a reply to:
ketsuko
Its gotta be tough for him. And you and T eh?
Ive got a bit of a story too, and maybe theres something to take away from it.
Over the years, Ive had people ask me "Hey, other than the health stuff, isnt it just like a big ol vacation? Sittin on yer ass all day?" And, its
very much a "well yes, but actually no" meme come to life..
Its tough in ways that are difficult to describe. It isnt "just" a break in routine, because even when I established a new routine.. There is still so
much I want to do that I cant.
Thinking about it, Im slowly crawling up on the two decade mark. Its probably why I talk so damn much
My suggestion, for whatever its worth, its to really try to find new activities. I guess thats.. obvious, but I kept trying to figure out how to live
the same life under new circumstances and that wasnt working so well for me.
The process of exploring new things was, itself, helpful. I ended up looking at all this technology and inventions I had been working on before I got
sick in an entirely new light. But then.. about a decade in, I started to realize that there just wasnt a road to success there. Sure, I thought the
work was incredible (still do), but I just wasnt in a position to really get much further than I had. I was at the stage of development where it was
time to actually start bringing it all to market. I needed help, and I couldnt get it.
Thats a whole different kind of frustration.. Then my dad died, and some people took advantage of the situation. Not going to go too much into it, but
it tore me up.
I decided to do woodwork again, specifically lutherie (guitars). An unintended result was that I also got to playing again as well as a whole new
field of electronics (much different designing a headphone amp vs a guitar pedal!).
Ive actually gotten rather good, but I also had to work on a design that I could play comfortably. Its best for me to play reclined and there just
isnt anything out there that works well for that. I ended up creating a new body design, working of the foundation of a headless guitar. My thought
process is always "how can this help me,
and other people?"
Of course, Im not able to actually help others with my lutherie work any more than I could.. anything and everything else Ive created. But, I just
hold it in my heart that maybe the ideas themselves will be taken by someone else and theyll run with it. The idea all along, for everything, was to
try to release it all anonymously, so the concept of "no recognition" doesnt bother me. All Ive ever wanted is to help people (including myself,
honestly), but I dont seem very good at it.
But.. Through it all, its kept my mind and heart occupied. Thats
more valuable than any treasure. The guitar playing even allows me to express
things Im feeling, but it took a while to get to that point.
Not sure why I shared any of this, really. Maybe itll help someone. But in typing it, I wanted to make the offer: if anyone wants a guitar, let me
know. I cant afford shipping, but wont ask anything more than the exact shipping cost. Theyd be "normal" guitars, as the "cripple custom" (
) isnt
quite ready for primetime. They are all professionally setup (frets leveled, properly cut nut, etc.), a few different body styles, six string,
seven string.. Some smaller ones too. I dont know how we would actually work it out, but if someone is interested, maybe admin/mods can help us out.
AFAIK, I dont have the 'rona, but in these times.. Im not gonna be offended by someone disinfecting the hell out of it either