A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Hi and welcome/welcome back to all our new posters and for those who've been away! You all have no idea how happy it makes me to see people come out of the shadows and say what I know they've been needing to. So, I sincerely thank you for being brave enough to be a part of this.

Anyone else have the issue of when they try to post here your mind tends to go blank? I don't know why it does this but it drives me crazy. I will have all my thoughts in order and ready to go. Then I hit reply and it's like trying to see through a blizzard.

Anyway, I'm doing much better today. In better spirits and awake! All those days of sleeping, I couldn't even do any meditation. It really felt like I was drugged constantly. (I know I wasn't though)

I believe it was Ceri and SeekerofTruth101 - Those two posts were just beautiful. I envy your ability to weave words with such flow and ease. I used to be able to write that way before I came here lol

Also with the warning of the big, rottweiler-like dog. Does this count for this time beng and in the future or does that mean in the past as well? I didn't notice any red eyes but then I didn't get that close. It was many years ago now. Ok, I will just throw in what I saw when I was about 16 to save time later. So, it was about 14 years ago. I was at a friend's house and it was night time, I'm guessing around 10pm or so. They lived around a lot of woods and what not. We had left and were walking to another friend's house. It was only maybe a 15 min walk from there so no big deal. As we were walking we saw this HUGE dog standing under a dim street light down the road a little ways. It looked like a seriously muscular dog. I can't say it's hair was extremely long but way longer than it should be for a rott (I always had rottweilers growing up as a kid). So, we stopped and I was really really scared. I don't know why, I just got one of those feelings where you feel like your legs wouldn't be able to carry you fast enough even if you could get your brain to make them move. It had turned and looked our way (I didn't notice any red eyes) I took a few steps back an then stopped. didn't want to show fear cause if that was a wild dog and it wanted to get me, well it would. Meanwhile my friend is hyperventilating next to me and trying to get me to run. I held onto his arm and just said shhh. After prob another 30 seconds or so it turned and started to trot off diagonal across the street towards the woods. I wasn't willing to take my eyes off of it til I couldn't see it anymore. Now this is the really scary part that made me start to cry hysterically and run back to my friend's house. As it was crossing the street and away from the direct light from the street lamp, it stood up and ran like a human would into the woods. I immediately burst into tears and was back in his front door before I thought could be humanly possible. I stayed there and had my boyfriend come get me and drive me to his house instead. I didn't sleep for days, literally. So, whether that's the same as what is being talked about, I don't know. But I do know I have never been more terrified in my life.

There was so much more I wanted to discuss. I wish I could recall. Sorry this post is all over the place.

Edit: As for the email address thing, I would be fine with that as well. Anyone who wants it, just U2U me.

Love you to pieces
~Tragic~



[edit on 20-5-2010 by Tragic]

I want to write better in english. At least I can explain myself, but my writtings in spanish are rather good... I've won some awards for my short tales.... Now I'm blocked, don't ask me why.

About the doggie, I hate dogs. That's everything I can say. They hate me too.

Two night in a row that I can't remember my dreams... that makes me sad because lately the only joy I get is from them. Winter is almost here so is my birthday, and both things makes me feel bad... Looking back and seeing I haven't done anything in ly life is something hard to bear, and every year is worst...

Originally posted by Caggy
I want to write better in english. At least I can explain myself, but my writtings in spanish are rather good... I've won some awards for my short tales.... Now I'm blocked, don't ask me why.

About the doggie, I hate dogs. That's everything I can say. They hate me too.

Two night in a row that I can't remember my dreams... that makes me sad because lately the only joy I get is from them. Winter is almost here so is my birthday, and both things makes me feel bad... Looking back and seeing I haven't done anything in ly life is something hard to bear, and every year is worst...

Well tomorrow is a good start in changing all this....my serious suggestion is to get a dog, go after what you hate and you will change your life.

reply to post by Tragic


Seriously. Everytime I try to post here, I just can't find the right words to explain. Even right now, I really don't have much to say.

I've been enjoying my life, and you should all try too.

reply to post by Xtrozero


I can't, I live in a flat and my aunt dislikes them too. I want a kitten! but my aunt doesn't want more kittens in the house (she haves good reasons, she still misses her old cat that died by natural reasons, she had her for 17 years)

And always I'm close to a dog, it tryies to bite me. When I was a child, one bite my face. At least it didn't leave any scar, but was painful...

I have to agree with Caggy, never been a fan of dogs, I'm alright with little dogs but the big dogs scare the pants off me

Our neighbours have 4 huuuuuge dogs Though I have managed to be brave recently and actually went and petted them Was also brave the other night with regards to a spider as well, they normally cause me to freeze (phobia) but I managed to calm myself, grab a cup and piece of paper and put it outside

Cats on the other hand, love them, we have 2

As for how I'm been? Rushed off my feet at work for the most part and suffered headaches everyday for the past week or so, think it's just stress/tiredness though. No headache so far today though

Dog with red eyes? No, nothing like that here. Other odd going's on's but no dog

- Phoenix

Yeah, I don't think someone who hates dogs and dogs hate them in return should really go out and get one. That would spell disaster I fear poor Cags would be on the losing end of that battle.
Although I do think he has a small point. Cags, you know how beautiful life can be. Stop to enjoy it. Quiet down that inner voice to just breathe if you can. I know it's really hard at times. You can do it though. You're not a failure because you haven't "accomplished" much. That's silly and those are accomplishments in your eyes. We are always most critical of ourselves. Don't be your own prison warden. I'm sure there are a lot of things you have done that other's haven't. You speak how many different languages? I know of at least 3 now. I can only speak 2, English and French (kinda lol it was a long time ago). If you berate yourself over and over you will only be bringing yourself down, like a self-fulfilling prophecy. I can see the light shine from you. Open your eyes honey, let yourself see it too.

Wow, I must really be the odd one out! I have a pretty healthy fear of cats (was attacked by a couple of wild cats on my grandma’s farm when I was a child). On a regular basis I have nightmares about walking around a corner and being face to face to a growling 6 foot tall house cat ready to shred me to pieces!
I have never owned a cat (my parents were dog lovers) and my friend’s cats, over the years, always seemed so indifferent that I never got to feel very comfortable with them. Dogs-to me-usually seem to be so much more pleasant, needing to be petted and paid attention to (smaller dogs remind me too much of cats).
You know how people say to hug a tree when you feel that you need more energy? I find the same thing from my dogs, their energy seems so pure that hugging them and spending time in their energy field is so refreshing and soothing, uplifts my energy field for a while.
But on a different subject, I too have noticed an increase in annoying headaches this week. I feel so dragged down and heavy. Over the past three years I had developed horribly painful migraines on a very regular basis, strange and uncomfortably realistic dreams, and have noticed a noticeable change in my monthly cycles too (I had always been the same for years and years). I wonder what is going on.

Another Friday Yay!

That means we all managed to make it through another week on this glorious planet. Kudos to you all...What a time to be alive, living this incandescent life.....

As for cats versus dogs, I gotta say dogs. I just love their lust for life and unconditional love. You can go on long walks with a dog but with a cat! I often ask myself "where are the good times?"

Have a great weekend people......

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I'm good with languages, I can speak english and a little japanese (mostly because japanese phonetics are almost identical to spanish). Also I understand portuguese, italian and french. Nothing hard, again, phonetics are almost identical to my mother language (and my mom did a good job teaching me french when I had it in school... she used to talk to me just in french two weeks after my quizzes in school, i hated it, but it worked)

However, it's somehow hard for me to look back... and more to look the "now" and see how all my school mates had finished their careers, had children and they're married... I know that being married and having children isn't for me (at least now) but well, it's a little hard to see how they are "adults", living the adult's life while I'm still in college. Mostly due to money. I want to have a better living and I hate to still being dependant of my parents at 26 (and if everything goes like it's going now, till 29). My career is so time consumptive so I can't even handle a part time job (tried that, failed hard. Too much homework), and my parents just sent me my monthly money last week! They seem to don't give a **** about me from time to time, and ARGH! that makes me mad and sad... Like they were complaining about me not doing anything concrete with my life yet (and my mom asks me when she's gonna have grandchildren every time she talks to me). I'm going to pass this when my birthday comes, as always. And it's just 1 week ahead, so...

I know I'm going to surpass this. It isn't the first time in my life I have been left behind/felt alone (first my dad, then my first stepdad... now my mom) and I'm not dead yet. Sometimes I wonder if it was a good decision to start studying again, but then I think again and see that this was going to be my real path, take a breath and keep walking... I know that I'm going to fulfill my dream of living in Britain and be a good fashion designer, no matter how bad it seems to be the road right now. Calm waters don't make the best sailors, as an african proverb says.


As about cats, I've had a lot on my life. First one when i came living to Chile. It was called Pancho and was the cutest kitty ever. So cute he was stolen from our common yard (in the same flat I live now, we have a big common yard and we let our cats go outside when they want). Then we had another cat, Gonza.... she was at first a "he", and her male name was Gonzalo, then, just Gonza. She was my grand granma's, and no one aside of her and my grand aunt (the aunt I live with now) was able to touch her without being attacked! that cat was vile! She lived nearly 17 years. Meanwhile, when I left this flat to live with my mom alone, we had two kittens, both died very young, no more than 1 year. Lorenzo (the one that lived more) went crazy one day to another and ended killing himself, he jumped from the second floor and died. My mom told me this just last year, and it was in... 1993?... I used to think that he runned away from home and searched him for nearly 5 months .
Some years ago, my grand uncle (my aunt's brother) moved with us for a little time, and he carried his cat, a very big and muscular female kitten called Clara. She was LOVELY! just with me and my uncle. She never came close to my aunt. She was white, so her hairs were noticeable and nearly everywhere. I still found white cat hairs on my winter clothes and my uncle moved out here in 2008. She's still alive and I miss her. I want a new kitty, I tell that to my aunt almost everyday, but she doesn't want one since Gonza died. Now I just can pet the common yard cat, a white and black female cat that uses to talk with me (no, really, I'm crazy but not that much! she meows when I talk to her, and changes expresions, and sometimes she advices me of dogs trying to hunt her by meowing outside my room, so I can let her to jump into my window for shelter!) She doesn't have a name, I call her "Kitten"and she likes that. Ok, now I'm the resident crazy cat lady!

And I've never had dogs. My mom haves one on her house, he's a German Shortaired Pointer. I like him, mostly because it's so old... and my stepdad loves him so much too (he was a hunter's dog when my stepdad was still a hunter, he still hunts little birds in the backyard and leaves them on my mom's door =s). I pat her head time to time and also talk to him. I think that animals really understand what we are saying to them, I have a big empathy with them, bigger with cats and horses than other animals.

EDIT: to write my experiences with animals

[edit on 22-5-2010 by Caggy]

I spoke my spiritual guide last night, it told me that 2012 is NOT! an apocalypse but rather a dimensional shift. What is actually going to be destroyed is the old thinking and ways of living. I can see that there are a lot of people worried about the big change coming up, I just want to tell you all that it will be okay and everyone is going to make it through better for the experience....

A bit off topic but as the words of my spirit guide were still ringing in my ears this morning I thought I better pass it along to the group. I don't know about anyone else here but to know that we aren't all going to die in two years fills me with joy and a re-newed hope for the future....

I'm pulsating with endless love for you all this weekend, the Sun is shining and Mars is with me today.

Keep being the wonderful and brave people you all are......

Just a quick post here to write a couple of things that came to me in my sleep last night. I can't remember what I was dreaming, but I woke up just after I said in my dream to someone, "I'm getting broken into, in my dreams." The response, just as I woke up, was, "I know. Keep going." I woke up long enough to write that down, then went back to sleep. Shortly thereafter, I woke up again, just after getting the message, "Antares. It's coming from that direction." Now, I knew that Antares was a star, but that was all I knew. I just googled it and this is the result.

Wikipedia - Antares

Just interesting that it is the brightest star in Scorpius, since we have that Orion thing going on with so many of us here. Not sure it is important, but it was just such an ODD thing to come to a dream, that I thought it better to share it, even if it means nothing.

Well I finally had a 2012 dream lol. It was pretty surreal. Basically I got a perfect picture of what some call Nibiru on my phone. It had the sun and then in the bottom right corner a smaller second sun. I was going around and showing everyone I knew. Most had no idea what I was talking about so I had to explain everything to them that was behind the whole Nibiru story lol (in the dream I knew a lot, but in real life I know very little). In the end a lot of people were panicking and we were all running to some location. Not sure why; just what we knew to do.

Now that I'm awake it doesn't really make sense as there really isn't anywhere to go to get away from something like that lol.

I don't really buy into all the Nibiru stuff, but figured I'd share my dream anyways.

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Hi Ceriddwen, that's very interesting about Antares. I love reading about stuff like that.

- Dredge

[edit on 22-5-2010 by Dredge]

Hi. I've been lurking the past few weeks reading this thread and finally gave in to the urge to join. I used to have a few abilities but have lost them over the past few months. I now have no abilities. However, I have a friend who are just now getting abilities.I also have another friend who has had them a while and hers are fine too. I am 33 and had abilities my whole life so I feel extremely lost without them. I had always believed before I had them for something that was coming, so I feel extremely vunerable without them. I can't even get protective circle up anymore and my friend knows I'm being blocked but not how or why. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated.Thanks.

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Perhaps you are being tested, your spiritual growth depends on many things. You may be needing to learn how to get by in life without having access to your various gifts. If you have a spiritual guide, they may be testing you in this manner. My advice to you would be, strengthen your concentration by meditating, fill up your positive energy by spending time with nature and doing things that make you laugh or think creatively. It wouldn't hurt to get cleansed by someone you trust either....

Hope this advice helps you buddy.......

Hope everyone is doing alright.

Put on some reggae music and enjoy your life.

I was listening to rain but it stopped =(
I have been OK today, and I can remember last night's dream, so that's good too! It was a stupid dream but hey! I wasn't been able to recall them in a while!

And also I recieved my first bday preent: a VIP ticket for Aerosmith! I really didn't expected it, and I was asumming that I would never see them because I didn't had money and maybe this was the last time they were performing here! But it's all settled, thursday by 6 PM I'm going to rock 'n roll! I love (some) of my friends

reply to post by Caggy


That's wonderful Caggy! I hope you have a wonderful birthday and I am sure you will enjoy the show!

*dances*

- Phoenix