A Strange Feeling as of Late...

not meaning to double post but after being riddled with unknowns for so long, now that i have the sneaking suspicion that someone out there knows who I am it seems now I am obsessed with finding who it is... or what is going on, to the point where it makes me feel that something is missing from my life. Before i was just confused then blocking then confused again, then blocking... so on and so forth. So how did you completely skip over to "the longing for conclusion part"?

Do you read a lot of books???

me? yes, I'm an avid reader. Btw, I was about to use the same nickname as you, I was so interested in chaos majik in a time of my life, and I was about to retake it when I signed up here... I choosed another nickname for that reason (I was lurking for like 2 months after creating this account)

Now that you put the frightening (sp?) detail... I did had an encounter with a hellhound when I was little (like 9 y.o.)... the solely fact of recalling that memory makes me feel sick. God, it ws a freaking big dog, like a Rottweiller, but blackest than the night, with deep red eyes... staring and growling at me in the corridor of my old flat... eeeek!!!!

*Caggy is now in the shower, eating cookies, listening to Crying Game*

** ATTENTION ALL **

NO MORE off topic posts!
NO MORE 1-liners.

If the "discussion" is going to continue as it has been for the last couple of pages, the thread will be closed seeing that the discussion is seemingly over and we're discussing birthdays and U2U's.

Hello all. I have returned to the computer after 2 days. Many extraordinary things have happened.

The coolest has got to be an experience I had last night.

I went outside, to stargaze for a little bit, and I asked the stars for a sign.

I returned to my room and saw a lizard. This lizard was different from the other lizards that run all about;

So I decided to hang out with it. We looked into each other's eyes and after a while, it calmed down and hung out with me.

This really interesting thing happened where it sent me the message of, "You were once me. You were once a dinosaur."

It was a great moment. It reminded me that if you follow the evolution theory, we did in fact come from lizards. (Supposedly.)

Regardless, with my own obserations, this lizard looked very similar to a dog. mammals and reptiles share many traits.

Also had a cool Astral Projection this morning where I projected, then I wound up in front of my mirror.
I saw myself in astral form. Was really strange. I was more of just a cloud of energy, but I could still see my eyes. We have one couch in particular where Astral Projection is easy. I find that very interesting and great.

Other than that, phew... what a week.

But still we ride on,
Let's get this done,

-SES

Needed to take a break. Negativity is not something that I like or tolerate.

So here are some observations from some of the recent events in the world:

We had talked about a few pages ago about the fact that these events, feelings, emotions, etc. flow in waves. We have all basically confirmed that these waves of "whatever" have been coming at an accelerated rate. The last wave that we experienced (at the end of November) was more obvious (in my opinion) than other waves that have come before it. Typically, I have noticed, that we have been following closer to earthquakes and some types of natural disasters. This is a given if you hold by the theory that at one time humans were still capable of "feeling out" the natural world. This last event (the NK/SK tensions) is something out of place in our overall feelings and observations. I said at the beginning of November that we'd probably get hit again before the end, and low and behold, that happened. But the event deviates off the normal line of events that typically happen during our "wave spells" ie. earthquakes.

My question is this: are we starting to develop in our empathic senses to the point where we are feeling out these "other" events, is it just coincidence, or is there something else at work?

I woke up at 0515 this morning to prepare for the school day and felt as if we are are at the bottom of another wave again. However, I cannot feel the peak of the next one. It seems as if we have an extended period of being in the "rut" so to speak, without an event happening. It is an odd feeling for myself, personally, because I've always been able to feel out when we'll hit another peak, yet I cannot see the next peak. Even in the metaphysical, there has been a lull. I feel as if a wet blanket has been wrapped around my face so that I cannot see what is going on, nor can I "breathe" as normal. This is the strangest feeling that I have had since the inception of this thread, and I'm wondering what all your thoughts are on it and if any of you have had the same feeling.


On a personal note, I have to say that this thread has evolved, developed, and mutated into much more than sharing just our feelings on the matter. We have all contributed interesting tidbits to the overall discussion, shared personal experiences, and tried to speculate (with what little knowledge we have) on what is going on in the world. If we have reached our natural conclusion to the matter, then please say so. We have all been shaken up by certain events lately, but this should not hamper our resolve to try to figure out what is going on. We are all collecting empirical evidence for our own claims and feelings, and I believe that we still have a lot of leg work to do to figure things out. I understand that we are all emotional creatures, and that some of us have stronger emotions about this topic than others, but leave them out. Let's get back to the topic at hand, and try to make some semblance of what is going on. Speak about what is on your mind, but leave other factors out of the equation. We can't continue to seek the truth when we're riled up by those that refuse to take everything into account. On the contrary, we should be strengthening our resolve to prove our claims, to take everything into consideration, and reject those that just say we are "mentally ill." We all know that we're not, so let's get back to what we were here to do in the first place: prove the reality of our "strange feelings as of late."



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

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This is one of my favorite threads on ATS I havn't really posted often lately because either nothing has happened for me or I didn't want to get riled up.

Looks like this could start getting interesting again.

By the way I've also felt in a rut and unable to feel a sense of the next wave, I didn't post it before because I thought others may of been more in touch with it than me.

I'm starting to feel excited again now though, with this thread and I feel like "something new and shiney is coming".

Hope everyone is well.

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As it has been well posted here I don't have the same abilities that many of you have here. With the holidays coming, are those of you who sense things, are you able to sense and feel joy about maybe seeing family, finding the perfect gift to give someone or just having pleasant memories of the past with having the sense of being in a rut?

When you have the sense of gloom, doom, rut, whatever it may be that is negative are you able to experience joy of something that may happen any given day. Like seeing kids laughing and playing, listening or seeing great art (music ect.). Just curious how, if at all, daily events can affect your extra senses.

reply to post by amc621


This is not about being blessed with ability, this is about remembering what human beings were always capable of.

More and more of us around the world are beginning to have the epiphany that something incredible is coming. It may start off as whispers in your mind, a feeling of g force against your head or tapping into emotions with no explainable circumstance.

I work with many sensitives, one of which I was with in August. We we're walking down a forest path when all of a sudden my stomach turned, it wasn't nausea, it was instinctual reflex as a tingling went up my spine. I heard a sobbing behind me and turned to see my friend lurching forward as if she was impaled by the stomach.

What could this be? My own sensation immediately before was enough proof for me to say that something in that moment was released into our world and we had both felt it, almost like the human race is preparing to give birth as a whole.

What was obvious was how much more sensitive she was then I, mild discomfort compared to debilitated emotional and physical pain. Clearly the human race varies in our memory of how to feel the world around us beyond the 5 senses.

To be clear, I've never sensed global joy from christmas time or a rut unless I am in the shopping mall, party or celebration. When you hear people speak of the "Spirit of Christmas" This is the frequency of the human race rising as it remembers our connection to God. Give freely, receive openly, love perpetually.

Originally posted by Gradius Maximus
reply to post by amc621

 

This is not about being blessed with ability, this is about remembering what human beings were always capable of.

More and more of us around the world are beginning to have the epiphany that something incredible is coming. It may start off as whispers in your mind, a feeling of g force against your head or tapping into emotions with no explainable circumstance.

I work with many sensitives, one of which I was with in August. We we're walking down a forest path when all of a sudden my stomach turned, it wasn't nausea, it was instinctual reflex as a tingling went up my spine. I heard a sobbing behind me and turned to see my friend lurching forward as if she was impaled by the stomach.

What could this be? My own sensation immediately before was enough proof for me to say that something in that moment was released into our world and we had both felt it, almost like the human race is preparing to give birth as a whole.

What was obvious was how much more sensitive she was then I, mild discomfort compared to debilitated emotional and physical pain. Clearly the human race varies in our memory of how to feel the world around us beyond the 5 senses.

To be clear, I've never sensed global joy from christmas time or a rut unless I am in the shopping mall, party or celebration. When you hear people speak of the "Spirit of Christmas" This is the frequency of the human race rising as it remembers our connection to God. Give freely, receive openly, love perpetually.

edit on 3-12-2010 by Gradius Maximus because: (no reason given)

I'm interesting in what you mean in giving birth, without going too far off topic of course

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by klain

 

As it has been well posted here I don't have the same abilities that many of you have here. With the holidays coming, are those of you who sense things, are you able to sense and feel joy about maybe seeing family, finding the perfect gift to give someone or just having pleasant memories of the past with having the sense of being in a rut?

When you have the sense of gloom, doom, rut, whatever it may be that is negative are you able to experience joy of something that may happen any given day. Like seeing kids laughing and playing, listening or seeing great art (music ect.). Just curious how, if at all, daily events can affect your extra senses.

it all depends on the rut. If i am in a so-so rut then yes, perhaps something small might cheer me up but if i am in a BIG rut, like I am stressing and very upset about something then a lot of times happy things make me sadder. It's like a feeling that all happiness is temporary... and it's true. happiness is temporary. Feeling this profoundly is not a good place to be. i don't feel this way too much in the present day. I used to feel it more often and much more, sometimes to the point of anger. i think it's important for people who feel this a lot to try and get perspective on what they find important in life. that way, when they feel this way, they will more quickly remember what they feel is important and get back on track. There's plenty of time to be off the track of life when you're dead. Living is about life... and while reflecting on death might be important, the feeling of being suspended... hanging in pointlessness is a bad place to be. A person who feels that way too much might have something wrong with them... an illness or nutritional deficiency.

speaking of gut wrenching pains... i have one of those almost every day like clockwork if I have been eating gluten.... which I am not supposed to do. not saying this is what happened to the above poster... it just reminds me a lot of it and I find myself constantly trying to explain to people that I don't like leaving the house till I have had breakfast and coffee (slow starter in the morning... not a morning person AT ALL) and that i can't eat a lot of gluten without it dragging me down. people think I'm either making this up or that I'm losing it but it only last a few seconds and it is an *excruciating* pain. It is practically paralyzing. If I am standing it often makes me go down to my knees.

reply to post by ChaosMagician


Interesting. As happiness is temporary, doesn't that mean sadness is as well? I also can relate to feeling sadder when seeing something joyus. I'm in a program of buying gifts for under privledges children, I have read their letters to Santa. When I talk to friends children and see how excited they are, it does sadden me to know there are so many more out there who have no idea of that emotion.

I do try and focus on the good. I lost my father a few years ago during the holiday season, when I feel sad about it I know try and focus on something about him that made me smile or laugh. Realizing how lucky I was to have him for the time he was alive.

As for the stomach thing, once again I don't consider myself as a sensitive, I have a ulcer and at times will hit me un prepared. The pain is so bad that it makes the muscles in my back contract.

Oh dear Truth, why you do this to me? I was going to start thinking that my "aracnid sense" was failing, for good. Since the Koreas incident I have a baaaad feeling here in my gut, and it hasn't dissapeared. Soething is being cooked in that area, and it smells fishy. If you let me especulate, I think that not far from dec 15th this is going to explode definetly and a small fire will start... That's gonna grow like a wildfire. No, it's not a prediction since I'm not a clearvoyant or nothing like that, it's just my gut feeling and it can happen or not.

Originally posted by amc621

I will continue to post and ask questions. Take my questions as you will, but I am just looking to learn.

On a personal level, I am glad for that above qouted sentence alone.

There is so much, so much to learn, than just the basic degree you obtain, not just by scholarly books, but by others as well for they speak volumes of our being - human - life's experiences written and shared.

Inorder to fully and honestly lean, you will have to drop the ego, for it is a hubric delimiting factor in decieving you that you know ALL that is to know.

Neither does anyone here on this thread would claim they know everything, if only you cared to plough through each and every post. We are only here to share experiences.

The modern man relies on 'scientific method' to confront and accepts reality, largely based on his five senses. Science is repeatable as one gets the same results each time no matter the circumstances.

Unfortunately, in spirituality, it differs from one to another individual, as each human is different with different needs and different journeys to achieve the same aim. Is a cleaner different from POTUS? No, they are both the same - humans - to live, to love and care for those they love, as long as they are alive.

By sharing honestly and sincerly our experiences, we try to achieve the 'scientific method' that the sleeping may be prepared to accept, but only if it relates to their lives. Some will differ, but many more MAY share similiar feelings. And thus the aim of this thread, to share and know that they may not be alone with similiar personal feelings.

But in order to share and learn, one must drop the ego. Would you share a meal with some ungrateful beast who would only comment on the quality of food and serving, or share with the truly hungry? It's only the attitude that will either relegate you to outside of the house or welcome to the warmth of the home.

I hope you may understand my poor quality writing. I wish you luck and wish you well on your journey of knowledge that you are seeking. May this music help you have a foretaste of the mood of truth that you will awaken to :-www.youtube.com...

And then followed by this theme when you awake, and realised love matters the most with our precious gift of life:-www.youtube.com...

The last, feel it with your heart and interpretate it as you honestly comprehend, on your own free will:- www.youtube.com...

Good luck and cheers.

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by ChaosMagician

 

Interesting. As happiness is temporary, doesn't that mean sadness is as well? I also can relate to feeling sadder when seeing something joyus. I'm in a program of buying gifts for under privledges children, I have read their letters to Santa. When I talk to friends children and see how excited they are, it does sadden me to know there are so many more out there who have no idea of that emotion.

I do try and focus on the good. I lost my father a few years ago during the holiday season, when I feel sad about it I know try and focus on something about him that made me smile or laugh. Realizing how lucky I was to have him for the time he was alive.

As for the stomach thing, once again I don't consider myself as a sensitive, I have a ulcer and at times will hit me un prepared. The pain is so bad that it makes the muscles in my back contract.

sadness temporary?...sure. I believe so but I guess when some are in the rut the sadness seems eternal. I think it all boils down to why we do all this... why we continue to live our lives. I think we each must have our own personal view on that. The feeling of not knowing why you are here, not knowing what the point to life is... it is often expressed, can't really be answered by another person but seems to be a symptom of something deep.

I lost my father 24 years ago. I was 11. the pain is just as memorable today as it has always been. It's painful sometimes to see other people with their fathers... especially good fathers like him. I grew up without my father and I needed him a lot. I dealt with it by believing I would see him again and not forgetting things about him.

Today I have only one picture of my father because my sister took them all.

Originally posted by SeekerofTruth101

Originally posted by amc621

I will continue to post and ask questions. Take my questions as you will, but I am just looking to learn.

On a personal level, I am glad for that above qouted sentence alone.

There is so much, so much to learn, than just the basic degree you obtain, not just by scholarly books, but by others as well for they speak volumes of our being - human - life's experiences written and shared.

Inorder to fully and honestly lean, you will have to drop the ego, for it is a hubric delimiting factor in decieving you that you know ALL that is to know.

Neither does anyone here on this thread would claim they know everything, if only you cared to plough through each and every post. We are only here to share experiences.

The modern man relies on 'scientific method' to confront and accepts reality, largely based on his five senses. Science is repeatable as one gets the same results each time no matter the circumstances.

Unfortunately, in spirituality, it differs from one to another individual, as each human is different with different needs and different journeys to achieve the same aim. Is a cleaner different from POTUS? No, they are both the same - humans - to live, to love and care for those they love, as long as they are alive.

By sharing honestly and sincerly our experiences, we try to achieve the 'scientific method' that the sleeping may be prepared to accept, but only if it relates to their lives. Some will differ, but many more MAY share similiar feelings. And thus the aim of this thread, to share and know that they may not be alone with similiar personal feelings.

But in order to share and learn, one must drop the ego. Would you share a meal with some ungrateful beast who would only comment on the quality of food and serving, or share with the truly hungry? It's only the attitude that will either relegate you to outside of the house or welcome to the warmth of the home.

I hope you may understand my poor quality writing. I wish you luck and wish you well on your journey of knowledge that you are seeking. May this music help you have a foretaste of the mood of truth that you will awaken to :-www.youtube.com...

And then followed by this theme when you awake, and realised love matters the most with our precious gift of life:-www.youtube.com...

The last, feel it with your heart and interpretate it as you honestly comprehend, on your own free will:- www.youtube.com...

Good luck and cheers.

thank you for the response. Can you clarify what you mean by my Ego? You mentioned it more than once, therefore I take it as a important point from your perspective.

Originally posted by ChaosMagician

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by ChaosMagician

 

Interesting. As happiness is temporary, doesn't that mean sadness is as well? I also can relate to feeling sadder when seeing something joyus. I'm in a program of buying gifts for under privledges children, I have read their letters to Santa. When I talk to friends children and see how excited they are, it does sadden me to know there are so many more out there who have no idea of that emotion.

I do try and focus on the good. I lost my father a few years ago during the holiday season, when I feel sad about it I know try and focus on something about him that made me smile or laugh. Realizing how lucky I was to have him for the time he was alive.

As for the stomach thing, once again I don't consider myself as a sensitive, I have a ulcer and at times will hit me un prepared. The pain is so bad that it makes the muscles in my back contract.

sadness temporary?...sure. I believe so but I guess when some are in the rut the sadness seems eternal. I think it all boils down to why we do all this... why we continue to live our lives. I think we each must have our own personal view on that. The feeling of not knowing why you are here, not knowing what the point to life is... it is often expressed, can't really be answered by another person but seems to be a symptom of something deep.

I lost my father 24 years ago. I was 11. the pain is just as memorable today as it has always been. It's painful sometimes to see other people with their fathers... especially good fathers like him. I grew up without my father and I needed him a lot. I dealt with it by believing I would see him again and not forgetting things about him.

Today I have only one picture of my father because my sister took them all.

Are you able to laugh, smile or just feel good by focusing/thinking about the positives you had with your Dad?

Well, in my POV, pain can be eternal... what changes is the way to live with it and in how degree it affects you in your daily life.
I don't have anything to add but since They don't want one liners I'm gonna fill a couple of lines with stupid explanations about why I'm writing explanations about this.

Originally posted by amc621

Originally posted by ChaosMagician

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by ChaosMagician

 

Interesting. As happiness is temporary, doesn't that mean sadness is as well? I also can relate to feeling sadder when seeing something joyus. I'm in a program of buying gifts for under privledges children, I have read their letters to Santa. When I talk to friends children and see how excited they are, it does sadden me to know there are so many more out there who have no idea of that emotion.

I do try and focus on the good. I lost my father a few years ago during the holiday season, when I feel sad about it I know try and focus on something about him that made me smile or laugh. Realizing how lucky I was to have him for the time he was alive.

As for the stomach thing, once again I don't consider myself as a sensitive, I have a ulcer and at times will hit me un prepared. The pain is so bad that it makes the muscles in my back contract.

sadness temporary?...sure. I believe so but I guess when some are in the rut the sadness seems eternal. I think it all boils down to why we do all this... why we continue to live our lives. I think we each must have our own personal view on that. The feeling of not knowing why you are here, not knowing what the point to life is... it is often expressed, can't really be answered by another person but seems to be a symptom of something deep.

I lost my father 24 years ago. I was 11. the pain is just as memorable today as it has always been. It's painful sometimes to see other people with their fathers... especially good fathers like him. I grew up without my father and I needed him a lot. I dealt with it by believing I would see him again and not forgetting things about him.

Today I have only one picture of my father because my sister took them all.

Are you able to laugh, smile or just feel good by focusing/thinking about the positives you had with your Dad?

It's all very bittersweet. His death was tragic and in the prime of his difficult life. It was a stupid accident that should have been avoided. It was a fast violent painful head injury and when I think of him alive I think of how his tender life was smashed into nothing by a truck. I have to say it's hard to get past.

Do I have good memories?... sure. I have LOADS of them, but again, it is bittersweet.

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My Dad's passing was a fluke. It shouldn't have happened either, he was only 67. I do think about the happy times, things we shared. Not all were deep earth shattering things, some were as mundane as sports. I do laugh quite a bit thinking about some things.

I wish you could do the same.