A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Everyone knows they are feeling “something”. Not everyone can describe it and some use their own coping mechanisms as we all see here.
I would just ask everyone to have an open mind on what is “coming”. That means if a decision comes and you have a choice to act you need to let go of your life’s training that says it will all just work out and ignore whatever it is. Have preparations, food fuel, a plan.
Please don’t think what is coming as sign of peace and tranquility, have an actionable plan for you and your loved ones.
Please.

reply to post by Steve8511



Starting around 1997 ish , I was working in my Dry Cleaners 14-16 hours a day, as my business grew, i would spend many hours listening to the radio and let me say ART BELL was one of my favorite programs. As time went by I really believed many things that were proposed, UFO's Sascuatch, Shadow people ect.. but the one thing that really "caught me up" in concern, was the Y2K fear... it started lightly in my mind, but as more and more people claiming to be EXPERTS, or "in the know" came forward with "evidence" my worry grew..
I remember telling my wife about my thoughts on how we should become "prepared" and she just thought i was worried over nothing and said well you go ahead and do what you think is best.. she thought it was lighthearted and funny at that time. but it didn't stay funny for long.. as time went by and 2000 was approaching, so my stock piles of food supply's, and equipment grew, and i Became more certin that my "belife" was so self evident i started telling my friends about "the end" and how they should get prepared like me... i remember giving tours of my "bunker" and tools, weapons with my 15,000 rounds of ammo, and showing how the house was wired for 12volt as well as back-up power for when the grid was going to go down.... i don't want to give a full list here ,, but if it was available, i had the money to buy it.. i was so prepared i could feed a family and live without anything else- quite well, for 2 years without ever leaving my land... my wife started with teasing me in front her friends at first but i felt so "Confident" by this time i had the "you just wait and see" attitude.. i''ll show them all..................................--------------------.................. Y2K came and went................................................................ and so did my beliveability and trust in my marriage, i had a son Jan 20. and had more important things to do still working as hard as ever i became blind,,,, numb,,,, and embarrassed at how my fears became obsessions .....

my wife left,, moved out and left me and my son to fend for ourselves,, and im sure it was because, in part, of my failure to have a "REAL" hobby, to vent stress, instead i brought my stress home and made more stress in my family till everyone could "understand" why she left. (even my parents)
...........
after 911,, i had a small vindication --- yea for me--- (with full sorrow).. my self esteem was shot.. and as the divorce went on,, Complete with pictures of my bunker and gear,,,, the state told me i had to give up my son --- she was gone and pregnant with another mans son for about 2 years , and NOW i had to give up MY BOY,,,??
That broke me ... i ended up losing my business that did around $380,000 bucks that year.. my home went into forclosure,,, they reposesed my ford explorer.. somebody stole my speed boat.. and couldn't care less...

I only blame my self, and thank God i didnt get all the neighbors on my street to follow in my footsteps.... i did try,,,,,,,,, it might have broken up other familys as well ;;
so
ET_MAN listen to me, the doom you might be feeling might be more localized to just you and ONLY you ,,,,,,as it became for me ..... i had to sell all my stuff ,,, and lost the rest..... a true tragedy of mind and spirit.

i did it all to myself and ruined the privilege of security in a loving home..

this hard working husband/father/business owner would have this kind of pain ten years later, is my only warning, sure i did "get it together " eventually... but the damage still goes on.....
im in a rental house and i pay my bills on time, but i lost much more then i was trying to SAVE.... fear grows like weeds, and can crowd out love and destroy our lives ..... the only thing i have left is a AWESOME collection of flashlights.... and the smile of my son when he hugs DAD...

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Ah...I'm so sorry about your losses. Yeah, can agree about fear and I
myself have been chastised for having it...thing to remember...they
don't lock you up for being crazy..they lock you up for acting crazy...
in the future should you truly feel ( not adopted fears ) a pressing feeling that
something bad is about to happen you might be wise to be ready but
keep your concerns inside.
The boy who cried wolf may one day be right !!
I'd rather OWN a small cottage than be paying big bucks each month on a fine house. Nowdays, that idea of living the American dream is as scary
as many doom and gloom predicitons...and forget thinking your partner
will automatically "understand".
Maybe what you have, small in scope as it may be, would be someone
else's dream. It can potentially come back to you, what you have lost
in goods but you will most likely be a much wiser manager of whatever
you have in life. It can go away quickly in so many ways. If it is any
consulation anything you put aside may some day come in real handy.

reply to post by darrman


darrman,

I really feel for your story. I am deeply sorry for your losses, and it pains me to even read it.

However, I don't think any one of us has suggested giving up their job, their life, and their family to prepare for some disaster (man made or otherwise). I can totally understand where you are coming from, however, and fear does grow like weeds. I think most of us in this thread have done a very good job of stating that fear is indeed the enemy, regardless of what we believe in. Whatever comes, it's going to come regardless if we are prepared or not. I am not a firm believer in the 2012 conspiracy or anything like that, but there is a definite shift in the air. I guess that was my purpose in starting this thread....as sort of an airing grounds and a place for like-minded individuals to get out concerns that others may deem "crazy." If you really start paying attention to the world around you, and listen to what it is saying, I think you will agree.

I for one am still a 9-5'er with bills and car payments, student loans, and a dog. However, there is indeed something going on worth looking at closely.

I have my own theories, just like everyone does in this thread. I have enough knowledge about psychology to know that this isn't some coping mechanism, as another poster mentioned, and I have 20 years of experience in the paranormal and metaphysical. This stuff is real, but it's not something that we should fear.

The Y2K thing was blown way out of proportion, and I can tell you from my own technical standpoint, that I knew that it wasn't going to affect anything. However, I am sure that there were many other people in your exact same situation, and are probably living the way you are now. It is nothing to be ashamed of. That is what happens when the MSM runs with a story to incite fear and to raise the stocks one point through the purchase of generators, bulk food, and the like.

Thank you for your story and your contribution to this thread. Stories like yours helps the rest of us to remember what is at stake when we start investigating these matters more closely. Be well my friend.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

Hi,
In response to Steves post.

Yes, the "end times" has been going on for years, years, years & years!

It is an awful thing that your family responded the way they did, when you were simply concerned and preparing for their safety? Not to mention since you had the supplies, so, what, you could then use them up!

My father is a Vietnam Vet and has worked with: Army Intelligence, the FBI & Scotland yard.

He is always prepared and so am I.

The thing about being prepared is: Keep it to yourself, no one need know your business As my mother always says " you do not have to tell everyone what you ate for breakfast" It is not a bad thing to have food, water and some survival equipment on hand, things that you can also use for camping and the like, things that can be consumed and replaced.

I have friends as well as this thread and I know them well enough and they know me well enough that I feel good in sharing these things with them, but not so much with others

It is not living in fear to be aware, it is living in fear when you let it become that way.

To me it just is.

In regards to this specific thread. I have felt that it is a nice place for sensitives and people becoming aware to vent their feelings in a safe environment.

Many good things have been suggested in most ways that seem to be nice and helpful, and even with the icky things (the no sleep etc..) It is said and accepted and then you simply know you are not alone

There are things going on and I have thought about Y2K and 2012 and all of that, and HONESTLY, this does not at all register with me nor what I, and I think many others have been going through.

This seem to be something that has been around a LONG time, the transformation for many has been an on going event within their lives, for decades.
Many have said "the levels are shifting, "time" is changing etc..,
Many people have been awakening to this feeling, along with opening to their abilities for a LONG time due to this event formerly slowly happening.

I think that within the last two years it simply went from a slow progression to warp speed, LOL! Or this is just how we are now perceiving it.

There is a great thread on another ats location under fragile earth that documents scientifically that the earth is doing some major transitioning, that in FACT there is an increase in Volcanic, Earth Q's and the like; this is not in our minds nor a manipulation tactic, it is a fact and it is happening.

What does it mean? Things they are a changing!

Not only is there some type of shift: if you like to read up on Physics check out Bell Theory, M-Theory and String Theory, these are things that are very plausible within the realm of science that can explain perhaps a bit about what this shift is.

As well, we are all sensitives and as such we are going to feel these transitions and also we are going to feel the earths transition too.

It is going to make us feel, well, as we all know Kinda like CACA! LOL!

As far as being prepared and what is that SOMETHING lurking about and what is with all this intensified yet uncontrollable paranormal stuff : we are aware.

Not a bad thing to have food, water and some EQ on hand, not a bad idea to take care of yourself mentally and physically and as far as whatever it is that "something" is, well, it could just be us transitioning, emotionally, physically and mentally, otherwise, it does not hurt anyone to be better safe than sorry!

I hope that everyone is feeling better now than from the recent posts I have read!

Again my offer still stands to those of you in Co who want to met up. I am starting the group in May and have about 15 ppl who are going to be coming. It will just be a nice place to eat, talk and maybe even meditate

It is strange, these are people that I am just meeting and are telling me about what they have been going through, and I am like, well, how about we do this and they are very happy about it.

Night
Amy

In regards to the OP, I feel almost the same, the last three months have been the darkest i have seen in along time, really feels like i've been thrown overboard or being tested, pushed to the limit. But i still have the overwhelming feeling its going to be great soon. I understand that we all are looking in our own lives for something more these days, going back to the soul. But than again i believe this 2012 business is going back to the heart of things.

Peace

Originally posted by amyaaallan
I hope that everyone is feeling better now than from the recent posts I have read!

You know what, I am glad that you asked. I am feeling 100% incredible right now. It might have something to do with the fact that I took an amazing poop about an hour ago. I'm talking within the top 10 poops of my life. I'm not saying this to be gross, but pooping is a great way to relieve stress and tension within your mind and body.

Other than that, like I said at other times in this thread, I am ready for whatever happens. That is really the best we can all do. Go with it and embrace what life has to offer you, because it offers us a whole damn lot if you pay attention.

....... Ok ... I just have to say Sol ... WTF?! That caught me totally off guard and boy, oh boy did I need that laugh. So, thank you sir!

As for the poster suggesting that it may be fear feeding off fear. I have experienced that, as I'm sure we all have. I can say honestly for myself, this is not the case by any means. This seems to be something far greater. Sometimes, I wish it were just a fear issue. It would make it easier to deal with I believe. I can be rational with myself in those cases and break it down. This is not the same. But on the other hand I'm kind of happy and actually excited to see what happens. I know that may sound strange but being able to be present for whatever comes and be aware. That to me is amazing no matter the outcome.

Now, even though I am excited to see what happens, I didn't get any sense of relief lately. That may be due to the fact that I have moved and am still trying to put everything back in order. Who knows. I'm glad some of you got a little break though. I found myself getting caught in one of those moments where you stop and look around you. I mean really look around at the people surrounding you, the enviroment. Where you just watch and take it in. It's almost like you aren't really present as though you're watching a movie play out. But at the same time you are more there than usual. It's so strange to see others wandering about, seemingly oblivious to everything except what's directly in their face.

When it comes to sleep - Anyone else here finding it a bit easier to sleep during the daylight hours than the night? I wish I could sleep all day long and catch up but it's rare that I get to even nap. I just noticed today though when I dozed off around 10am for about 30 mins that it seemed more peaceful than when I sleep at night. Just curious to see others answers. It's probably nothing.

Stay True
~Tragic~

Originally posted by Tragic

When it comes to sleep - Anyone else here finding it a bit easier to sleep during the daylight hours than the night? I wish I could sleep all day long and catch up but it's rare that I get to even nap. I just noticed today though when I dozed off around 10am for about 30 mins that it seemed more peaceful than when I sleep at night. Just curious to see others answers. It's probably nothing.

Stay True

~Tragic~

THIS! today i sleept all day. Last night I sleept like a log, but didn't get any rest (is this happening to you too?). I came back from the dentist by 12 PM and took a "short" nap... that lasted till 5 PM. I feel like new right now.
I sleep like mad in fall/winter... I think I have a grizzly bear in my family tree or something... (not really, it's my thyroid not doing its job properly ¬¬)

Caggy and Tragic, I have also been a major night owl lately, even more so. Yes, daytime sleeping has really been doing it for me lately as well.

I also wanted to bring up time glitches. I was going to start my own thread, but I decided to post it here instead. I might still make my own thread on it. But seriously, time has really been off lately. I will look at the clock, and then look at it again and it seems time stood still. There are also times when the time seems to jump back. It's really strange. There are also of course of the periods of time that seriously zoom by really really fast. This may considered normal, but damn, its been happening a hell of a lot lately. Any others?

I've been always a night owl... since I was a little child I never went to sleep after 2 AM (even when I was a baby).
Now, I usually go to sleep till 3 AM when I don't have classes in the morning... (like tonight, it's past 4 AM now)

Time glitches around me every time. Time to time I think there's something wrong on my mind's clock (if it worked like a computer's internal clock, I'll think that I need to change the battery). Sometimes time flows like a nutella river.... then it speeds up, then it slows again you see the same numbers on the clock every time you watch them (and no, PC motherboard and watch batteries are new).... and so on. I have noticied this happening with more frequancie lately (3 months or so)

Do you use a cell phone?

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Hey SolarE,

Just before you start a thread about time and the amount of glitches, Please see the link below for a thread on exactly what we're talking about here...

www.abovetopsecret.com...

It is even more confirmation that what's 'happening' here isn't just happening to the few of us, but to everyone.
It just seems that it's only the few of us are noticing initially, but I reckon more and more people will start to see it too!!!


Much love...

Originally posted by TC Mike

Originally posted by Tragic
I myself am still insanely tired, still feeling so strange and just waiting. I wish I knew definately what I was waiting for.
~Tragic~

I too feel the expectation of something I cannot describe. It is exciting in the mystery it holds. It is something that drives me, as if I could chase after it to the ends of the earth, like Forrest Gump starts running and doesn't stop.

(Celebrate by Fields of the Nephilim starts playing)
Celebrate, with love and praise. Celebrate for a lesser days,
when the moments right,
only moments rise,
eternity in silence,
the shadows on mankind.
And you'll turn, you'll find new highways...

I'll give some more lyrics from them I feel is relevant:

Between the cracks and hollows, the earth is good

we're getting closer, I can see the dawn
closer and closer, Cthulhu calls

we're falling from estacy, and you deserve us Leviathan
for our children now, the curses come
and glory days, our kingdom come
Pray for me......
let us gather hallucinations from our private minds,
let us witness the reincarnation of the sun,
Xi dingir ana kanpa, Xi dingir kia kanpa

I have been reading my way through this thread today because I have had a sense of something big gaining momentum for the last three years. I have been aware of this on some level all of my life. The lyrics posted above seem synchronistic to me as I was dancing to this song at the weekend with someone who is having a hard time with the awareness that has been discussed in this thread. I was remembering that bit of the weekend just as I was reading through your post.

This friend feels very depressed because she has a feeling that 'something' is happening and that going to her 9-5 job and pretending to fit in with the world seems totally wrong and frustrating. I tried to reassure her that I've been through this awful phase and a few years ago it was me in her position, seeking out someone who could offer insight and reassurance. Now I'm the person trying to reassure and counsel someone.

I didn't want this to be a whole essay on my life but I think I will mention a few things just to reafirm what others have experienced. I believe that some people are going through this stage where realisations are overwhelming and frightening. To some of these people they feel the need for physical defense and to make survival arrangements. Personally I don't think these physical preparations are particularly important, they stem from fear of the unknown.

I have had recurring dreams and they always involve hundreds of objects/lights in the sky, I notice them first and point them out to others who start to notice them and then fear and panic set in. What happens after this I don't know. It's quite a scary dream. Others I've had include the sun changing, a dark ring or spots on it that actually look quite beautiful.

As I said before I am now anticipating what is to come, not fearing it. I feel like this change is inevitable and I will have a job to do. Ever since I can remember I have felt like something has been programmed into me and is almost waiting for some kind of 'activation'. As others have pointed out there have been alot of other threads that illustrate many are experiencing these things. It feels to me that many clues are being revealed at the moment as to our what our purpose might be in the coming changes. It's good to know there are others that feel this stuff. Sharing our thoughts and experience is adding momentum to the whole thing.



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Since I was a boy I always had this weird certainty of playing a special role in the "large scheme of things". I can't explain it rationally, it was something buried deep inside me, the knowledge that I came here "for something". Maybe this is a feeling we all share. Most of my teen and adult life has been a quest to find out what this role is. Trying to determine without a doubt what is it that I was supposed to do in this life. Why I came here. After 31 years of searching and searching and travelling and meeting people, I am still clueless and I used to be quite ok with that. However this urge to find that role has gotten so much stronger (to the piont of desperation!) in the last 4 or 5 months (exactly when this feeling of expectation we've all been talking about started).

I guess what I'm trying to say with all this rambling, is that there is absolutely no coincidence in us coming here and talk about how we're feeling. I haven't been a member of this site for too long, but it was this sense of expectation, of not fitting in, of this sudden pointlessness (so to speak) in going to a 9 to 5 job that drew me to the internet to seek answers. I guess it was but natural for me to end up in ATS and then in this specific thread.

I think it was Schopenhauer who said that kindred souls call each other from afar. You have no idea how relieved I feel for having met all of you and sharing what we're all going through. Who knows, maybe we are on the brink of something big. The vibe one gets from this thread is SO encouraging. That people from so many different walks of life and creeds have come together, have spoken about their feelings and fears, and have somehow found sanctuary and nurturing here is amazing!

Thanks TS and everyone. Whatever may come looks now somewhat less bleak.

*edit typos

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Well said RK.


Whatever happens, we face it together, and not alone. And that makes all the difference.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

Anyone else having a grand old time! I let loose about 20 minutes ago and frolicked happily in the soft dew filled grass. I was actually skipping. It was so fun. Go take a walk everyone. Get some fresh air.

Originally posted by RadioKnecht
Since I was a boy I always had this weird certainty of playing a special role in the "large scheme of things". I can't explain it rationally, it was something buried deep inside me, the knowledge that I came here "for something". Maybe this is a feeling we all share. Most of my teen and adult life has been a quest to find out what this role is. Trying to determine without a doubt what is it that I was supposed to do in this life. Why I came here. After 31 years of searching and searching and travelling and meeting people, I am still clueless and I used to be quite ok with that. However this urge to find that role has gotten so much stronger (to the piont of desperation!) in the last 4 or 5 months (exactly when this feeling of expectation we've all been talking about started).

[edit on 28-4-2010 by RadioKnecht]

I can relate to this so much, the sense of knowing that we came here for a specific purpose. I don't want to generalise if I can help it but is it correct that many of us that have responded to this thread are in our 30's /40's? If so it would mean we are still relatively young enough to face the physical challenges that may come in the next few years. Please don't get me wrong I'm in no way trying to say this is inclusive to a particular age group only... just seems to be something I notice in people around me who happen to be young-ish.

This is just an intuitive thought that I've had recentley.

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I'm closer to 30 every day. I'm 27 myself. However, I know for a fact that I have a very old soul. I was reading metaphysics books at the age of 5 and talking to my kindergarten teacher about the concepts....my mother has told me that story about a hundred times over the years. I do think, however, that it has been affecting those in their late 20's all the way through their 40's. I think it has a lot to do with what we all thought the American Dream was supposed to be, and then were painfully surprised that it was all a lie. I'm glad I learned that early enough to not settle down and start a family. Most of my friends in my age group already have 2 kids. I have none...just a dog, and no significant other. That's the way I like it. The less attachments I have, the easier it will be to do what needs to be done when the time comes for it. Leadership is always a lonely road, and at this point, that's the road I'd rather take. But it seems that every day new people come into this thread speaking of their own personal experiences and stories, and it is either a comforting or unnerving fact. Comforting in that we have each other to rely on, unnerving in that there must be something going on that sensitives and non-sensitives alike can feel.

Since so many of us in this thread are from all around the world, I don't think I could make the case that most of us are European in origin. I myself am Scottish, and I have read many things pertaining to bloodlines tied to the British Isles. Many talk about the fact that these people were the most connected to nature and the natural force around us. Maybe there is some validity in that? I'm not sure.

Anyway, thank you for joining our thread. I penned it in name only. It is all of you who have made it a safe haven for those of us who can feel these things around us. Whatever happens, we have each other, and that is comforting.

I'll leave you with a quote from one of my new favorite songs.

"Teach the children quietly,
for some day, sons and daughters
will rise up and fight while we stood still..."

We may indeed be the sons and daughters.


Peace be with you all.

-truthseeker

[edit on 28-4-2010 by truthseeker1984]

well, I'm croatian-french-spanish-??? (in that order), so maybe your assumpions are right. Also, I have a weird attachment to Britain I cannot explain yet...
and I'm turning 26 in late May, so yeah, I'm young...

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