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originally posted by: stosh64
a reply to: ReyaPhemhurth
Suicide is the ultimate mind F# to those left behind.
After reading your whole post I can't help being angry at your ex, took the cowards way out while leaving a trail of broken emotions.
I have been through similar, and all I can say is thank God you never married him!
Do what you need to do with the funeral and leave this behind you.
Thoughts and prayers are with you Reya.
originally posted by: ladyinwaiting
a reply to: ReyaPhemhurth
Maybe it was a snap decision, over his own depression and anxiety of not being able to reconcile his own feelings of indecisiveness, poor choices, and inadequacies. It might have overwhelmed him. In any case, Reya, you were NOT the right person for him to reach out to, if that was in fact what he was doing. He had to know that.
Again, I think you will gain more insights into this as days go by. Most suicides leave a note, if it is well planned.
Be kind to yourself. Nurture yourself now. Eat. Rest. No harsh self-admonishments. Chase away those thoughts.
My best. Reach out to us here, as long as you need.
originally posted by: Snarl
I think you're lucky this guy is permanently out of your life.
Change your phone number ... and move on.