A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by Tragic

 

Tragic,
You attitude disapoints me. I've gone back and read some of your post on this thread. In June you had a feeling of doom, then in July had a dream about a eclipse and a sensation of someone lying next to you saying "you promised" what has become of those things? It's 4 or 5 months later now.

Once again responses like this are why people are looking at you like a troll. I have a strong suspicion that you really are curious about these things. I also believe that a large part of you either doesn't believe in just feelings. There is a slight chance that it could be you are a more "advanced" practitioner of physic of ability and you are annoyed by less practiced people. Judging though by your responses that is highly unlikely. You have to understand that people that DO have these feelings catch alot of flack and ridicule so they are fairly defensive on peoples responses they chose to share with. It could make them feel like they should not share. Please try and be more compassionate and less abrasive. This post you are asking the wrong questions.

Now to Tragic,
In your dream what kind of doom feeling was it? In your dream you mention an eclipsed moon, were you happy with your enlightenment or feelings at the time? Did you promise yourself or wanted to further your enlightenment? Are your feelings of doom still prevalent? Do you feel alone or unattached?

Very curious to some of these questions

P.o.E

reply to post by amc621


Not that it's any of your business my dear but since April I have moved to a new house, then my kids have gone back to school, my husband and I have seperated and a lawsuit I have had going on for 2 years now is taking up a lot of my time. Right now, I am just surviving and trying to function. I haven't relayed these things to anyone here because a lot of us are under stress as it is and I don't want any of these amazing people here to worry about me or have any extra stress due to my situation. So, I was taking a backseat and keeping to myself until I felt more like myself than I had been. Had you kept reading through my posts you would have seen that I was away for quite a while, while my computer was unhooked. Then when I came back I told everyone I was here but quiet. Do you feel better knowing this?

And I honestly do not care what-so-ever your take on my attitude. I am not here to see that you are pleased by me. But if you really want to get into it; I don't like your attitude towards other people here in this thread. I don't like the way you come across with your "no sarcasm" remarks and questions which clearly have the undertone of just that.

Originally posted by Tragic
reply to post by amc621

 

Not that it's any of your business my dear but since April I have moved to a new house, then my kids have gone back to school, my husband and I have seperated and a lawsuit I have had going on for 2 years now is taking up a lot of my time. Right now, I am just surviving and trying to function. I haven't relayed these things to anyone here because a lot of us are under stress as it is and I don't want any of these amazing people here to worry about me or have any extra stress due to my situation. So, I was taking a backseat and keeping to myself until I felt more like myself than I had been. Had you kept reading through my posts you would have seen that I was away for quite a while, while my computer was unhooked. Then when I came back I told everyone I was here but quiet. Do you feel better knowing this?

And I honestly do not care what-so-ever your take on my attitude. I am not here to see that you are pleased by me. But if you really want to get into it; I don't like your attitude towards other people here in this thread. I don't like the way you come across with your "no sarcasm" remarks and questions which clearly have the undertone of just that.

Sorry to hear of your trouble. I only have a slight idea of what that feels like and for me it was very difficult. I cant even imagine what your going through. My prayers go out to you in what is surely tough times. It seems a pattern that those that are more in-tuned are confronted with extreme pressures to break them. I wish the best to you and your children. Again I cant speak for anyone else but if you need to vent or anything I can do over the net please dont hesitate to contact.

P.o.E

PoE - Thank you for your kindness and compassion. It truly is appreciated. I will keep the venting offer in mind but plese don't feel offended if I don't take you up on it. I tend to keep these things to myself unless otherwise inspired. All the same, thank you endlessly.

Love you all to pieces

Originally posted by Tragic
PoE - Thank you for your kindness and compassion. It truly is appreciated. I will keep the venting offer in mind but plese don't feel offended if I don't take you up on it. I tend to keep these things to myself unless otherwise inspired. All the same, thank you endlessly.

Love you all to pieces

I completely understand as Im the exact same way. If you need it though its out there.
P.o.E

reply to post by amc621


I have you figured out, friend. The only "answer" that will satisfy you is "no, nothing happened." Your line of questioning is right from a Psych 101 text book. I had to be sure before I made this statement. You're looking to prove a hypothesis that you have, the hypothesis being that somehow our experiences can be explained away through psychological means (aka: if we have nothing to "show for" after having these feelings, surely we must be either looking for attention or mentally disturbed). Look, if you are coming here truly seeking answers (which I'm pretty sure you're not), then stop with the abrasive line of questioning, share any experiences YOU have (and perhaps get this thread back on course), and stop with your textbook questions.

All I'm saying is: instead of trying to prove us wrong, prove to us that you are truly seeking answers. Our information relies on trust, and thus far, you have shown that you are not trust worthy. This thread would have not progressed as far as it has without each of us trusting each other to a certain degree.

I'm trying to be as civil as I can about this, but this has become a circular argument that is going nowhere fast. Your questions are abrasive and accusatory, and I can speak for everybody that has an interest in the topic when I say: it needs to stop. This is my very last post addressed to you.


Good day.

reply to post by Tragic


=( I had no idea Tragic. I'm sorry you had to subject yourself to further pain by sharing this information. I'm thinking about you, and I'm hoping that things will get better.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

reply to post by truthseeker1984


That's fantastic TS! I am so happy you had such a positive experience with the class today, and so happy you were afforded the opportunity to share yourself that way. It is just wonderful!

Zoso, I always look forward to your posts and only wish they were just a bit more frequent. I love you guys so very much and am so thankful everyday for each of you and your daily presence in my life.

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by Tragic

 

What do you think will happen? If it doesn't happen will you reflect on what was the feeling you had? In what timeline should this event happen, days, weeks, months or years?

I would really like to hear your answer, to see what happens. As I said before I will apologize to you when something happens.

That's the thing. We don't really have a true idea of what is on the horizon, only that it will be something big, and will change what we know to be true, since it will result in a change of everything. Does that mean it will be a good thing or a bad thing? I think many if not most will experience the initial changes in a negative way, simply because it is a paradigm shift (to quote Seeker) and that instills fear due to the unknown quantity of it. Once we work past that fear and come out the other side ( with a lot of talking here and supporting and loving each other as we work through it.) we will see that the ultimate effect is one of good and positivity for all.

We don't need an apology. We need for you to read the thread. PLEASE, I BEG YOU.

Originally posted by amc621

once again this is zero sarcastic, but why are posters here angry about my questions? I would think that people sensitive to others feelings would want to share their own history for others to learn from. I see many post on this thread from "first time" posters.

AMC, we are not angry about your questions in the least. We are answering them to the best of our abilities with answers you could give to yourself if you would only read the thread. I question why you are avoiding doing so. We are VERY sensitive to other posters. If we weren't we wouldn't be the happy gang we are. What was offensive to us has been explained ad nauseum at this point. Is there a language barrier here that we are not aware of? I want for you to understand what is going on. I want for you to be a poster here as you discover that what you know to be reality and truth are mutable and changing. I want for you to come to us with your experiences and talk with us about your exciting discoveries. I won't respond to you again until you read the thread. That is the only way to find your place here at this point.

Originally posted by Tragic
I haven't relayed these things to anyone here because a lot of us are under stress as it is and I don't want any of these amazing people here to worry about me or have any extra stress due to my situation.

On behalf of the rest of us, I am going to call you a bonehead and tell you to knock that nonsense off. Even if you don't want to share your life publicly there are PM's available and every one of us is MORE than ready to talk to you privately. You should not be dealing with all of that alone. We love you and we WANT to worry about you, darn it. ::::::::bear hugs::::::::

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Ceri & TS - Awww, I know, I know. I love you guys so much and I don't want you to think that I have been over here in the corner just bursting at the seams and feeling like I can't talk to anyone. I know each and every one of you would gladly listen and be my rock. I've chosen to be silent about it. And who knows, I may need it at some point ... I don't know I guess I'm just used to being the one people come to in general. Which I love being that person in all honesty. Ug ... I don't know. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. You all are family to me and I just didn't want to bring anyone down. BUT I promise, if I need to I will spill my guts all over the place! **Huge hugs for you all**


The Bonehead (haha I love that!)

Oh and as far as amc goes, I really am through with that whole mess. If I believed at all that there is any real curiosity, I would try my best to get through. But a little something is telling me it's a waste. I'm sure most of you guys get that little something too. So good luck with your future endeavors amc. I sincerely hope that when/if your time comes there are people more open minded and caring than you have shown the majority here.

Hey all, I know this thread has been somewhat cluttery lately, so I want you all to take a look at this thread I just made. This experience will be a large factor in future events.

www.abovetopsecret.com...

So in a measure to try and get our thread back on track, I wanted to relate some of my more interesting moments during my sleep cycle last night, and also some of the moments that I had today at school.

My dreams: Well, my sleep was fleeting at best last night. When I laid my head down for the night I knew that I would be in for a night full of sleeplessness and perhaps night terrors. I felt an odd energy, and whether it was pent up frustration related to certain events, or whether my "spidey sense" was going off, I'm not sure of. My dreams went from one location to the next, with periods where I would wake up feeling tingling up and down my body. It was not sleep paralysis, as I could still move. As you all know, I have learned to trust my senses when it comes to these things, so I quickly recited the white light prayer, and for the first time in a long time, I placed my garnet ring on my finger. In hindsight, that was the worst decision I could have made.

I could not wake up from my next set of dreams. In a similar context to a dream that I posted for you a week or two ago, I was confronted by an entity. In this series of dreams, I was not fully lucid, and could only partially influence my surroundings. I was having a dream within a dream at this point. This entity confronted me in the living room of my old house. It was definitely male, and it was fully formed, but surrounded in shadow. Its eyes were fiery red, and had an air of malevolence to them. In that dream within a dream, I had some sort of bowl with what I think was either holy water or holy wine. In any case, I splashed it on the entity and said that I was not afraid of it. It laughed at me and then said, well, maybe you'll be afraid of this! His shadowform extended to reach the ceiling of the living room that I was in. The shadow resembled Freddy Kreuger from the movies. I woke up from this dream, only to realize that I was still in a dream. I was calling my brother's name out in this dream, but my voice was too weak to reach him. I was completely frightened and could not wake up from this dream. I have not been this paralyzed with fear in a dream for many, many years. No matter how hard I tried, I could not fight back. When I did finally wake up for real, I was in a panic, I was in a cold sweat, and I felt a burning sensation coming from my ring. It felt like it was burning a hole in my finger, and I immediately ripped it off and chucked it across the room. I don't know where it is now, but I don't care. I hope I don't find it. I'm just about convinced that the entity that approached me last night was the same one from the other dream I had mentioned. I am still shaken by what happened.


Now on to today: My lecture went very well, and I used a variety of general topics to hopefully garner an interest in the field of the paranormal and the field of parapsychology. That is not the best part though. Since we have all been talking about our empathic abilities, my real gem today was the fact that I could feel myself working with a few problem children from an internal standpoint. I was reading their energy and was able to get them to do something as simple as working on their class work. I have always had the knack of convincing people to see my point of view, and it was quite evident today...of course if you don't count the one horrible class of hellspawn I dealt with toward the end of the day, not to mention the chorus rehearsal that completely blew up in my face. Being an orchestral person, I know not the ways of teaching and rehearsing a choir...especially one full of pre-pubescent, hormone driven monsters...Give me a real demon or a shadow creature EVERY DAY! At least I know how to deal with them!

Anyway, I did reach out to some kids today, some more than others. The feeling I got was one that I routinely fail to catalog in my daily life, simply for the fact that it has become so much a part of me that I sometimes forget that I am using it at all. Convincing someone that you aren't the bad guy is a hard thing to do with young children, especially when you are a substitute teacher, but it is also so rewarding for me when I do reach out to them. I'd like to think that my gift is part of that whole rewarding feeling. Some days it feels like it is not, but I take the good days as they come.

I was trying to convince myself to see a positive in all of my day's trials and tribulations, and I think I just have. So I'll leave you all with that.

Much, much love to you all.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

I have to admit, I'm jealous lately when I hear of others having dreams, lucid dreaming or even the hellish type things that TS endures at times. Since I've been taking my sleeping medication, I rarely remember my dreams. Even when I do remember something it's only bits and pieces. Like the other day I took a nap with my 2yr old. I know the dream was much longer than what I remember now so it's frustrating. But all I remember now was being outside of a house (imagine a Maine type setting) with the house at the top of a cliff where the waves rolled and crashed against the rocks below. It was beautiful. (time passes w/no recollection of inbetween) Then I remember being inside the house where I was standing behind people I didn't recognize. They were all sitting around a round dining table having some tense conversation. All of a sudden an old man who I was standing directly behind fell out of his chair and onto the floor just sobbing his heart out. The weird part was, I didn't feel bad for him nor any compassion at all. It was a strange thing. Not even that I had any dislike for the man and didn't care that he was upset. Just that there was no emotion in me at all for anything. It really spooked me or some reason.

Even still I would trade nightmares for not remembering. And I hope I don't end up regretting that I said that heh.

Bonehead

Congrats on reaching 100 pages.
I don't post much anymore on this site, but I can say this: there is an awakening sweeping the globe, and I have watched it accelerate like wild fire since 2006.
It's a beautiful time to be alive, and all we can do is hold on tight for what is to come.
Much love to you all.

reply to post by bvproductions
Whoa, how weird.
Lol I was literally just looking through my friends list and saw you and thought "damn, wonder whatever happened to By. Hope everything is ok." Then I popped back over here to see if anything new was posted and my goodness here you are. It's nice to see you again. I hope everything is going well for you and I know we are all hanging on for the ride

Now, I'm off to bed. Goodnight everyone & sweet dreams.

Love you to pieces
Tragic

reply to post by Tragic


Tragic,
My heart could burst for you right now, it really could. I feel like I should be giving you the biggest hug anyone's ever had - (.................................................................................................................................)

We all understand about keeping it to yourself, but understand that because of the way we all are, we just can't help but want to help
You also know that we are forever with you, beside you, to give you strength and support and a shoulder to lean on and cry on - but just don't get any snot on my shoulder...!

If you fancy a rant, Lord knows I do right now (looooong story), as Ceri said, send a PM. Simple as that.
In the meantime, for your amusement, here's a pic of me dressed as Paul Stanley from Kiss - I dare you not to laugh!



Much love...

reply to post by truthseeker1984


Thank you all for your feedback and dialogue. Tragic, good luck with your situation. To those of you who wish me gone, that's what I'm going to do. Obviously I'm a skeptic(on a lot of things) so my questions were asked honestly with the intent on learning.

Your obviously a tight bunch of people, and a outsider who doesn't immediately agree with you has no place here. I don't want to annoy and certainly be considered a troll. So I will stay with other threads.

Hey Mike, that is a fabulous pic! You really pull that look off my friend. Love the courage.