posted on Aug, 5 2014 @ 02:57 AM
a reply to:
Fr33domPoet
Hello
....interesting reply. I've been looking at this thread for a few days and trying to find the time to reply...finally, I'm getting to it.
Your point about neck and shoulder pain hit a nerve with me if you can excuse a dreadful pun. I've had these symptoms for a while and they're
getting worse. I also am aware that I have had very specific headaches in tune with certain geological activity, mostly Alaska, but this shoulder pain
doesn't seem to be connected to that. I'm also curious about what you said regarding creativity and life work...this has been a struggle for me too,
and I'm hopefully finally at the point when I can pull it all together. A bit late, I know, but that's how it works. Some of us are deeply
programmed for self sabotage, and it's a hard pattern to shift. I'm wondering if this pain and anxiety pattern is linked to that, and it does seem
to be particularly bad today when I've planned my first proper art day in years.
I've also been aware recently of feeling very much more separate from the general population. I can't stand being around large groups of people,
being in the city centre, even the wifi at home is starting to really irritate me. My sensitivity to things I used to be able to tolerate well has
increased massively. I'm forced into conversations with people, usually at work, that just make me want to scream when I see how much control people
allow. I don't want it to sound like I'm in some kind of exclusive club, but it's really like "them" and "us", them being the mass of any given
population who have their eyes glued shut, and are swallowing addictions and control mechanisms like sweeties, and us.....aware but struggling a bit,
not sure how it all fits together, or how we can make the current template function for us.
Yeah, see...I should be arting, and I'm blethering on here....