A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Meditation is something I'd love to do, I've tried a few times but I've suffered from constant tinitus since I was young and it ends up trying to drive me up the wall Which incidently it is doing recently, it seems to be getting worse >.<

- Phoenix

Hello people!!

Just going to share a great, GREAT experience I had last night.
Well, I did a cleaning of my room (because I started to sense the same odour that was on my house when I was little and somebody did a black magic spell to my mom.... like rotten meat or something like that, and JUST on my bedroom... and also this is the only place of my flat that my little cousin, 1 year and a half old, NEVER enters, even if I'm here and he loves me. He just stands in the door and calls me to go outside) I broke the "In case of bad feelings, broke the glass" case and took some salt and stuff... in short, my own mom did something like I did yesterday to our house and it fade away in that time, so I think it would be a good idea.
After deep cleaning physically the place (no spiders were harmed, I just set them free through the window.... poor critters, all people seems to hate them but I don't), unplug the PC, TV, radio, and turned off my cellphone, I took 4 small cups and filled them with water and salt, putted one in each corner of my bedroom before sleeping, and lighted a white candle surrounded by sugar and cinnamon. I did some prayers... well, not prayers, I asked with all my willpower to the light beings to help me to clean this place. Burnt some incense too and went into meditation, focusing in the light of the candle, visualizing a big white energy dome all over my room.

And started to feel very gloomy, and there was just 10 PM. As you can see in my older posts, I never go to bed before 3 AM, so this was VERY inusual. And this was just the begining. So, after the ritual finished (my mom just burned the candle for one hour and then she went to sleep) I did the same. And I had two of the best lucid dreams I've ever ha. All of them took place in my room.

1- Here was Lady Gaga (lol, i know, but I'm her fan hahaha) and she started to say that I needed to stop keeping one feet in each side and start to put both in the same place. The first thing I tought was: WTH is Gaga doing in MY room!? and then realized it was a lucid dream so I asked the meaning of this, because I didn't understood it well at first and I tought she was talking about dancing and stuff (I know the Bad Romance dancing and I thought I was doing it wrong) She almost slapped me and said "no, I'm talking about your place. You'll should be or in reality or in the astral, not both at the same time as you're doing now" (weird coming from her, isn't it? hahaha). She was dressed in white, in an outfit I don't know but as her usual, bodysuit, high heels, fishnets and a jacket. She said I was going to understand this as soon as I can, and for now, I should keep focusing on it, as an exercise. She said "may the light be with you, and I'll be watching you, take care. You're a good person"

I woke up suddenly and very thirsty, I sipped some mineral water I had in my night table and noticied that my tummy was aching (yesterday I went to eat some sushi with one of my best friends), so I putted my hands over it and tried to sleep again. It was just 2:30 AM.

2- I said lately that I have a weird attachment to a guy that's somehow famous... and not from my country, and I've had this feeling since I was a child. Well, the second dream was about him. I don't wanna say his name, so I will call him Arthur. He hasn't been having a good time lately so I have been very concerned about this, and because of this crazy link I've stabilished with him I know that he's more depressed than me right now. Ok, He appeared on my room. I was sitting on the bed as I am now, writting in the pc, and suddenly he appeared in the door. eyes open wide, he almost yelled "WTH I'm doing here!? Where am I!?" I left the eyes from the monitor, and looked at him. He seemed to be scared, and well, recalling the last dream, it started to be lucid. And so vivid I could tell it was real (the other one was the same). I left the PC and runned towards him, and gave him a big hug, saying "don't worry, hun, you're ok here. I have been so worried about you lately, and you know, for me is near to impossible to reach you... let's sit for a while and I will try to heal you".
We sitted on my bed. He was wearing brown clothes, like the last time I had a lucid dream about visiting him on his house (it was last week, I mentioned the lucid dreams I had that night with no details, well, I paid him a visit, he was with his wife on his house, again he was scared about my sudden appearence, and said "hey, my wife is going to see you and I'll be in trouble! go away!" and I answered "she cannot see me nor hear me!" and winked., then I woke up...) "Tell me, everything you want. I'm here to listen to you and try to take away your pain, dear..."
He putted his head on my lap, and started to say who depressed he was, and how nobody seemed to understand it, how harsh were the times for him right now, and how pleople were bashing him still. I was passing my fingers through his hair. Then the scene changed.
I started to rant because I was really going to heal him, and that wasn't fair.
Suddenly he appeared again, this time just wearing a towel, like he was taking a bath and something carried him to my bedroom again. The same "WTH!" face but he saw me and smiled. He laid into my bed and I laid next to him. I curled myself and this time was me the one who putted the head on his chest. I said "well, I don't know if you're going to be happy with my help or with another's, but certainly, this is the most important thingm and what you need to take care of" and pointed to his heart. He laughed, but still sad. I standed up and putted my hands opver his chest, and a very, very white light appeared from my hands "this would help you for a while... Please, take care. I will still be sending you light and lov for you to heal soon... I can't stand seeing you so sad and tired (oh wow, I'm so sad and tired and I can't stand others... that's stupid), you deserve to shine, because you made me shine when I needed too". He closed his eyes and smiled, from the inside. "Thank you, Cags, you're really better than I used to think.... I'll be eternally grateful about what you're doing for me... thanks..."

And again, scene change.

And this post reached it's character limit =(... I'm double posting with the end. I really hadn't a lucid dream this vivid in a looong time....

(contd...)

So, He appeared again in my room, but my room looked sightly different. The desk was close to the wall and not my bed, as wen we used to have chairs in this house! (when my uncle left, he took away his chairs too). I was writting on my dream journal, sitted in the side of my bed. He was wearing a suit, and he looked very healthy and happy. He runed towards me and I standed up. We had some eye contact, holded my hand and said "thank you" again, smiling. He hugged me... and I felt very good. A warm white light covered all the room, and again... the scene changed

Then I lost the drive of the dream and weird things started to happen, like me arriving to my house, and my mom being chinese. And me asking why she looked chinese, and looking myself in the mirror and being chinese too and getting angry because I hated chinese people (I don't know why, I'm not xenophobic and i do have chinese friends hahahaha )

I woke up very, very calm and happy, feeling like saying "mission acomplished". My room it's now very calm, but I still need to fdo this thing for 2 more nights as my mom used to do. I am plenty of energy, not like the other days, and not feeling depressed =s. The ambient here is lighter than yesterday for sure.

And now I'm gonna take a nap because I had an apointment with the dentist in the morning and I'm tireeeeeeed! Oh, Tragic, I finally got the appointment with my doctor, for May the 26. I Said that it was somewhat urgent and I needed a closer date, and they are going to call me to tell if they have non confirmated appointments to move mine closer!

Thanks for reading, I'll be back soon. Oh and when we're going to do the massive meditation, people? I'm kinda anxious about that!

[edit on 12-5-2010 by Caggy]

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Hey Caggy, I'm glad you posted this. I am so glad that you feel lighter and feel better than you have. My heart is definitely with you. I really hope you keep going up and don't have any more problems. I am really happy for you.

reply to post by zosomike


Isn't it funny? I have no idea why you don't see colors for some numbers. That's really interesting. You should compare your number/colors with others if you know other people like that. You may get funny stares if you ask them if they have it. Do it like this, it's kinda funny, just say, "what color is 3?" That's a good way to open it up. If they have synesthesia, they will without blinking tell you what color it is. If they don't, they will say "what?" or just stare funny and say something like "what do you mean?" then you will know they don't have it. *chuckle* It really is interesting to me to do that to people.

I wonder, is your favorite number also your favorite color? My fave number is 5 and 5 is green. Green is my fave color.

I don't mean to hijack thread, but tk2dsky asked about it so I figured it was ok to go on with it.

Caggy, that is really awesome to hear you in good spirits. Heh. Wow, look at that. In "good spirits". If you think about it, that really makes sense.

You have encouraged me to clean my supremely messy stinky room. The feng shui is definitely not flowing to its fullest potential in my room.

Also, I overslept today, impossibly. I told myself I was was going to wake up early and go to class. I do not know how the hell I overslept, but I did and I missed my class. But hey, what can I do at this point? Instead of moping around, I decided I am going to dedicate this day to raising my spirits and taking care of myself. College has a way of messing up one's health really hardcore. College is just not doing it for me lately. Will I really need a college degree right when SHTF?

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Who's to say.
But I do know this; Don't chance it. You have been given an great opportunity to better your knowledge. Don't dismiss it for something that is still to come. No one knows the outcome of it yet. You just keep on doing what you do, be aware & present.

~Tragic~

edited cause i can't type lol

[edit on 12-5-2010 by Tragic]

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Ell- I don't think there is much that can derail this thread lol.
It's all over the place all the time but still has connections (as I see it) to the overall idea. Besides, I think we were all interested. I know I was/am.

Cags- Hey, I'm so happy to hear that you're feeling so much better. I try to see it as for the days that are just terrible; it's going to make the good days that much better. It's amazing what a little perspective can do.

~Tragic~

[edit on 12-5-2010 by Tragic]

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Caggy. How about Caggy and Traggy? Does that work?

Anyway, yes Trags,(please tell me if that name works for you, probably not,) I do realize college is an amazing experience and I am very glad to be a part of it. Even though my grades aren't the best, I still gain a lot of knowledge from a wide array of topics. So I do definitely apppreciate that I have the chance to go to college. Cool. Thanks for reminding me of that.

I went through some of the posts, and silently chuckled to myself. I feel this immense wave of peaceful harmony over everybody, at least for the time being.

I am on the downswing of a major breakdown for the past three days. I have had thoughts that I knew were not my own, and that were not conducive to a productive environment. Gosh, I haven't had a freak out that bad in a long time. Kinda scared me in a way, because that's not my style. I'm feeling better now, and I have pushed through it just like I have pushed through all the hard times in my life. It maybe be only a calm before the storm, but I somehow just feel relaxed for the time being.

As far as the mass meditation, may I recommend Sunday night at 11pm Eastern Standard Time (NYC time)? The only instructions that I would give would be to find a comfortable position, close your eyes, focus on your breathing (long steady breaths in, long steady breaths out) and focus on seeing everybody in your mind's eye. Focus on love, light, and just good thoughts. Kinda like Peter Pan! Let's not push it any further than that, and see what happens. I think that with all the doom and gloom in the world lately, I think it is in need of a good 'ole fashioned pick-me-up. Let's raise our happiness levels up, and maybe it will spread.

Let me know what you all think.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

[edit on 12-5-2010 by truthseeker1984]

Hi TS,

Sounds good to me. I'll set a reminder in my phone (only way I'll remember lol).

I can't say I've had as bad a few days as you, but negative vibes have been hitting thats for sure.

Glad to hear it's better now though.

- Dredge

hey sol lol sorry i'm just not down with traggy ... way too close to tranny

Ts - Welcome back dear.

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hehe. Alright. sorry about that. Yeah, it just doesn't have the same flow as Caggy or Cags.

hahaha.

Yep, the Sunday meditation works for me as well.

Originally posted by truthseeker1984
As far as the mass meditation, may I recommend Sunday night at 11pm Eastern Standard Time (NYC time)?

That's what? 4am Monday where I am? I'll (hopefully) be asleep then before work, but feel free to wander dreamwise, I don't bite

- Phoenix

I just wanted to post and remind you all of my awesomeness.
I mean really it knows no boundries. I'm the best ever and you all should be aware that even being in my presence makes you that much cooler by like at least 15%

Love you guys!
~Tragic~

Just want to say that I hold great respect and love for those who have posted in this topic and let it all out...
It's not easy for a lot of people...so I give you many kudos!

It's nice to see so many different types of people coming together and sharing experiences without a ton of skeptics derailing the thread constantly.

I've been on a non-stop learning journey from 2007 'til now...and boy, I am quite the changed person!
It's amazing...the power of knowledge!

@ Tragic well that's a totally given . Your awesomness shines brightly.

I'm in for meditation on Sunday. Could actually really use the time set aside to recenter and share some positive vibes.

[edit on 12-5-2010 by tk2dsky]

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If my source doesn't lie, I have the same hour than NYC, so I'm in. Sunday at 11 PM.

Well, thank you! I'm glad some recognize this
Sorry I'm just feeling absolutely silly tonight hehe.
I hope you guys are all smiley too

And yes, Sunday should be just fine for me as well.

Love you all
~Tragic~

Originally posted by Ellie Sagan
Well I'm still here checking thread all the time. I noticed the slow down too. Even if I don't respond or add much, I am always checking it to see what else anyone says.

I had the thought a couple of days ago that with my flurry of posts I made, it might seem as if I were trying to hog the space. I decided to take a back seat for a few, and then I worked three straight overnights and was so bloody tired afterwards, I slept for hours each day. Off tonight, so I came here to read up.