A Strange Feeling as of Late...

for me is easier... i also feel that this is not my home... but i feel that something called like that is not too so far away, it's on Earth at least.
And I'm working hard to go there and confirm is that's my home or not... I mentioned in another post that I have a strong connection with UK, since forever i've felt that there's my real home, not here. Maybe in other life...
and that song is lovely T_T

Tragic, I appreciate the support.. I have started to feel better, I am not sure if I can relate to all the posters on this thread, yet I have not felt weird like this in awhile.. Almost like I am worried about something that is not there... I have always been sensitive to the world, I am so friendly to people that perhaps they dislike me for it.. I care about people sometimes that think perhaps that is weird.. I see the world in a very strange way I suppose to most.. I tend to look at men and women, in a sad form when I see them act as ignorant people.. Most times people seem to foley themselves towards the easiest answers in life whether they be the right ones or the wrong ones.. Its harder to try to learn the difference from right and wrong, then just following the common interest.. Until we force ourselves to look at the truth in life, we shall remain, on the side of in, that is seen as a form of complexity, in order for us to be intelligent being we have to embrace the feeling that go along with it.. That is what hurts me the most I suppose.. It hurts sometimes... Makes me feel very alone..

My first thought when reading this thread was simple: everyone relates in this social hypochondria where every story fuels the next like bad auto suggestion. Which may be the case. We have to face the fact that here on ATS many a member is guilty of being swept up into some sort of fantasy (well, those of us not as well grounded in reality as others) at some point or another. With all the amazing topics, it is inevitable.

I do not claim to be any energy worker or psychic. I don't know whether I'm 'sensitive' to anything but I do know that individuals (most anyways) are raised in societies. Things like sociology, cultural anthropology, psychology, etc all provide valid answers for our questions. When there's a shift in society, a ripple in the pond, everyone feels it. There's a lot of change happening today globally and the world is feeling the effects.

However, for a more esoteric answer I would say this:

Yes, I have felt differently. Abnormal sleeping patterns (can't sleep at all or sleep for extended hours at a time [10-12hrs]), nausea, aches and pains in my legs, drowsiness, irritability, weight loss. These are all physical symptoms and ones that I would have a physician diagnose rather than attribute to some cosmic shift. But, in better response to your OP, things feel very different. It seems as though we as a planet are on the cusp of something. It's as though something is coming with the rise of the sun. I can feel it in every breeze and every blue sky. It's like this stirring somewhere in my soul, this...well, feeling. Feelings aren't very objective imo, but they must be accounted for either way. I've been studying a lot of eastern texts from two religions; Buddhism and Taoism. I've also taken up meditation again and begun to understand things like consciousness, etc. Quantum Mind Theory, physics, eastern philosophy, all point at this universal unity (well, QMT excluded). I would think the same premise (see above, "ripple effect") our social sciences infer in regards to society are logical enough to us, then it wouldn't be illogical to assume they apply to us on a universal scale.

Nothing really empirical to back up that theory but it is what it is. I believe it isn't too illogical to believe that we as members of a global community would recognize a change in the globe. I also believe that on a spiritual level it wouldn't be too far fetched to assume the same logic. Couldn't tell you what it is or when, but if you asked do I think something is shifting? Absolutely. I suppose at this point there isn't much for us to do but speculate anyways.

--capablemind

Originally posted by acapablemind
My first thought when reading this thread was simple: everyone relates in this social hypochondria where every story fuels the next like bad auto suggestion. Which may be the case. We have to face the fact that here on ATS many a member is guilty of being swept up into some sort of fantasy (well, those of us not as well grounded in reality as others) at some point or another. With all the amazing topics, it is inevitable.

I do not claim to be any energy worker or psychic. I don't know whether I'm 'sensitive' to anything but I do know that individuals (most anyways) are raised in societies. Things like sociology, cultural anthropology, psychology, etc all provide valid answers for our questions. When there's a shift in society, a ripple in the pond, everyone feels it. There's a lot of change happening today globally and the world is feeling the effects.

However, for a more esoteric answer I would say this:

Yes, I have felt differently. Abnormal sleeping patterns (can't sleep at all or sleep for extended hours at a time [10-12hrs]), nausea, aches and pains in my legs, drowsiness, irritability, weight loss. These are all physical symptoms and ones that I would have a physician diagnose rather than attribute to some cosmic shift. But, in better response to your OP, things feel very different. It seems as though we as a planet are on the cusp of something. It's as though something is coming with the rise of the sun. I can feel it in every breeze and every blue sky. It's like this stirring somewhere in my soul, this...well, feeling. Feelings aren't very objective imo, but they must be accounted for either way. I've been studying a lot of eastern texts from two religions; Buddhism and Taoism. I've also taken up meditation again and begun to understand things like consciousness, etc. Quantum Mind Theory, physics, eastern philosophy, all point at this universal unity (well, QMT excluded). I would think the same premise (see above, "ripple effect") our social sciences infer in regards to society are logical enough to us, then it wouldn't be illogical to assume they apply to us on a universal scale.

Nothing really empirical to back up that theory but it is what it is. I believe it isn't too illogical to believe that we as members of a global community would recognize a change in the globe. I also believe that on a spiritual level it wouldn't be too far fetched to assume the same logic. Couldn't tell you what it is or when, but if you asked do I think something is shifting? Absolutely. I suppose at this point there isn't much for us to do but speculate anyways.

--capablemind

Thank you for posting my friend. I absolutely agree with your first paragraph, as it seems like more and more everyday, there is a thread that starts something like this: "I can see the future OMFG!!!" or "I AM ET AND I HAVE A MESSAGE" you get the point. I can assure you that I am not some angsty teenager posting to get attention. I have my feet firmly planted on the ground with my head staring at the stars. I get a feeling, however, that each and every person that has posted in here is being genuine. And yes, I "claim" to be an energy worker, which I am. I am a "sensitive" as I think "psychic" is a dirty term and I hate it. I'm not trying to dupe or bulls*** people, as I have seen in other threads. But I'm going to calm down now, because I'm going to believe the fact that you were just making an observations about those types of threads and not attacking us personally.

You do not have to be a "sensitive" to realize that something is going on in the world. The ripples can be felt in many levels of day to day life. And I'm glad that you are feeling them.

It seems to me that your "logical brain" is really interfering with your "sensitive brain." You may think you are crazy by thinking grandiose thoughts, with no hard evidence, but I'm sure all of us here can attest to the fact that sometimes you just have to throw logic away and realize that there are bigger things out there than what science can prove. And I hate science, because it is just the evil twin brother of religion, which I hate just as much.

Anyway, I'm rambling. Thank you for posting your point of view, because, like I have said to other posters, all angles are appreciated, because every piece of data gets us one step closer to the truth.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

reply to post by illusioned2


That sounds almost exactly like me. The difference being that I was an outgoing kid sometimes but sometimes quiet and reserved. I think kids making fun of me is what kind of got me to be more reserved. I would be friendly to anyone, and liked to talk, but I would say things that were out of place or what some people thought was odd, they'd look at me funny or actually make fun of me. I was bullied a bit and that made me withdraw I think. I wore odd mixes of clothes and sometimes jewelry that I thought looked good, but people made fun of me for that too. To this day, I wear what I think will look normal, instead of the kind of clothes I would like to wear, sad, I know. Well, back to what you said, I too found solace in music in junior high, but I was obsessed with Adam Ant and Menudo *chuckle*, so there was not a group that I fit into yet. In 9th grade though is when I started liking heavy metal/rock music (in our school we were the "metal heads"). Then I found a niche. It is true that that group seemed more accepting and I could wear my odd clothes and stuff, and fix my hair crazy and they actually thought it was cool. So I was happy, but unfortunately it led me to drinking. I still struggle with drinking too much to this day. I am amazed I'm alive still. I used to get myself into some bad situations as a result of my lifestyle, back then in high school and for part of my adult life. I mostly got it under control now though... FINALLY!

So to conclude this: I can totally relate to what you posted.

[edit on 4-5-2010 by Ellie Sagan]

reply to post by Ellie Sagan


Ellie, I believe we all have our vices one way or another. I'm proud of you for getting a handle on yours, as you should be as well. As far as how you dress and express yourself.... Honey, I say if you want to wear say polka dots with animal print, do it. Let people stare and do what they do and just know that you are happy. I find it sad that others have nothing better to do than to point their fingers and whisper. I HATE that. The way I explain it to my kids goes like this. Do you like how this looks? yes? Does this make you feel happy? yes? Does this harm anyone else? no? ok. Do you like being true to yourself? Then by all means as long as your personal areas are covered, wear whatever makes you happy. Sing whatever song as loud as you wish. As long as you aren't harming anyone else then don't worry what other's think. Who are they to make your choices? You just be YOU and thrive in that.

I hope this didn't go too far off topic and into a rant. I just detest what people can do to others without so much as a bat of an eyelash. Just grrrr.

Sorry heh
~Tragic~

Don't know why, but I keep wanting to post in here. Anyway, last night many strange dreams were had. Woke up a lot and never really slept well at all. Not really tired this morning, but it does happen frequently it seems.

reply to post by truthseeker1984

Originally posted by truthseeker1984

Thank you for posting my friend. I absolutely agree with your first paragraph, as it seems like more and more everyday, there is a thread that starts something like this: "I can see the future OMFG!!!" or "I AM ET AND I HAVE A MESSAGE" you get the point. I can assure you that I am not some angsty teenager posting to get attention. I have my feet firmly planted on the ground with my head staring at the stars. I get a feeling, however, that each and every person that has posted in here is being genuine. And yes, I "claim" to be an energy worker, which I am. I am a "sensitive" as I think "psychic" is a dirty term and I hate it. I'm not trying to dupe or bulls*** people, as I have seen in other threads. But I'm going to calm down now, because I'm going to believe the fact that you were just making an observations about those types of threads and not attacking us personally.

I absolutely believe what you told me. Obviously, there's so much about life we don't understand that it is my opinion it would be foolish to rule just about anything out without some sort of experimentation process. Secondly, if you chose to relay this information, these experiences you are having, then I will assume you are telling the truth until told otherwise. There is no reason for me to distrust you. So, you are correct, my previous dialogue is only observations.

Originally posted by truthseeker1984

You do not have to be a "sensitive" to realize that something is going on in the world. The ripples can be felt in many levels of day to day life. And I'm glad that you are feeling them.

I absolutely agree and this was my point. Perhaps all the pseudo-intelligent rhetoric is unnecessary in this case. Thank you for reiterating my point.

Originally posted by truthseeker1984

It seems to me that your "logical brain" is really interfering with your "sensitive brain." You may think you are crazy by thinking grandiose thoughts, with no hard evidence, but I'm sure all of us here can attest to the fact that sometimes you just have to throw logic away and realize that there are bigger things out there than what science can prove. And I hate science, because it is just the evil twin brother of religion, which I hate just as much.

I think you may have a point here. I think that the logical half of me says all these 'feelings' are really just effects of a larger societal cause and there is no impending cosmic shift. However, that conscious side of me, the one above and beyond logic, rhetoric, etc tells me there is or was a change in the architecture of what we know. I have no way of proving this of course and it remains my opinion because of this. I unfortunately cannot agree about the science. While I believe institutionalized science in academia is brain washing our country (US) with Darwinian science and developing an oligarchical 'religious' stranglehold on education, science is a beautiful tool we use to understand the world around us and as such, is part of that world as well.

Peace be with you as well.

--capablemind

reply to post by Dredge


Same here, but I'm so exhausted at this point that I'm trying not to sit for too long. If I do I'm sure to just collapse and give in to sleep. I wish it was acceptable to just sleep during the day and be a night owl as my body is telling me to. Argh! I had a dream last night that we had all gotten together and were sleeping on the floor of what seemed to be a gigantic banquet hall lol. I was happy and tranquil in my dream though. I know it's weird but what else is new.

Ok time for me to get up again and move about before I give up and go under.

~Tragic~

reply to post by acapablemind


Here's how I see it;
I have tried most of my life to use logical thinking and scientifically explain things. This (as even though I do understand where you are coming from) with how society is and all that is going on just doesn't seem the same as it has in the past in such occurances. So, I have given on on trying to be "logical" about it. There isn't an answer that explains ALL of it.

To be quite honest your post to begin with made me feel almost threatened. I'm sure you didn't mean it that way but that's how it comes across to me. Now, I have considered the fact that since you are disagreeing with everyone here to a degree, maybe that was the factor that made me react as such. I am going to keep telling myself that for now until I see otherwise.

Here we are just regular people experiencing strange things. We are coming here to share and understand each other. I think we all have at one point in time stated "ok, this is crazy but..." I believe there are a lot of things that are beyond 'rational' explanation (I guess that's depending on what your view of rational is). I don't mean for this post to come off as being territorial as I'm sure it might be. But I would like for the open-minded enviroment to continue here. I have nothing against some debate but I don't want anyone (myself included) to start to feel as though this is no longer a 'safe haven', so to speak.

If I have taken anything or everything out of context, I apologize. Forgive me, I feel very protective over everyone here who has been brave enough to come forward and be a little nutty in society's eyes.

~Tragic~

reply to post by acapablemind

While I believe institutionalized science in academia is brain washing our country (US) with Darwinian science and developing an oligarchical 'religious' stranglehold on education, science is a beautiful tool we use to understand the world around us and as such, is part of that world as well.

I think I wasn't exactly clear in my claim of "hating science." I hate what it has become, because of the thing that you have said. Science can be a very beautiful and useful tool, when in the correct hands. I think we are even practicing a branch of science through empirical means, when all of these wonderful and brave people have come together to talk about something happening to each and every one of them. Is it a coincidence that we are all having the same experiences? Well, empirical data says no, as far as I am concerned. I just wish that topics like this weren't relegated to the realm of pseudo-science and there were still scientists out there interested in uncovering true knowledge instead of calling us crazies or mental patients (or playing toward a political agenda). You are right. There aren't explanations for everything, and maybe eventually, science will catch up to the "science" that we know as spirituality.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

reply to post by Tragic


Thank you for the encouragement Tragic. I know you are right, but I just seem to let people's opinions about how I look bother me too much. I really want that to change and hopefully it will now that I'm taking care of myself more now. And thank you for the encouragement about my taking care not to destroy my body anymore too. x

reply to post by Dredge


My dreams are so many and so interesting that I stopped writing them in my dream journal. I woke this morning totally dead in the body, but I was thinking to myself, "this is not my body," and "why am I here?" I know what you mean about posting here. I always want to talk to you guys too. hehe

Today something weird happened to me. We were driving along at a little after noon, on our way to see a loved one in the hospital. I was in a fair mood, not good and not bad. Then I faintly heard music of drums and bells. Pounding, tribal drums and like little jingle bells. The rhythm was insanely pleasant and mesmerizing. I started to tear up and wanted to bust out laughing at the same time. I stifled it and looked out the window at the river we were driving over at the moment and the trees on the hill next to it. I just kept grinning and trying not to cry or laugh, then I felt like gagging. I felt like something was caught in my throat that I couldn't swallow or cough up (and I did try both many times). I thought I was going to vomit, yet still wanting to laugh and cry. It was very strange and it all started with the music I heard. It was not outside or in the truck, it was in the spirit or in my head, that sort of thing. I still feel so happy when I think about the music, I do remember it.

Because the mechanics of quoting multiple people or responding to multiple people are a bit beyond my skills I will just do it the lazy way and type my response to each person without the proper 'in regards to Mr./Mrs. X's post(s) and or paragraph(s)' darker gray boxes.

Tragic-

Forgive me but I seem to have forgotten your screen name in my attempt to describe my inability with quoting/replying. If this isn't your screen name I apologize! In regards to your post I apologize if I seemed confrontational in responses to this thread. I in no way meant any disrespect or speak from a 'debunking' nature. I believe completely that science cannot explain all things. Science is a natural tool meant for measuring and calculating natural phenomena. Thus, as it exists now, science is not capable of measuring super-natural phenomena. My train of thought and or beliefs is completely congruent with your own in this aspect. I have never been an extremely logic driven individual and it is only lately that in my studies I'm conducting have I found the want to totally rule out any and all possibilities not parallel with the truth that I am so fervently seeking.

So again, I in no way meant to threaten the discussion or the thread, I am in support of said thread, not against.

Truthseeker-

I suppose the same answer could be given to you as well

There is most obviously a change in the atmosphere that is reality and deciphering what it is I think credits a bit of skepticism. In no way did I intend to derail any facet of the previous dialogue. But yes, science has become a bureaucratic endeavor these days (rather than science's original purpose of curious exploration of all possibilities of life) and as such is subject to much political sway as it were. So again, I wish to be a part of the conversation and not a hindrance.

In light of that, I would propose my theory thus far: There exists in life (life being summarized as all creation; earth, our solar system, our universe, and all other universes and all therein) a unification. Every one thing affects another and everything is connected. When one compares significant religious texts with an unbiased eye I would assume they can surmise this much from the underlying dialogue they all possess (which seems to say the same thing). Anyways, I believe due to our indifference to our home (being Earth) we have in a way inflicted a wound on ourselves that has been festering for so long, infection is setting in. It is my personal belief that we are living in the calm before the proverbial storm.

I liken this theory to "Avatar" the recent motion picture. We have this beautiful, amazing planet that we have exploited and abused for so long that the consequences are now inevitable. How this is compatible with the idea of universal energy and how this said energy is affected by our actions is beyond my understanding at this particular time. However, in my studies (and near conversion at this moment) of eastern texts such as Buddhism and Taoism and in comparison with new age practices like astral projection, I have come to understand that there is a balance to this energy. We are suffering or will suffer the consequences of upsetting this balance. And that is as much as I can surmise from what I have learned.

Whether I am right or wrong, I cannot know. I cannot predict the future. I don't tell you all this because I think I'm right but instead to assure you that I indeed believe in the conversation here and wholly support it. Thanks so much for your time and I appreciate being allowed to post in this thread Truthseeker!

Sincerely,
--capablemind

I have Strong ESP, Clairvoyance, Super Empathy etc... Im an Energy detector. I do prettymuch the exsact same stuff that you do Truthseeker, i am often refered to as a Priestess. About a year ago i went through a type o sepparation w/ my abilities, its like they became strained or dulled, it was due to medications that i had been on for more than 10yrs, i finally got off of them. One for Depression, the other for insomnia, i thought i would never be free of them, but thanks to a few 'entities' i was able to finally end the pills all together and realized once their toxins left me completely, i never needed them to begin w/, it was just stupid doctors and drug-companies wanting to supress nature, make you fill yourself w/ unnatural chemicals to deaden normal natural emotions and gifts. These 'medications' made things worse, they raised colesterol, caused unhealthy weightgain, and a bunck of other problems that impacted my life far more than insomnia or depression ever had.

When i realised i had to get off the pills for good, i quite them eventhough the doctors said i would never get off of them and i should stay on hem for life. They were wrong, and now my ESP and other abilities are stronger and more sensitive, and during the month of November 2009 i started having weird expiriences. Then in a week or so before the Earthquake in Haiti i started feeling tremendous Evil, and then two weeks after the Earthquake, it became amplified and downright unbearible, i developed a ringing and buzzing noise in my head that nearly drove me to the brink, i had a severe inner ear infection aswell and even after that cleared the righing got worse, and the Evil vibration were actually making me sick. I was highly tempermental, i snapped at everyone but couldnt tell them what was wrong. So many evil things have been declared as right and good recently, and good things are now declared as evil. When thing get turned the wrong way it creates imbalance and huge upset, reality begins to fall apart. Bad energy manifests from this and becomes our worste nightmare.

For about 10 to 12 weeks (in the recent past), portals that had been sealed for hundreds and even thousands of years suddenly opened. Good energy was dormant, and evil and negativity became highly active and had the world in a vice-grip. It was a type of phase, a cycle. But Eversince 2000 the reality has begun to shift. w/ each new year we move up another level until 2012 or 13 which will be the final level into transcendance. I heard somewhere that spiritual density is changing, going up stronger. and this indeed is true. Ive been predicting this kind of thing since 1999, when my abilities grew and i accepted them instead of supressing them to avoid being ridiculed and persecuted by the Christian community. When i was 13, i realised that THEY were wrong, and only ignorant and envious of what i had. And now recently in 2010, ive been feeling so many energies and vibrations that its almost overwhelming. THe reality is, that we are becoming spiritually more aware and strengthened. Even people who thought they had no psychic abilities are having realizations. Its very simple. Something is coming. And we are being prepared for it.

Ok,

I mentioned earlier that I had a few messed up dreams last night. I wrote up a post to describe them and then didn't post it, because I didn't want to derail anyone else's conversations. But it's been in my head all day so here is what I typed up earlier:

There were a few dreams, but the last one was just plain WEIRD. I don't remember much, but it was like I was in a dark room with some people around me. There was a pillar in the room with someone sitting lotus style and facing away from me. A light was shining on him. And strangely I knew it was the singer from the band Tool sitting there (I assume because I was revisiting older bands I liked earlier in the night lol). Well I look down and I am holding an old looking, wooden board with seven words on it. Then I felt like someone was pushing on both my temples from behind and chanting something into my ears. I distinctly remember thinking they were downloading info into me (thanks ATS lol). I then look back at the words and the only one I remember is Skism (assuming Schism the song by Tool) and at that exact same time I hear that word spoken in my mind as I read it, but it wasn't my voice. I woke up and both temples felt like someone had been pressing on them for some time. Like I said, it was weird.

Now the reason I came back here to post is I have not listened to that particular song in a long time. So I went and watched the video. Needless to say the lyrics resonated with me very strongly:

"
I know the pieces fit 'cause I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smoldering. Fundamental differing.
Pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us
So
We cannot seem to reach an end crippling our communication.

I know the pieces fit 'cause I watched them tumble down
No fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to
Point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication

The poetry that comes from the squaring off between,
And the circling is worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.

There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall
Away.
Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting
I've done the math enough to know the dangers of our second
Guessing
Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our
Communication.

Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion

Between supposed lovers. (x2)

I know the pieces fit. (x8)"

Now I'm not saying that Tool attacked me in my dreams or anything ridiculous like that (I'm not a complete nutter lol). Mainly I wanted to see if these lyrics stand out to anyone else the way they did me.

reply to post by Dredge


Sorry for my man posts! I have don't work today so I'm reading and posting all over ATS.

But just thought I would throw this out there in regards to your dream Dredge. Schism in religious terms refers to the separation of two organizational entities. Like two sects dividing from a once common sect. Don't know if there's any relevance there for you, but again, just throwing it out there for you.

Sincerely,
--capablemind

reply to post by acapablemind


Hi acapablemind,

Yeah that was one of the reasons I threw it in here. The depth of the lyrics of the song are amazing. Why that of all things popped into my head last night, I don't know. I really don't have any issues with religion. I believe what I believe until I find a reason to change it.

And in regards to your post, I agree. A lot of damage has been done to the earth. Time will tell how that is resolved...

[edit on 4-5-2010 by Dredge]

reply to post by acapablemind


I am happy that you posted. In your first post I thought you were bashing until I continued reading. I see that you are indeed one of us. You speak so eloquently and I think that you are right about us needing to suffer the consequences of treating our world so indifferently to say the least. I also agree with you that we are all connected. The feeling/knowledge of that is a little disconcerting to me. I have done/said/thought some things that I am not proud of, and the idea that others are totally effected (affected?) by that really makes me pause. I can only take comfort in the fact that I am now on the right path I think. Well anyway, thanks for joining us. *shy smile*