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JAGStorm
When I feel the barriers (which isn't very frequently anymore) the best way to describe them is an uncomfortable bodily sensation of uneasiness and as
if gravity has increased, making it more laborious to walk. There are also mental effects of discomfort and attendant voices telling me to "go home,
you're not invited to this function".
I can only assume there is some sort of local social gathering taking place of certain parties and it's invite only.
We have a large magical community here that is very hush hush, so I don't know if these energy fields are the product of some sort of "woo" or if they
are somehow technologically generated.
I'm kind of bummed because I dig on various magical practices and would absolutely LOVE to meet these people, but like I said I'm a little rough
around the edges, poor and don't have any important local social contacts so I understand the reason for my exclusion in such circles.
There are some actual verifiable technological deterrants in certain areas at night, high pitched frequencies at an audible (but not excessive)
hearing range to deter homeless people from sleeping on the premises.
A few months after we moved to our current residency I was hit with a very powerful directed energy weapon in the head, I have no explanation of where
it come from or how they were able to target me so precisely. It hurt like absolutle hell and I was laid out on the living room floor attempting to
dissociate from the pain.
There was also an old neighbor on the opposite side of the bedroom wall using electronic harrassment (more tranditional old school variety which I
recognized immediately) which was several months of a loud, deep resonating pulse that would go on for hours during the night.
We made the manager at the time aware of this intrusion, mentioning that it "might be an off balance fan" and he was cold and callous and told us that
it was "our problem" and to deal with it.
It eventually stopped, the neighbors relocated and we have wonderful new owners and property managers who are kind and Christian. The overall quality
of the community has improved tenfold and I'm happy we were able to stick it out through the worst of it.
My overall point being is that this is a very interesting community I find myself living in, and after enduring years of tests, trials, deterrants and
"getting to know the local dynamics" they have finally decided I am no threat and pretty much leave me alone.
No more dealing with harassment and gangstalking, no more scowls and suspicions, a lot more casual conversations and random waves and smiles and the
general Southern Hospitality I was raised with in my youth.
I know this sounds crazy considering all I have been through, but part of me is glad to living in a town with these sorts of phenomena because it
shows they can keep out certain unsavory types with their collective warfare techniques.
Maybe it's schizophrenia, maybe it's real and Stockholm Syndrome, but I think I was able to bear through the worst of it given my military upbringing
and attendant "interests" I've had since I was a child, therefore I was able to endure and not give in to paranoia or violent behavior.
It might also be relevant to mention I have certain "duties" and expectations within the community that is sometimes triggered by physical sensations
that I have been conditioned to respond to in a certain way, or the occassional voice to report somewhere to perform a service, mostly of which are
charitable acts of helping homeless individuals get something to eat or guiding someone to a resource center.
It's not because they are cruel (even though their methods can be intense) it's that they are CONTROLLED and have certain expectations of certain
members of their community.
I've heard stories from the more underprivilaged in the area, and there are common themeatics.
I think my saving grace is that I was born into a higher social caste than the one I currently occupy so I knew how to deal with what was going on in
a civil and polite manner consistant with my Christian upbringing and managed to distinguish myself from the stereotype of the "dangerous unhinged
paranoid schizophrenic" stereotype.
It should also be noted we have a very large cell phone tower installed a block away and I can see it from my bedroom window.
I've never experienced the directed energy attack from it, but I frequently suspect it might have a field of influence that keeps causing my migraines
and is covertly used to generate and project a wide field effect for the area as a control mechanism.
When I get to my assigned post (the local bookstore three miles away) the headaches generally subside and the energy is much more calming and
peaceful, but when I first started reporting there, they had frequencies and deterrants and tried to run me out of there too, so I beared through it
and wrote a detailed essay outline on the techniques they were employing, the uses of such as a social control, and the ethical ramifications of
them.
I've wanted to write an autobiography of these experiences but everytime I try, I blank or get paranoid that it would do more harm than good.
The odd thing is that I feel completely comfortable sharing these experiences here on ATS.
Thanks for listening.
edit on 7/27/22 by GENERAL EYES because: grammar edits