A Strange Feeling as of Late...

reply to post by amyaaallan


Hey Amy,

Sounds like a rough deal. I can almost feel your fraustration. I also know that feeling of 'something's going on - but I dunno what'. It's confusing, like I SHOULD know why I'm feeling like this.

You seem to be getting it a bit worse than me from what you said, but more recently, I've found that my brother and my girlfriend are 'flying off the handle' really really easily these days.

I've tried to talk to my girlfriend in a really generalised view of how I see this 'reality', but she refuses and just puts this wall up. It's quite sad for me, because I want her to mentally take off that blindfold that everyone wears and start to 'see' what really is happening. When she does that, then we can talk about it together and somehow (in my head) maybe 'break down' a few barriers.

The only solace I find from it is that I guess some souls aren't ready to remember why they're here. They need to continue with 3rd density experiences and rebirth until they come towards the end of their 'mission' and THEN the feelings of where we came from trickle back.

Because of all that, it makes me increasingly glad to be in this community and more specifically, in this thread.

Amy, it's been said before but I'll say it again - the trials that you are going through are just that....trials. But they are trials that you aren't going through alone.
Each one of us is right with you and from that you can draw strength. I have to remind myself of that when I'm backed into a corner. It does help!!!

Much love...

reply to post by Tragic


Tragic,

I've just read your post and have you ever had that feeling of like...a huge surge of emotions like recognition, sadness, happiness, relief, belonging etc etc etc...?
Well that's what hit me when I got towards the end of the post.

I'll tell you something about myself to bring a sort of context to this to see if anyone else is going through it.

I'm a 26yr old fella with a good job and plenty of prospects, a house,a car, a girlfirend and a wee 6 month old kitten.
I've got plenty of friends and a great family, but in the last 6/7 months, I've just had this almost overwhelming sadness that just catches me off-guard, like my heart is gonna burst.

Now I've never tried to be a one of those overly macho type blokes, and I'll admit without shame that we're watchin a movie and a sad part comes up, I'll have a wee cry. I think that's normal for a bloke.

I'm happy in what I do and who I am and also the way my life has turned out , but this overwhelming sadness overshadows it all...!

But then reading the last few para's of your post made me realise what part of, if not all of, this sadness is - (I hope this doesn't sound too crazy) but I miss you all and maybe remember you from before we came into these bodies. Obviously we've all never physically met so I'd not recognise you in the street, but that connection is really strong with everyone who posts here!

I too have an 'old soul' and maybe that's part of it - the feeling of waiting for something to happen - maybe we're in the departure lounge, havin a nice pint of Guinness, waiting to fly home again.

Sorry if went on a ramble there - I'll stop now!

Much love...

reply to post by truthseeker1984


Hi Truthseeker,

Yesterday afternoon, without any warning, it felt as though all my chakras had opened up. It was a bit like rapidly phasing in and out of reality and being connected then disconnected to everything. Physically I felt a bit dizzy and mentally a bit anxious but spiritually, I had the distinct feeling something very important is going to happen soon - how soon, I don't know.

My partner noticed my anxiety and could feel the energy coming off me when we met up after work and suggested that I try and close down my chakras. I tried but it didn't work. When I arrived home, not even a meditative bath helped and I went to sleep with all chakras blazing.

I had a very strange dream last night and it seemed incredibly real. I won't go into detail about it because I am still trying to process it and also, some aspects are very personal and intimate.

Thank you for bringing this thread into existence and to our consciousness. It's great to know I'm not the only one feeling these changes.

Good morning everyone, I hope the night hours (or even daylight for those of you from further east) have treated you well.

Amy, I'm so sorry for the way things have been going for you recently. I do know what you mean. Seems like everyone is just about at boiling point and will lose it over nothing. People being very spiteful and hurtful and all you can do is stand back and say, "did this seriously just happen? And over what?" *nods* All I know how to do (other than the other day when I blew up) is to try to understand that they are frustrated and not knowing why themselves. I think that we as a whole here may have an upper hand because we at least recognize the fact that existance itself is off balance. Or maybe righting itself after being off for so long. For those who aren't seeing or feeling this. Well, I try to remind myself they're confused and scared. Like animals when these things happen and you feel backed into a corner people tend to lash out. I hope this makes sense. I hope you take your couple days off and reconnect with yourself as much as possible. Relax and remind yourself that we're here with you. I believe staying positive, while incredibly hard at times is vital right now.

mike, exactly! I was considering this same thing just the other evening. But yes, it seems or feels like when I walk away from this to do whatever I need to do ... This sounds stupid but I don't even care at this point. It feels like walking away from old friends or close family that you've been missing for so long. Sometimes the sadness that washes over (not just in consideration of the people here but for seemingly no reason sometimes) is so close to unbearable. But there are a few people here in particular actually that seems like I know them, like I have known them all along. How strange is that. I feel a connection like I can't even explain with everyone here but these certain people, well it's just a little stronger if that makes sense. It's all very eerily familiar. I can honestly say I am thankful each and everyday that so many here have put aside the fear of looking silly or nuttier than squirrel poo and just let our experiences breathe and resonate with one another.

On a side note of sorts - Last night I had taken my sleeping pill (otherwise I won't sleep at night) and gone to bed. I woke up and I could see... Let me think of another way to phrase that, it doesn't sound right. Ok, I woke up and my eyes were still closed but I could see all around my room and it wasn't light as though a light had been turrned on, nor as though the sun had risen. More like my eyes had grown accustomed to the dark very well. I thought I had opened my eyes for a moment until I intentionally went to close them and go back to sleep. Little did I know they were closed already. I took a few moments and soaked in the whole WTF factor. I opened my eyes then and everything was a bit more clear, like defined. I closed them again and I could still see. After quite a few times of this experiment I got out of bed. I don't know what this was all about. I wasn't dreaming, I stayed awake for a while after that cause I was just so confused. Got a shower, drank a glass of water and stepped outside for a few minutes. Then after relaxing a bit I went back to bed and didnt have the experience again. Anyone else have this happen ... ever? Please tell me I haven't finally completely lost my grip.

Hugs
~Tragic~

[edit on 30-4-2010 by Tragic]

reply to post by Tragic


Nah, you haven't lost it mate - when I'm getting ready to TRY to sleep, I close my eyes, but it's like....I can't physically 'see' our bedroom, but more that I'm 'aware' of a mental map of it and I can see that mental map.
Then when I allow it to expand, I'm above the house, rising and rising, but expanding as well and seeing my surroundings but I always lose that feeling and I'm instantly 'back' in the bed.

But on the 'seeing wtih your eyes shut' experience - this doesn't happen for me until I've been trying to drift off to sleep for a good hour or more.
Then I don't see just 'dark' anymore, it's like physically viewing someone/something, but not in daylight (as it were). Like everything as far as geometry goes is properly defined, only its not as you would see things with proper colour in daylight.
Very hard to put into words.......sorry!


But back to the point - you're not losing it mate.


Much love...

[edit on 30/4/10 by zosomike]

Originally posted by Tragic

On a side note of sorts - Last night I had ... gone to bed. [...] Ok, I woke up and my eyes were still closed but I could see all around my room and it wasn't light as though a light had been turrned [sic] on, nor as though the sun had risen. [...] Anyone else have this happen ... ever?

Please tell me I haven't finally completely lost my grip.

Hugs
~Tragic~

[edit on 30-4-2010 by Tragic]

Not at all Tragic. This has happened to me on multiple occasions. I'll be lying in bed and then I will start to see the room in like a blue to green light glow. Yes, my eyes were closed on all these occasions, in fact on a few I clenched my eyes tight and the same thing occurred.
So, the only way to describe it, is a view from the third eye. The walls are there, but translucent, glows a light blue to green, and I can almost make out what is on the other side of the walls and the sort.
It can be unnerving when one is trying to sleep and cannot not because of the view.

I am very interested in the Chakras being "Blown full open". Could you describe this in more detail?
There have been times when my Heart Chakra has been like an energy vortex just blowing out energy (which feels absolutely great, kinda like when the third eye starts to tickle, but more intensive). I describe the heart chakra energy blow as a "golden glow". I hope that makes sense. It would seem that spiritual energy feels different to each soul. Some of my friends would describe the energy in terms of tempature, while others would describe it as electrical, vibration or the sort. I describe the energy in terms of Buzzing.

[edit on 4/30/2010 by Skada]

Hello everyone!

I can't believe I made the mistake of not checking this thread for a few days! I actually feel very thankful to the OP and all of you here, just because talking about this stuff feels so good. I mean good as in when you have gone your whole life making an effort not to talk about it. So a big Thankyou to you all!

There are so many chunks of the jigsaw falling into place for me in this last week or so. It started last week when I was thinking no 'weird' stuff had happened for along time. I have also been trying to concentrate on career stuff (mostly to please other people :@@ for the last 6 months and suppressing anything 'weird'.

Well last week I was driving down the motorway with my significant other when I remembered a dream I had the night before of us crashing and losing control. I promptly related this (because it was an unusual type of dream for me and I usually remember dreams on waking) and told him to drive carefully and not to go too fast....The weird thing is I actually felt compelled to share this dream. Twenty minutes later one of our tyres exploded and we were out of control!

In the end everything turned out fine and no-one was injured. It's sounds cheesy but I had the feeling that this incident was meant to get my attention and redirect me on a particular path. I just couldn't ignore that I had dreamt the exact scenario and neither could my partner. I then started a trawl on the interwebs that ended more or less with this thread!

To those of you who feel distracted, I sympathise. I'm not getting anything useful done in the real world at the moment. One thing I am sure of instinctively is that we are meant to keep our selves well and comfortable in the 'real' world. It's a balancing act and we won't be any use if we get totally depressed or frazzeled because we are trying to exist in two worlds. I know it's hard, it's so easy to put your head in the sand. I know more and more people who have been to all intents very rational and logical, that are experiencing this too at this time. It's unsettling for them.

I want to comment on some issues that have been raised in the last few pages; On the issue of genetics, this is something I have discussed before in relation to 'alien abductions'. The reason I put this in parentheses is because I have no solid conclusion as to whether alien abduction is simply that and that's a whole other thread. As a matter of interest I am a pretty even mix of scottish, english (Lancashire, Yorkshire, Norfolk), irish and welsh, as far as I can trace.

The issue of children has been mentioned too. Weirdly I discussed this with a friend at the weekend who also feels the same. I'm in my early 30's and have no intention to have children. My intuition tells me that this would be totally incongruous with my 'job' in the coming years.

Apologies if I've rambled but please understand in my 30 odd years I've only met one person that I could really open up to.

Namaste.

Wow everyone. I am so glad to see this thread pick up again and I am even happier to see all the new posters.

Crazy stuff has been happening to me as well. I also experience the closed eye visual of my room. Like others said, its like seeing the geometry of the room. It's pretty damn cool actually.

Also wanted to bring up a seriously strange incident last night. I was drifting off to sleep, and in my mind, a reality was being played out. It was me with another person, and it was a very real dream/thought. The other person said, "this might sound weird, but I feel like I have been here before and seen this before." and then I woke up. It was like I was between realities and it was intense.

I felt like it was a very significant moment that I was living in that other world. and what the person said in that dream/thought was very interesting. It was like a deja vu type of thing. Crazy.

This thread is truly amazing. Keep it up everyone.

reply to post by Tragic


I know what you mean about the kids. I really hope that they are going to be ok whenever whatever this is that is coming actually happens. I believe that we are put where we are supposed to be, so that we can do what needs to be done. I don't like to believe that some of us are put here to suffer, die, or what have you, so that others may gain understanding, growth, strength, or whatever. I don't like to think that maybe I or my loved ones might be the ones who need to suffer, but if not us, then who? It wouldn't be good for everyone else either, so I guess that is me being selfish. I worry for my kids all the time though and they are older and able to take care of themselves now.

I know I have a lot of people on here that I can trust to discuss these things, but it is making life difficult for me and my husband. I think he knows that I am going through something, but he is having a rough time too with other stuff. We don't know how to help each other. He's stuck in the material world and I'm stuck in the .... ?..... I don't know.... other world? I agree with you Tragic... UG!

reply to post by Raczek


Raczek, I'm glad you posted. I am glad you are here, and I don't think it was a real accident that you clicked. You are one of us now...mwahahah... just kidding. But really, I think it's good that we have a way to find and support each other. I relate immensely to what you said about being tired of the world, and people and whatever... just everything. I used to be so cheerful all the time, people used to call me "smiley". Now it's an effort for me to be optimistic. That is soooo not me. I am very childlike also, but again, it is not so easy for me now. I hate this feeling. I am still seeing the flashes of light but not the spiders anymore. The lights are just nothing to me now. At first they amused and amazed me, but now when I see them I just see them as nothing weird. So anyways, nice to have you here.

Originally posted by zosomike
reply to post by Tragic

 

But then reading the last few para's of your post made me realise what part of, if not all of, this sadness is - (I hope this doesn't sound too crazy) but I miss you all and maybe remember you from before we came into these bodies. Obviously we've all never physically met so I'd not recognise you in the street, but that connection is really strong with everyone who posts here!

I too have an 'old soul' and maybe that's part of it - the feeling of waiting for something to happen - maybe we're in the departure lounge, havin a nice pint of Guinness, waiting to fly home again.

This brought tears to my eyes. I have mixed feelings... ok, I mean mixed thoughts. My feelings tell me there is something to that statement you just made, but maybe my brain is still in the way?

I just learned recently what a soul mate is. I used to think it had to do with romantic love, but really it is just a soul that you knew in other lives. According to this theory or belief, as I understand it, we tend to group with our soul mates so that we can learn, do, or correct something that we didn't get a chance to when we were together before. Just a thought. All I know is that I had an immediate reaction to your words about us maybe missing each other. And what you said about meeting on the street... I wonder if we would just know something, just a feeling that we knew each other. I think it's interesting that I have met people that I felt like I'd known all my life, even though we just met. Another thing I've felt like is that I miss God. Like I was with Him and want to get back with Him again. In my Christian upbringing though, when I mentioned it to someone, they adamantly stated that my feeling wasn't true or accurate. They said that I was a new soul and wouldn't have been with God before. Well I guess I'm just rambling on now. But I will restate this: I think you may be right. Oh yeah and I'll have a Labatt's please.

[edit on 30-4-2010 by Ellie Sagan]

I have also never been so irritable, rude, and impatient in my entire life...... it is like I don't even know myself right now...... I am a real selfish jerk latley, and that is the opposite of the real me.....

reply to post by Ellie Sagan


I miss God too...... He/she, must be so sad with me right now, as I said I have not been myself lately..... I am just lost in some flow that isn't mine....

reply to post by zosomike

but I miss you all and maybe remember you from before we came into these bodies. Obviously we've all never physically met so I'd not recognise you in the street, but that connection is really strong with everyone who posts here!

I too have an 'old soul' and maybe that's part of it - the feeling of waiting for something to happen - maybe we're in the departure lounge, havin a nice pint of Guinness, waiting to fly home again.

I miss you all too, and I don't even know why. Zoso, what you said really tugged my heart strings.

Something always told me from the age of 3 (my first real memory) that this would be my last lifetime here on Earth to get it right. But something also tells me that I was never on "Earth" to begin with. The things I have felt and the things that I have seen in my life have seemingly led up to this point. You are spot on in your observation. I also feel like we're in the departure lounge, drinking a nice ice-cold Guinness, and waiting to fly home for the last time....




...wherever home may be.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

I just had the craziest dream. It was so real.
I literally could not wake up. It was a nightmare and I could not wake up.

I finally woke up, but that wasn't real either.

And then I woke up, and thought I was still dreaming.

That's the point I'm at right now. I literally just woke up.

Okay, I calmed down now. But still, that was a crazy dream.

Now this world feels different and the strangeness feeling is off the charts. Damn, what is going on?

reply to post by SolarE-Souljah


It sounds strange but what I found helps with that situation is actually going back to sleep for a little bit if you can. It almost seems like a 'reset' when you do this. Well, to me it does anyway. I hate that feeling you're talking about. I hope you come out of it soon.

~Tragic~

Okay, I've been feeling much better since my last post.
Everything is alright now.

Yup.

Hey Sol, so glad to hear you're feeling better. Those moments can be so brain scattering.

I'm so forgetful lately. I completely forgot to say thank you to those of you who backed up my 'seeing' experience with your own. So, thank you so very much. I still hate to say the things that happen cause I feel like I'll look crazy. But then there someone is reassuring me and sharing right along.

I think I'm going to try to find a reader of some sort soon. Trouble is finding a real one and not a sham, ya know? Can never have too many opinions or insight I figure. Anyone have suggestions on finding one that is legit?

~Tragic~

As I'm sitting here tonight, I am outside under the stars, just taking them in as they are....and I know that at least 3 of you are doing the exact same thing right now. How do I know? I feel it. It's the strongest connection that I have probably ever felt in my life.

I really wish that we all weren't so far apart. I have an intense need to just see everybody in person just once.

I've been pondering all night why I was brought to this point in my life, why I decided to start this thread, and why you are all along for the ride. I have yet to find a reason outside of that we needed each other somehow.

I have always been the person in my group of friends that was the level-headed, go to guy for questions about anything and everything. I was always looked to for the answers, because (by what I have been told) my opinions and advice really did matter. I have been leader, secret adviser, mentor, etc. I just question why that has always been the case? One of my favorite professors once told me that some people are destined to be leaders, and some people are just destined to be followers. Being a spiritual man himself, he told me that he knew I was a natural leader, but also knew that I was reluctant to take up those reigns. He explained to me that being a leader requires an amount of maturity and responsibility that doesn't leave much time for anything else. So far, I feel like I have failed in some respects. However, all of you give me new purpose to go out and hunt for answers and clues to the mysteries that are around us. I have been validated, through all of you, in my feelings and beliefs. And while I cannot foresee what will happen to all of us, I think that by being unified, we will all be okay in the end.

(before I go on, I'm sorry if this seems like a journal entry. I've been really deep in thought today, and I decided that I would put my thoughts down here for you all to read, because I'm feeling vulnerable for some reason, and I felt like you would all understand)

I wish I could somehow arrange a meeting in a central location so that we could all meet for a few days, swap stories, pass the positive energy, and as Zoso said, share a pint or two. Maybe someday this will happen. I really hope it does, because I consider all of you part of my extended family.

Anyway, yeah. Those are my thoughts for the evening. I just had to get them out, because I'm going to attempt to sleep soon.

Take care all of you.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker