Killing and replacing people.

The whole narrative sounds like excerpts from someones actual psych record with a point of view change, maybe to respect privacy, maybe to exploit..Id be interested to know what crime this patient committed.

But Im sure You won't be revealing that, now will You…Doc?a reply to: ScrubCommander

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I have to note, these people which teased me with sensitive information which they shouldn't be able to know did respect me when I told them that I only just came down from a psychotic episode and I'm still sensitive, they did leave me alone for some time again... They also said possitive things about me, but you know they are part of some 'group' and apparently they know me for some reason...

It's weird, they also react well to humor it seems... I don't think they are really evil or certainly not all of them. I have talked in the past with people who claimed to be 'demons', they told me, that every living being makes connection with each other, even humans and demons, this connection can always be felt by both parties, except for maybe people who sold their soul (they told me those people feel worse than depression, because the lose the sense of love and all related variants of that feeling).

But life is shared by the connection between living beings. And even demons and humans can connect in some way, nobody is completely evil or completely good. All different cocktails... Demons aren't completely wrong though, humans can be such vile and disgusting creatures.

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Crime?

a reply to: Terpene

Well take away the warning labels Terpene and it will not bode well, that a guarantee.

We would never have managed to bring about the industrial revolution or ushered in the information age in which we now exist without a modicum of rule of law, and order and logic.

Change is indeed inevitable all the same and those that refuse to do so tend to stagnate on the vine and die.

Our world is what we make i suppose.

Not that geography and social circumstance don't dictate the chances we will receive in life for the better part, but you have to play the cards you are dealt, far as im lead to believe anyroad.

Anyhoo I'm away for my dinner(Mince and Tatties), enjoy the remainder of the day.

a reply to: andy06shake

Look all in all, I'd like to say, I don't have anything personal against you people, you're free to challenge my beliefs and such, it's just, do you know how much of this type of # I've had to endure to past 14 years?

It's insane... And these ppl telling me to med up... They don't know anything about the actual situation.

a reply to: ScrubCommander

And I'm forced to listen to them you know, that's how it goes, very very frustrating.

a reply to: ScrubCommander

"It starts with simple voices being annoying and laughing with everything I do, then I feel I get watched here in my room, remember, I recognize it right away, I have 14 years of experience."

Been there mate.

Wait till you are boiling kettles of water next to windows and doors because you think the semi translucent people you can see are coming to get you. Wait till you think people are suspending mirrors from the roof at 45 degree angles so they can watch you.

The trick with Psychosis is that it snowballs rather fast and then that slippery slope just becomes an ice ravine on which you tumble all the way to the bottom.

As long as you can recognise delusions for what they are your ok, the problems arise when you start to believe the voice ScrubCommander and it still don't address the reason for there existence in your head nether.

Like i suggest talking to people helps.

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The thing is I don't suffer all that much from psychosis, more from the actual weird things happening. But oh well... You just can't explain these things in a way that makes sense.
But I have had many many many different experiences, it's becoming hard to all label them psychosis. That would be a bit too easy, and well, it's just not true, can't support it then can I..

I could write for hours about my weird experiences and many people would just issue a simple explanation based on their imposed world-view. What they wouldn't have are my experiences.

I'm not sure that I think people are being killed and replaced though, but humankind is not what it purports to be.

a reply to: ScrubCommander

Everybody deals with things differently ScrubCommander.

What's right for you may not be conducive for others.

Do they have you on any medication that helps?

Or have you found any other means of coping strategies or substances that help?

Nothing worth while is ever easy ScrubCommander, even sanity can tick that box sometimes.

As to truth well that can be subjective and down to perspective with one mans truth being another man lie.

Sometimes it really does depend on where you are standing.

Also, something that seems to be missing in Your explanation is FEAR. I for one would be terrified..Are You not scared?
Only fear I read was from the father..

Grief does odd things also.

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a reply to: didntasktobeborned

I have experienced loads of fear, my first psychotic episode really hit me so hard I kinda lost my ego for a while, I was 20 years old, but at the moment I was a child again and when I was out with my parents I would hold their hands like back in the very old days...

But reality seemed to excist out of only one frequency, or so it seemed that reality is made by the energy of love, or that my state of mind only allowed one feeling, that of love without judgement, as such, willing to do any task for anyone, without having to pesky judgements like 'that guy looked at me funny, I'm not helping him', or whatever plain , dull reason...

It's was quite an enlightening experience, but yeah, I was pretty crippled at that time, I could think fine, and as an adult, but my energy and my character were that of a child again...

Ofcourse, gradually your ego does return over time, i tried integrating the positive attributes I saw when in that state... Most of my psychotic episodes made me a better human being...

Do you think Western society is completely right about psychosis and consciousness and such things?
They can't even really scientifically prove that the whole chemical imbalance theory IS what actually is causing the issue.
And then they also they it's brain damage, but having brain damage is not an chemical imbalance, and as such cannot be treated with medication that changes your brain chemistry.

But life long anti-psychotics? For what? Short term anti psychotics at critical situations untill it gets resolved, and then you quit again with that #.

The studies about long term effects are starting to pile up, guess what, a lot of anti psychotics INCREASE risk of psychosis with long term use.

Next to uncontrollable spasms in your body, and heart rhythm irregularities. My heart is going to # without those meds, and those meds are sooooo ineffective at critical moments, you need benzos then. But yeah, apparently that logic is imcomprehensable for psychiatrists, sick #s.

So idealization is assigning characteristics to something that aren't really there because one wants them to be? Extreme reference idealization is common in some 'cultures', and is not viewed as a disability..?



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a reply to: didntasktobeborned

It seems that I just don't agree with certain layers of myself, some judgemental layers, because they don't really have a function... How does it serve me or anyone else that I have a certain view about someone?

In that state of mind everyone was equal to me, same importantace, same worthiness, not judged by anything... Accepted as anoter being, worthy of what I can offer.

I was able to perform in much exelerated ways, whichout losing much energy, because there was no force. All was done with my free will consisting out of love.

It does seem such a state can be usefull. I do like improving my ways of dealing with people, and analyse myself, my reactions and such...

Is there something wrong with wanting to improve my way of being?

Is there something wrong with wanting to improve my way of being?

I hope not. I would think that is the name of the game..How can we be worth anything to anyone else if we aren't ok ourself?

a reply to: didntasktobeborned

Well, some people like how they are, and they do not really experience that continous desire of self-improvement as some of us... Which is valid I guess.

a reply to: ScrubCommander

This does not mean I don't like how I am, I just think there's always some edges which could be smoothed somewhere...
My psychotic/spiritual experiences have assisted me in that matter.

I will definitely be having my teenage granddaughter read this entire thread. Several times.

I wish you well, ScrubCommander. May your path forward be filled with health and happiness.

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Ofcourse, it could be presented as some classic school example of a druggy degenerate who lost himself.

Or you're missing the actual point of the story.

Either way... You do not have full control in which way your daughter will process it. But, if shes very young, I just wouldn't stimulate her at all with such stories.

Ofcourse, if you spin in in a way that says: "see Stacy, this is exactly what happens when..."

The most common of deceptions, and they are for some part deceptions, even if the majority agrees upon it, it is still... A deception.

The majority, so concerned with the mental health of their fellow men (not really, trust me - They just do not like deviating behaviour and their only way to control it and end it, because they don't understand it and have no relation to it other than standard pre-chewed opinions mass projected onto society... Which.. really?

Do you people realise, while you are judging another one's mental health, you are checking of certain boxes, boxes you can think of psychiatrist and other respectable people with authority would be checking off.

Would be cool, if that limited perception (the factors doctors take into account to diagnose y ou) would be based in actual reality of the matter in it's whole; which it is not. Do doctors know the reality? Lets say real human being good willing doctors, just as ignorant as yourself, what do they know about reality? How do they know exactly that the event the patient described was in fact of a more paranormal nature, instead of just 'psychosis'...

Heh... You see. How can you judge someone if you do not know what is exactly real and what is not, yourself?

a reply to: ScrubCommander

Just out of curiosity what was your doctors diagnosis?