Teen Tweets of Abuse 144 Times, Kills Herself

reply to post by Hiasyouwant

Why didn't she simply leave? She's 18 right? A girl with her looks could find anywhere to live, she could've asked me

First of all she wasn't 18 when the abuse started.
Second? The ideology a 'woman/girl with her looks' can get 'anywhere in the world' is the base reason for young girls being exploited, raped, molested, etc.

I'm sure you meant well...just pointing out a fact.

I mean you do realize what you're saying is 'fat chicks who look like dogs' get nowhere?

peace

reply to post by RainbeauBleu

She could have ended up like Aileen. Aileen's Grandfather wasn't blamed. No, Aileen is just a 'monster'. Born that way, right? omfg. The system failed Aileen. Society never stopped crucifying her. She met very few nice, bighearted people in her life. No wonder she lied to get the death penalty. Wouldn't you if you walked in her shoes....ALONE?

My opinion? Start a thread about Aileen. Let me know. I'll be there.
100000000000000000 X 1000000000000000000%agreed!

peace

reply to post by ElectricUniverse

I read your post and I can't help but just...I dunno...I vacillate between tears and rage.
If you've a name/video/link applicable for the girl/woman you were speaking of?
Please post it here.

Thank you.. Truly.

peace

She shouldn't have killed herself. She should have lived with the injustice. Because things change. After time went by someone would have believed her, or she would have come to some new place in herself where she was able to cope. But she didn't know that. She was too young to know how life can change things.

Anyway, for all those idiots who are continually carping about how someone's life can be ruined by false charges, not that it can't. But they never seem to realize that not being believed can also kill a person.

Originally posted by silo13
reply to post by RainbeauBleu

 

She could have ended up like Aileen. Aileen's Grandfather wasn't blamed. No, Aileen is just a 'monster'. Born that way, right? omfg. The system failed Aileen. Society never stopped crucifying her. She met very few nice, bighearted people in her life. No wonder she lied to get the death penalty. Wouldn't you if you walked in her shoes....ALONE?

My opinion? Start a thread about Aileen. Let me know. I'll be there.
100000000000000000 X 1000000000000000000%agreed!

peace

Alot of people aren't believed. I'm sorry. You just have to be stronger than that. Don't make Aileen into a martyr. She isn't. She's a murderer.

reply to post by silo13


Sad. It also is fouly ironic when Rightwingers moan and spit vitriol about government spending, but in the next breath blame people in the government for not protecting this girl. When you defund everything, expect mayhem and no official action when bad things happen. Pray your kid is not the next one and if he are she is, don't you dare whine about not getting any help from the government.

Children in general are treated like crap by the system. I worked in homes and institutions for abused children for awhile. No matter how bad the abuse was the staff and child protection workers uniformly regarded and treated them like they were the problem. If only they would stop being angry and acting out their parents could get them back. If only they weren't so difficult and making problems for everyone. The world hates children. I'm sorry Ashley. I wish I could have helped.

reply to post by silo13


This is just soooo sad! Breaks my heart that so many people/parents/friends/authorities are too busy to get INVOLVED with teens. I get a lot of flack for monitoring my teens' lives and sometimes I have guilt for kind of micro-managing them, but THIS is the exact reason that I do it, plus, it's MY JOB! I feel terribly sorry for this girls' family.

It appears to be a very honorable suicide.

Think about it realistically, who in their right mind would want to live on Earth? Especially if this is the life they are forced to live?

Suicide looks totally reasonable and understandable from this angle of perception.

We have an over-abundance of super-villains but no super-heroes to stop them.

In these circumstances I would have to say a suicide is apt and reasonable.

You know things have to really suck for someone as optimistic as myself to present such a cynical view in such a solid manner.

Everyone reacts to the consequences of a crappy world.

Almost no one is willing to deal with the precursors facilitating it's development.

What causes this? Our society?

Look anyone can get up and preach all day, but it doesn't make any difference.

Until something changes within the human spirit, nothing is going to change outside of it. If we do not learn our lessons about our mistakes we are doomed to repeat and intensify them.

I'm sorry if someone already posted her tweets, I just feel that you can really tell the hurt in her words..It's a shame she took her life before she could get help from people who did indeed care.

10:50PM Nov 6th: “I #ked up my own suicide” yeah tell me about it…

6:44AM Nov 7th: Staying home today. Can I reach 1000 tweets??? I’m thinking yes!

9:45AM Nov 7th: just woke up

9:45AM Nov 7th: Don’t feel too well

9:45AM Nov 7th: There is somebody in my dreams

9:46AM Nov 7th: I want them gone

9:46AM Nov 7th: How can we control our dreams?

9:46AM Nov 7th: Hummm wish somebody would text me

9:47AM Nov 7th: Kinda lonely right now

9:47AM Nov 7th: There was so much more I wanted to do

9:48AM Nov 7th: Ahhh well time to move on

9:48AM Nov 7th: My thought process is too crazy

9:48AM Nov 7th: I totally think I’m bipolar

9:49AM Nov 7th: Or just crazy

9:49AM Nov 7th: Idk.

9:49AM Nov 7th: Humm I remember why we broke up

9:50AM Nov 7th: I shall do it again

9:50AM Nov 7th: Because this time I don’t have a bf

9:50AM Nov 7th: And I really don’t care anymore

9:51AM Nov 7th: I should get ready then

9:51AM Nov 7th: Should have gotten everything last night

9:52AM Nov 7th: Still just trying to raise my numbers

9:52AM Nov 7th: So I met this boy

9:52AM Nov 7th: He was very cute you see

9:52AM Nov 7th: Quite popular too

9:53AM Nov 7th: Me and this boy started talking

9:53AM Nov 7th: Then we talked a lil more

9:53AM Nov 7th: Then he let me in his front door

9:54AM Nov 7th: We walked up the stairs where everything was quite

9:54AM Nov 7th: And he whispered ‘you look beautiful’ into my ear

9:55AM Nov 7th: Shivers moved down my spine

9:55AM Nov 7th: And then he began to kiss my neck

9:56AM Nov 7th: I know you’re thinking ‘why did she go’

9:57AM Nov 7th: And all I can say is my father told me so

9:57AM Nov 7th: So he kissed me sweet and laid me down on his bed

9:58AM Nov 7th: I started to shake he said ‘give me head’

9:58AM Nov 7th: I laughed at him and said ‘I’m a vegetarian’

9:59AM Nov 7th: Then I wondered why I had really come to him.

9:59AM Nov 7th: See I’ve been in this situation before

10:00AM Nov 7th: When a boy I loved said he would leave if I didn’t give it up

10:00AM Nov 7th: And I told my friends I had done it even though it wasn’t true

10:01AM Nov 7th: Because he was telling everybody the same things too

10:01AM Nov 7th: But here is the honest truth

10:01AM Nov 7th: I never did it till I was sixteen

10:02AM Nov 7th: I did not know the boy

10:02AM Nov 7th: And I never got to know him

10:02AM Nov 7th: He was older stronger and high at the time

10:03AM Nov 7th: He probably will never admit I was a crime

10:03AM Nov 7th: His breath smelt sour like smoke and his kisses became rough

10:04AM Nov 7th: Then I tried to sit up and say ‘I’ve had enough’

10:04AM Nov 7th: My attempt of getting free were feeble

10:05AM Nov 7th: I decided to scream ‘please stop’

10:05AM Nov 7th: but he just took a pillow to my face and put me in the dark

10:06AM Nov 7th: First to go were my shoes. I feel my feet go cold

10:06AM Nov 7th: Next my pants, he was so bold.

10:07AM Nov 7th: It hurt so much as he entered me

10:07AM Nov 7th: Guys I’m telling you my first time was taken from me

10:08AM Nov 7th: He noticed and said ‘are you a virgin?’

10:08AM Nov 7th: I nodded through tears as he kept barging in

10:09AM Nov 7th: He finished and was done with me

10:09AM Nov 7th: I lay on his bed lifeless

10:10AM Nov 7th: He let me stay there and sleep

10:10AM Nov 7th: Then he offered me some weed

10:10AM Nov 7th: I said ‘no thank you I don’t do that either’

10:11AM Nov 7th: He said ‘girl you’re no fun. See you later’

10:12AM Nov 7th: I started to get dressed and he came back in

10:12AM Nov 7th: He came close; i tried to get away from him

10:12AM Nov 7th: He told me ‘dont be scared’

10:13AM Nov 7th: and like an idiot I believed him

10:13AM Nov 7th: He asked if I liked it

10:14AM Nov 7th: I shrugged my shoulders

10:14AM Nov 7th: He leaned in for a kiss, and I let him

10:15AM Nov 7th: He laid me down and rubbed my back

10:15AM Nov 7th: I cried in his pillow. He cried back

10:15AM Nov 7th: He said he was sorry

10:16AM Nov 7th: I said ‘it’s okay’

10:16AM Nov 7th: we laid there together just bathing in our fears

10:17AM Nov 7th: I don’t know why. But I saw the human in him.

10:17AM Nov 7th: He was probably just as broken as me

10:18AM Nov 7th: He drove me to my park

10:18AM Nov 7th: I got on the swirly slide. I just laid there and cried

10:19AM Nov 7th: I finally walked home

10:19AM Nov 7th: My father opened the door

10:19AM Nov 7th: Asked me ‘how was it’

10:20AM Nov 7th: I said ‘i’ll never forget it…’

10:20AM Nov 7th: as he pressed for questions. I grew impatient

10:20AM Nov 7th: Said ‘dad in so tired can I just go to bed’

10:21AM Nov 7th: he dismissed me and I trudged up the stairs.

10:21AM Nov 7th: My legs hurt. And my heart was filled with despair

10:21AM Nov 7th: I went to the bathroom and locked the door

10:22AM Nov 7th: I took apart a razor I had just gotten from the store

10:22AM Nov 7th: I did what I had to do to forget.

10:23AM Nov 7th: It seems it’s been my only way since sixth grade

10:24AM Nov 7th: When the kids called me fat even though I was a double zero

10:24AM Nov 7th: And I began to watch my weight like it was a MTV show.

10:25AM Nov 7th: I cried as I remembered how I’d starve for days

10:25AM Nov 7th: And my parents never noticed

10:26AM Nov 7th: So I laid there and watched the blood gather on the floor

10:26AM Nov 7th: Then my weak hands reached for the door

10:27AM Nov 7th: I ran into my little sister she saw and shook her head.

10:27AM Nov 7th: Then she looked at me and said. ‘Just don’t let them see sissy.’

10:27AM Nov 7th: she kissed my head and walked away

10:28AM Nov 7th: I swear after that night I was never the same

10:28AM Nov 7th: My dad became to want ‘favors’ from me too

10:29AM Nov 7th: He would use it to bribe me if I wanted to hang out after school

10:30AM Nov 7th: I didn’t know that I should have told somebody what he was doing to me

10:30AM Nov 7th: Sex just became second nature to me

10:31AM Nov 7th: My father let me as long as he got details sometimes I’d even have to let him see

10:32AM Nov 7th: I was just a young girl. Who quickly became afraid of men.

10:32AM Nov 7th: Then years past and it never stopped.

10:32AM Nov 7th: Finally on day I began to pop

10:33AM Nov 7th: I sent a boy away

10:33AM Nov 7th: And told my father enough was enough

10:33AM Nov 7th: He cried and said ‘I’m just so weak’

10:34AM Nov 7th: I looked at him and saw the brokenness too

10:34AM Nov 7th: I took pity on him and became the fool

10:35AM Nov 7th: Things never changed they just got worse

10:35AM Nov 7th: Till one day I met a boy who in the end hurt my heart worst

10:36AM Nov 7th: We met in my typical situation

10:36AM Nov 7th: We were both undressed within a matter of seconds.

10:37AM Nov 7th: But I could tell he was different.

10:37AM Nov 7th: I pledged myself by not hooking up with complete strangers.

10:38AM Nov 7th: But for him I was eager

10:38AM Nov 7th: But there was something different about this guy

10:39AM Nov 7th: He returned the favor and actually said goodbye

10:40AM Nov 7th: On the bus ride home we sat next to each other. Talked for hours on end

10:40PM Nov 7th: We held each other’s hands and told each other our favorite bands

10:41PM Nov 7th: He looked me dead in the eyes and asked if I would please consider seeing him again

10:42PM Nov 7th: I went home filled with smiles and cheer

1:01PM Nov 7th: Annyways. The guy eventually asked me to be his girl

1:02PM Nov 7th: And things were great for a while

1:04PM Nov 7th: But my dad got in the way. And ruined everything. One day I just couldn’t do it. So I told my boyfriend my secret

1:06PM Nov 7th: What happened next was a blur. I told him not to tell. We tried to act normal. We had been dating for over a month when I took his virginity

1:07PM Nov 7th: I fell in love for the first time. But my secret was too much for him. He needed time to think. I thought I was going to lose him.

1:09PM Nov 7th: A lot happened. But all that matters is that my secret was about to become puplic. Him & my friends made me tell

1:10PM Nov 7th: All my efforts to keep a normal life were crumbling right before my eyes.

1:11PM Nov 7th: I remember telling my closest teacher and CPS and the police and dectectives. I remember having to tell them everything about my dad

1:35PM Nov 7th: It was my boyfriend who told my mom. And she came to get me.

1:37PM Nov 7th: Weeks passed then I got the call. They said. ‘Sorry but there isn’t enough evidence’ I hung up.

1:38PM Nov 7th: That’s when I changed. I didn’t care anymore. And the people I was meeting gave me no reason to.

1:39PM Nov 7th: The guys I’ve been with, ha none of them care. They just look at me like I’m just some other hoe.

1:40PM Nov 7th: To that I say. I guess I am. I don’t know how else to be. It’s not my fault. Somebody else chose that for me.

1:47PM Nov 7th: Well that’s. The story of how I came to be who I am. Well the condensed version. I’d love to hear what you have to say. But I won’t be around

2:08PM Nov 7th: Take two. Hope I get this right

reply to post by silo13


from pat benatar

"be a good little girl, and don't tell mommy a thing.
be a good little boy and you'll get a new toy, tell grandma you fell off the swing, because hell is for children."

wonder if she fell in that creep of a judges district? hey muzzleflash, is this too not your business?

reply to post by silo13


Threats of suicide should never be considered a PRANK even if you think they don't really mean to commit suicide someone should ALWAYS call the police and report a suicide threat for 2 obvious reasons.1. If they really mean it you might save a life. 2. If they are just screwing around... after the police show up they won't think it's such a great prank because they will still probably spend a few days in the psych ward.. But to just assume that someone is doing it for a PRANK is the worst response. because you can never really get the feel of a person from what few lines they choose to type. Come on people.

reply to post by muzzleflash

It appears to be a very honorable suicide.

I agree. I'm surprising myself, but agreeing...
Meaning - if ever 'the people' should make their own martyr it's her.
But it's also up to US to keep her so.

peace

This makes me weep. My daughters niece through marriage is in a bad situation, not too far from this. We tried to intervene. She and her husband reported it to CPS. My husband reported it to other authorities. The child's mother denied it and took her to a mental hospital where she was put on anxiety meds. We have all been totally cut off from the child. No authorities will talk with us despite the fact that one told my husband that our fears of what were going on was true. WHY won't people listen?????? She is a darling little blue eyed blonde all of 11 and she is being systematically destroyed and we can't do a damn thing about it except cry. If we went and took her, we'd be charged with kidnapping, and that would make things bad for us and even worse for her, and believe me we have all talked about it. She is drowning and we can't save her and the authorities, CPS and police won't do anything. The parents are Wiccan and don't see anything wrong with what they are doing to her.

Originally posted by pajoly
reply to post by silo13

 

Sad. It also is fouly ironic when Rightwingers moan and spit vitriol about government spending, but in the next breath blame people in the government for not protecting this girl. When you defund everything, expect mayhem and no official action when bad things happen. Pray your kid is not the next one and if he are she is, don't you dare whine about not getting any help from the government.

If our government would spend less on protecting snail darters, and giving out no-bid contracts to wealthy democrat donors (Siga Technologies Inc., whose controlling shareholder is billionaire Ronald O. Perelman, one of the world's richest men and a longtime Democratic Party donor) then we would have the money.

God I hate the self pitying, weak, pathetic souls walking this planet. Sure what happened to her was horrible but to kill herself...well that's just makes her a pathetic excuse for a human and good riddance is what I say.

People have suffered through this type of pain and more before her...yet they managed to prevail and have success in their lives.
Notable Survivors

What this weak puke of a person did was cowardly...of course people like this get compassion by other weak fools.

There is nothing honourable, dedicated, corageous and prosperous in doing what she did, but that's because she had no such qualities in her anymore.

Some people just fall faster.

Originally posted by kerazeesicko
God I hate the self pitying, weak, pathetic souls walking this planet. Sure what happened to her was horrible but to kill herself...well that's just makes her a pathetic excuse for a human and good riddance is what I say.

People have suffered through this type of pain and more before her...yet they managed to prevail and have success in their lives.
Notable Survivors

What this weak puke of a person did was cowardly...of course people like this get compassion by other weak fools.

Suicide is not cowardly, and it is not the easy way out. That is one of those things people just say, but it's really not true. Fear is what prevents many people who are in difficult situations from killing themselves. You can only really commit suicide through liberation of fear... Or lots of drugs I guess.

It's all a shame. Seems like all she was used all her life, and all she wanted was to be loved. Really very sad. But that's life I guess.

Originally posted by dontshoot

Originally posted by kerazeesicko
God I hate the self pitying, weak, pathetic souls walking this planet. Sure what happened to her was horrible but to kill herself...well that's just makes her a pathetic excuse for a human and good riddance is what I say.

People have suffered through this type of pain and more before her...yet they managed to prevail and have success in their lives.
Notable Survivors

What this weak puke of a person did was cowardly...of course people like this get compassion by other weak fools.

Suicide is not cowardly, and it is not the easy way out. That is one of those things people just say, but it's really not true. Fear is what prevents many people who are in difficult situations from killing themselves. You can only really commit suicide through liberation of fear... Or lots of drugs I guess.

It's all a shame. Seems like all she was used all her life, and all she wanted was to be loved. Really very sad. But that's life I guess.

Rubbish! Suicide unless for a greater good, is a show of weaknessand cowardly.
Suicide is the easy way out when your other choice is learning to live with your suffering. (Much worse than suicide)

Living with your suffering is strength. (Fighting your problem head on)
Commiting suicide to avoid your suffering is weakness (Fleeing from your problems)