A Strange Feeling as of Late...

I experienced something very interesting with one of those flashes of light that we have been seeing. One was so bright that it left an afterglow effect! It totally helped me disprove that these flashes are afterglows or eye malfunctions. They are actual flashes of light that produce afterglow affects in the eye. I think that is very interesting.

Ok, this is just terrible.

I haven't been on for a couple days now, I think. Ug. I can't focus. I myself feel blurry. that sounds crazy.... I tried to read the last couple pages of posts and i feel like i'm faling over the words without taking any in. I slept a solid 10 hours last night. I feel like I don't make sense. Not that my words don't make sense (which right now maybe they don't) but as though instead of a word's letters beng jumbled ... it's me instead. Does this make sense?

Crikey
~Tragic~

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Yeah, you make sense to me. No worries.
What else have you been experiencing lately? any more flashes of light?

Alright, I took some time and tried to gather myself so I hope this post goes well. If not, well ... I apologize.

Anyhow, first of all, I want to to say welcome, welcome, welcome to all of the new posters here recently. Everytime I see someone new posting I just want to burst with happiness.

Now, onto other things. Ok, I personally had never seen one of the "spiders" that were being spoken of towards the beginning of this discussion. Last night changed that. It looks like a white kind of erm .. 'sparkley' spider? Almost like it's made of a ton of different colors but it comes out being white and just brilliant? I saw that last night. It made me stop and I just stared at where I had caught the glimpse of it on the wall. I was quite taken aback.

There are so many things to touch on with all these new, questions. So, I am 30. Just turned 30 in January actually. I have always been a night owl and yes the more restful sleep during the day is a definate. I don't know why it's like this and oh how I wish I could take advantage of it. But I have children who keep me busy and it wouldn't be right to sleep my time with them away. I feel as though I need to spend as much time with and for them as I can. I've always been this way to a point I suppose but it seems greater now. Which brings me to the topic of people being single with no kids. That's the one thing about all this that truly frightens me. What happens when TSHTF to the kids. Just UG! and this from truth -- "

I'll leave you with a quote from one of my new favorite songs.

"Teach the children quietly,
for some day, sons and daughters
will rise up and fight while we stood still..."

We may indeed be the sons and daughters. "

I honesty hope that we are the sons and daughters so that the children of the world can be just that. They grow up and have so much on their plates already. It breaks my heart.

What else? Oh, I'm not really familiar with my lineage but I do know that i am part Irish, German and English for sure. The rest I would have to do my homework on. I sort of left my family (as in my mother and siblings) at 17 and haven't spoken to any but my little sister since then. It just wasn't where I belonged.

I feel as though I'm missing a lot of things in this post. I'm still scattered I suppose. Although I'm happy I can focus at all right now. Oh the anger issue! You know what's crazy is I'm a pretty relaxed person and I try to see the how's and why's of situations before I let myself get upset. What happened yesterday though was so out of character. A friend of mine got into a huge fight over nothing. To me it sounded like she was getting an 'attitude' and I just completely lost it. I'm ashamed to admit I literally screamed at her and just let her have it. Don't feel too bad for her though. She in turn freaked on me and it was a good thing we were only on the phone and not speaking in person. This is SO NOT ME. I don't know. And yes, I apologized for my behavior as did she.

Ellie, if you ever want anyone to chat with or really discuss things with you can use my U2U anytime you want. I know what you mean by reg everyday people/friends not wanting to discuss things of this nature.
Also, on a side note, I know I have a really old soul. I feel fine physically other than tired as hell. But for as long as I can remember I always felt like I never belonged in my age group and would place myself around older individuals whenever possible.

I wish I could hug every single one of you right now. This gathering will never cease to amaze me. I am in awe.

~Tragic~

edited again for some things i forgot to add.
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Not at all. I know when I'm having a "real" migraine, and a "spiritual" migraine. This is not a real migraine, and I haven't ever been a real big sufferer of the real type.

I am relatively new to this forum, and usually focus on different topics, not sure if it was an accident now, but I “accidently” clicked onto your thread, and started reading.

First could you clarify what would you consider, or how could “spiritual” migraine be identified.

Excuse my ignorance, I am a beginner in a “spiritual world”, consider myself very intuitive, especially with human interaction, I can sense a person who will cause problems to me or my family, and I am nearly 99% right. I do meditate, and if I can shut down the “chatterbox” in my head, I am capable to relax and calm myself. Recently I have done some test for remote viewing capabilities, and “hit” some things. I do not consider myself gifted, this is basic stuff, however for last few months I have really started to re invent myself spiritually, getting back to the basics.

Yes, I have a severe migraines of the right lobe, it is weird as I hardly ever got migrenes, and never in the morning. My sleep patterns are mess, and I also feel like hit by the train in the morning, that plus unbearable lower back pain. I consider myself to be in good physical condition, feel like a kid inside even thought I just turned 30.

I know that repeating after others does not look good, especially on this forums, but I do see flashes in my lateral vision. I do focus on them when I walk my dog, as this is a quiet time for me. During the day, there are flashes and black spots, at night (I usually stare at the night sky, looking for something in there), I see small flashes with the corner of my eye, like I star would lit and died for a quick second.

My inner compass is messed up to, especially when I talk about directions, and I am inside.

The only think that I would like to add from myself, I have been feeling mentally tired. Tired of this reality, tired of this world, people. I get upset thinking about what is going all around the world, thinking how shallow we are. People around me feel that I act weird, I am no longer so cheerful, and tend to mention things that people usually do not feel like talking about in social situations.
I want to escape, not sure where, I am hoping that life on Earth will change for better, but do not see how can we do it on our own, without help from the outside.

I am sorry, I did not mean to be so gloomy, but figured that since we talk about our experiences, I should share with this last one.

Again, I am not an expert in a spiritual field, therefore cannot provide any explanation to all that. Hope that someone will.

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Raczek, please don't apologize for being aything. Your posts, thoughts, ideas and experiences are all always welcome here. I too have been getting intense migraines on my right side. Sometimes so badly that I vomit. (I know that's gross, sorry heh). And as far as everythign else goes; honey, you're not alone, not by a long shot.

~Tragic~

reading the other posts, a doubt popped out on my head: what do when this "things" start to interfere with our daily routine?
I NEED to pass those 2 courses, but I'm about to fail them again due non-attendance to class... I have those courses both in mondays, starting by 8:30 AM (I need to travel half city to reach my college, so I need to wake up till 6 AM) to 7 PM... and well, it has been 2 weeks since I stopped to go... Last week it was because I was unable to sleep, the other because I had weird dreams and woke up like crazy that night...
I live partially alone and I'm setting 3 different alarm clocks to wake up at time and still sometimes I just CAN'T get up...

I really don't know what to do =s, I'm so puzzled about this. Any sugestions?

Originally posted by Caggy
I'm setting 3 different alarm clocks to wake up at time and still sometimes I just CAN'T get up...

This is the worst and has totally happened to me on many occasions. I have to compulsively check my alarm clocks like 10 times before I go to bed to make sure they are on and working, and then I check them again.

Caggy, What I have been having to do is have people call me around a certain time to make sure I'm awake. There are so many days my kids either missed school all together or were late due to my not being able to wake. I keep a phone right by my ear and it's loud. When I had my cell phone I would also put that on vibrate and oh boy this is going to sound weird but just lol whatever. i would put it on my chest and so when it would vibrate when someone called to make sure I was up ... well it would scare me awake.

There were a couple of times I was so out-of-it-tired that I would wake up finding myself sitting up on the sofa with the television on. I would have absolutely no memory of getting there or turning on the tv. It was beyond odd.

~Tragic~

There are so many things to touch on with all these new, questions. So, I am 30. Just turned 30 in January actually. I have always been a night owl and yes the more restful sleep during the day is a definate. I don't know why it's like this and oh how I wish I could take advantage of it. But I have children who keep me busy and it wouldn't be right to sleep my time with them away. I feel as though I need to spend as much time with and for them as I can. I've always been this way to a point I suppose but it seems greater now. Which brings me to the topic of people being single with no kids. That's the one thing about all this that truly frightens me. What happens when TSHTF to the kids. Just UG! and this from truth -- "

What are the odds that two Aquariuyses, both borne in January and just turned 30 post on the same forum, speaking about similar experiences.
I don't have kids, but try for one, and I am worried what is going to happen, and if I am capable to take care of my wife and future kid, if anything should happen.

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Look at edge of a white wall or the lines in a baseboard. You will notice a vibration visually. We're moving into a new dimension.

reply to post by Raczek


It certainly is a great responsibilty, isn't it?
And the similarities here between all of us ... well, it's humbling, imo.

~Tragic~

yeah, I have given up on the sleep thing and stopped trying to fight it.....

I also notice that I need as bright of light as possible when I am up all night, and as dark as possible in the day...... whacked out....

That does seem odd but then again who of us can say what strange really is anymore. I hope you get some rest soon. I am off myself to go make a pointless effort of sleeping. Oh, yes I will sleep. But really why waste the time when you wake up feeling so bleh? It just seems silly. I just keep hoping one of these times will do the trick heh.

Sweet dreams

~Tragic~

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Wow, so many new posters. I am completely humbled and honored to have all of you newcomers to this thread.

Raczek,

You are not alone my friend. Things are progressing so fast right now, it's no wonder that more and more people are waking up at an accelerated rate. Don't worry about "copying" others in this thread. It was created as a safe haven for those of us who needed to express our views and our feelings toward what is happening in the world.

I'll try to answer as many questions as I can, but you'll have to forgive me if I forget one or two, because my mind is very scattered right now.

Spiritual migraines. Well, I personally know what they feel like. It feels as if my entire body is vibrating, starting at the crown of my head, and working its way down through my back and into my legs and finally out my toes. It is one of the worst pains I've ever felt in my life. Being an outdoorsman, I have put plenty of fishing hooks, knifes, sharp rocks, etc. through my body, most of the time having to extract them using a sharp knife, and then self-suturing the wound afterward (I carry a mini-trauma kit in the back of my truck now, as I never know when I'm going to need it). The pain I feel when I have an intense spiritual migraine is about 100 times worse than that. That is about the best as I can explain it.

The tiredness I think we can all relate to. I cannot wake to my alarm anymore, and it's making substitute teaching (which I'm doing right now) really hard with 5am wake up calls, after a 2am bedtime, with around an hour of staring at the ceiling.

As far as your "change of heart" in your personal affairs---i.e. talking about subjects such as this and getting weird looks, tired of humanity, etc., well, I think this is a normal feeling between most of us here. I knew from the day I had my first rational thought that this world would not be far from the end. I knew I was born with a purpose, and once I fulfilled it, I would be off this stinking rock. Yes, I get very aggravated with people in general, and I get aggravated at the shallowness of our culture and of humanity as a whole. I'm tired of the lying and stealing in Washington, and I'm tired of this existence as a whole. I don't think you sound gloomy at all.

I think we are finally seeing what is really happening "between the lines." If there are this many of us already, there have to be more out there.

I started this thread to air my own concerns about what I felt was going on, and I have gotten a much bigger response than I ever thought I would. This means something. It's empirical evidence for something bigger in the works. At this point, I am going to rule out politics, global affairs, the economy, etc. as a cause for what we are all feeling. This goes so much deeper than that now. We all jumped head first into the rabbit hole, and now we're seeing how deep it really goes.

I think I can speak for everybody by saying how glad we all are that you joined our thread. I think each of us brings something different to the table, and by doing so, we get closer to resonating truth. I have my own suspicions, which I have stated in this thread already. However, I'm starting to wonder if things have changed since I first formulated my theory on what is going on. Things on the "other side" don't feel the same way that they did before. However, it might just be the eye of the storm.

But to end, just stay true to yourself, take care of your girl, and keep coming back to this thread, because we are stronger together than we are apart. If you ever need to privately talk to someone, just pick any one of us in the thread. I can safely say that we can all relate, and that we can all help you through it. Be strong my friend.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

Hello everyone!
Long time lurker, first time poster.
I’ve been following this thread since the beginning, and I thought I should actually, ya know, log on and add my .02

First, I want to say a huge “Thank You!!” to TS for starting this thread, and also to all the lovely posters who have added to the discussion for the past two months now.

I feel a lot of what I might say has been said already—which is really awesome because I have felt slightly less crazy (only slightly) after having read your experiences.

Definitely feel that the energy is different these days. I feel like I’m vibrating half the time, not shaky, just seems like I feel my own energy differently too. I have had the dark, spidery stuff in my periphery—though not for a few weeks. My body wants to sleep in the middle of the day, which unfortunately doesn’t happen often. When I’m able to nap during the day, that’s when I have really interesting dreams and the occasional brief OBE (which previously was extremely rare for me). Not having anger issues so much as annoyance issues. My BS meter is super sensitive right now and I can’t stand watching the news or listening to people talk nonsense with the bemused tolerance I used to have.

I could keep going with all of the things I’ve been noticing or experiencing that I’ve seen posted here, but what I resonate most with is the feeling that something is coming. A big something, that I need to be prepared for. I’m not afraid of it, actually kind of excited. I find it very difficult to guess what is going on, but I have felt so strongly that I need to get things in order—inside and out. I’ve made lots of changes in my life just since the first of the year, and all toward simplifying, getting rid of what is not necessary anymore. My new favorite activity is sitting outside, just watching the ultimate reality show. Trees rustling and and bending in the breeze, ants busy doing ant stuff, my dogs laying in the sun and sniffing the air…good stuff.

Lineage wise, I’m mostly Native American (Cherokee and Choctaw) and German, with some Irish and Dutch in there somewhere. I’ll be 35 in June (that felt really weird to write).

Stay strong, my friends. And thank you again for the encouragement.

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Welcome to the crazy house!!!!

I'm honored that you decided to post after reading my thread. It really does humble me to think that my meager little posting would have such an impact and cause such ripples.

Yes, you are quite welcome here in this thread.

As I just said, there IS something going on. I personally think that it will be a spiritual battle with physical means, but that is only my own theory. I only wish that I could find others out there that are experiencing the same things. When I talk to what I call "normal people," (you know, the ones with the glazed over, deer in the headlights look?) I don't mention any of this, because they are not prepared for anything, nor would they listen to me even if I tried. My BS meter has always worked, even from when I was a small child, and it gets even better the older I get. I'm currently 27 now.

It's interesting that you are of Native American lineage! Do you know anybody in your family that does cultural practices? A very good, and very old friend of mine is an Iroquois Shaman. He's 92, and still kicking as if he were in his early 20's. He had some very interesting views on what is going on, but I touched on that about 10 pages ago, so I'm sure you have already read about it.

Anyway, I need to cut this short, as the hours are ticking by, and I'm not tired at all....I'm starting to think that maybe I should start doing graveyard shift work...I feel like I would be more productive then! Stay strong my friend.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

Thank you for your welcome Tragic!
So a spiritual migraine could be the same as feeling as though you have the flu, achy all over? I wake up with those quite often.

Well, I am not sure if my migraine falls into a category of spiritual but it is the right lobe only and it does hurt like hell.

Anyway, I am a bit afraid of the upcoming change, I feel that it is coming and honestly, pray for it but still afraid that I will not be able to help others especially the people I care the most to cope with it.
I am afraid that part of the humanity who did not mentally prepared for the change will be acting in non human like manner. This will affect me as I will be forced to act the same way in order to protect my family.
Hope I express myself clear enough.

I am Polish, born and raised, moved to US 10 ago. I think my predecessors are polish too, without any foreign influence .

I am tired now and just about to ready to go, but I know I will wake up in the middle of the night, my senses will scan in a search for something out of extrodinary and maybe even my imagination kick in, but at the end it will be still the same room, the same environment, and I will get angry because I was hoping that something unusual woke me up.

Well, I do sound like a lunatic, there is no doubt about it, but frankly I do not care.

I do not dream, and if I do I do not remember what about. If I remember, I can clearly see that the dream was influenced by my imagination, or my “secondary male brain” .
Shouldn’t all spiritual types dream?

Hi All,

As I am writing this I am shaking! I do not know why? I had a bad day, but, this is well, INTENSE!

I feel like something is happening right this minute and I am just freken out? This is the time I do NOT like being empathic at all! When something is happening, but you do not know what and from where?

Anyways, ya, TS, it was really odd that my boss said that! And today it was bad
I wanted to say that my boss is female and she is a healer!? Ya? ODD right??????

Anyway, today I got what my friends have ben going through

I go into work and my boss who gave me prime shifts took them away and gave me two that are not prime and she begrudgingly gave me one prime shift?
It was SO odd? I am a diligent worker and get repeat business, up-sells etc..,
I was hurt and have no idea IF it is a direct result of THAT conversation we had that I spoke of that upset you?

Then I went over my shift by 10 minutes and was balled out twice by the same person?

I was like "REALLY?"

It just seems people want anything they can find to just VENT, and unfortunately because they do not know the what or the why they are just losing it on anyone they can!

I am just glad that I have several days off to just BE!

Also, my friend was robbed yesterday at her place of business, it was not a break in or anything, but her co-worker was mad that she had no business and my friend did so she made my friend give her 5$ out of her 20$ tip?


WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?

I just feel like crying?

I feel like if you are a sensitive or opening now, those who are not are somehow taking it out on us? Is that odd or paranoid?

I am sorry to post such a caca post tonight, but I am just feeling it through and through right at the moment


I feel a little better though


Amy