when these things come knocking, and every time, I have taken care of them. I've never been this busy with this much energy in waking or in sleeping life. I just wish I could make heads or tails of all of this. At least some of us have come to a consensus that it seems as if something is trying to prevent us from doing this. Maybe we should do a group meditation at some point? I know many of us are in different time zones, but if we line it up just right, we might be able to find out something useful. I can act as the ground in the chain and those of you that are less experienced with this type of meditation can at least feel secure in doing it. What does everybody think? I want answers, and if we can break through the mucky-muck (sorry, was listening to Tenacious D tonight....lol) we might be able to pull some more clues out to piece together.


Here is a list of things that we have come to a consensus about at this time.

1) We have all come to this thread because we are all feeling and experiencing the same "strange feeling" in the air.

2) Most of us are lining up personality wise through the Kersky(sp?) test.

3) The dreams of some of us are beginning to show common traits.

4) We are all experiencing the "spiritual migraines" as it were.

5) World events have been lining up, painting a very sinister picture.

6) We are all at various stages of "awakening," some more than others, but we are all experiencing it.

7) We are all connected someway, somehow, and we feel this connection. Synchronicity?

8) We feel like something is upset with us conversing on this topic and staying like "good little sheeple."

9) Dreams are becoming more intense in nature, and we seem to be "visiting" each other at night.

10) The same things that are upset with us are now trying to prevent us from achieving this higher energy flow.


Well, that's my list so far. I'm going to go to bed for now, and hit the books tomorrow morning again. There's gotta be something out there that can give more clues about what is going on.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

Originally posted by Tragic

I'm freezing and grinding my teeth like crazy.

Aw, you have been grinding your teeth too? I don't do it majorly, but sometimes I catch myself kinda gritting my teeth. Nothing too major though.

Originally posted by tk2dsky
I was thinking that I didn't have a story like that until I remembered that I also had a shaky gestational period.
My mother had an appendicitis when she was pregnant with me, and it was uncertian if I'd be born alive or not. After the surgery, she continued to have premature contractions. I was eventually born 3 weeks early, and spent time alone in an incubator. Funny thing is, that I remember being in that incubator.

Ok then, since this seems to be common, the barest of facts are that I am a DES daughter. They used to give this drug to moms who went into labor too early. Then they found out that it caused MAJOR reactions sometimes in the daughters of these women. I was born a month early in spite of this, with spina bifida occulta. Very minor case of it, only causes me problems now, and minor ones at that. Also had other issues due to it. When I was two months old, came down with a major case of something (chicken pox? German measles? I have no idea.) and almost died from that. *Did the wave thing on the beach too. *Several bouts of pneumonia as an elem. school kid that put me in the hosp. in O2 tents. *Did a back flip on the side of the pool and wound up hitting my back on the side and dropping like a stone to the bottom for a while. Knocked the breath out of me. Not sure how I recovered from that, since I was alone at the time. *Car broke down on train tracks and train was coming. Car started when train was about 100 feet away. *Car accident as a teen that put my head and neck through the windshield and knocked me out. (I was a passenger) Only got a concussion and some nerve damage in my back. *Brakes went out when my dd was 3 months old during the winter at the top of a mountain. Made it home somehow. *Rear ended by TWO cars while stopped at a light in a long line of cars five years ago, and something made me look in the rearview. Managed to pull into the median enough to avoid the car in front of me and avoid major damage. *DD was born two months early after a pregnancy that would have killed most women. Couldn't keep anything down the entire pregnancy, lost fifty pounds. Had eclampsia and was at the stroke level the day she was born. 17 hours of induced labor later, and duh, your body isn't ready to deliver. Emergency c-section followed. *Three years later, in and out of hospital as I kept getting septicemia and winding up on IV's, several surgeries later finally ending with radical hysterectomy at 25. Found out something had been left in with the c-section. The path report only said something non-organic. Too late for any lawsuits. Have to prove long-term damage. Since the accident five years ago, I have been pretty fortunate. Here's hoping the attempts on my life have ended.

Haven't added everything, just the ones sharable.

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I definitely agree with a group meditation really soon. We can discuss the timing and all that, but I think it would be a great experience for all of us.

unfortunately and right now at this moment it's so bad I keep thinking I'm going to end up cracking one or something. I'm going to shower and try to chill out. Love you all

I also agree to the group med session. I'm in. let me know the details.

[edit on 8-5-2010 by Tragic]

Originally posted by truthseeker1984
Well, in answer to Sol's question, yes.


I just wish that I could put into words the feelings and thoughts I have floating around my head, but they never come out into words as I intend them too. Some things are just too hard to explain with words...



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

[edit on 7-5-2010 by truthseeker1984]

Yep. I agree and understand completely. I don't fear death now. I used to. I am not looking for it, but when it comes, as long as I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, let it come. I know you know what I mean.

Originally posted by amyaaallan
Hi All,


I am BTW clean now for nearly 20 years

This is an AWESOME accomplishment! Congratulations! I hope you are sufficiently proud of yourself!

Not to sound condescending, but I am proud of you!