The Waiting Game: Do You Feel It?

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EXACTLY!!!!
There has got to be more.

reply to post by itsthetooth


I am currently freeing my self of anxiety meds as after 10 years
I feel nothing. no love or hate no excitement just nothing.

Be careful with meds!!!

I'm not waiting on a single thing in this life, just enjoying it.

reply to post by Xtrozero


More people should feel as you. I just know with some of my personal experiences growing up, finding out the "why" has always been a big thing with me.

I think everyone's situation is different depending upon if they had a life changing experience. Whether expeiencing a paranormal event, witnessing a sighting of something that just doesn't jell with reality, being subject to physical or verbal abuse, being a victim of crime or having a near death experience, sometimes just triggers a switch that makes you want to question our very existance or our purpose in life.

reply to post by IceHappy


What do you mean not up to my standards. I have no standards that you need to meet. You are your own person and it seems to me a strong survivor type. I am sorry for your hard life. I was abused too. Not sexually but physically and I still bare the scars. You have done much to elevate yourself so I am confused as I did not lay out any sort of standards. I see you added me as a foe. I am sorry you feel you need to defend yourself against me. Since I have been physically abused I myself have become quite meek. I am small. 5'2" and I weigh 113 lbs. I am 56 years old. Hardly one to be a threat to anyone and I would never want to be. I said that it seems that there are a lot of people suffering in this thread and maybe there is a way for them to feel better. I want people to feel better not worse. Anyway be at peace brother.

I've always felt that I was put here to do something , I don't know what it is but I constantly get frustrated at times out of no where because I do not know what it is that I need to do. Could it be that we are all allowing corruption and the destruction of our earth? Are we all indigos?

Originally posted by smyleegrl
Hello, ATS.

All my life I've had this feeling of.....waiting. For what? I do not know. I only know that it feels as if something's out there, and I'm at the mercy of its timeline.

I wish I could describe this waiting sensation better, but I don't know that I can.

So I go through my daily routine, waiting for this....something.....and all the while life passes by.

Is it a distraction? Or is my lifestyle distracting me from discovering what I'm waiting for?

I'm 38 years old, I feel like I'm 18, and yet my life is halfway over in all likelihood. And the waiting continues, on and on.

Do you feel it? Have you discovered what you're waiting for? Or, like me, do you still wait?

Any and all replies welcomed.

I guess that's the feeling.

I'm about your age. I am constantly feeling something - I always thought it was that I could've always done something more with my life. something meaningful. Something significant. I mean, really contribute to humanity.

What a waste. *sigh*

I guess all I can do is try to enjoy (I'm doing a pretty good job of it) my life as best as possible.

I'm a little surprised this line hasn't been quoted yet, so I will be the one to post the obligatory Hopi prophecy reference; (take it easy now, I'm just throwing things against the wall to see what sticks).

"We are the one's we've been waiting for."

And this waiting is the residual reverberations from what is at this very moment happening. From what has already happened, and also simultaneously yet to happen. The 'moment of truth'. It's more pronounced now because we're closer to it and it looms over us from a shorter distance in space, time and understanding; a re-cogntion, by eventual degrees.

Yes, there is a feeling of waiting like there is something more around the corner; all the while though and even in the unfolding of this thread, we are moving towards it and changing. Even physically speaking in large part cells in your body are different than the ones that made you up 7 years ago, aside from neurons in the brain and some others.

Nothing much original in terms of ideas i realize, it has all been said before. Is it just another case of history repeating? Is history the nightmare from which we will awaken? And like 1984, just who's history has claim over what constitutes consensus reality anyways? Maybe that is part of the battle. What frame of reference are we using. He who controls the flow of information is able to define history, and there are reasons why the flow of energy and information is being suppressed. Why wouldn't we want free energy or free information? Because how can you make a profit off of that? But once we have survival locked up, then what is the purpose or meaning of life? And at what cost to the rest of us is this profit made by the few?

What happens to those who wake up one day and realize they have been living just to die all along? When they realize all that money they've greedily accumulated for so long is really just numbers on a screen or pieces of paper? Would be a rude awakening I'd imagine, but then again maybe part of the process towards understanding the true value of life.

In my opinion of course.

More philosophical flim flam courtesy of Runciter, haha.

reply to post by smyleegrl

As we become more and more privy to the universe and it's happenings, our chances of finding some sort of purpose to humanity is dwindling. We're not waiting for something to happen, we're waiting for the coming realization that nothing will ever happen, not unless we ourselves achieve it.

The time for waiting is coming to an end; one can only wait for nothing for so long before he realizes this error, and finally starts operating as a completely sovereign individual absent of these irrational fears.

Originally posted by itsthetooth
reply to post by smyleegrl

 

I think I understand what your going through. There are however many different things that it could be. Perhaps your having an issue with employment, like most people are right now, and as a result are suffering from capitalism. Perhaps your single and never been married, or don't have any kids, it could be your biological clock ticking telling you that you need to get these things in motion.

I read an article that wrote about how there seems to be a part of the human brain that is able to have pre-thoughts about major things that are going to happen, and its the real deal. There is so much we don't know about the brain and I believe the akasha files are very real. You could just be suffering from anxiety as well. The recent changes to the economy and how it affects each and every person is enough to cause anxiety for anyone.

If you give enough thought about it, there is a good chance you can figure it out, if not you might have to go get some anxiety meds. Never feel defeated just because you might have to take meds, this is a messed up world we live in, and medication is a hell of a lot better than the effects you might have to deal with.

I don't feel defeated at all.

I'm a teacher, love my job (even though its majorly stressful). I have a wonderful husband and an incredible son. I have a nice home, no massive debt, and life is good.

I do have anxiety issues, stemming from PTSD, but I've been dealing with those for decades and have learned a lot of great coping strategies. But that's not what I'm trying to discuss.

I'm sorry, I've not done the best job with my word choices. I shouldn't have used the word "waiting," because it seems to imply passivity on my part, and I don't view life passively at all.

This feeling, its more like an anticipation of change. Nothing I feel like I have to do, or that I can influence. The best way to describe it is to imagine the tension in the air before a thunderstorm. I guess I'm sensing the tension?

But thank you for the kind and positive remarks. Its a rare thing to see compassion and caring on ATS....although this thread just might be the exception.

Looks like I'm one of the younger ones to reply to this. I'm 25 years old. I feel like I've always been waiting for something to happen. I'm constantly wondering what my purpose is here in this life. I'm waiting to either figure that out and do something with it or for something interesting to happen. I really have no aspirations when it comes to a career. I don't really care about any of that. Nothing of that sort interests me. My interests pertain to most topics covered on sites like this one. I have a degree, but the times we're in having a degree doesn't matter too much. I've learned early that making good money doesn't bring happiness. It seems like everything I do is just to try and distract myself while I'm waiting. It's good to know that I'm not the only one out there with the same feeling. Just wish we knew what we were waiting for!

reply to post by SquirrelNutz


I'm sorry you feel that way, please allow me to offer up my perspective: I do not think that you have wasted your life. I dont think any of us have, although at times it may seem that way. I understand that feeling of "maybe I could have done more, been more, excelled more, succeeded more, discovered more"...because I had it beaten into my head as child that that was the point of "being here."

My parents raised me to believe that my value was solely based off external achievements...I discarded that perspective a long time ago, and my life is so much better because of it. Not to imply I gave up goals, I just stopped defining my self worth based only on external success.

But I think if we all could be "George Baliey" and go back and see how life would have been if we had not existed, I think we might be surprised at how all those little seemingly insignificant things have in turn affected others.

I think we are all here for a reason, from the infant that dies in her mothers arms, to the old crazy guy on the corner....if we were not meant to be here, we wouldn't be. That infant was meant to be here if only for a few moments. Maybe that old crazy guy isn't so crazy? Who knows the why of it all?

But I have faith there is a reason. Maybe I am "waiting" for the pieces to fall into place? I don't know. I realize that is just my philosophy and I don't expect you to see it "my way" but I think it is important to share differences in perspective with each other and so far this thread has done a excellent job of that IMO.

reply to post by Runciter33


I have thoroughly enjoyed all of your "philosophical film flam" and especially your bear! Your posts have given me much to consider

Originally posted by pain_is_an_illusion
Looks like I'm one of the younger ones to reply to this. I'm 25 years old. I feel like I've always been waiting for something to happen. I'm constantly wondering what my purpose is here in this life. I'm waiting to either figure that out and do something with it or for something interesting to happen. I really have no aspirations when it comes to a career. I don't really care about any of that. Nothing of that sort interests me. My interests pertain to most topics covered on sites like this one. I have a degree, but the times we're in having a degree doesn't matter too much. I've learned early that making good money doesn't bring happiness. It seems like everything I do is just to try and distract myself while I'm waiting. It's good to know that I'm not the only one out there with the same feeling. Just wish we knew what we were waiting for!

Too true. I also have no idea what to do at this point. In school for the time being but once I graduate it's over. I have to go out and find a job, become a "regular" member of society and be like everyone else. Eventually forgetting about all this stuff and never discovering or pursuing the one thing which seems to matter most to me in life. The system will drown out all these thoughts and feelings in time, making me like everyone else. Obedient, and easily manipulated. Quiet. Eventually all these feelings will be labeled as crazy thoughts I had back at one time to help myself cope with the struggles of life, but they were not. They were different.

I don't want to fall into that category as I can see many others have and I don't blame them. My loving parents are an example. To me that's game over. Contributing to this foul system is one thing I never wanted to do in this life. Probably never will...

All of us did not gather here by mere coincidence...
Our gathering will be like the falling of small stones that starts an avalanche.

reply to post by smyleegrl


Everyone feels it at some point or another. It's called general paranoia. Sometimes I am BLOWN AWAY at the types of threads which receive attention. Then I remember where I am...

reply to post by rigel4


I have been on anti depressants for years maybe the depression I felt was because of the system and how we treat each other. It got worse after my second awakening and now I am planning some kind of revolution.

reply to post by Runciter33


Haha!
Like in kung fu panda; "there is no special ingredient"

Originally posted by Son of Will
reply to post by smyleegrl

 

Everyone feels it at some point or another. It's called general paranoia. Sometimes I am BLOWN AWAY at the types of threads which receive attention. Then I remember where I am...

What an incredibly uncalled for remark.

Let me guess....you read the OP and no further.

One of the most incredible aspects of this thread is the positive vibe and communication between members. I'm sorry you think something like that deserves attention.

reply to post by TruthxIsxInxThexMist


Maybe there are more of us out there feeling the same thing. You just never know.

Originally posted by Spader
Like most of the replies I've read, most are at or approaching middle age. I started feeling this "waiting for something" since I graduated from highscool in '87. I believe U2 had just came out with the album "The Joshua Tree" and my favorite song had the line; "and I still havent found what I'm looking for". And 26 years later I am still waiting. (Sorry in advance to those who will not get this tune out of their head all day).

YET ANOTHER NAIL ON THE HEAD!

Every time I hear that song I sing it and I think geez I wish I knew what this is I am looking for...

reply to post by smyleegrl


Exactly! That is very beautifully put. Maybe what we are anticipating is for us to finally come together to do something about it and maybe this is almost like a signal for us to come together and discuss how to make it happen.