a reply to:
Willsharpkiller
hey, I am sorry to read that and my condolences for your loss, I hope you will get through and be without fear as soon as possible.
There is little I or any other member here can do to help over ATS, and I am very sorry for that. We can give you advice on what to do or what not to
do, but writing something and than actually being in such situation is another matter. Just like you have noticed already how it is with fear, even
though you know not to be afraid yet you still are. And let me tell you, I think that is normal!
Ok so I will first tell my opinion about fear and how to deal with it.
Fear is OK, it is just another emotion, so it is important to acknowledge it and try to work with it and not let it work against you, in my
opinion.
how do we respond to fear is what is important.
Do we fuel it or do we burn it?
Don't let the fear control you and don't let the fear put weak thoughts into your own mind or at least don't believe them. We can choose which
thoughts have power over us. For instance, we do that everyday, when we are together with loved ones and when we listen to them and act on their
thoughts...
You must realize that no matter what demons come before you, you are the owner of your mind and do not let fears or any demon take that away.
Stay strong all the time, nothing can take control away from you if you don't give it that power! Accept your fears and move on from being just afraid
to doing something different, try to learn from it and figure it out step by step. Doing so, fear will lose its grip over you and clear mind will
produce clear thoughts...
The second part of this post is concerned about how I would deal with your situation:
Why is this happening to you now, are there some other changes, other than death of your grandmother?
What is your emotional and mind state when entity shows itself and just before the event and after it, and also in general, during the day and night -
what kind of dreams are you having?
is it happening at random or is time or location not so random?
Just a few rhetorical questions I would probably ask myself and contemplated deeply in your situation. Try to understand yourself and your current
situation as best as you can.
There are at least three options that makes sense to me:
- it is a real entity which has come into your awareness. In such case this entity probably won't go away until you resolve your emotional or mental
issues. Entity may not even be bad! We like to project, especially when we are fearful, maybe you are doing that? I mean I don't see anything wrong
with yelling "go back to work!". Contemplate what is the point, what does it want you to realize? It may want you to learn something or change
something about yourself. It may even want to help you? Have you considered that?
But if it is a "bad" entity aka. demon who want just to use you and if I were in your skin, I would contemplate hard in meditation, why do I attract
such a being into my awareness? What kind of thought or emotions are causing this attraction?
- this is your subconscious mind trying to tell you something very important. Something which you are holding back, bottling down, etc...something
obvious yet, you are unaware of it for some time now and due to that, your subconscious mind started playing tricks on you due to the imbalance within
you.
- I am sorry to say this, but it could be a starting sign of some mental illness, if you are not, than you should first make sure that you have
healthy body and brain. Maybe you should go to the doctor and check it out, but never mention demons to the any kind of doctor, if you don't want to
be treated as a mental nut case : )
But let me be clear about something.
I don't have ANY personal experiences with such events but from what I read and understand, these events are attracted by our emotions and intent or
due to imbalance within in almost all cases. So the source of your suffering is in your mind.
You need to contemplate deeply about the real nature of this events. And during the happening I would try to JUST observe it and it is OK to feel
fear, but don't show it or think about it. Instead observe in silence in a mindful matter. Observer everything, your thoughts, emotions, demon,
etc...
After observations I would meditate and listen to my intuition when my mind is relaxed and in meditative state and I learn about it step by step by
introspection and observation.
Also if you are sure or you will be sure in the future, that it is indeed an entity doing this, than during the happening I would test how it reacts
if I focus on love and happiness within (think of friends and family or anything you love the most in your life!)? or I would maybe even try send
positive emotions to it and see how it reacts. Or maybe I would even just laugh loud and see how it would react than : ) ... I read about how some
entities who wants to scare you, that laughter puts them away...
Or I would maybe try communicate with it, but not out of fear and only when I am confident that I can stay strong no matter what I hear or see from
it. I would ask it what do you want, tell me or leave me alone you are not welcome!
or if you are religious, than take refuge with your god and his messengers and ask for their help.
there are many things you can do!
Just stay strong and figure it out. I wish you the best of luck.
But please if you want to discuss this further send me a private message or do that in some other thread which is related to your issue, this thread
is about "obe" and it would be nice that is stays that way - it did for 150 pages : )