Where to Find Love?

how ever you fell more comfortable, eternal thast one of the things i wished for but eternality flew in a blink of an eye a reply to: Tiamat384

a reply to: lovekills6
I need to be with someone forever. I don't believe in less. Less is worthless. I'll post it here, not yet, but very soon, I feel it'll be easier to read for you. But, in this story you will learn something about me and the relationship I feel might make me hated. I done wrong, and I know why.

its up to the two people in the relation ship to make eternity be a reality and not just a root from a dream, i don't believe in hate ,and what every u did might have had a reason , a reply to: Tiamat384

a reply to: lovekills6
The reason...all the things I did? The reason? My brain is wired incorrectly, just doesn't function correctly and I understand why, no official documentation though. You'll believe in hate after this. Though, I still think parts are beautiful.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Every ones brain is wired incorrectly, every one has that tied up sense in them

a reply to: lovekills6
No, not what I mean. I'll post the beginning. Up to the point that the relationship begins. I'll continue the story tomorrow, when I have emotions again because writing this made me apathetic. Hope that's ok with you and I keep you interested.

a reply to: lovekills6
I suppose the story begins in October. Note she is a couple years younger than me. She just entered high school. She had tried to talk to me a couple times in October/November. I ignored her, lied to her when she asked me if I went to a concert because she believed she saw me there. The concert was before school even began. It's funny. She wasn't even planning on going to the high school I was attending. After a few attempts at trying to talk with me she decided, never to talk to me again. Around this time I received a friend request from some random girl. Seeing her profile and that she was a metal head I accepted. For a few weeks or a month I messaged her, when suddenly I received another friend request, this time from that girl that I ignored. I accepted and messaged with her, much to her surprise. It was pleasant. Apparently she was friends with that girl, but they had also just met randomly over the internet. What are the odds? She said "Hey" in the hallway to me. We talked over the days. She hugged me. I remember that. The first time she hugged me. I hugged back, but when she let go she apologized. I said it's ok. She had assumed I didn't like hugs. Quite the contrary, I love being close. From then on we hugged goodbye, and hello.

I was never so open around anyone. I was always an introvert. Always kept to myself though somehow I had friends around. I remember the first time hanging out. Our feet died. It was so cold. And she had no jacket. Can you believe it? It was December. We weren't alone. It was me, her, her sister and that random girl that somehow brought us together. We went to two record stores, walked around elsewhere. As time passed by I grew feelings, but they weren't love feelings, just feelings of care and protection.

Over our Facebook discussions I became her knight and prince, and she became a princess. I protected her from everything. Monsters under the bed and in the closet, nightmares. I was her protector. At some point the princess lost her eyes and so needed a guide. I told her I'd guide her and she would hold onto me. She said how she would hold me, my shoulder, my book bag, my arm, but she refused to say what I was going for, by hand. The next day, I may be mistaken. I held her hand. I managed to til she let go. It was nice. I loved how every time I'd separate from her and her hand to class I'd smell her on me. That more so when we were together. I made up so many excuses just to be close. I was her guide so our arms were entwined when we met, even in group, rather especially then. It was winter and cold and so I hugged her, asking her if she was cold. I had feelings then.

At this time, still December, we, me her and her sister went to this park where there is a pond and it was frozen over. We went on it and the two of us made a game, holding hands we'd walk on the ice and try to trip the other person. She managed to trip me first, but she tripped on my foot as I fell. We lay there, my back was stunned that I couldn't get up too easily so it was preferable. My head were as her feet, and her head there as my feet. I took her hand in my. Her sister lay down next to her in her orientation.

In February, I asked her to be my Valentine. And she said of course. We went out together February 15 rather than the 14th, so I believe it was a Sunday we went out. I walked halfway to our school, which is exactly 1.3 miles. It was freezing outside and I was walking with a rose in hand, nothing keeping my hands warm. The second half I traveled the second half way by bus, and then waited...for maybe 5 to 20 minutes. Then she said to meet at the mall, so I took a bus which happened to be there at the stop I was waiting at. What luck! We met and I gave her the rose, met by her saying I didn't need to. We didn't do anything. We weren't together. We ate at the mall. McDonald's. I know. Not great..But we weren't together. 8 days later, February 23, we skipped our first classes and we wandered. Where did we wander? Well, it happened that we wandered at the doors to a church that was closed. I hugged her then, it was cold, there was snow on the ground and it was windy. We didn't talk, we sat in silence and in my mind I was repeatedly asking myself, "Should I tell her"? The following words left my mouth and the following things took place:

Me: I love you, I think.
Her: *Turning around quickly and hugging me* I love you too!

I did love her, but I wanted to be sure, and I didn't ever want to hurt her. Officially we began on February 24, for some reason I don't agree with. That reason being I hadn't officially asked her out.

The beginning was the greatest part, of course this is always true, but if I had been better it would have been the same forever, if not better and better.

a reply to: Tiamat384

The beginning sounds like destiney, like,you guys,' were meant to be together, it's such a nice story made me smile as I read everything seems perfect between u guys , so u guys got along and became close pretty fast ,

a reply to: lovekills6
Exactly, is it not like destiny? I regret losing her, hate myself for it. Should have worked out. I should be waiting for Tuesday, when I come back and see her. I should be seeing her soon enough. I love the story, but I can't believe it's over. Um, I actually wrote a story about this, a metaphorical one, I posted the link in this thread, in a previous reply, if you'd like to see, if you haven't.

a reply to: Tiamat384
Actually, it is in a different thread, but I can link it here if you want. The rest of the actual story will be continued tomorrow. There will be happy parts, but in the end I will be hated.

a reply to: Tiamat384

I actually just read the story , your a pretty good writer , and I'm assuming the wind is the friend u,guys had in common,

a reply to: lovekills6
Mm. Yes. The Random Force. If only the dream part came true.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Well I believe that things happen for a reason and maybe it didn't happen with her cuz of something, who knows

a reply to: lovekills6

Well i know why. And the why is me. Which you'll learn when the story continues a little later on.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Well I'm not understanding what quite happened

a reply to: lovekills6
Well i suppose the continuation will help explain. Though the rest of what i say may or may not be the exact order, just the general order. My memory is not the best. And what I say will also be more fragmented.

a reply to: Tiamat384

I understand so wait u guys don't go to the same school any.more:

a reply to: lovekills6
No. I'm a freshman at college now. So no I will never ever see her again, unless outside of a concert..

a reply to: Tiamat384

Oh what if u see her , would u approach her

I find that cheap women, drugs, alcohol....and, well....cheap women...

Who needs love?