It seems like all shades of gray. People's threshold for suffering depends on the person as well. As well I think we can be infinitely creative of
how far we can take perceived evil. Imagination is the limit, those with a morbid sense of humor may know what i'm talking about.
That being said, do any of us really have a clear picture? Is there any of us who is not ignorant in one way or another? Is there any of us who is
without the slightest fear or insecurity? What am i getting at... if we were going by these labels of good or evil, i'd say my personal view of
myself is that i'm probably reflected as really damn nice guy.
... BUT.. there were times where I have committed acts we deem as "bad", out of my
own fear.. my own lazyness, my own ignorance.
It brings me to an example my friend was telling me about: These two girls were on tv, on like a talk show and they had stolen money from an orphanage
or something like that. They were being questioned like "Why the hell did you do that, why did you think that was a good idea?".. etc.. and they
basically responded as like "You don't understand.. we needed money and the money was there, what don't you understand?". The two girls acted
totally selfishly without any regard for the harm they had done but the point is they just really couldn't wrap their heads around why it was a big
deal.
To take it a step further, we as people like to externalize our problems, to blame, to justify our anger, our judgement and biased assumptions.
Granted.. if you get burned 100 times by the same source, the 101st time I have no doubt you would be a little hesitant. Me personally, I walk right
into those traps because I knowingly am able to accept the consequences of betrayed trust. I'm getting a little off topic but I mean to imply taking
personal responsibility for your actions, and not letting fear or biases rule you. We distance ourselves, create borders, manipulate each other
because we don't have the BALLS, we don't have the motivation, we don't have that understanding of the consequences of our actions and we don't
have enough compassion to care, when really it comes naturally the more you are able to identify your situation with another's. You remind yourself
of the most idiotic thing you've done, or the time where your head was the most clouded and see how easy it is to screw up. You remember a time where
you manipulated, lied or stole because you just couldn't bring yourself to put in the effort required of you, and you even may have felt a little
guilt, because you were conscious of the damage you were doing.
I could go on really. I've spent the last 4 years in serious introspection to remove any kind of fear, insecurity, and accumulate as much wisdom as I
can, to find the reason for my anger/hatred, fear, judgement, and to sort it all and if not fully understand it then at least find a way to deal with
it so I could live with an increasing sense of PEACE.
We are all unstable little human beings but it comes with having a personality. We aren't always going to agree, and out of fear, lazyness, a lack of
awareness of the implications of our actions, thus a lack of compassion, we are capable of the most monstrous things, but likewise, the more we evolve
ourselves, the more capable we are of amazing/creative/beautiful things.
So to me the question of the greatest evil comes down to just how imbalanced, fearful, ignorant, self-loathing etc a human being or force can get. Is
there a limit?
I liked this quote, i'll end with it "Don't hate the stick that beats you". The stick being the person, just being controlled by their ignorance,
their imbalances. You can try and control anger to a certain point but it passes a threshold where you no longer know what the hell you are doing
thats for sure.
Ultimate good, ultimate evil, just a perception. If I had to think of an ultimate GOOD, it would be peace, comes with compassion and all that
"good" stuff.. FUNCTIONAL..sustaining..productive stuff. But there is an underlying NEUTRAL to me and it seems to be FREEDOM... it depends on the
person, and their personal awareness, or else they start taking away the freedom of others. Ultimate evil.. war..torture... how creative can you
get?
*POINT MADE + extra rant:*
I wanted to add, FREEDOM, as a neutral but to me also seems like the ultimate good, just balance, and allowance.. whereas peace/acceptance is the
cohesion that holds things together, freedom is what we all desire is it not? See I get confusing myself with trying to put things in terms or
categories so I don't anymore. Peace/function/stability/awareness/compassion/personal responsibility/wisdom, all factors that can stabilize this
human/universal?..desired FREEDOM. But we are struggling with ourself and others, we don't want to put in the effort in the right place. In this
physical world, everyone needs to put in some effort to sustain ourselves. If you were alone, you'd still have to hunt/gather, or could choose the
option of doing nothing and well..die.. but there are people who have worked around this, manipulated. We may not have material freedom where we
don't have the money, but we ALWAYS ALWAYS have FREEDOM.. freedom to be what we want, act how we want, do what we want.. it just takes a lot of
drive, a lot of courage. You have to be willing to accept the consequences, or to YIELD to the manipulative will. Ok i'm done rambling.
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