posted on Sep, 21 2022 @ 09:55 AM
Hey guys. I tell you this Monday was a weird one. Bare with me for a second while I try and explain.
Sunday I was traveling and supposed to head a bit further North than I already was, but had a disagreement with my romantic interest so decided to
return home instead. I woke up Monday still pretty bothered so went out of my way to be active and keep myself occupied. I did manage to get a ton of
stuff done and felt great about the day. The boy was at his moms house and I didn't want to stay home alone so I decided to go an AA meeting.
I have spent considerable time in AA and NA meetings, as I started going with a parent when I was still just a young child. As an adult when I found
myself in those rooms for my own benefit I was already very comfortable. It is a bit of a safe place for me regardless of any current issues with
abstention where I feel like I am among people like me. I just really didn't want to be alone and it's a free social experience that is healthy and
beneficial for me.
So I walk into the room, and it should be noted I have been in this particular room about 2 or 3 years ago. I went one time to this location for much
the same reasons, and have never been back since. I walk in and the chair of the meeting (just happens to be named Bill lol) says "hi" and is looking
at me oddly and asks if I have been there before. I comment on my way to the bathroom that I had once about 3 years ago. Another guy sitting at the
table is also looking at me weird and says "So you weren't here yesterday?". I tell him "No, I most certainly wasn't here yesterday". They both just
say "Ok, weird. There is a guy that comes here that looks just like you".
I sit down and check my phone, and was honestly wondering if these 2 guys weren't messing with me a bit trying to create some mystical experience that
would convince me to get sober or something like that. A few minutes later a woman walks in and greets a few people near the door then sits down to my
left. There is also a guy sitting already to my right.
So new lady looks my way and says "Hi Steve, Hi other guys name" (she said my actual real birth name, not Steve), I do a double take and say "How did
you know my name?" She replies "I mean, it's Steve isn't it?" I say "Yes, but how did YOU know that?" Now she is looking at me weird.
In walk 4 more people, who all say hello to me by my name, and weirded out my insistence that they shouldn't know my name. The last guy to come to the
meeting comes in, and is told by Bill to sit in the empty chair next to him. This new guy looks at Bill and says "Isn't this Steves seat?" Bill raises
his head and looks dead in my eyes and says "Yeah but he is sitting over there today for some reason".
These people truly and honestly thought that I was either messing with them, or had experienced some kind of mental break or something. It was
discussed in the open later, I explained that they had seriously freaked me out for a couple minutes. Like I started to question whether I had
actually been there the day before, whether I was experiencing some kind of break or split personality or something. It scared the absolute crap out
of me for a minute honestly.
I know for a fact I wasn't there though, I drove 18 hours over 24 and brought a table saw home with me. I spent the night at my aunts and had dinner
and breakfast with my grandma. I really don't know what to think about this.
I had intended to go back yesterday evening because everyone insisted he should be there Tuesday night, even though they were all surprised he didn't
show up Monday. I am still not 100% convinced it wasn't all a show for me, but that is also hard to believe. For one, they would have to do this for
all new people that came in, they would have to be very practiced, this would be a real clandestine operation where they found out the new guys name
when he is 10 mins early and text it to everyone else in a secret text group or something. This would have had to either be set up impossibly fast or
a constant and ongoing thing for them. I have a hard time believing all of that honestly.
So, so, so weird. I absolutely have to meet this man that goes by the same first name and apparently looks exactly like me. To the point that people
whom spend considerable time with him think I am him and don't believe when I say I am not. They really were looking at and treating me like I was
being the weird one pretending to be someone else.