posted on Aug, 25 2010 @ 02:30 PM
Thats truly an amazing story.
Although the beginning of death is experienced as 'white light' and a tremendous feeling of closeness to your source, the subsequent feeling is
painful. I guess the initial phase is to reconcile your mind (neshama) to the world is was excised from. Following that one is shown his life, from
day 1 to the day of his death. Every negative action causes a feeling of shame that is according to the mytics 60 times more painful than fire.
So, youre very fortunate and blessed that Hashem returned you to this world. Your mission is most certainly to help others.
Theres a very beautiful story of a very famous rabbi named Yekusiel Yehudah Halberstam. When he was 32, he was offered a position of head rabbi in
Jerusalem. this was a very prestigious position to be offered. But before he accepted it, he asked his mother for advice. She said he was too young to
accept the position. So, like a good son he took her advice and stayed in Hungary. 2 years later WW2 breaks out and in 1941 Hungary is invaded by
Germany. His 11 children and wife were taken and shipped off to Auschwitz along with him. His 11 children and wife were killed in the holocaust. He
spent 4 grueling years in auschwitz, Dachau and muldorf. During his time there he wasnt fed, given water and subject to continuous non stop forced
labor. The suffering must have been excruciating. Seeing everyone around him brutually treated, murdered and tortured. Before the holocaust he already
had a regiment of 3 hours of sleep a night and one meal during the day. He was a true ascetic and G-d fearing man. During this time, he was a
spiritual and moral support for hundreds of men. Because of him, 150 men survived the holocaust and throughout the entire ordeal, he was there
strengthening and guiding them, telling them to hold on. The fact that he was able to ENDURE all of this, without losing his mind (many holocaust
survivors went crazy from the malnutrition, physical labor) but also being a pillar for those around him, was truly unbelievable. He could have been
angry at his mother for telling him to stay. He lost his wife and children because of that. But no. The whole time he saw G-ds hand. He knew HaShem
wanted something greater for him. He may have lost his children and wife, but he saved hundreds of people. What an unbelievable mission this man was
given in life.
I imagine what you went through was to inspire and strengthen others. Wherever you go, whomever you have an influence over, share this knowledge you
have with them. This will end up being a source of strength for them.