The Waiting Game: Do You Feel It?

reply to post by apokalupsis33vital


That's beautiful.
Star for you.

reply to post by smyleegrl


Stop waiting. Get out there and so something. Make a difference...... You keep waiting and life will pass you by, and you will be filled with regret. Which will probably be the case regardless but still.

You have one life. Live it!! Your time is now!

Good luck!

Originally posted by MessengerBird
All we need to do is practice clearing the mind and remove the clutter from our consciousness, then we will surely hear, feel, taste, touch, and ring in tune with the chime of our calling.

There is nothing you need to wait for or anticipate, except your own awakening which is what you, and only you can initiate.

Funny you should say that.
I have been feeling the need to clear my mind through mindfulness.
If I don't, I will stay locked up inside my head.
Now don't get me wrong, I connect with a lot of people.
But I feel it's time to be in the now and I need all the tools available to achieve just that.

Not sure if this is what you meant to say. So feel free to correct me if otherwise.

reply to post by karen61560


My first memory was being born with all of the bright lights.

I was passed to 5 different families before my abusive mother took me back. I was interfered with at a very young age by a man my mother left me with for a week. I was in third grade summer as it were. Fourth grade failed. Was asked not to come back. Went to another school and a neighbour I learned decades later turned my mother in. I was sent to a military school named Mt. Lowe in Altadenia Ca. A school with 3 active Pedos. When I left after living there for 3 years (1 week off for Christmas and 2 weeks between summer and normal school year) I was grateful for having survived. Our school was protected during the fearful Watts Riots the 1st release. When I arrived home I took up being a paperboy. Everyday I folded newspapers and read front page. I read articles about great thinkers and wonder what they thought about. Since I have been trying to survive I did not take in much from school ergo empty mind but I worried that I had nothing to think about. Funny thing was I was indeed thinking and aware. It was not till I went to a wonderful private high school where I started to learn and think. Survived 6 years Uncle Sam went to Uni to get a degree. Somewhere in all of this I was very upset for what Uncle Sam trained me to do. Been looking for a better way ever since. The secret of surviving the bad times was the thought that something is going to happen in my life time. Every time I thought this would be a good day to die something inside said but if you do you will miss it.

Sorry if this is not up to your standard but its the truth and the way I am. I am still waiting. I was hoping for a change this last year. There is always tomorrow!

reply to post by smyleegrl


I'd say i know how you feel. But i don't know if i do. I am definitely in waiting though.

Aren't we all? I feel i look at the world extremely differently from a lot of people. I see all the doom and gloom and obviously from time to time it gets me down. But when i really stop to think about the world, im filled with this sense of happiness. That whatever happens, happens. And it's not the end. I feel this life is just a stepping stone. And when i have that mind set, i see a lot clearer.

I often see people go about their day to day lives and wonder if they feel the same. I try my best to realize how lucky i am and that whether it be in this life or not, i'm sure great things are waiting not only for me, but most people.

It seems like something is gonna happen. Myself, I've been waiting for the next big music explosion. Something like what happened in Seattle in the early 90's. It seems since 9/11, the country has just been in a funk. The movies aren't as good. I don't feel the inspiration. Most every generation has had the fear of annihilation. I think they've had the anticipation, too. I watched some of the "Disclosure Project" videos, where the doctor talks about alien tech and free energy thats gonna be released someday soon. I think, "that's amazing!!". Of course I get sucked into every story I'm told because I want to believe something, great or terrible is gonna happen. Maybe it's our ability to feel unique, but I think it's also a possibilty we blow into this life and then just blow right out.

I’m 33 and yes I can relate to you and many people on this thread. For me it’s more of a feeling or a desire to finally reconnect with something on a deeper level, just don’t know what that is yet. Until then i observe, learn and experience what the world has to offer. Human being having a spiritual experience or spiritual being having a human experience is a question I ask myself occasionally. Could it be that some humans have finally acknowledged the questions that have always been lurking deep inside them?, waiting for that moment of universal clarity or maybe a purpose not just for themselves but for all mankind.

Coincidentally, after taking a break from reading the pages on this thread, I switch on the TV and a scene from the movie 'contact' is playing where this author/philosopher is being interviewed..

"Are we happier as a human race? Is the world fundamentally a better place because of science and technology? We shop at home we surf the web..but at the same time we feel emptier, lonelier, and more cut off from each other than at any other time in human history. We're becoming a synthesized society..In a great big hurry to get to the next..We're looking for meaning. We have mindless jobs, we take frantic vacations, deficit finance trips to the mall to buy more things we think will fill these holes in our lives. Is it any wonder that we've lost our sense of direction?"

I’m not a regular and only visit the site few times a month; this is my first post on ats and signed on just to share my thoughts on the matter. Thanks for reading and here’s hoping each of us finds what we are looking for.

Originally posted by AfterInfinity
reply to post by smyleegrl

 

This is going to be an extremely morbid reply, but...since you asked...

I'm waiting for something miraculous to happen. I'm waiting for a reason to live. In the absence of that, I'm waiting to die, because right now I don't see much justification for being here in this plane of existence. It certainly doesn't feel rewarding.

Again, morbid...but it's the most honest answer you'll get from me on a subject so vague.

Is'nt it odd that you get the most stars for such a morbid statement but you are correct in many ways with no real purpose for existance many of us are waiting to die! Oh many of us may have children or spouses but no real interconnection with each other like we used to have in the past! The truth is we are not meant to live such solitary lives in search of material wealth, spiritial dependance and other forms of distraction that give us no real sense of satisfaction! We are meant to depend on each other for purpose! Many of us have forgotten the real sense of satisfaction we get from helping one another or the purpose we get through interdependance! We have strayed so far from the path of a true society is it any wonder we are waiting, depressed, or searching for real meaning in our lives! It has become obvious to me that we are waiting, searching and longing for unity of mind body and spirit as only we ourselves can attain! Even all our fanaticism into cults, gangs and even the military is part of this reality! only when we realize this truth will we be able to embark on a journey into a real future free from the idiosyncrasies of the now! Will we ever attain this condition? I only know, if we don't we will become more and more divided and unhappy living out our existance as slaves to a system which destroys much of what makes us a society! Perhaps we may even eventually destroy the rest of the species on our home and maybe even ourselves! I hope we can finally realize what our purpose is on this little blue ball of water, no matter what we may think it is!

reply to post by MessengerBird


I'm with you.
Though I should meditate to hear my inner voice, I have a hunch of what it will say.
Heck I even have a (rough outline of a) plan.
The thing is though, is that I don't feel entirely free to act on it.
I am deeply connected to people.
My choices leading to this freedom would affect their lives profoundly.
In other words, I'm still needed where I am right now.

Sometimes it's just not that simple.
Or is it?

reply to post by smyleegrl


Yup

reply to post by REMflyer


I agree whole heartedly!
Being there for others, random acts of kindness and the such, are very satisfying.
Giving makes me so much happier than taking.
It's a shame that still a lot of people don't realise that.

Originally posted by uthu74
I hope it is not Godot...

But I feel the same, my hunch is we are waiting for the spiritual realm to take hold upon us. And all that this will burn!.

Salute

It's funny you mentioned Godot, I have been thinking of that while I've been reading through the thread! Great story btw, in a way it fits perfectly to the discussion, but I am not sure that this "waiting" is existential...it feels more tangible to me anyways.

I do hope that humanity does recover its spiritual roots, but I don't want to set the world ablaze for it to happen. I just want people to come to their senses and realize we have a awesome amazing world that is a gift to us and we need to be responsible for the care of everything in it, including each other. I believe there can be heaven on earth, but people have to change their perspectives and then hopefully it will change our environment as well.

reply to post by smyleegrl


smyleegrl,

Bless you! You really touched a nerve and it's refreshing to see so many people waking up. Some will act, some will still do nothing, some will scoff, some continue waiting and others will continue to move and act on their intution. Nudging them is good, judging them is not so much. We have to be patient and they will come along when they are ready, I guess. I'm for cleaning up my house and trying to be compassionate and loving to most everybody I come into contact with.

Personally, I'm in the "act on their intution" camp. It's just great to see such a energetic post with so many willing to put their feelings out there and their impressions and ideas. My two cents is that has been what I've looking for on ATS for a long time. Lot's of contentious and malicious nonsense goes on here sometimes, and I have been a guilty party participating in some of it. Well Live and Learn.

Anyway, you have "smacked the proverbial hornets nest" and it's good to see!

Originally posted by MamaJ

There is always only NOW..and NOW is the time to do something.

reply to post by kauskau

 

Some members are saying the same thing. There is only a now... do something NOW.

I just have to ask. WHAT? Do what NOW?

It's not like everyone is sitting around idle, not doing anything. lol

As I said previously in this thread... I live life to the fullest!

I am a busy mom of three... my boyfriend should count as four really.

We are busy with two kids playing Hockey and baseball. We travel a lot, take vacations, and are extremely active with life. I have always been a busy person, doing something all the time.

There is still this "greater purpose" feeling though, that is instilled in my heart. I look at the world around me and notice it has strayed from the good life of nature. We have become a selfish people who doesn't know or care about his neighbor. We rape our home for its resources, we war with our brother, and on and on...

This above cannot last, in my opinion. The above will indeed cause nature to turn on us and I believe we are already experiencing such. More people awaken to this fact, we may could change the course of nature that we set in motion from our choices.

Tomorrow may mean nothing to you as a NOW person, however it does to me. The choices we make today matter for tomorrow. The ones who come after us, if this is possible, deserve a bright future created by us.

The past, present, and future matter.

reply to post by MamaJ


I agree so much with what you wrote. It isn't that I don't live life, I love living life! I love living life too much for my own good sometimes!

I am very involved with my family and friends, my interests, my responsibilities, and when I was working I threw myself into that 100% I am not the type to take things on half heartedly. I first access them, make a decision on how to engage in them, then throw myself with all my weight behind me (and that is a lot of weight )and I go for it. Once I have committed to something, I eat, sleep and breath it. No waiting or indecision involved.

This feeling is kinda like what another member described, it is like waiting for the veil to be lifted, to see what is beyond. I look up at the sky and some times think I could just lift the veil of the sky and see what is behind it. I don't know if it will be a rapture, or aliens, or death and destruction. But when I step outside and feel the air, it just surrounds me. Not in a bad way, so I don't think whatever it is will be bad, but maybe just different from anything else that we have ever known.

reply to post by odd1out

[quote3]Perhaps I am a pessimist?
Not at all. I enjoyed your post. Thanks for that refreshing breeze in all the swampy air.

Originally posted by AceWombat04
reply to post by Res Ipsa

 

Yes, I would say I'm entirely skeptical of faith in terms of certitude at least. Actually, I have a lot of existential doubts. I.e. by my standards I can't even prove I'm here right now as I seem to be, or that reality is what we perceive it to be at all, whatsoever. For all I know this is some sort of elaborate illusion

I don't necessarily really believe that, but it's a possibility I consider. "I think, therefore I am" has never quite been enough evidence for me. There might not even be an objective "me" in the first place as far as I'm concerned, at least not as I experience it subjectively from day to day. But that seems to be the framework in which this existence proceeds, so I have to go with it whether it's illusory or not. Much like the unconditional love philosophy I adhere to. It might be illusory, but it seems to indelibly be a part of my nature, whether biologically or for some other reason, so I have to go with it.

My problem is that I have no way of determining definitively by my standards if that ultimately means anything or not. It seems like it does, but - and this is applicable to a great many things people have stated in this topic in my opinion - to quote a musician I love, "Just 'cause you feel it doesn't mean it's there." Or, as I would put it, just because it exists as an ontological entity in some way, shape, or form, does not necessarily mean it exists or has purpose as I perceive or feel it does. This constant conflict between what I feel, and my doubt as to what is and what its true nature is (something I feel I cannot objectively know because of the myriad possibilities I am open to) is what torments me.

I hope that makes some sense.

Peace.

To respond in the spirit of "waiting" for something. It appears that you are waiting to find one solid provable thing and maybe think from there you would be on a superhighway of understanding. That further truths will become clear and many of the past distractions and wrong paths would then be closed.

I think almost everyone, to different degrees, are trying to separate truth from fiction. Sadly this inherent desire suffers shortly after we are thrust into the world. So many distractions, so many falsehoods, betrayals, obfuscations etc. The result tragically, is that so many healthy minds get tired and they become cynical to everything and "there are no truths", becomes their truth. So many unhealthy minds fly pass cynicism and become sociopaths or psychopaths and purposefully attempt to construct "truths" to thrust upon the world. These "false truths" not only destroy many minds that were struggling in the first place to learn truths but are multi-generational killers.

I think everyone plays around with the "I think there for I am" thing, but if that really is a stumbling block for you then holy smokes do you have a lot of distraction, noise, and static to deal with...that isn't all bad because your mind appears to still be healthy. For example you haven't posted anything here that sounds like a desperate mind that is thrashing and swinging at anything positive posted, damaged or injured minds have a tendency to lash out at others in disproportion to the stimulus.

I of course don't know if you are just fine where you are at or are restless to make sense of anything or somewhere in between. Since you have honed your skills over the years dealing with all the distractions, you could take on "Love". Ask 100 people what love is and you could get 100 different answers. I said before you
have the Touchstone, the ultimate truth is "unconditional love" and if you find it here on Earth than you have sailed pass me. I don't think you can start the quest by first defining love either, in fact I really don't believe it is possible. It truly is something more felt, and experienced, then can be defined. You know you have made progress when you have a pretty good idea of what "isn't" love. It really all comes down to how important finding truth is to you, or anyone for that matter....actually, if you didn't realize that love was the road to travel and search to find truth, prior to my posts, then it probably ain't happening. I'm not saying your stubborn, it just really doesn't work that way. It isn't like recommending you watch Touch or Castle. Understanding love begins with wanting to seek it on your own.

They are starting to play me off the stage, but let me conclude with
The quest for love does not require Tibetan like focus, sacrifice, or time. But unless you are counting on a Divine phone call, it does take some serious desire to overcome the first absolute unavoidable condition....you have to minimize anger, "forgive and forget" you can add that into the "Truth" category.
followed by Stewardship or finding people to actively listen to.

It seems to be that, although many of us feel like something is coming, what we see coming may vary radically. I've been trying to comprehend this phenomena for some time as I've seen a number of people (far outside of this forum) complain of difficulties with sleeping, feeling restless, and vary degrees of agitation. I also noted that a few on this thread mentioned the mind's eye. If I recall correctly (someone will correct me here if I'm wrong--love that ), the greatest incidence of the presence of magnetite is in the human brain. The presence of magnetite within the brain could potentially be how we sense electromagnetic fields--not really any different from birds or other migratory animals (originally we were migratory ourselves). What I'm pondering is whether or not there is a link between this feeling of agitation and the movement of magnetic North. Although the magnetic North pole has always moved, it's been moving at an increasingly accelerated pace over the last few years (ah ha!). The movement has been enough to force even airports to recalibrate their runways. On top of it, the earth's magnetic field is also weakening. What I'm thinking is that perhaps the reason why we feel like something is coming is because we are subconsciously noting the difference in the earth's electromagnetic field--a kind of "disturbance in the force". We may not be aware of what is unsettling us exactly on a conscious level yet the sensation would drive us to look for an answer.

Could explain the varying responses of what is coming and perhaps even some of the erratic behaviors of both governments and people alike "out there". Just a theory though.

Ok, I’m going to throw down another minor “Wall of Text"




We still have some people that either cannot or will not understand what some of us are trying to say. It's kinda frustrating to see some of the responses from those that will not see...see if this can open some eyes and minds...this is the best I can think of right now.



This is not about missing out on life. This is not about “waiting” for some catalyst to kick start your life. I stated earlier, my life is great…I own my own business, have a wonderful wife of 25 years, 3 wonderful, beautiful and intelligent daughters…good stuff. Has absolutely nothing to do with what we are talking about though.

I thought the analogy to the “Close encounters” movie was a decent description. People “sensing” something and have no idea what or why. However, by the nature of the analogy it appears some people get the attitude “Oh, they are lunatics and are waiting for disclosure”…nope, that is not it but thanks for being so dismissive.

Let me see if I can put this into different terms so that those that cannot or will not see might get the picture.

We know that the human mind operates on a narrow band of frequency. If you take this guy off the street and that guy from the laboratory…there brain wave patterns might be very similar or very different. Perhaps, those that are “feeling” this phenomenon have very similar brain wave patterns. Maybe it isn’t “supernatural-paranormal” but grounded in very solid science.

We know that the earth also has a vibrational frequency. Perhaps, the core of the earth has somehow changed its resonant frequency and a small percentage of people are somehow picking up on that. They do not know what they are “feeling” but they are “feeling” something. Not doom or gloom…not ascension or dimensional shifts…a solid “cause and effect” based on physics.

Another thought…our solar system and galaxy. We know we are approaching the “fluff” cloud at the galactic equator and have been for years. Perhaps some people are “tuning” in to some vibrational field. We do also know that something is causing the planets of our solar system to “heat up”…not just the earth.

Perhaps all of this is somehow related to harmonics or resonant frequencies.

If some would drop the knee jerk reaction and the need to tell people to “get a life” or “get off your @ss and do something”…they might get the picture of what some of us have tried to clarify. This is not about a life missed or on hold waiting for a miracle or a catalyst for change. This is about sensing something you cannot explain rationally…yet.

Since I was five years old I have felt as though I didn't belong, in some sense. I ran away many times as a child, and always felt that I was not a true member of my family - that I had come from 'somewhere else'. I dreamt I was tortured & psychologically manipulated as a very young child (six or seven yrs old) - though this was more of an OOBE-type experience than a dream, and so I've erred cautiously that it may have actually happened. I was raised in military family, an atheistic and materialistic family, with members who were apparently active in secretive groups. I found handbooks for psychological manipulation in my Dad's wardrobe when I was looking for dodgy magazines (aged 14 or so).

I've had vivid dreams for twenty-five years, many of which I remember more clearly than my waking life itself.

The first one I recall was where my Dad - though he didn't look like my Dad - had a white snake draped around his shoulders, with red eyes. The snake's presence seemed to make it clear that I didn't belong with my Dad - that he was an actor, a foster-parent, an impostor. I ran out of the house, down a stream, and was suddenly transported to a traveling planet, where 'giants & princes' lived, and all my friends (my real friends, those I remembered from other existences) were there, glad to see me, and seemingly not unnerved by the fact that the planet was travelling like an asteroid - which to my scientific young mind (I read encyclopedias for fun) seemed impossible. Everyone was excited because something wonderful was about to happen; we were on a galactic journey, travelling the heavens, waiting to arrive - seemingly waiting to get to Earth - and something amazing was about to happen. I was five years old when I had that dream, and I remember it as clearly as though it were last night - there are other details, which I've left out for the sake of brevity.

I dreamt that I was present at the terra-forming of certain parts of Earth. I was part of a research & monitoring team developing various technologies - we were scientifically advanced enough to live for thousands of years at a time, truly intergalactic in our space-faring abilities. We were developing stealth planes 'for fun' (simply because we knew that our time being stationed on this remote outpost would not be relieved for many more hundreds of years).. We were the 'Watchers' of lore, or so it seemed.

I had dreams where I was shot dead by a man with a pistol, on a beach, and I went to one of the lower heavenly realms, a type of 'Hell' - the Prince of Demons was waiting for me, to try and convince me that I belonged with him. In another dream, I was in a future stage of my current earthbound life, evading hostile forces that had invaded the UK - we were at war, and one of the aggressor helicopter gunships roughly knew my location, was specifically looking to eliminate me, and was strafing the building I was in with high-calibre rounds; I was shot three times & died instantly; falling into soft blackness, lifted up by angels, before 'losing consciousness' - only to wake up on the floor of woodland, with glorious peace & tranquility, in 'Heaven' - an angel approached & told me I would never be persecuted again.

Even as a child, I dreamt clearly of WW3, terrifying stuff - but also of a sort of magical awakening, worldwide manifestations of miraculous occurrences, supernatural events, flaming mountains crashing into the Sea, angels flying around and rescuing all sorts of people from the tyrannical, demonically-allied powers that had seized control of the planet. I dreamt of nuclear blasts, which I somehow survived, and I dreamt of organised secret societies coming to kill me, with others trying to protect me.

All of those dreams occurred before I came to places like ATS, and before I came to my personal faith as a Christian - the majority were from before I was twenty years old. I didn't read of 'Nibiru' (etc) until my mid-twenties, and only then got the connection between the legends of its existence and my first ever remembered dream.

These days, I have a close walk with God, and I perceive - through prayer in recent times - that the synchronicity of the writing of this thread is no coincidence; that He would have people know that this 'waiting' isn't in vain, and it isn't a 'game' at all. Time is coming to its fulfilment, the world will change dramatically, a total paradigm shift is almost here. People who have lived with this sense of waiting will realise their blessed purpose, will become keenly aware of the Truth, and will support those who didn't see it coming. The day & hour has been delayed, in order that certain things could be worked out for the good of all peoples, and particularly in order that the deceptions of those who oppose true goodness, though pretending to endorse 'the Light', could be revealed as empty, hollow, shallow & fruitless.

I truly believe that the meek will inherit the Earth.

Blessings,


FITO

reply to post by Jeremiah65


My wall of text beats your wall of text. LOL.