I Just Realized I Was Completely Wrong...

I had a really profound experience with God last night, and initially I was crying a lot but then I just ended up laughing till I went to sleep. I'm not sure how I'd explain it. Well, since I'm a weirdo to people here already considering my past post history, I'll go ahead and tell a little bit...

I was watching some videos, first about conspiracy theory research then I somehow ended up watching some about people who technically died and had life-after-death experiences but then somehow inexplicably came back to life. Like one guy who was in a plane crash and his body was horribly disfigured, and another kid flatlined for over 20 whole minutes yet came back (and a few others).

Then I watched an hour+ long video about the experiences of a very interesting and deeply profound man and he said some very insightful stuff about God that really rejuvenates my inspiration and reminds me that my real purpose in life is to Love others as best as I can and to stop worrying about if anyone Loves me back.

My life is about sacrifice. I don't need money or a nice house or a nice car. I don't care if I impress anyone or if they like or care about me...

I have a purpose. It's to Love those who need it, to Protect those who are vulnerable, and to share and Teach what I have learned. That's what will make me Happy. God already is impressed by how unique and wonderful I am, so it doesn't matter anymore if someone else notices that.

Think about it - there is simply no one in the entire infinite Universe like you - except you! That revelation in of itself is simply astounding!! This really makes it easy to Love everyone even if they screw up all the time, are annoying or belligerent, or whatever. And, believe me, I know some really annoying clingy people. But I think what I want to do is help them overcome their problems. If I can overcome mine, than I can certainly help others with theirs. Of course this is a work in progress and I know it will be a long hard road ahead.

I'm just tired of and done with wishing other people cared about me. That's not what makes me Happy. Loving others who need it and helping them is what makes me Happy.

Life is so short. In fact, I consider myself already dead.
So I got a Reprieve, a 2nd chance to make this thing Right finally.
I have to Live this Life as best as I can while I can.
I don't have time to care about money, sex, and pleasure; I may never get those things anyways.

You know, here in this world right now, you and I might be nobodies till we die. No one may ever know or care about our name or who we are. But in the Spiritual realm, I know I'm a legendary hero. Only I needed to recognize that, and I really don't even want other "humans" to see it, I'd rather them see it in themselves. I know that God and the Angels will lift me up. I think anyone who is willing to sacrifice everything they "want" and give to others what they "need" will receive that Gift for all of Eternity - Love, Companionship, Care, and Happiness - a Perfect Family. I've seen it myself. I've seen Heaven and Hell, as strange as it may sound. I'll write about all of that sometime later in vivid detail and share what amazing things I learned.

But for now, all anyone needs to know about me is that I'm still here, I'm still kicking and I'm growing and gaining strength rapidly. So ya better watch out!! I only just got started!

I have so many great things for everyone,
I have discovered ALL OF YOU and I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART!
I'll never need to die again.
I know how to Live now, and that's to Give.

And I know everything's going to be just fine.
All that matters is to make sure our Hearts are in the Right place,
sharing and caring about each other.

Most of you will probably think it's a fact I'm nuts by now...

But someone out there is so tickled by it, I just know it.

Hahahaha!

originally posted by: muzzleflash
I had a really profound experience with God last night, and initially I was crying a lot but then I just ended up laughing till I went to sleep. I'm not sure how I'd explain it. Well, since I'm a weirdo to people here already considering my past post history, I'll go ahead and tell a little bit...

I was watching some videos, first about conspiracy theory research then I somehow ended up watching some about people who technically died and had life-after-death experiences but then somehow inexplicably came back to life. Like one guy who was in a plane crash and his body was horribly disfigured, and another kid flatlined for over 20 whole minutes yet came back (and a few others).

Then I watched an hour+ long video about the experiences of a very interesting and deeply profound man and he said some very insightful stuff about God that really rejuvenates my inspiration and reminds me that my real purpose in life is to Love others as best as I can and to stop worrying about if anyone Loves me back.

My life is about sacrifice. I don't need money or a nice house or a nice car. I don't care if I impress anyone or if they like or care about me...

I have a purpose. It's to Love those who need it, to Protect those who are vulnerable, and to share and Teach what I have learned. That's what will make me Happy. God already is impressed by how unique and wonderful I am, so it doesn't matter anymore if someone else notices that.

Think about it - there is simply no one in the entire infinite Universe like you - except you! That revelation in of itself is simply astounding!! This really makes it easy to Love everyone even if they screw up all the time, are annoying or belligerent, or whatever. And, believe me, I know some really annoying clingy people. But I think what I want to do is help them overcome their problems. If I can overcome mine, than I can certainly help others with theirs. Of course this is a work in progress and I know it will be a long hard road ahead.

I'm just tired of and done with wishing other people cared about me. That's not what makes me Happy. Loving others who need it and helping them is what makes me Happy.

Life is so short. In fact, I consider myself already dead.
So I got a Reprieve, a 2nd chance to make this thing Right finally.
I have to Live this Life as best as I can while I can.
I don't have time to care about money, sex, and pleasure; I may never get those things anyways.

You know, here in this world right now, you and I might be nobodies till we die. No one may ever know or care about our name or who we are. But in the Spiritual realm, I know I'm a legendary hero. Only I needed to recognize that, and I really don't even want other "humans" to see it, I'd rather them see it in themselves. I know that God and the Angels will lift me up. I think anyone who is willing to sacrifice everything they "want" and give to others what they "need" will receive that Gift for all of Eternity - Love, Companionship, Care, and Happiness - a Perfect Family. I've seen it myself. I've seen Heaven and Hell, as strange as it may sound. I'll write about all of that sometime later in vivid detail and share what amazing things I learned.

But for now, all anyone needs to know about me is that I'm still here, I'm still kicking and I'm growing and gaining strength rapidly. So ya better watch out!! I only just got started!

I have so many great things for everyone,
I have discovered ALL OF YOU and I LOVE YOU with ALL MY HEART!
I'll never need to die again.
I know how to Live now, and that's to Give.

And I know everything's going to be just fine.
All that matters is to make sure our Hearts are in the Right place,
sharing and caring about each other.

What an incredibly beautiful post.

Spot on!

Praise God!

originally posted by: Blue Shift

originally posted by: muzzleflash
But God caught me.
How's that even possible??

It's not. There is no God. It's just that you were wandering around being such a whiny little mope that your family, including your grandmother and aunt couldn't help but notice, so they gave you a call. BIG MYSTERY!

So you were wrong twice.

You have no way of proving there is no God.

So instead of bringing everyone down - because YOU have not experienced what we have - why not just doddle off and not comment.
Are you really so miserable you have to pull everyone around you down also?
You're witnessing a miracle here and you just can't stand it - I got that. But why not just leave him be in his joy? Why try to ruin it?


I dare you to take the time to listen. If you did, maybe it will be you posting next time how their life is changed and they know, they finally KNOW.

Peace

originally posted by: muzzleflash
Here I was, Hopeless, just gave up on everything you know?

I gave up on everyone, on everything, on God too.
I've become so cynical and jaded, so full of contempt and disgust.
So damn disappointed with this life...

I was laughing about all of the chaos and misery, because that's all I know.
So why would I be upset that others got a little taste of it?

I was sitting there thinking...
"No one cares about me. I'm nothing. My life was a complete waste."

And then it happened, not one minute later.
My aunt and grandmother messaged my phone and said they cared.
I didn't ask them to, I have no idea why - it just happened.

Well I guess I was Wrong.
Someone does care.

How could that be a coincidence?
So I'm wrong about God too aren't I?
Maybe God does care??

I just broke down in tears...

You gotta understand, I only know suffering.
I can't find Justice anywhere. I outwit everyone yet still can't find it.
I always win yet lose every time. I try so hard.
Yet never get anywhere...

I've been completely destroyed.
I spent my whole life, 36 years, holding onto Hope.
I went years upon years refusing to give into the BS that everyone else gives into.
I refused over and over to become the things I despised.

Until recently.
These last few weeks, I've been surrendering to the evils of the world.
Instead of indulging in my primitive nature I just gave up on everything.
I gave up on ME.

I felt like my Spirit finally died after all these years of fighting my ass off to survive.
I always believed my better days were just ahead, that something great was on the doorstep.
Yet nothing ever came. Nothing I did ever made it happen.

I have nothing and am nothing.
But someone cared. My aunt and grandma.
I was right there...right there on the edge of the abyss.

But God caught me.
How's that even possible??

Ok...
I'll dust myself off, wipe the blood off my lip, and keep fighting.
I won't give up.

This my friend is known as the "meaningful coincidence" phenomena. I have felt very much the same as you lately and the little things that happen, where in mathematics would've been in the hundreds of millions to one ( for it to happen in that exact way, in that specific time, in that specific moment) is a the Universe's way of showing that you're important.

You gave up the wall between you and Universe. You opened yourself to a status check. Universe is pretty wise. And kind. And harsh and a b1tch of a task master. But seeing one of her own in a near broken state that "coincidence" happened.

Universe gave you what you needed when you needed it most.

It is not a "meaningful coincidence" it is just "coincidence" because of the simple fact that to be noticed coincidence by definition has to be meaningful! Look at all those around you going about their sheeple lives not giving a # about the gift Universe bestows upon us nearly everyday. She is playful that way--you have to have a sense of humor sometimes to get the joke. If you "don't get it" you end up in your previous state. The true peril there is the "death of spirit" because when that happens physical death is guaranteed (that is from the Universe 25 thread in my sig).

Welcome back from the edge! Thank Universe! Keep on laughing muzzle!

a reply to: TEOTWAWKIAIFF

Yes, true, I just coined that term because sometimes I feel not every coincidence that happens, is for a reason or well, the reason for it happening isnt as meaningful/important to me on an emotional level.

The universe cares in some form, to believe that were floating on a rock in nothingness, for no reason at all and "chance"/RNG is well, a lazy answer.

Isaiah 59. a reply to: muzzleflash

originally posted by: silo13
You have no way of proving there is no God.

Duh. Nobody can prove a negative. Take a course in logic, if you think your faith can stand it.

a reply to: muzzleflash

My life is about sacrifice. I don't need money or a nice house or a nice car. I don't care if I impress anyone or if they like or care about me...

Good, and thanks for drawing the others from the shadows, let there be light!
KNOW THYSELF

Hey Muzzleflash, sorry to hear you've been so down.
It sucks, I know. Been there too bro, for years at a stretch.
LIfe seemed like an endless cycle of work, bills and being broke.
Even after I had money it didn't make me happier.
Then I became disabled.
For no reason doctors can figure out my spinal cord just started swelling up.
That was 9 years ago now.
But I am happy, and content even though I can't walk 1/4 mile.
Everything I loved doing just ended, no more roaming the mountains or swamps.
I can't even go on rides with my grandkids at the fair, if I could stay on my feet long enough to get there.
You always think things suck until they get much worse, then you realize how good you had it.
I still have it good in so many ways.
I just hope you can see life as I do, a wonderful thing to be appreciated no matter how little we have.

Eta: Just read your post at the top of the page.
You found it! You are unique among the billions to come and go on Earth there will only be one you.
Giving is the best way to destroy the selfish me, the happiness of helping others can't be measured.

a reply to: Blue Shift

I can prove you wrong easily. Dog is mans best friend. Reverse dog. What do you get? This is no coincidence young one.

Also, God, Allah, Universe.. Creator, whatever you want to call it; is an intelligence. There is cosmic order. If you disagree with that, then please come back to me with your calculations on the chance of us being here, right here, right now and im sure it'd be close to infinity to one. Infinity doesnt exist in mathematics; thus it is no coincidence that we are all collectively experiencing a miracle.. on purpose.

originally posted by: muzzleflash
a reply to: loveguy

I spend so much time thinking about stuff like that.

Is Karma real? Do I really get what I put out?
Am I just so blind I cannot see it?

I have this habit of questioning myself and even anticipating that I'm probably wrong so looking into that possibility. When I see that I'm wrong I try to face that and own up to it, because I believe that being honest with myself and admitting my mistakes is a virtue worthy of genuine pride. That's because it's never easy, it's a real challenge to actively look into the chance one's own self is wrong and then atone for it and make amends with others.

I am convinced that I put out Love more than anything else for decades. I'm not perfect, I've made a lot of mistakes, I've gotten angry and bitter and said mean things to others. But I really honestly believe that I've put out Love towards others far more than anything else.

I just haven't seen that sentiment really return in any lasting meaningful way.

I'm not saying I don't believe in Karma, I'm curious and want to really know the physics of the Universe. I want to understand how all of this works. And I really truly hope Karma is a legitimate philosophical explanation of personal spiritual dynamics.

Maybe I'm still too young and I'm still incapable of recognizing it as it works around me? Maybe I'm blinded by my expectations and my selfish demands from the Universe? I hope so, because Karma (or just Spiritual Justice) sounds so wonderful and I really want that to be real. I could really work with that.

But I do admit, I'm not seeing it (yet).

I also gotta admit I am impatient. I may seem more patient than just about anyone around, but I still see incredible limitations to my patience.

It's like no matter how much I learn and how far I might progress, I'm still just a child. I'm still learning some very basic things and I struggle with them. Hoping to see Karma work, yet going day after day not seeing it, is frustrating and very disappointing and saddening.

Justice means everything to me.
And I wonder - am I really so guilty I actually deserve all this?
Maybe I am a horrible person and I just don't see it because I'm bias. It's possible.
I'm trying really hard not to be horrible though. I know I fail a lot.

We all fall but not many of us introspect ourselves as well as you do.

Karma is not justice in itself but a well of all our unfulfilled desires. When we finally realise that lusting over impermanent objects is the real cause of all our suffering is when we will awaken from this nightmare free of karma. It seems your higher self is pushing you towards the correct path but your egotistical mind is wanting this, demanding that.

Introspect yourself deeper, find the real root of your suffering. Free yourself.

a reply to: surfer_soul

I like the song.
Very chill.
Thanks!

a reply to: glend

Thank you.

Thanks everyone for commenting.
Very cool responses!

I still Love ATS.

a reply to: muzzleflash

Make sure it is for something NEW.

ANYTHING ELSE WILL BE DESTROYED.

Much energy is at play to make humans dig back into the matrices...i for one played with all...many lies in the subconscious of all..dont let let THEM WIN.

GOD will not win this time..it does not either deserve or want victory...but perpetuality.

What you are tuning into is often the authors of demise...DENY THEM ALL.

I KNOW THIS...BECAUSE I LET THE TESTS RUN on me for 42 years....FAIL GOOD DOCTORS.

a reply to: silo13

God is in distress..
his children CHARGE FORTH irregardless...and blind his terrified eyes...so that victory will be attained.

They will not stop us despite massive desperate attempts.

GOD the father wishes you failure...along with his wife...they have spent millions of years proving this massive intolerance and inability.

originally posted by: IAMTAT
Just enjoy knowing you're loved.
No need to analyze it.

Just know.

Enjoy knowing some serious mofos have been powering victory that you refuse to acknowledge.

And they are HELL-BENT DETERMINED that all see the truth.

This has never been easy...and will not be for you.

Step 1 of 9...with days left lol...wow

Love is not good enough
..IS IT

a reply to: ParasuvO

Huh?
You lost me there.

a reply to: muzzleflash

It's like no matter how much I learn and how far I might progress, I'm still just a child. I'm still learning some very basic things and I struggle with them. Hoping to see Karma work, yet going day after day not seeing it, is frustrating and very disappointing and saddening.

Well I too have the heart of a child and am stubborn to my own detriment...in the way the world evolves around street-corner vendors hoping I'm the sucker who will help them finance their new dream car...I have dreams too but it involves the people around me not what I can acquire because I have a good credit name. So I'm kinda mean in that respect.

Karma it's easy to feel her smiling upon you as easy as it is to feel her frown. You gotta recognize moments that are real life miracles. And I don't mean every baby being born...

and Justice is a two-way road, countless paths are beset at our feet individually...we follow the desire of our heart.
The hardest struggle/highest paid benefit is forsaking one's own heart's desire. That's when you feel karma smiling upon you, speaking on my own personal experiences...witnessing alot of miracles.

My wife just came home so I gotta go...I'll be back at a later time to say hello and stuff.