Came back to add a biggie I left out of my list. The ocean. I used to be able to at least dabble in the surf, go in waist deep, but not anymore.
When I was young, my ignorance was my bliss. What I didn't know couldn't hurt me.
Well, one time, I am a teen at the beach with some friends, drinking, hanging out, etc. We go get into the water, and its waist deep or so. It was
crowded, we were seperated by dozens and dozens of people. I stop for some reason, and begin staring at the water. There were spots, millions of them.
I rubbed my eyes, thinking my eyes were the problem, and I bent closer to the water to have a looksee. It was jellyfish. Millions of them. After
hearing stories of my brothers finding them on the beach and throwing them at each other, and the horrid stings they endured, I panicked. I looked
around at the people around me, seemingly oblivious to the jellyfish. I shreiked, "Jellyfish!", and immediately grabbed the first person next to me, a
total stranger.
I climbed onto his shoulders, wrapped my arms around his face, trembling, crying, begging, to be taken to the beach. He, needless to say, was both
surprised and stunned. He kept telling me it was alright, they were harmless, and proceeded to gather handfuls of them, and then smash them on his
face and chest. I again panicked, crying, I don't care! Get me out! Please, just get me out! The poor guy, I feel sorry for him now, but the panic
consumed me.
Another time, I am at the beach with my husband and two children, who were toddlers at the time. I had bought a cheap mask, and as he was walking on
the beach, just in the surf with them, I was swimming in the waves, perhaps 3-4 feet deep, right before the break. I was searching the bottom for
pretty shells, called bay rollers. As I swam along, I suddenly got this sense of impending doom, that something BIG was following me. I paused,
glanced over my shoulder, and my worst fears were come true. In the murky water, I could see this GIGANTIC shadow. I waited a moment, making sure what
I was seeing was real, and it was. It was bearing down on ME, coming right for ME.
Now, understand, this was HUGE, and black, and I don't mean fish huge, or shark huge, I mean whale huge. It was also impossible to make out and
definite shape, because the water was cloudy and murky, there was a lot of waves, and so it was all stirred up. I just saw massive blackness coming
for me.
Panic hit when I realized my worst nightmare was about to come true. Some THING from the depths of the sea was coming for me, I was finally going to
meet my untimley demise, in front of my children. The end was nigh, and I was going to die. Right then and there, it was really happening! My sixth
sense told me to look, and I did, and it was there!
I started swimming frantically, parallel to the shore, raising my head from the water to take a breath, scream a water muffled "Help", before putting
my head back below the surface and looking back, only to see this massive black mass was rapidly gaining on me!
I swallowed a lot of water. I tried to find the bottom and stand and run, only to have my feet slip from under me, falling back into the water, and
looking back. It was getting closer!
Totally overcome with panic, I half ran, half swam, instead of just calmly standing up and walking out, I was a mass of flailing arms and legs, and
gasps and shreiks, and chokes and sobs, and swallowing lots of water, finally, falling the last time. This was it, I thought. This is the end, it has
to be upon me now, IT IS HERE!
I finally relaxed and turned onto my back, waiting, succumbing, for the searing pain surely to start at my feet, as whatever this giant black monster
from the depths of the sea was, that had come to feast up ME, finally acheived it's satisfaction.
It was indeed there, and, in total amazement, I wached as a huge school of black fish swam by, millions of them, maybe 3-4 inches long, tickling me as
they went by, mostly avoiding me. I felt a sudden surge of relief, and idiocy, and calm wash over me as I realized what was happening.
I got a fresh breath of air, and put my head beneath the water to watch as they flitted past. That was when it hit me.
Something is usually in pursuit of these schools! Once again, the rush to get out was overwhelming, but I stood up and walked out, collapsing on the
beach crying and laughing at the same time. I told my husband about what had happened, but no one really seemed to realize the true impact of that
event, except me.
I still cannot get in the water anywhere past ankle deep. If I do, I have this sense of dread, not knowing what is out there lurking in that vast
openess of the sea. Even armed with a mask is no longer good enough, because they move much faster in the water than I can. I owe my jitters to Jaws,
Sharkweek, and my parents telling stories about my brothers and the jellyfish.
I can watch Jaws, or documentaries, but you will never catch me in the sea again. Never.
edit on 1-1-2014 by Libertygal because: (no reason given)