A Strange Feeling as of Late...

I'm gonna have to add to this feeling.

I really analyzed this feeling, and really tried to get an idea of what it is trying to tell me.

This is what I got: Something today is either occuring or will occur somewhere in the world, but there is nothing I can do about it.

But the thing is, I can feel it because I'm a damn empath. Sometimes empathy can be very painful.

I felt the few minute "spasm" so to speak last night as well, so I went out to have a smoke, and an amazing, beautiful thing happened to me. I could hear something walking around the woods behind my house and that usually is deer. They sometimes cross our front yard, but very quickly.

So, I am standing there, smoking, waiting to see the deer, and suddenly a deer crosses the neighbor's driveway and comes into the yard. I am on the eastern side of the porch, and there is a tree between me and the other house. The doe comes walking up and considers tasting a bud on the tree and realizes I am standing there. I am practically holding my breath now, cigarette burning down half forgotten. She slowly walks away and goes into the front yard and starts eating the new grass growing there. Another deer walks up, and crosses the yard and goes to the other neighbor's yard. The last deer walks up, walks past the tree in front of me, and stops, no more than 6 feet away and starts eating the grass there.

That lasts for about five minutes and then she notices me. She stares for a moment and then slowly turns and walks towards the front yard, where the other deer joins her and they walk off down the road. I have never had a wild deer that close to me, they have always stayed quite a ways away or ran away as soon as they noticed me. I was moved to tears, thanking my goddess for that blessing.

I came back in and checked the Japan threads and saw a 7.1 earthquake there and that a new nuclear plant was in trouble. I was able to deal with the enormity of that occurrence, because I had just been involved in such a tremendously beautiful thing. I think I was sidetracked so that I could be given the tools to deal, emotionally.Thus, a balance was achieved.

Today has been fantastic.

The energy mannnn!!!!!

Energy of all kinds are in motion right now.

Things are speeding up again; look forward to a big peak of energy this weekend for sure.

WOW is all I can say.

These past 24 hours have been jam packed with as many events as a full week.

Let's get started.

First off last night, I went to a local hang out spot to listen to live music. I saw one of my friends there, so I sat next to him. Across the way, we saw two women in their 20's. At first we were like wow they're kinda hot, so we started paying more attention to them... After a while, me and my friend both looked at each other.

We decided the two women were speaking at least 5 different languages! They would talk some snippets of English, but a large majority of it was some strange unknown language. We could tell they were talking about us, and let me just say it was very creepy and unsettling. We were so freaked out we had to step away for a second. I talked to my friend and we decided they were not human. Their vibes were simply not human. We narrowed it down to they were either succubus or aliens. Crazy experience. Then just like that, they vanished into thin air and we didn't see them for the rest of the night.

That was just the start of a very eventful 24 hours. Later that night I drove home and fell asleep. I woke up early, ate breakfast, and then I fell into a trancelike nap of 5 hours. My first dream, was the most lucid dream I have ever had. I may have been out of body. I am looking at myself in the mirror of my room, and I don't have a specific shape or form. I'm just like a mass of energy. Wow. But I still had my eyes and I was looking at myself in energy form. So I'm like WOW this is amazing! I decided if I am lucid dreaming or out of body, I should try some neat tricks. So I try to levitate AND OMG it works!!! That was so freakin fun.

After that, I had a series of extremely lucid dreams, and it was almost like I was living out parallel realities.

So yeah, I remember telling you guys in a previous post this weekend was gonna be an energy spike, and for me, it sure was.

-SolarE

suddenly everuthing started to work. it's amazing... bad (?) thing is i think Eris put her hand over my housing situation, because now i have the perfect place to live.... but i'm gonna get perma-banned on this side of the family xD! Yesterday, my granpa's widow called me and told me to come living with her, my aunt (who's the same age as me) and my uncle (who's 23). If i say yes, i'm gonna live very close to my college, have a good place to stay, internet (f'yeah!), and everything i need to have calm and peace to study... but my granma is gonna hate me more than she already does! well, as i told my mom yesterday too, "let's give her a real reason to hate us, for once"
I'm pretty happy now! maybe i'm moving by the end of may. this is fantastic!
Oh and also i found finally the tarot deck i ever wanted and... incredibly, had enough money to buy it. everything is working as it should!


miss ya all, take care!

reply to post by SolarE-Souljah


Despite your 'wow', you may had make a monumental mistake. But it's ok, as we humans are prone to errors.

If you believed that those strange women whom were keen on you and your friend, you should have took the opportunity to approach them and find out issues.

You did not do so, because of, FEAR.

NO beings in the universe can controll or manipulate your free will and mind. They can only do so temporarily, such as drugs or inducements, but it wears out over time, so long as you DO NOT ALLOW it. And that help can only come from discussing and debating over your information, so that those whom are awakened or not brainwashed may share better insights.

It doesn't matter if you and your friend get laid or not, the critical issue is actually to share information and knowledge and through it will we grow, mature and evolve.

What a waste of opportunity, but no harm done. You only did what you had done on your own free will. Cheers!


To Caggy:-

If things are going well as you describe, I hope that you may in free moments to spare thoughts for others as well. Blessings from out of the blue only bouys our faith in common humanity, and all it takes is to pass it around.

Cheers to better blessings and tidings in your life!:-).

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I don't see it as a wasted opportunity at all because it all played out as it should, and I have no regrets.

So yeah man.

reply to post by SolarE-Souljah


Every day is a journey, every moment is a lesson, there are no failures, only exceptional opportunities for learning.

Next time you encounter that situation or that vibe, you might try something different.

Such is the brilliance of humanity, reflected through you.

Blessings,

-GM

Very disturbed sleep this week, scrambled dreams and poor recall of them.

Trying not to flip out at the moment due to my tinnitus. We have a bottle/can drinks cooler thats fan was making an odd clunking noise. Engineer fixed it two days ago however it's now making a new noise with the fan that is loud and high pitch, almost like a whining insectile noise. This noise, is almost the same pitch as my tinnitus and is only serving to heighten it's intensity and make me feel like crying. So yeah, on edge this week and trying not to kill people

- Phoenix

Last night was quite peculiar.

There was an open mic night last night. So this guy went up there and starting talking about random stuff. He somehow brought up the word synchronicity, and that was interesting.

After he was done, he told us how what he was talking about up there just kind of came to him in that moment.

Also got to hear some really real drumming of nyabinghi style. Great music to listen to while I jotted down notes in my journal.

Also heard someone say ,"feels like the beginning of a new... something."

I heard this guy say this quote without any input from me, as in he said this of his own discussion.

So that was also cool to hear.

Come on guys, you've been quiet lately. What's new? Check in.

Sorry Solah, i haven't had money to charge my internet prepaid modem, and now i'm online just because i'm repairing a friend's pc...
I'm starting to be online again by the end of may, like before, all days by night...

Everything is working on my life now, and well, i'm ok, so don't care about me =). I hope you're all OK too

I am feeling very good. I am becoming more confident around women. I was doing some great grade A flirting tonight with some real cuties.

I am awesome.

I've had a very busy 2 weeks

Lots to do nearly every day, ceremony after ceremony, graduations, journeys, inquiries and they will continue until the 2nd week of May. Feels like the steel is being tempered - My greatest ally right now is sleep...Need to find more time for that, along with more time for my crafting and smithing.

I have something like 15 drums to make before May, along with a bunch of other wares that are on order.

My hands are feeling a bit sore just thinking about it


-GM

Something is going to happen within one hour.

Keep an eye out.

Generally stressed at the moment though feel calm in general around here. Business where I work is very slow to the point that they may have to fire someone

Any positive vibes or advise appreciated.

- Phoenix

I had a strange dream last night where fire was falling from the sky.

I know it sounds cliche, but it is what was happening in my dream. it was either debris or meteorites, I'm not sure. Was very realistic.

I think I speak for everyone when I say we are going through a rough patch.

Who knows what will happen next.

Things got all switched up again. You paying close attention?

reply to post by SolarE-Souljah


Just keep shining friend, thats all any of us can do whether it is good or bad do not let fear guide your actions.

i tried to warn about it overall, but there is only so much one can do.. This part is temporary but is the time when things that are being built are the most vulnerable, for various reasons. there have been strides of massive forward progress, but now, as i said earlier, equilibrium maintenance is all that is needed (but it is so very needed).

I figured it was about time to step in and give you all an update on what's going on in my own little world.

I have abstained from posting, because for the past week or so, I have felt very negative toward everything. It was almost an instant shift from feeling really amazing and positive to going right through the basement. Now, I'm not talking about emotions. I'm talking about the feelings I have been receiving across the "airwaves."

I felt that my words would only discourage some from posting, so I abstained in an attempt to come to a mini-conclusion about why the negativity was so high. I spent the week grounding and centering myself, while not doing a whole lot of meditating. My connection has slightly faded again, and I'm wondering if my higher self is telling me to take a break and let things happen the way they will happen.

It also doesn't help that I caught another cold from a very inconsiderate person at Big Band rehearsal last week. This person was hacking, coughing and sneezing all over everybody and didn't even have the courtesy to stay home or use a freaking tissue. People like that truly make me upset in a way that I could never explain with words.

I haven't had any weird dreams or visions, and I wouldn't trust them even if I did. I've been medicated on cold medicines and allergy pills for the last week, so I didn't really know up from down. I do feel, however, that the "wave" that we have all been feeling has shifted gears. The "lull" period seems to now be accentuated by a very negative, foreboding feeling, whereas before, it was just a feeling of "blah." I can almost feel the collective strife of not only the people of the world, but of Mother Earth herself. She's going through a major virus, just like many of us have in this nasty cold season. I only hope that we will collectively see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel soon. This negativity needs to stop.




Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

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I think that during those times when things feel negative, i always feel it is important to realize how that puts the positive into context, you know?

Without going into significant detail, i feel that Love (almost exactly the same, experentially, as respect, compassion, kindness, and many more) as a state (not the directed emotion) is the human experiential concept for the actual movement of the atoms that make up the material world. Due to my research, i have also been led to a different context for the actual structure of the atom. Suffice it to say, allowing this state to flow through one is no more than feeling the actual movement of the "stars," and most importantly, ourselves. It has a "gravity" that can be felt as it is the natural movement state of all things. The free will choice to be separate from this in ones perspective results in unstable, frenetic movement (similar to entropy). This concept has been presented in many different contexts throughout history, i simply decided to make up my own based on my life and heavily influenced by research.

In the end, i figure, if i have a choice on how to "be" every moment of my life (and i do), it would be based on a constantly growing perspective, that is aimed on the actual movement (experientially felt as Love) and mindful perception of myself and all-things around me.

i think that the greatest test for us as individuals, and even mankind as a whole, is if we can still treat others with respect and Love even when we are in our own "darkest night." i know its hard right now, but i have no doubt that you, and many others, will continue to shine without fear.