I am extremely reluctant to post this. Specifically wondering if anyone else has seen this.

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Hi sled735, Was good to hear from you and thank you for your info and input. It is true, there are some evil entities to be sure.
I feel like our experiences are somewhat different. All those things happened to us a long time ago when we were young. We are pushin 80 now, still goin strong. We have had rich, full lives and have had close calls that actually turned out ok in the long run. There is no denying that evil and evil entities exist. I feel like we came out ok relevant to it all. We are so old now, I would expect we will have to go sometime soon. However, anything tries to actually suck the life outta us is in for big trouble. We may experience evil but even that can be overcome if we don't give in to fear. Not all entities are bad...there is so much we just do not understand. Angels come to mind....good or evil? Wow, life is such a mystery. I hope the OP is being helped by our comments.

Thank you for the warning though and I will take heed to what you say...it never hurts to err on the side of caution and I thank you for caring enough to be helpful. You are a good person and I appreciate hearing from you. Teddy bear hugs and angel kisses.

Originally posted by DarwinVsJesus
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No, Satanists are atheists. You know nothing about it, clearly. Thanks for hijacking the thread.

Here, just so we're clear on this. There is no god, or devil. I am a Satanist in the LaVeyan sense. I believe in myself, and I revere the natural world.

Furthermore, just to make sure you people get this.

I Deny the Holy Spirit, and I am not afraid.


Now stop bringing it up. You aren't helping at all.

I've done no such thing. At least 4 or 5 others have said the same thing I did about commanding spirits be gone in the name of the Christ. Since you are the self-declared Satanist, how would I be hijacking your thread by talking about these things?
According to Wikipedia, some Satanists declare themselves atheist. So I guess that is where you are coming from.

Satanism developed in the context of the Christian faith, as an ideological backlash to certain tenets promoted in Christianity. The character of Satan revered by Satanists, therefore, is mainly regarded as the prototypical anti-Christian figure.

Theistic Satanism (also known as traditional Satanism, spiritual Satanism or Devil Worship) is a form of Satanism with the primary belief that Satan is an actual deity or force to revere or worship.[11][12] Other characteristics of theistic Satanism may include a belief in magic, which is manipulated through ritual, although that is not a defining criterion, and theistic Satanists may focus solely on devotion. Unlike the LaVeyan Satanism founded by Anton LaVey in the 1960s, theistic Satanism is theistic as opposed to atheistic, believing that Satan is a real being rather than a symbol of individualism.

en.wikipedia.org...

Stop bringing what up? You said you believed Satanism was honorable.
I never once brought up the "Holy Spirit" per se.
You mean you don't want to talk about God because you are atheist and you don't want people talking about this in "your" thread? Is that what is bothering you?
I get it now. It's much more fun to talk about putting up mental shields and not being afraid and alien visitations and what not.
One last thing before I leave your thread. You can make a lot of karma practicing black magic.

i'm actually male.
LOL

and my *wife* is absolutely the greatest part of my existence.

See how ignorant christians are? see how they judge? it's an evil philosophy. There's nothing wrong with being gay. How could god condemn any loving relationship? really?

Originally posted by DarwinVsJesus

Originally posted by corsair00
reply to post by DarwinVsJesus

 

Whatever you do, don't go see a psychiatrist about this problem. The first thing they will do is diagnose you schizophrenic and put you on all kinds of dangerous medications. Although, maybe a small dose of Seroquel could help out a little...

I already take anti-psychotics. As a mood stabilizer. I have rather severe bipolar disorder. They don't help. I find that the only thing that has helped is stress reduction.

I want to reiterate a final #ing time.

I am a Satanist, but that doesn't mean I follow Satan. There is no #ing Satan. It's a metaphor. It's a collection of all the trickster gods and devils (all religions have a trickster), whose attributes are uniquely animal. This causes a sort of disdain for certain non-human animals. Goats in particular where treated hideously. God dammit, can anyone do a little research before making assumptions.

You just made one assumption, or perhaps two. But, no Satan=no God, deal with it and move on from your point of view.

Omg.
I was about to make a new thread. I've been a lurker here for long.
I always wanted to share my own Crazy experience with you but never really had the courage to.
... I dont know if i can make my own thread yet, i dont think so, so i Will write here if u dont mind. My story ressemble yours.

When i was about four, what i hope was a reccuring nightmare haunted me for about four years.
I would litterally wake up and start a new day living a "living nightmare"

I wake up, i know it Will happen so i look all around to see if "he's" there. When i feel courageous enough to get out of bed I do, walk my way to the door. The closed door of the bedroom. And it starts.
The door is locked and every Time i figure out the door can't be locked (no lock on the door) it triggers that feeling in me, i know "it" Will happens as usual but the scene of me trying to open the door even tho it can't possibly be locked is the "key". When i give and stop or let fear overcome my Will to get out of here or let go of my rationnality (one more Time that #ing door can't be locked!) the monster appears.
A tall man, large, with a deep growing voice. I never ever looked at him directly because i was to frightened to do so. I know it was tall because of how #ing high he should have been to lift me so high and throw me on the bed.
He would always come out of the same corner. The door was between two Walls. The big wall of the room that goes from the door to the front of the bed at the other end of the room and on the other side of the door facing that wall was another one because of a closet buil in the wall. Like a dead end with a door.
It was fairly easy to look at the corner while i was trying to open the door but he's Come out when i was overcome with fear and to concentrated on the door.

It lasted four years.
Only in that room. Nowhere else. Everytime it happened i would sit on the bed and scream all that i have to let go of the fear and the feeling of being powerless against that entity. Everytime my mum would come and tell me it was a nightmare.
I tried everything. At Time, getting out of sleep i would call my mum, scream for my mum and since she'd not hear me I would then panic and scream for her... You know the rest. Ultimately I would have to wake up and leave the room by myself...
...or not really.

Im 27. Reading the begining of your story shook me I even uncontrollably let some tears fall because I was about to write that story somewhere with or without your post. The emotion i still feel coupled with the fright you described was too much!

Tomorow I Will have a "real" talk with my mum to see if she remembers anything. I know it was not just a reccuring nightmare. Or it was the worst false awakening/lucid dream ever.

Originally posted by Mundanemundy
Omg.
I was about to make a new thread. I've been a lurker here for long.
I always wanted to share my own Crazy experience with you but never really had the courage to.
... I dont know if i can make my own thread yet, i dont think so, so i Will write here if u dont mind. My story ressemble yours.

When i was about four, what i hope was a reccuring nightmare haunted me for about four years.
I would litterally wake up and start a new day living a "living nightmare"

I wake up, i know it Will happen so i look all around to see if "he's" there. When i feel courageous enough to get out of bed I do, walk my way to the door. The closed door of the bedroom. And it starts.
The door is locked and every Time i figure out the door can't be locked (no lock on the door) it triggers that feeling in me, i know "it" Will happens as usual but the scene of me trying to open the door even tho it can't possibly be locked is the "key". When i give and stop or let fear overcome my Will to get out of here or let go of my rationnality (one more Time that #ing door can't be locked!) the monster appears.
A tall man, large, with a deep growing voice. I never ever looked at him directly because i was to frightened to do so. I know it was tall because of how #ing high he should have been to lift me so high and throw me on the bed.
He would always come out of the same corner. The door was between two Walls. The big wall of the room that goes from the door to the front of the bed at the other end of the room and on the other side of the door facing that wall was another one because of a closet buil in the wall. Like a dead end with a door.
It was fairly easy to look at the corner while i was trying to open the door but he's Come out when i was overcome with fear and to concentrated on the door.

It lasted four years.
Only in that room. Nowhere else. Everytime it happened i would sit on the bed and scream all that i have to let go of the fear and the feeling of being powerless against that entity. Everytime my mum would come and tell me it was a nightmare.
I tried everything. At Time, getting out of sleep i would call my mum, scream for my mum and since she'd not hear me I would then panic and scream for her... You know the rest. Ultimately I would have to wake up and leave the room by myself...
...or not really.

Im 27. Reading the begining of your story shook me I even uncontrollably let some tears fall because I was about to write that story somewhere with or without your post. The emotion i still feel coupled with the fright you described was too much!

Tomorow I Will have a "real" talk with my mum to see if she remembers anything. I know it was not just a reccuring nightmare. Or it was the worst false awakening/lucid dream ever.

My room as the same layout. Built in closet, with a 'corner' where the door is. The long wall across puts the door between two walls. I have always believed he has come from here. Either this is literally the same being, or there's a race of beings.

I've always felt that he was mocking me, or somehow found my fear amusing.

Originally posted by DarwinVsJesus
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Would you prefer being lied to?

You ask: "What is 2 + 2 (but DON"T tell me the answer is 4)"

Do you have ANY idea how insane that sounds?

Not only do NEED the truth in a situation like this, your very SURVIVAL depends on it.

Lies will NOT help you, PERIOD.

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Christians, you suck

Yah that's really "positive" and "full of light". Don't EVEN talk about Lucifer being the lightbearer if you are going to hate God and hate Christians.

Satanism = hatred of God

I've heard about Lucifer being a lightbearer ad nauseum on this site. It is common knowledge that Lucifer was the Great Dragon who fell to earth after having been cast out of heaven by Archangel Michael.

Lightbearer is the meaning of his name as he was an Archangel. And now he is a fallen angel.

You can think of it as a metaphor for the fallen part of mankind if you don't want to think of him as real. All darkness is, is misused light trapped in the forms of someone's making.

In your hurry to dismiss people who have faith, you have dismissed every other alternative concept presented.

I'm not posting here anymore. You've literally ruined this thread for me. Seriously. I'm speechless.

In a previous life, my step daughter from a previous relationship woke up screaming about a "yellow man" that had just been examining her in her room.
What was odd about this early Sunday morning incident many years ago was that we subconsciously heard her yelling and calling out to us, yet we couldn't move or budge.
It was like the sheets were made of lead.
At that same time before waking, I was dreaming about an entity that was looking down on me as I lay in bed.
Weird.

Originally posted by DarwinVsJesus
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Seriously? You come here with a problem. Numerous people describe their own experiences in similar scenarios. Many, if not most, rid themselves of the bothersome entities by telling them to leave in the name of Christ.

Yet, you then have the audacity to the tell them that they are stupid that their solution is not good enough solely because you just don't want to believe it.

Do you not see a problem here?

Hey darwin.
One thing that may help you. It helped me a lot:
It's extremely hard to transition from sleep to wake, especially when I have a nightmare. i used to wale up with fast heartbeats, sweat or breathing really fast. A few years ago I took the habit to take a deep breath, hold it, open my eyes, and finally exhale.

Now i do it instinctively and i wake up feeling ok, breathing normaly, etc...

Im still reading the thread. Im in shock. I can believe other people expericenced that. The deep growling voice, big man. Dark... In the corner. Seemingly coming out of nowhere.

Not so long ago in my early 20's I've searching so desesperately for rational answer that I have even thougt of child abuse (who knows). But my mum was single and i only have two other older sisters and no man were at home with us...

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People who are into "naturalism" believe in "rational thinking", or at least they say they do. This is a big premise in atheism.
Not that being visited upon by a shadowy entity is particularly rational.

Interestingly, secular humanism also prides itself on supposed rational thinking.

Naturalism refers to the viewpoint that laws of nature (as opposed to supernatural ones) operate in the universe, and that nothing exists beyond the natural universe or, if it does, it does not affect the natural universe.[1] Adherents of naturalism (i.e. naturalists) assert that natural laws are the rules that govern the structure and behavior of the natural universe, that the universe is a product of these laws.[2]

Philosopher Paul Kurtz argues that nature is best accounted for by reference to material principles. These principles include mass, energy, and other physical and chemical properties accepted by the scientific community. Further, this sense of naturalism holds that spirits, deities, and ghosts are not real and that there is no "purpose" in nature. Such an absolute belief in naturalism is usually referred to as metaphysical naturalism (or philosophical naturalism).[3] In contrast, assuming naturalism in working methods, without necessarily considering naturalism as an absolute truth with philosophical entailments, is called methodological naturalism.[4]

en.wikipedia.org...(philosophy)

So are the shadowy entities real or not?

I was two young at the Time to understand complicated concept such as rationnality.
This how i explain what i felt back then with my analysis of the situation as an adult.
The memory is still there somehow, but what take be back there are the emotion.

Darwin please keep posting.
People like me are eager to know more about Your past experience and how you cope with that.
To all the others... The title of the thread starts with "im really reluctant to post it but" for a reason. It can be hard to share this kind of experience. It's anonymous but still difficult because it's really personal. Maybe that's why he lost his temper

Originally posted by DarwinVsJesus
I'm speechless.

I too am speechless.

Just in case there are any lurkers here who still ARE looking for answers...

Jesus Appears to 24 Satanists During Blood Ritual

"I hear this hissing sound like a snake... and as I'm hearing him curse me, this cloud rises in the office and this really obnoxious smell.. and so I ask him 'How long have you been a Satanist?'" ~ Graham Cooke

Originally posted by Mundanemundy
Hey darwin.
One thing that may help you. It helped me a lot:
It's extremely hard to transition from sleep to wake, especially when I have a nightmare. i used to wale up with fast heartbeats, sweat or breathing really fast. A few years ago I took the habit to take a deep breath, hold it, open my eyes, and finally exhale.

Now i do it instinctively and i wake up feeling ok, breathing normaly, etc...

Im still reading the thread. Im in shock. I can believe other people expericenced that. The deep growling voice, big man. Dark... In the corner. Seemingly coming out of nowhere.

Not so long ago in my early 20's I've searching so desesperately for rational answer that I have even thougt of child abuse (who knows). But my mum was single and i only have two other older sisters and no man were at home with us...

I'd love to continue this conversation privately. This thread has been ruined and it's the last time I ever go out on a limb. Feel free to PM if you'd like to talk more about this.


I don't like being told "turn to christ" because the subtext is "as you are, you're no good". I repeatedly asked people to stop posting these things and debating the merits of my philosophy or theirs. I wanted help. I am experiencing real terror, on a regular basis. I'm leaving this thread with no answers and a feeling of sadness that I have been judged so strongly by ignorant people who don't have any idea what they are talking about.

Just like animal welfare, people don't ever realize the horrors of the situation until they see it for themselves. Until they do, it's not important. I hope some of you are confronted with this being.

When I was still a christian, I did use the name of Jesus. It never went away. My fault, right? I hope one of you comes face to face with a 12 foot tall, cheshire-cat grinning being that exudes terror and evil. When you throw your jesus at him, and he laughs at you and comes closer, then you will know why I wanted this out of it. Guess why he laughed? he's not a demon, you fools. It's an inter-dimensional creature of some type. Not a #ing demon. So the name of jesus this or yeshua that is irrelevant.


and all the while I'm still being followed, watched, experiencing regular intervals of utter terror.

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I don't like being told "turn to christ" because the subtext is "as you are, you're no good".

No one here ever said this Darwin. That is your own pretext you brought to the table. Everyone here has your best interests at heart but it doesn't match your ideas so you rejected it. I understand if you had some kind of bad experience as a fundy.
If you want to keep your entity, that is your choice. It sounds like you do, or you are just pulling everyone's leg with your visitation story, as it's not at all a rationalistic thing and neither is practicing Satanism of any kind. You are insulted when people call you on this and then you curse at everyone.

Best wishes, really

I dont know if i can send private message yet but ill send you some as soon as i can my friend.
And ill keep posting here to read the stories of others who shared the same experience

Originally posted by DarwinVsJesus

I'd love to continue this conversation privately. This thread has been ruined and it's the last time I ever go out on a limb. Feel free to PM if you'd like to talk more about this.

I don't like being told "turn to christ" because the subtext is "as you are, you're no good". I repeatedly asked people to stop posting these things and debating the merits of my philosophy or theirs. I wanted help. I am experiencing real terror, on a regular basis. I'm leaving this thread with no answers and a feeling of sadness that I have been judged so strongly by ignorant people who don't have any idea what they are talking about.

Just like animal welfare, people don't ever realize the horrors of the situation until they see it for themselves. Until they do, it's not important. I hope some of you are confronted with this being.

When I was still a christian, I did use the name of Jesus. It never went away. My fault, right? I hope one of you comes face to face with a 12 foot tall, cheshire-cat grinning being that exudes terror and evil. When you throw your jesus at him, and he laughs at you and comes closer, then you will know why I wanted this out of it. Guess why he laughed? he's not a demon, you fools. It's an inter-dimensional creature of some type. Not a #ing demon. So the name of jesus this or yeshua that is irrelevant.


and all the while I'm still being followed, watched, experiencing regular intervals of utter terror.

There is way too much negativity in your replies. First, you posted on ATS, you should have known what's coming to you because the religious people are in MANY threads, not only in yours. How long are you on this site? You didn't expect any religious people reply with their demons and satan stories?

Then...you got A TON of replies, and apart from those you don't like there were actually several GOOD ones, you obviously (SEE: THE IRONY!!!) as in your real life, you are only able to see the negative things..you cannot even see that SOME people posted helpful things.

In fact, a TON pf people, in their way, took your thread serious and helped you over...like..10 pages? ARE YOU BLIND?

But now you are ONLY concentrating on the replies you don't like, likewise also insulted those people who took their time and tried to help you.

I myself have seen some GOOD replies, in particular those who recommended a Shaman and do some searching there. You have (I think) not even bothered to those replies.

It's funny how your behaviour here in the thread might be a an indication what's wrong with your life as a whole. Don't you see that?

How can you say or imply that people don't realize the horrors of your situation - while there are 10+ pages of people effing replying to you in an attempt to help you?

if they would not realize "the horrors" (whether it be religious people replying or those from a spiritual perspective), your thread would not have gotten that long. Sheesh.