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originally posted by: 0zzymand0s
I care about you both, for whatever it's worth. I know it sounds silly, but I love to see your avatars. It reminds me that there is a world outside of my head.
originally posted by: 0zzymand0s
a reply to: toolgal462
Your name is good enough and thanks! I think I want to be even nicer to be honest. I am trying to stay off the other threads. Fighting with people is bad for my health right now.
That stupid argument about "Socialism" is already played out, imo. But you gave me the best laugh of the day yesterday in that thread! I hope that comment wasn't removed.
originally posted by: dogstar23
a reply to: Hefficide
Thank you for this post, Heff. For all to whom it helps. I truly appreciate what you, and other contributors to these types of threads do for our little community.
I know and love several people who suffer with mental health issues tovarying degrees. It took me a long time to understand it, and longer to realize that we all have SOME degree, even if its just at certain times, of mental health issues we deal with.
For me, this is one of those times. I'm finding myself really "checking" myself, as my thoufhts have tried to run toward worry, anxiety, panic. I've always handled everything life has thrown at me really well. I'm the "rock" for many people in my life in times of crisis.
This time, its the economic doom that's getting to me. I've absorbed many hits over the past 20 years, and weathered them well. But this time, I was finally coming out of digging out from a massive hit we took, financially, about 5 years back. We pushed through it, but exhausted everything in the process. I'm looking at a 95% reduction in pay until things get back to normal. What little I have remaining will keep us housed, utilities on and keep up the shortfall in health insurance for the family that my pay will no longer cover. This will hold out until the end of April. At that time, I will have to cease paying rent and utilities, and whatever food we have remaining will have to hold us over until income returns. However long we can hang on while our ability to obtain housing in the future is destroyed is how long we will have until my family, with two young children, will be homeless.
I had scrimped and saved for years, but one financial hit after another over the years has left me with no safety net remaining. Unfortunately, the money I had paid into health insurance turned out to be far more damaging than anything. I could have instead used that money over the past 5 years to pay out of pocket and have a 6 month safety net remaining. Instead, $80k down the toilet in 5 years. I'm doing my best not to panic - and if I had just had another year to build savings, I could weather 4-6 months. Hoping to God this comes to a close quickly.
originally posted by: 0zzymand0s
It's funny. Some of the nicest people I have talked to on ATS have been deplorable/deplorable friendly. Just a year ago I would have been incensed by people/things that I agree with whole-heartedly now. And for no good reason at all. I was so angry until I popped.
I'm not saying the left-leaning members of this site are bad people. I just never imagined how utterly human and full of joy/humor/kindness my former ideological "enemies" actually are. It has brought me great joy, to be perfectly honest.
Thank you for talking to me!
We are family here aren't we? We fight, and sometimes we are also nice to one another as well.
originally posted by: Thecakeisalie
a reply to: Hefficide
as the R.E.M song goes 'it's the end of the world as we know it, and i feel coronavirus' okay i'll try again, as Survivor once sung 'it's the eye of the tiger it's the thrill of the coronavirus' dammit third times a charm 'smoke on the coronavirus'-okay i give up.