Are you a "targeted individual" or a paranoid schizophrenic?

I have some trepidation about publicly addressing this issue. I know that it is real and that is all I know for sure. It is happening. My experience seems to be different in a few key ways and I have a billion different theories, I always believe each one in turn at the time, thinking "Aha! It all makes sense now!" Until the next one comes to mind and I am just as certain that THIS is surely the truth. Everyone seems so certain that it is the government or aliens or vigilante groups or ghosts and even God are responsible. It seems as though all possibilities are thrown out to "see what sticks".? I don't know. My experience has not been all negative, either. In fact, I feel better emotionally than I ever have before. More accepting of my flaws, forgiving of my mistakes and more patient with myself and others. I have never been able to articulate exactly what it is that seems to have been happening to me--I only know that it is happening. I am not crazy. A crazy person isn't aware of how crazy they sound. When a schizophrenic hears voices, they just hear the voices. They don't stop and think "Hey, something is really wrong cause I'm hearing voices!" (Not actually "heard"...more like thoughts that aren't always yours?) Hopefully I can pull some more of this out on this thread. Please forgive me if it is disjointed and seems random. I think it just needs to be articulated somehow, however that happens. Please, ask questions if you have them. I think when I try to explain to someone else it helps me understand, too? Thanks for reading my crazy rambling

Yeah this site seems to be housing the shills that if you try to rationalize your experience they jump on you and tell you your mentally I'll or dangerous. I can see from my angle the many aspects of the mind controls here and anywhere. The biggest power they have is making you feel isolated because they can back one into a corner cause liars are evil

a reply to: bdizzi90

So why do you think you are the subject of so much attention by the 'NWO'?

a reply to: bdizzi90

bdiz, that voice isn't what you think it is. It can't be trusted.

I am with you on this one.
It can't be translated but it is all understood...
Oh well... not "really" understood, forgive me my pretension.
Because, in the end, it is all crazy!
Once one discovers that the whole reality is fake, it makes our feet more grounded and us, more lucid as we accept the best of ourselves.
And this incongruence is completely non sense...

a reply to: ReluctantBlossom

OOPS

Dang! How many times did this darn thing post? LOL

A triple!

a reply to: [post=18464578]missgaia[/post

Well, it's real enough for me. I don't know why I was made aware but I sure know it was the most frightening experience I have ever had. People toss the "paranoia" word around, but I don't think people really understand all that it involves and how traumatizing it is. It has been nearly 12 years and I am still trying to process it. While telepathy or ESP, etc. Is discussed at length, nobody seems to think about what it would REALLY be like if someone could truly read your every thought, know absolutely every single thing that passes through your mind ALL OF THE TIME. You will never, ever be alone with your thoughts again. Imagine being aware of every thought you have...weird stuff flits thru like bizarre butterflies...but they were YOURS and now some Other knows them, too.Like how it feels when you take a # or what you REALLY think of other people. With the added bonus of never knowing who it is. Did they maybe buy something from you? Small talk in the grocery store? Maybe that palm reader who was so good? There is only one place we can truly be just alone and ourselves. In our heads. Now, imagine finding another...being/entity/Other in there with you. Like a burglar, touching everything, rifling through your underwear. You know that he is in there, but you can't find him and there is no help for you because no one believes you.


Another rambling, random collection of words that STILL don't convey what it is like. God I hope to really process this someday.

I believe the voice(s) exist. I hear them, but I don't trust them. They lie all the time. And they do know everything about me.

The things that tell me it is real are that there is no historical or behavioral precedence that supports a mass delusion with exact details all being the exact same or close enough to support such a theory or hypothesis.

Another are the credible nature of many reports coming through as being decent honest people just telling what is happening to them. It isn't that tough to tell when someone is plausible by how they reveal their emotion in the words they use. The source of this problem sounds evil in their intent however.

a reply to: Skyfloating

Good discussion! Here's my theory:

This started in the last century, when Intel Agents (like the Navy's William Cooper) leaked too much info to the public. Suddenly Intel Agencies (military and civilian) developed the strategy of "need to know," or non-sharing of sensitive information. Too many bar and party talks were leaking too many secrets.

Then this "everything in an airtight box" strategy leaked into public education. So today kids are bored stiff in Algebra, when a more "integrated" approach (like adding History and Electronics to Algebra) makes for a more vibrant class and ties things together better to become more memorable. (The Ivy League schools were using this approach in their freshman Intro classes at one time.)

This "boxy" approach also gives people the impression of always being an outsider, by being denied what is inside this or that "box." And its easy to assign sinister motives to whoever owns/guards/protects this or that "box." So conspiracy theories blossom, and the gov. compounds the suspicion and fear with a stone-wall of denial.

So now we have an incompetent Administration of "boxes" with Agencies jealously protecting their turf, and no one knows what the other is doing. This results in expensive duplication of effort, and a constant tug-of-war between the Truth and Plausible (protective) Lies. Which, again, feeds the public perception that a few people "in the all-knowing box" are getting rich illegally - while the rest of us get the shaft.

Today this "everything in an airtight box" has blended into the public, courtesy of the Internet, and EVERYONE feels both locked-out of the Truth by a corrupt Administration, AND "targeted" by evil from too many bloody and imaginative videogames and horror movies. (When was the last time we had a public "beheading" crime in the U.S. before the ISIL showed up on the radar?) This is only intensified by Team Obama's fascist paranoia, like their Troll Patrols:

www.naturalnews.com...
(2013) FEDERAL GOVERNMENT ROUTINELY HIRES INTERNET TROLLS AND SHILLS TO DISRUPT CHATROOMS AND ON-LINE DISCUSSIONS

This not only makes Team Obama look less trustworthy than ever, but projects the impression that they are "capable of doing absolutely anything harmful" to groups or individuals.

There will always be folks who say/do outrageous things just to get attention. And I agree, people need to be more responsible and research their theories/complaints, searching for a solution. But in our Digital Age, there are more questions and partial answers than any real and satisfying "solutions".

I developed screaming 24/7 headaches a few weeks ago. I refuse to live on OTC pain meds, since I can't write when I'm that doped up. One day I noticed a new satellite dish on a condo across our alley, and it was pointed at our apartment! I complained. Myy headaches instantly disappeared, and I noticed that the satt. dish had been turned the other way. So my problem was answered, personally. But even now, I can walk from room to room in our apartment, and different rooms produce different head-pressure and muscle pains.

Sometimes our cat just runs from room to room, like looking for a quiet, non-energized environment to settle down for a snooze. I've also worked on jobs where I'd suddenly get very sick inside - from what I found out later was Extremely Low Frequency (ELF) bombardment - which caused pain and diarrhea. Whether it was intentionally directed or not, getting the "runs" was always proof I'd been ELF-bombed.

But once people find personal solutions, how to take the next step? Everyone's very touchy about complaining about "electronic energies" thru the air, since no one wants to lose their smartphones or satellite dishes. Here's some folks in Massachusetts complaining of both health problems AND odd mental-perceptions when a wind turbine moved in next door:

www.bostonmagazine.com...
BAD VIBES! GREEN ENERGY LIKE WIND TURBINES MAY COME WITH PAINFUL COST
“It makes you sick—you have to leave your home,” says Doreen as we sit around the Reillys’ kitchen table after work one evening. A 49-year-old hospital registrar who usually works a swing shift, she tears up from time to time as she talks about the turbine.

Sean, a fit 49-year-old with a blond buzz cut, describes how for several weeks each year the setting sun behind the turbine casts the house in a moving shadow. “The flicker illuminates the whole room,” he says. “It takes over the whole house.”

“And the noise from a turbine is something else entirely,” Doreen says.

“It’s just a pulsating noise that goes to different pitches,” Sean explains. “It gets in your house—there’s a pressure to it. There’ve been nights when it’s woken me up every hour, on the hour.”

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So "electronic terrorism" - whether intentional or not - is very real. The U.S. Army War College did a good article on this in 2009:

dprogram.net...
THE MIND HAS NO FIREWALL - ARMY ARTICLE ON PSYCHOTRONIC WEAPONS
"We are on the threshold of an era in which these data processors of the human body may be manipulated or debilitated. Examples of unplanned attacks on the body’s data-processing capability are well-documented. Strobe lights have been known to cause epileptic seizures. Not long ago in Japan, children watching television cartoons were subjected to pulsating lights that caused seizures in some and made others very sick."

The only anti-electronic energy barriers I've heard about are a wallpaper still in development (which won't stop the electronic energies thru windows and doors). And an accidental "retro" solution for sensitive people, where old walls built with chicken wire also block cell phone energies, due to the accidental configuration of the chicken wire.

So these painful electronic energies are real - and real solutions are elusive. Especially when it comes down to denying someone their beloved electronic devices, just because they give some relatives/neighbors headaches or nose-bleeds. I am also suspicious that much of this unrelenting anti-brain electronic discharge might be responsible for the increase in mental illness. And blaming it all on "it's just in your head" is erroneous, harmful and selfish. What we need is a determination of "healthy levels" of electronic discharge thru the air, and laws passed to prevent/forbid anything above that.

a reply to: MKMoniker

The more I read your theory the more I'm convinced that they are distractions. I'm thinking implants and signals

About a firewall to the mind and how we can be read... try this book: The Holographic Universe. (if you already don't know it)

a reply to: MKMoniker

originally posted by: missgaia
About a firewall to the mind and how we can be read... try this book: The Holographic Universe. (if you already don't know it)

a reply to: MKMoniker

There's more than one book with that name. Do you have an author?

it is a minor miracle, at least to myself... I have not been targeted or harassed in the last 30 years for the info I had about stuff...
I was a lowly documents clerk in Army Intel...I conversed with special ops fighters who were assigned as MAG specialists in the Vietnam area & time sphere...I processed ATS/TS-Eyes Only-NATO- ETC.& other stuff that even the 'name' of the operation/title was labeled as 'Secret'

,,, but I will never-ever disclose those dim recollections of past important stuff nor the courier service which delivered sensitive correspondence to the *** (the military counterpart to FBI)

'they' have treated me well (in generalizations) so I expect to live out my last/next 21 years without any concerns about my past security knowledge...they trust me & I trust them not to get Wacko

I feel hopeful this opening up will not lead to anything... I am just trying to dispel the notion that 'Youse Guys' are like the Gestapo

Michael Talbot.
a reply to: Restricted

Hey Mr. Spruce...
Any more input?

a reply to: Spruce

I do have a question, Spruce.
Why - in your opinion - does one get to be targeted in the first place???
Thank you in advance.
ps: I hope you still can copy me...

a reply to: Spruce