A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Originally posted by Tragic
reply to post by Dredge

 

Heya Dredge, looks like we have a match here between you and I. Very interesting.

~Tragic~

Me as well you two. What is especially interesting to me is that it says that we account for only about 1 % of the entire population, and here we all are, in the same thread. Quite amazing!

Originally posted by illusioned2
Were any of you considered unusual growing up and had a hard time fitting in with other kids? ...
So was I the only weird one or were there others who had a hard time being ‘different’?

I always had other kids to play with... I was always outside, being one of the guys. Quite the tomboy. In high school (I went to two different schools.) I had several people to hang with, etc, but I accomplished that by joining tons of things. I was pres of the speech and debate club, co-cpt of the drill team, senior class secty., pres of the drama club, sang in school chorus, cmmty choir, chuch choir, worked full time and held two part time jobs as well. I got myself out there. That said, I was told constantly how weird and different I was, and by the time I was in hs, I used that as a positive thing. I always, ALWAYS, felt alone though. Didn't matter how popular I was, etc, I always felt like an outsider. I could never make that feeling go away.

Originally posted by tk2dsky
My headache is in full force tonight, but it's different than normal. It's sharp and staticy and hurting at different points in my head. I have a feeling that it's earthquake related. Hoping nothing big happens in the next 24 hours, as I have seen animals doing strange things the past coupple of days as well.

This evening, while waiting outside of work for my roommate to come pick me up, I saw a pair of white swans fly over, and then within seconds, a pair of Canadian geese fly over. It was unique in that I have never seen swans just flying around, and that geese usually fly in flocks. Plus, it was two pairs of them, both heading the same way. When I see things like this, I always thank the Goddess for her blessing me with such things. It was very unusual to see it though.

Family,

Well, I'm going to take the advice from Tragic (whether or not it was implied ) and duck out for a few days. Whether or not I'll be able to stick to that or not I don't know.

Being away from all of you is almost like being away from my family for any length of time. I find myself coming here first thing in the morning to check to see if anybody has posted anything, and I find it comforting when I do. I don't think any of you realize how important you are all to me, and how much comfort this group has brought to me the past month. I finally feel validated in all of my feelings and premonitions, and it's brought on a kind of inner peace. Thank you all for that.

Anywho, I'm going to spend a few days back in nature and see if I can't recharge my physical and spiritual batteries, and maybe spend some time meditating on it all. I urge you all to start doing the same, because right now there seems to be some sort of brief period of peace in the metaphysical, and it seems like right now is the best time to take some time to get charged up.

Hugs to all, and to all a good night.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

reply to post by acapablemind


You are most welcome here, and even if you are not yet ready to accept that you have indeed been sensitive to the coming changes, at least you found your way here. You know things are changing, you admitted that much. I hope that in your research and meditation, you come to accept that you probably belong here with us as much as the rest of us do. You found your way here for a reason, right? Blessing to you!

reply to post by truthseeker1984


TS, if feel like you need a retreat and a regrouping, then by all means, do it! You must take care of yourself before you take care of others. You know this. Might I also suggest that you are having less of a connection because you need to save up some reserves for later? Later being, when whatever is coming actually comes? I will be thinking of you especially and sending you my own healing thoughts and energies until you tell us you feel better. Understand? :::::ginormous hugs::::::

we will miss you TS! try to recharge yourself and take a lot of care. We're going to miss you a lot in the forums, but IDK, maybe we'll be in touch in other places or circumstances. The link is already set, you know.

- Cags

There are more than just Earth changes afoot. The whole solar system is changing. This link is a report by DR. ALEXEY N. DMITRIEV

www.tmgnow.com...

I have been experiencing the physical effects for 3 years now.
I have refined my diet - organic food and filtered water.
I have excluded all petrochemicals from my home environment.
I avoid people who I do not know because I can sense the distress people feel (am empath).
I have withdrawn from socialising with anyone other than family and neighbours (unavoidable). I live alone and do not work and can get all I need to survive delivered.

I do all this to try to stay sane and healthy ready for when the big change happens.
I spend my waking hours reading and webrowsing. In 3 years I have learnt a lot.

I do not fear the coming change and am looking forward to, what will effectively be, death.
When you take the time to research what life and death really are you wont be frightened either. (I long since abandoned all religion - so am not talking 'rapture' here)

I am controlling the fatigue with improved nutrition but the distrupted sleep pattern stays.
I get an overwhelming urge to sleep several times in a day. This is not narcolepsy.
My total daily sleep hours vary between 7 and 12. I always dream.

What I have noticed is that some days I struggle to stay awake for enough time to prepare meals and eat, and those days coincide with a peak in sun xray flux activity

www.swpc.noaa.gov...

I had a dream earlier you all might be interested in hearing.

I was in a barn with a group of people. We had taken shelter in there because SHTF. People were trying to barge in, but we couldn't let any more in because there were already too many people inside. Once we got that squared away, the people inside this barn were all nice and cozy with each other. It might have been all of you. Who knows.

reply to post by margaretr


Very interesting reading! Thank you for the link. I definitely seem to get headaches that coincide with this activity. I have also been noticing strange behavior in animals (birds especially suicide diving into windows), which might correlate to these changes.

Hi All,

Wow , LOTS of posts to catch up!

Well, I am an INFJ

I wanted to say that I think most of us here have stated that we have at times felt a loss of connection with our abilities, on and off and too our guides. Perhaps, with these Earth, etc.., transitions also comes transitions of our abilities?

I noticed that they come and go, same with the guides, but they are ALWAYS there when I need to work and utilize them?


So, maybe when they are down, like truth said they are re-charging, storing, working on another level, changing as well?

I think that science and spirituality can easily work together. It has been something I have worked at trying to do for a LONG time now. When I have worked with scientists it has gone well. I utilize the scientific method and motto "let the data speak....." And it sure enough does and much to my amazement great steps are being made within the ParaPsychology realm of investigation and research!

This last weekend was HARSH! For many of my friends and myself, sleeping was non-existent, feeling really whacked out My one friend stated that she was seeing and interacting with many "things" and having very vivid dreams. My other friend stated the same thing, but that she has been unable to sleep much.
I have just been on an emotional roller-coaster and not sleeping at ALL!
Other friends concur on no sleep this weekend and feeling VERY off, more so than usual.

I am a bit nervous to go back to work tmw.

I was able and told to mediate, it went really well and was focused on BREATHING!
My body is in a GREAT deal of pain, joint and such are just WOW!

As far as TOOL & A Perfect Circle, his lyrics are always very profound and very insightful! I wanted to post another set of lyrics, but will do so later.
They are two of my favorite groups due to their musical capabilities and lyrics! Same lead guy so

Um, I also wanted to ask? O.K. here it goes Um, for the women on here who are still menstruating, how is that worken for ya LOL
No REALLY, I will be serious. I have noticed within myself and all my women friends, that well, it has not been going very well for the last year with 'that time of the month',
Extreme PMS, development of PFD, endometriosis, fibroid tumors, people who were not heavy bleeders are suddenly having very bad and embarrassing situations due to extreme and sudden flows; very bad cramping and lethargic and the list could go on and on.., So, I was very curious to see if the same has been happening to any of you on here?

O.k.,as a child. I had a few neighborhood friends about 4 or 5 that I regularly hung out with. They thought I was odd, but they too would have experiences. I was just always the one who brought it up for discussion. The place where I grew up: age 0-14 was in Lakewood, Co, off 6th and Garrison St. It was and still is a VERY active location with MANY dead and 'other' things there. So, phenomena amongst us children and even the adults was fairly normal.
In my 12-14th years I became VERY involved with the supernatural insofaras trying to understand it and such. I had always had experiences and wanted the WHY!
We then moved to Bellport, N.Y.. Somehow I became a leader of a group of metal heads? I did have many friends from other groups and always seemed to be able to slip in here and there with people from all over and interests.
After a while though people became VERY afraid of me I was spooky and freaky things happened all the time around me.
Many of my friends who were into the paranormal were cool with it and we did a lot of things to try and test it.

There is a LOT more, but will save it for another time! I would say I was rather extroverted when I was younger and very outspoken about the paranormal; had a lot of 'friends' and then my tight nit circle of friends. I changed a bit in College though.

Anyways, I should TRY LOL and get some sleep! I think I am rambling?

Night,
Amy

reply to post by Ceriddwen


Ha ha how perceptive you are young padiwan! Okay, no really, though, what you said is...true. When I was about thirteen I began practicing Wicca. Through this practice my dormant mental abilities began to surface; empathy, telepathy, clairvoyance, etc. These natural abilities just blossomed and they were so intense that towards the end of my practice I generally knew what any individual would say before they spoke, I knew they how felt (far beyond intuition), I just...knew individuals. I used to have dreams about storms, events, people, things, that would come true.

However, it all scared me and as a young man I knew my peers wouldn't accept me so I dropped Wicca and I stopped listening to all the stuff speaking to me. Eventually I became a Christian and had it stuffed into my tiny brain that these things were of the devil. After all, only prophets had these abilities and I wasn't hearing from God.

Ever since I've been afraid to say it in public for fear of appearing to suffer from dimentia, auditory/optical hallucinations, or just plain nuts. I have to say I miss that connection with the universe and that it feels like I stuffed away an innocent part of myself. I haven't thought about this for years! I've always hidden behind this false ego that protected me and nurtured my actions in this case. It was okay to smother out these things because they were evil. It was a lame excuse but one I have lived by ever since.

I've since dropped Christianity. I have confused views a mile long in regards to the Bible and we could probably have an interesting discussion about the text, but as far as the religion aspect goes, I've been done for a long time now. I'm studying Buddhism and Taoism now and find a more open slate for myself and my abilities and also find a better explanation of the reality I perceive here on Earth. Of course, it goes way perception. One wouldn't just adopt new cultures and ways of living and thinking based solely on perception, however, it is a facet of my decisions. I can say just in the freedom that comes from escaping the iron grip of the Church and embracing the universe and myself, I have found so much peace. I've so long in the shadows that I find a small measure in bliss just in a ray of sunshine these days.

Birds chirping are no longer just vocal mechanics but instead are like sweet, melodious, symphony to my ears. The wind blowing gently through the finger tips of the trees, the amazing open blue sky and it's statuesque clouds that gently billow overhead. It's all so beautiful and I'm so happy to embrace it all. So yes, this post is a bit off topic but is indeed in response to your own post. I felt it necessary to finally be open and honest with everyone. I'm at a point in life where I think I can do that. So I will say it quite simply:

Yes, I am psychic. Not in any special sense, I believe it is an inherent ability, nothing I specially received. I am connected to life around me in special ways that all should experience and understand.

So there it is. My confession It's time to go to work, but I'll be sure to check back afterwards for replies. Thanks so much Cerridwen, you've helped me with a very profound piece of myself. Oh, and that is a beautiful name by the way!

Sincerely,
--capablemind

Hi amyaaallan,

I look forward to your lyrics .

Also, I am obviously not a female, but just FYI: The last several years my girlfriend has had many issues with cysts and other issues. Sunday I had to take her to the ER and they actually found 7 this time. The doctors blamed it originally on her IUD birth control, but she's been off that for a while so not sure at this point.She is also very lethargic at times and sleeps a lot. She has a lot of stress in her life though so that may be a factor? I am not sure.

acapablemind,

I'm right there with you on the whole nature thing. I find peace in the sky. Looking up at it I feel like I could just take off. I love being outside. I actually went and bought a motorcycle this year; just the idea of that sense of freedom helps tremendously.

Originally posted by Bicent76
in order for us to be intelligent being we have to embrace the feeling that go along with it.. That is what hurts me the most I suppose.. It hurts sometimes... Makes me feel very alone..

Good insight here, Bicent! Being human sure isn't all sunshine and roses, but I don't think it was intended to be. And I think your use of the word "embrace" is key. Not fight the unpleasant stuff because it's unpleasant, but integrate and accept it. Thank you for being alone together with us.

Originally posted by acapablemind
In light of that, I would propose my theory thus far: There exists in life (life being summarized as all creation; earth, our solar system, our universe, and all other universes and all therein) a unification. Every one thing affects another and everything is connected. When one compares significant religious texts with an unbiased eye I would assume they can surmise this much from the underlying dialogue they all possess (which seems to say the same thing). Anyways, I believe due to our indifference to our home (being Earth) we have in a way inflicted a wound on ourselves that has been festering for so long, infection is setting in. It is my personal belief that we are living in the calm before the proverbial storm.

Yes! I was talking about this to a friend the other day. About how everything seems to be connected and acting otherwise (and treating our lovely earth so badly) is unnatural, and making us sick. You put it much better than I did, though. Thank you and welcome. Your username suits you quite well.

Originally posted by Ellie Sagan
Then I faintly heard music of drums and bells. Pounding, tribal drums and like little jingle bells. The rhythm was insanely pleasant and mesmerizing.

Ellie, that sounds beautiful! I wish I could hear them too!

I'm off work and tending a sick dog so I'll prolly be on here a lot today. I have some catching up to do.


Have a great day, everyone!

Just wanted to reply that the last few days (especially the last two) my 10 year old son keeps saying, "I have a really strange feeling...as if I'm really afraid that something bad is going to happen, and I've been having strange dreams."

I do not talk about these things with him, except how to manage his empathy(which he is really strong).

reply to post by tk2dsky


I value what the children say immensely. They are so open and genuine with what they feel and think. Does your son say what any of his dreams are? I wonder if there is some insight there. As a parent, I know that kids say some spooky things that can only be from the spirit. I don't mean spooky in a bad way though.

reply to post by acapablemind


You could never say anything to me about "other" gifts that I ,and indeed, most of us here, wouldn't just accept. I am an empath, so I truly understand. I have walked a long, meandering path towards what I practice faith wise. I did the year and a day Wicca study, but ritual for the sake of ritual is not for me. I was part of the church my whole life, but that never fit for me. Again, ritual, history book being touted as fact, etc, just didn't work. Studied very very basics of buddhism and taoism, but again, wasn't right for me. Decided to take what did feel right from everything I have studied and make my own way.

The name, of course, is an alias, but holds very special meaning for me. At the start of my non-christian path, I reached out to Spirit for a mentor, and the name that came to me was Ceridwen. She is the Welsh Goddess of Birth and Destruction. She was the "mother" of Taliesin. She created the Cauldron of Inspiration. For me, that all fit, and she and I became connected. I changed the name to fit me, and reflect her.

I have since come to the decision that She is an aspect of the whole, but is still one I really relate to. I talk to the Goddess, and rarely call her by name. "She" knows what I mean when I speak to her. I think that if you have a source to call upon, whether that is the Universal All, Collective Consciousness, Goddess, God, Buddha, Allah, whatever, (I believe they are all the same thing.), then you are much more powerful than you would be all alone out there. Then, when you throw into the mix an incredible group of "family" like we have made here, the connection becomes exponential!

I am very happy you are here with us now, since I think you will be around for a while.

Originally posted by tk2dsky
Just wanted to reply that the last few days (especially the last two) my 10 year old son keeps saying, "I have a really strange feeling...as if I'm really afraid that something bad is going to happen, and I've been having strange dreams."

I do not talk about these things with him, except how to manage his empathy(which he is really strong).

For a youngster, ANY major change is going to feel bad, and going to be scary. If you feel that what is coming is not going to be like that, then share with him how you feel. Strange dreams do not necessarily equate with scary, ya know? Good luck and how lucky you are to have a perceptive son!

Hi everyone. I hope you're all doing well today. I can't believe I was just here about 12 hours ago and there is so much to catch up on yet again! I love it.

I miss TS along with a few others who have either been reading silently or gone off on their own for a bit. I hope they all come back and soon.

Anyhow, I was so scattered last night that I logged off and spent hours trying to focus and meditate. It was difficult for me, as though there was an invisible barrier that I just couldn't break through. It was almost tangible though. It reminded me of a spider's silk, flexible yet so strong. When I gave up I was beyond exhausted. I've never been so tired and lifeless after meditating. I don't know what was going on. I really hope you all had better luck than I.

Ok disclaimer here; If you don't want to hear about periods stop reading until you see bold print.
My periods for the past 2 years or so have been out of control. Ever since I started menstrating, I would have 3 moderate days and then 2 very very light and then that's the end. Since that round about 2 year mark, it's been terrible. I will start out heavy, heavy to the point of I'm afraid to leave the house because I don't know when it's going to 'gush' and ruin my clothes or a seat. then it goes to moderate with heavy flashes and no warnings inbetween. then it stops, yes that's right. it stops for about 24 hours and then starts again for 3 more days of light and it's over. So, all in all my period is now going for about 10 days from start to finish. Horrible cramping to the point I am literally in tears curled up with a heating pad and my blanket. I don't have any cysts that I am aware of. My friend of 15 years though just found out she has 3 of them . it seems these things are becoming more and more "normal". Not to mention the irrational crying fits and feeling just so terrible. My mother in law's periods were so out of control (constant meaning every day, every hour, every minute and dr. really couldn't find a whole lot wrong with her other than it wouldn't stop) she had a hysterectomy(sp) last year. It makes no sense to me.

Ok all done with period talk!

With what others were saying about people becoming ill. It's strange this was brought up. I was just saying to my husband that illnesses are getting worse as the days tick by. they are going faster and out of nowhere. what the hell is going on? He said "Oh, they were around before just not diagnosed." I came back with a simple "I find it hard to believe that the statistics of people (or even animals now) with cancer has always been at these highs." He dropped it but I'm so glad I'm not the only one who has noticed this craze.

So, Amy, you are another idealist councelor? That makes me, Dredge, Ceri & Amy? We're supposed to be 1% of the population. *blinks*

Oh and just so random but Caggy lol I about died when I read the nickname Cags. I don't know why it struck me as so funny but I love it. From now on, you're Cags hehe.

Margaretr - Hi there. I agree that there is more to the changes than just what is occuring on Earth. But I feel as though I'm going to have to disagree with you on the needing to seperate yourself from everyone. I personally don't want to be around a bunch of people who are seemingly blind. But on the other hand I just can't turn my back and let them walk off the cliff so to speak. Ya know? Now, I'm not about to go around preaching the sky is falling but if someone seems confused and needs to discuss. I will not deny anyone that.

Eternal
~Tragic~



[edit on 5-5-2010 by Tragic]

Originally posted by Tragic


So, Amy, you are another idealist councelor? That makes me, Dredge, Ceri & Amy? We're supposed to be 1% of the population. *blinks*

And Phoenix_Zephyr and myself, both INFJ...I'm interested to see what RadioKnecht comes up with!