posted on May, 16 2011 @ 05:36 AM
To administer a punishment in the same vein as the crime originally inflicted lowers us to that person's standing. Thoughtful humans should know this
I guess. I imagine we should all have this idea of being bigger than an eye for an eye. I want to believe I'm better than an eye for an eye type
treatment of another human. However, I was attacked by a man once who claimed he adored me. I've tried to go through all the reasons why I was better
than him and I shouldn't want him to suffer the same pain he inflicted upon me. Really, I have. At the end of the day though I'm just mad. I was mad
that this human being felt they had a right to harm me -to force their will on me and hurt me in such a way. And then -as the bigger, better and more
humane person- I was supposed to let it go and take some philosophical approach to it. This just didn't happen. I wanted him to feel the fear he put
into me. I wanted him to know how he disrupted my life. I wanted him to completely grasp how his impulsive and selfish actions would leave a taint
upon my life long after he was out of my life. When a circle of my male friends beat the living hell out of him, I didn't feel bad about it. I
didn't feel like a bad human. Perhaps that makes me less of a thoughtful human than everyone in this thread speaking about how bad it is to wound
this man in such a way. You may even be right. But when I look at knife marks in my skin and have flashbacks on how it felt to have another human
being force his sexual will on me... you know what? I still think about him suffering for it. I don't take the moral high road. If you think I'm a
bad human for that -- well... walk a day in my shoes and come back and have a chat with me. If you still feel that way then I will respect your
opinion. Till then, I'll stick to my desire to hate humans that hurt other humans for their own pathetic needs. I can't bring myself to read the
story of this guy. If he did this awful thing to some woman because of his own lust or upset over being refused, let the #er rot with his broken eyes.
You can all think I'm an asshole for that opinion, I'm ok with that. I spend a few seconds a week dealing with this crap on a physical level and
I'm grateful it's only a few seconds now. As ugly as it is... sometimes the punishment fits the crime. If you're able to see beyond that I really
do appreciate you because you've been able to rise above simple anguish, or you simply haven't experienced first hand. Either way, I'm happy for
you. Sincerely. I'd like to be in that place.