It's time my story needs to be heard

Originally posted by waterplants
worthless thread

I for one, think you need a round of applause for this amazing post. The thought and expression you must have invested in these few words excites us all. Once again, BRAVO!

Originally posted by Screwed

Originally posted by NarcolepticBuddha
Unless they were all crazy and belong in the psych ward. That seems more far-fetched to me though.

Youd have to define "crazy" first.


I think one day in the future we will all look back with shame when we recall the days when we put people who had this ability to see into other dimensions into psych wards. You can hardly call it a gift, it certainly wasn't sought out by these people.

there is alot more to this world/universe than what we can readily experience with our five senses as I am sure you already know. Sometimes however, we get a glimps. Still others are stuck with it day and night.
What a personal HELL that must be.

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I've always wondered if that was the case,if people that were diagnosed with schizophrenia were actually seeing other dimensions or other worlds.Your right what a personal hell it would be or is it?

Like I said before will we look back in a hundred years to find how ingnorant we really are(not us but our great grands)and the so called mentally deficient are treated as gifted instead of sick and we (the normal?)are at the bottom of society,it's quite possible that we are not the norm.

I believe we are living in this world with half truths and a made up history and as long as we continue this way we will always question ourselves as to who we are and why we are here.

What a strange twisted world we live in...

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Thanks for your kind words. I think that dude just needs to take another look at the T&C's before posting 2 word posts again.

He also retains the option to not read the thread after discovering it didn't interest him/her

Originally posted by IAmD1

Originally posted by ezekielken
reply to post by NarcolepticBuddha

 

hey buddha. for a week straight I woke up at exactly 4:44 am. by the end of that week I didnt even need to look at the clock to know it was 4:44. Whaat it all means, have no idea

Hi Eze,

I think some part of that has to do with our internal clock. In my younger days I didn't have to set my alarm to wake up at a certain time the next morning, I just had to look at the time I went to bed, count the hours I would be able to sleep until it was time to wake, and some how I'd internally sense how long it was until I needed to wake up and I would do so more or less on the dot. (within a couple of minutes but never late)

Wow, you are the first person I have encountered (other than myself) who can do this! My family and friends are amazed that I have never needed an alarm clock. Even if I have to get up at a different time than usual, all I have to do is tell myself what time I need to get up, and I wake up within a minute or two of that time. There have been a few instances when a voice calling my name has woken me up, and on those times, I might be about 5 minutes late. Is that just me waking myself up? Who knows.

Great thread, by the way. I enjoyed reading your story very much. I have had only one strange experience waking up in the middle of the night. About 15 years ago, I woke up, looked at the clock, watched the TV for a minute (I have to have the TV on with the sound turned all the way down - the flickering light it provides soothes me), and noticed something in my peripheral vision to my left. I turned and saw a man who looked a little "Jesus-like". He had light-colored hair, a neatly trimmed beard and mustache, and was wearing a light-colored robe. He was either floating, or he was very tall, as his head nearly touched the 10-foot ceiling - I couldn't see his feet from my vantage point. He seemed to be emanating a soft white light. He was staring at the opposite wall of the room. He never moved - not even an eye blink.

What was so weird about it, was that I was completely nonplussed by the whole thing. I calmly watched him for about 5 minutes. I wondered at one point if he was a statue, because he was so still. It never occurred to me at the time to sit up, or say something. I finally started to get very sleepy, so I eventually turned my head in the opposite direction and fell immediately back to sleep. The next morning, I was freaking out. I couldn't sleep well for many nights after, because I thought I might see him again. Never did. Was that just a waking dream? I'll never really know, I guess.

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I do not think you will be punished. If you like, please U2U me and I will try to give you advice to the best of my ability. If not, I will keep a look out for your thread and offer what I can to it.

It is not a race. And the goal isn't quite clear. How can you be losing? Who says others are winning?

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very original response! bravo!

Originally posted by NarcolepticBuddha
I heard a loud thud that woke me up. It sounded like the front door—but it sounded like maybe somebody slammed it loud. I wondered if my mom was leaving for work. I sat up on my shoulder and looked at the clock near my bed to see what time it was. I thought “No, that wasn’t my mom. She’s been to work for hours already.” Okay, so I had to go see what this loud slamming noise was. (It was a singular noise—happened only once). As I motioned to start getting out of bed, I saw something standing in my doorway staring at me with the door wide open.

It was very dark. It had a dark face, dark features, dark cloak that enrobed its entire body with a hood covering most of its head. I could see some slightly shimmery facial features. It looked like a bug—an ant maybe. It had large, shiny black eyes that reflected some light. Its skin was rough and textured, like the rind of an avocado—again, very dark and black. It appeared to have no nose, but rather some kind of shallow snout that tapered off into a tiny little mouth. It reminded me of an ant without mandibles. The robe prevented me from seeing any other features. I believe the robe was all black, although memory seems to want me to say that it had a little purple trim as well. It’s been so long that some of those finer details are lost to me.

I wasn’t scared. I was shocked. I thought “What the—I gotta see what this is. I gotta shake its hand.” I sensed that it was surprised as well. It seemed surprised that I could see it. I don’t know why or how I got this impression. I just had the feeling like it was

I have also seen the hooded figure, here is my encounter from a another thread.
I posted it here I need a little help! (lucid dream>obe>weird creature)


I’ve seen this before, everyone in the house was asleep.
I opened my eyes and there it was on my husband’s side of the bed,
It was just standing there looking down at us.

It turned its bug head to me and moved its grass hopper type limbs and then I closed my eyes and fell back in a deep sleep till morning.

But for some reason the harder I try to remember what it looked like in detail, it slips away, it like it’s on the edge of my memory.

It stood about 5.5 to 6 feet tall, its shouldered form was as wide as a mans and I think it had a black cloak on with a hood, It was black and silver as well, this was about 4 months ago, when I woke, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Tottaly freaked me out when i read your post, i couldnt believe someone eles has seen this.

I came on ATS and looked through the alien species list (im trying to find the link to) and I couldn’t find anything like it.
I couldn’t find anything close to this in any of the paranormal threads either.

Our English mastiff sleeps on the floor on my side of the bed and the two cats sleep on our bed, and I don’t recall them be being disturbed by the event.
Found this bug on the net... kind of resembles the bug i saw.
[atsimg]http://files.abovetopsecret.com/images/member/b369b7c6103f.jpg[/atsimg]

There are also more encounters here Insectoid Abduction: The North Canol Road Incident
I also posted my experience of the hooded figure there, though after just re-reading it, I typed the height wrong. it was about the height of my husband and he is six foot one.

love and harmony
Whateva

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I'm glad you found my post. And I'm especially glad so many others are coming forward that have seen the Hooded Entity. Were you the only one that saw it?

Mine was totally enrobed except for its face so I couldn't tell you what its body looked like. From reading many other posts about the Hooded Entity, I have noticed something interesting. Everyone sees this thing with a different height. I wonder if this could mean anything?

I would say mine was about my height exactly! Coincidence? I'd like to find out.

I could never find the Hooded Entity on anybody's alien species lists either I do not think it was a "shadow person" either.

I am overwhelmed at how many others have seen this thing. I thought it was so outlandish (even makes the Grays seem normal and mainstream) that I thought I was the only one.

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thanks for sharing your experience
sure it wasn't easy.

my question for you
Does your Avatar
represent the hooded being you saw
in the doorway ?

and if so
what culture is that image from?

Originally posted by NarcolepticBuddha
reply to post by pasiphae

 

Much of my research has led to me to Jungian archetypes over and over again. There is something about these "aliens" ingrained in our collective consciousness. It is something deeply rooted in our symbolism as a species. What it means--that's the million dollar question!

Interesting that you bring up Carl Jung!

As you would understand, the Jungian Archetypes stemmed from his visions of other worldly visions. Have you read his "Red Book?" It is quite interesting as it goes into the battles he fought in his head and with his soul, other creatures, and his mental health as a whole. I really feel for the way he was and is portrayed...

He acknowledged the fact that he would be criticised for "doing a Schizophrenia," but he went into detail as to why he wasn't one, and i believe him...Just the way he thought, was so far advanced for his time, it was incomprehensible. He talked about the ancients, and how Christianity derives from Ancient religions, and the fact that we need to look at Ancient civilisations in order to understand the type of world we live in. He talks about the processes of communicating with and understanding the motives behind with what he called the Spirit of the Times, and the Spirit of the Depths.

He broke down the mental barrier in his psyche, the wall between his conscious and his subconscious, in order to see the spiritual side of things. He done all this, firstly to understand his visions, and secondly, as an experiment, yet he was labelled as either a nutcase, or a man who succumbed to a drug fuelled psychotic breakdown. It was wrong, and i wish that he had finished his book...but he experienced a heart attack which left him in poor health, resulting in his inability to finish of the magnificent book. I urge you to read it if you have the chance. It is quite interesting!

Thank you for your story also

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No, not at all connected in any way. My avatar is the "Pashupati" seal found at Mohenjo-Daro. I am interested in archaeology and have studied it in college. (I am not an archaeologist, just a fan)

The people of Mohenjo-Daro were of the Indus Valley Civilization, possibly a pre-Vedic Indian culture. Little is known about them and there are still many mysteries to be solved.

These seals are also somewhat of a mystery. It isn't quite clear what they were used for. More than likely just like price tagging or stamps.

But they are very fascinating with some of the mythological creatures depicted on them (such as unicorns). This "Pashupati" seal is believed to depict the Hindu God, Shiva sitting in the lotus posture for meditation as the animals crowd around.

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Thank you for taking the time to put your experiences down in words, it seems it must have been difficult for you.

Let me just preface my response with this; I do not disbelieve anything you have said and I am sure that you have had "para" events in your life.

Now, that said, childhood trauma (cancer) extensive treatments, and long hospital stays can seriously skew one's psyche. The patient is in pain, being poisoned by chemo, dulled by sedatives and is absolutely powerless to stop it. This is even more true for children.

It seems to me that your illness has played a more important role in your life than have the paranormal events that you have experienced. You experienced these things coming already from a weakened position due to your past trauma. It is too bad that the medical community does not recognize paranormal trauma as real and chooses to classify it as "disease". If that had not been the case I don't think you would have suffered nearly as bad. Even if an incident is an hallucination it is still real to the person who suffers it. Reality is all about perception.

Anyway, I am just an armchair psychologist like many. I don't have any psych training, well a little but nothing worth mentioning. But as someone who has experienced some pretty effin strange stuff myself and being a consumate observer of the human condition I have formed some personal opinions about how our personal physical/psycological traumas affect ALL of the things that we encounter as we walk through life; for good or ill. In your case those ffrightening episodes you experienced were more so because of the past trauma and feelings of helplessness.

I have become a pragmatist and no longer let anything scare or torment me, at least the paranormal stuff. (People scare the hell out of me, so unpredictable.) I have had terrifying para experiences since I was a child, (I come from a background of psychological trauma rather than physical) I went through a lot of fear and pain because of them and to allowing them to corrupt my grasp of what it means to be alive. After about forty five years of that I finally figured out that those experiences did not "hurt" me, at least not in any meaningful way. I look back on the some of those things now with a sense of wonder and I am more than just a bit thankful that I had the opportunity to see behind the curtain.

I guess my point is that even bad things can be a blessing if you survive them. (you did) They can give you the chance to see life from a different perspective. And in the turmoil of today's world that is a very cool skill to have. It allows you to see what is important: love, peace, acceptance, and what is not: money, power, security.

You are alive. Any day that you breathe is a gift from the universe, use your gift.

BTW, I was/am a weird mom too, but I never ever lied to my kid about the nature of things. Of course like many children are he was frightful at times but came to understand that our world is multifaceted and amazing and there is way more to this existance than what meets they eye. But then he grew up to be a Paulbot. Damn brother, that's scary!!

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I only brushed upon Carl Jung as I minored in psychology. I will definitely be going back to his archetypes for more research. It is right up my alley!

This "Red Book" has already been suggested to me a little while ago. Two recommendations means that I can't afford to miss it! Thanks for your post.

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I always get a little mad and sad when I read a post like yours. It is not easy to get through life in general, but for some of us - you have to get through everything else, and still have to deal with the high strangeness on top of it all. It is not easy by any stretch, and certainly not easy to come out in any fashion and tell your story. Thank you for doing so - I hope it helps you to feel a little better about it. Being able to come to a site like this and read about others' experiences has helped me tremendously - and it sounds like it is doing the same for you.

I have been dealing with the same sorts of things since I was 12 - it'll be 28 years this September 18. I wish I had some great words of wisdom for you, you'd think I'd have some after dealing with it for so many years. I guess the only thing I can say is that you are not alone in this. I don't know how much of a comfort that is to you, but in a strange way it has always made me feel a little better.

I too love sleeping against the wall, with the covers over my head. I'm almost 40 and I still sleep like this. And no - the "greys" don't look like they do in the movies, that's for sure. No matter if they come from our reality or another - when they are here, they are most definitely real.

To this day I still don't know why exactly I was picked - or rather, my family - but me in particular out of my siblings and other family members. I can only guess, like everyone else - which is SO frustrating. I feel like surely I have all the answers locked in my brain, if only I could remember everything instead of bits and pieces. I've always been left with a general feeling of frustration - not wonder and amazement, like I would like to have, considering I have had encounters with another species of intelligent beings.

I guess the thing that makes me the maddest is how they come into my life - physically into my home - what is supposed to be my sanctuary - without even asking first. Like I'm a dumb animal that is SOOOO far below them that they can't possibly have a conversation with me first.

I know myself. I think I would have agreed to pretty much anything if a "higher" being came to me and explained what was going on. Am I too dumb to understand? Perhaps. But aren't they supposed to be SO much smarter? Couldn't they take the time to even learn a little of our sign language? Throw up a peace-sign or something, just to alleviate my fears a little? Anything??

I personally think they care about how they make us feel about as much as our scientists and researchers care about how they are making the animals they are studying feel when they take and tag and release them. Not much, not much. They are much more concerned with the data they are collecting to worry with how the creatures they are messing with "feel" about it. And at least some of them - like the ones that work with dolphins and primates and such - are trying, and being successful with communicating with them.

So - we can do it, but they can't? Or won't, most likely. So who is truly the "higher" group of beings here?

And it is not as if I can't wrap my brain around this - I have HAD to in order to function in life. So why all the secrecy? Why not just come down, and instead of standing there all weirdo-like - why not just say "Hello - don't be afraid, we're just here to watch over you" - or something like that?? Yes, it would be freaky - and yes. it would be hard to deal with at the time. But it would be a lot better than the silent treatment that many of us get from them. Leaving us to wonder and try to figure things out for ourselves, with only guesses to cling to as explanations.

I have read that it is because they are not supposed to interfere, but if that's the case - then why are they interfering?? I'd say messing with kids in their homes without their, or their parents, permission is most definitely interfering!

Do they simply not care about how what they are doing affects us? Then I say screw them - screw them very much. How would THEY like if someone did the same sort of thing to them?

Anyway, I wish you all the best. I hope you get some concrete answers someday - but if not, remember that that's ok too. You already know something that others may wonder about for their whole lives, and never know for sure: for better or for worse, we are not alone.

That was great to read, you seem to be sure what you were seeing were when you were fully awake but I think you were experiencing at least partial Astral projections. The first time I had sleep paralysis is the moment my life changed, I learnt meditation and how to induce projections and so on and it pretty much changed my whole life around from getting into trouble on the streets. Anyway I think what was visiting you was not aliens, well I think the image of aliens has heavily saturated your consciousness so you translate what you see into almost alien form. Next time you have one of the experience look for a mirror or raise your hands in front of you.

Anyway I am usually skeptical of people who say they have been abducted or whatever but as your experience sounds incredibly like how my astral projections occur I fully believe in your story. Have you ever self induced an astral projection through meditation before? If not I would be more than willing to give some advice on how to as you will find a load of answers to what is happening.

5.30am for three to four times a week, one of my visitors wakes me up and says " it's time ", I hear the words, normally they do not communicate in words or thoughts, but they know that I can see them and, they will move aside to avoid collision with me, one even performed a sort of clumsy bow to me on one occasion. I know they have been with me since I was little, although only sporadically through the years, they are now around most of the time.

P.S. It is absolutly not time at 5.30 for anything, as far as I know, I usually sleep until 8.00am

The strange thing is you could have been writing from my childhood memories. The same thing happened to me and my younger brother in the uk growing up. Although it later stoped with him and carried on with me.I have been having thoughts lately about being regresssed to see if can remeber anything specfic, wonder if it will help.

(First of all sorry for my english it has many flaws as this isnt my mother language.)

Well it was a good read i red all the story,but not every comments so im sorry about that but there is a limit on how much i can read in a single time

So i want to share you some information i read and want to ask one or two question.

These being(s) you encounter can be seen with your physical eye yet it seems many of your experiences happens to be recorded with not your physical eyes.
So with what?
Well as you know we have different bodies (astral,mental,spirit,etc)and such,so you might know what im talking about.
You know i heard many of the creatures and aliens can disguise as anything you can imagine.And so on.You know they can read out the information from you such as what is the most funny thing for you and what is the most fearsome.
There are stories i heard about alien species that eats fear.Through skin.
Im not sure how this works but i read that they read out the victims mind to find what he fears the most and then they project him that vision intensively to make the victim fear and sometimes die.Then they take the body,and with the spirit gone they can even use it,because the body is in perfect physical shape.

Im just telling this to you because the more you fear the more creature flies there like bugs to light.
I saw you visioning shield that protect you and light,thats good because what you imagine is reality in some level.
Just as your fear.
Subconsciously you creating your reality by these emotions.Just take care to the world you are in.About the bug creature and other creatures you saw i heard there are more then 100,000 species of aliens and many of them identical in a way because of time travel (what means dimension traveling too) so they can be here from different time zones from different step of their evolutions.
What i want to say with all of this is that the guy who you met and looked like an ant can be identified with hard struggle.
But its not a lost battle.
I bet you will have your answers very soon.

I dont know if your disease in the past was related to the being but its said that after spaceships land they bring radiation that can be readed.
Well its another story because not every ship using the same method to travel.But if you have been abducted in the past many timeseven if you dont recall your body could store up the radiation and maybe caused this illness.
So its just natural that these beings healed you and did not let you die.

I dont say you were abducted but you cant be sure,so my final ask is would you accept a regression hypnosis from some educated person to find out what might happened?

Wow........Thank you for your post which I read with great fascination and interest. Great to see a well put together piece of writing, the way you write you should get a book published, I really mean that. I believe every word that you wrote, I was so wrapped up in your text and the way that your words flow in a manner that you want to get to the next bit and more and more.

Your explanation of sleep paralysis is something I believe also happened to me about 5 years ago and I don't want to be put in that situation again if possible.The sleep paralysis event scared the living daylights out of me and I still think about it quite regularly now and can still picture the way I felt, the colours and feeling as though I was being weighed down by some great weight which seemed to go on and on for an age before I blacked out.

I am also glad to know that your health crisis has come to good so far and long may it continue...

All the best to you............

Originally posted by NarcolepticBuddha
reply to post by daaskapital

 

I only brushed upon Carl Jung as I minored in psychology. I will definitely be going back to his archetypes for more research. It is right up my alley!

This "Red Book" has already been suggested to me a little while ago. Two recommendations means that I can't afford to miss it! Thanks for your post.

edit on 14-7-2012 by NarcolepticBuddha because: (no reason given)

Thank you for your post.

A very interesting one i must say! I am yet to experience any type of ET/Alien activity (unless Paranormal stuff counts)...

Thanks for sharing