Where to Find Love?

a reply to: lovekills6
You should its very interesting. Back at college. Pretty good thanksgiving break. Though I didnt really celebrate.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Why didn't u celebrate , what happened with your ex if it's not rude to ask

a reply to: lovekills6
Because I don't believe in the holiday, the Americans were never friends with the Natives. Let's not kid ourselves. And um..she seems fine. I'm messaging with her as we speak, so to speak. It's nice and killer at the same time.

a reply to: Tiamat384

True people just use it as an,excuse to have off , and killer how ,

a reply to: lovekills6
Like every other America exclusive holiday just about. Killer in that, it was enjoyable, but stopped being so and rather causes emotional pain/agony/distress? But, I could quit, but that just seems...unproductive.

a reply to: Tiamat384

What made it not,enjoyable ,

a reply to: lovekills6
That's a good question. Probably the lack of visible chance of productivity. I mean, there's only one reason I'd message her, right?

a reply to: Tiamat384

Cuz u missed her ?

a reply to: lovekills6
Well yes. I do miss her. A lot. But to, hoping in vain, be with her again.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Why , whay makes u say that

a reply to: lovekills6
You mean the "in vain" part? Well, I don't see why would we ever get back together. When there are more people around her, more guys and me well, no good.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Well just cause there are guys around her doesn't mean she would like them

a reply to: lovekills6
And nothing to prevent her from that either. I have to say. As much as it kills me I do smile time to time. Though she remains silent and sends emoticons of a zippered face because I sad "Shh".

a reply to: Tiamat384

I can tell you really do like her . And Idk what to tell you being around people DOENST Mean u will like them,even if u have no reason not to

a reply to: lovekills6
Well, from what I know she has an endless amount of reasons perhaps to not care for me, and a handful of reasons to like me. The odds are not in my favor. But yes, I adore her.

a reply to: Tiamat384

U were something to here at one point there has to be something left ,

a reply to: lovekills6
Well I recall her saying, well messaging not wanting anything to do with me though that obviously seems to be forgotten. But overall it just seems a bit tricky to approach given our history. And then, well, the best way for me to say what my behavior looked like, BPD. That just, to me anyways seems how I behaved.

Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a serious mental illness that causes unstable moods, behavior, and relationships. It usually begins during adolescence or early adulthood. Most people who have BPD suffer from: Problems regulating their emotions and thoughts. Impulsive and sometimes reckless behavior.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Your history well the beginning of it seemed very nice , and are your sure u have that

a reply to: lovekills6
Well ok. Without giving specific examples within the relationship. I can easily be jealous and this leads to a withdrawn time. Any moment of jealousy is just, I will walk away. Or reject closeness. I become dead at times, or bored. I will get mad, and it's probably for a piss poor reason..At the same time I can show the greatest amount of love, and in a split second I am the coldest person. And suicide...well, except for one incident a few years prior to her, or well a couple, I have small suicidal tendencies, but would never. Just crosses my mind. This song could describe me, because anything can set me off and away. But I mean for the best.

a reply to: Tiamat384

Wait so u would,become like cold with her due to jealousy ,