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posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:17 PM
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a reply to: kaelci

Hi Kaelci - I have been unemployed for the last two years. It was the biggest thing I wanted as I was so close to a nervous breakdown. Nothing like having a little tyrant for a boss that questions your every move and you lose all confidence in yourself as a human, and as a contributor to society, etc.

So two years later I still find my confidence is in tatters. It has led to bouts of depression and anxiety. And I think once that anxiety gets hold of you that it refuses to let go.

But it is amazing what little challenges can do for one. You must surround yourself with encouraging and uplifting people and believe in yourself. And find ways to not let that little ugly voice (I always tell it to bugger off) to belittle you or tear you down. It is not you, it's just that ugly little voice that likes to attach itself to any worry, any ugliness and any negative aspect of what we think of ourselves. Kick that voice to the curb with super size 15 boots and tell it to shove off.

You are amazing and wonderful. I'm so glad you are here with us.

Personally (I feel like I'm blabbing now) I like to garden because you are working with your hands and pulling weeds and you see life in the dirt (worms, creepy crawlies), there are plants around you, seeds opening up, you are surrounded by LIFE. And you are life so there is a connection.

A kitchen garden - do you mean herb pots, etc? Mmmm, fresh thyme and rosemary.

Sending you freshly cut springs of rosemary, thyme and sage. Got a turkey to go with it?



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:20 PM
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a reply to: ccseagull
good writing.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:27 PM
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a reply to: ccseagull

You made me cry happy tears too with this reply. Thank You. I love tears as you will find, all sorts of them they nurture our life and fill the oceans.

I have a passion for bed rock and cliffs. When I lie down on them I am as close to Our Mother as I can be, I can melt into them as if it is water or air. It is moments of awe and wonder. This is where I came from. This is what holds me so gently to this fragile planet.
Oh well I am rambling guys, sorry.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:28 PM
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a reply to: visitedbythem

Hey friend is it still hot there?



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:31 PM
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a reply to: WalkInSilence

Sent you a poem. www.abovetopsecret.com...



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:32 PM
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a reply to: visitedbythem
Rider how are you? Please elaborate. You boys some times sound like the blokes down at the pub.
" How are thing?" "Good" "Cheers"

Just tell us what is going on we do want to listen.
Grand Hugs Gentlemen.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:37 PM
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a reply to: ccseagull

Don't feel bad for blabbing! I've been known to ramble for an age in my replies sometimes, haha!
Sometimes I just feel that a more in-depth response is necessary. (Ok, more than sometimes.)

There's nothing I wanted more than leaving my job, a retail assistant, and staying at home; being a fulltime at-home mum to my 3yr old and writing every spare moment. That's what I want, I want to be a published author. Though, I had Morning TV on yesterday and apparently an Australian has reached #1 on the New York Times bestseller list, and now I'm unsure if I want to be successful. The last thing I want is to be "famous" or go on live TV, or have to do interviews or what-have-you.

I just want to write, have people read my writings and enjoy them, and keep to myself.

Ahh, but, that's really nothing to do with my inner turbulence. Well it is, and it isn't.

I'm just lost in life. I dream of this and this and this, but I'm stuck doing this and this and that. I'm un-free, a cage of my own making. But the least I can do is make peace with it.

I've spent the majority of my life in a depressive and anxiety ridden haze; and you are indeed correct, once anxiety gets a hold of you... as far as I'm aware, it's a constant companion.

So I thought to reconnect myself to myself... I'm collecting my gemstones, all ones that mean something to me, the first of which is Green Aventurine and will be on its way soon from India. I plan to put aside some time each day to quieten down and meditate. And I plan to work with my own little bit of nature. Just a little herb garden. Something to sit in my kitchen by the window and mmmm... maybe some flower pots too? Here and there? We will see! This is my first time growing things, and I hope my thumb is as green as my experience.


Thank you for your words! I have my own little vibes that I get here and there, and truly, I thank you.





posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:38 PM
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a reply to: visitedbythem

Ah thanks, but all you characters are what made it so easy. So glad to know you VisitedByThem.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:44 PM
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a reply to: WalkInSilence

Oh my, oh my WIS, guess what? I sniff rocks. I just hold rocks to my nose and inhale all it's rocky scent. My favourite place to be: in a slightly damp cement room. Maybe I have spiritual pica, can that be a thing? Ha, ha.

The way you express your connection to the earth and rocks and formations - I can see all the images and feel it right along with you.

Do you, when you watch a tv show find yourself listening to the crunch of the stones as the characters walk instead of what they are saying. It makes me laugh, it's such a satisfying crunch sound.

Okay - you need to go see the Grand Canyon. I'm mentioned it several times. To me, and I think it genuinely is, one of the wonders of the world.

Okay, no one laugh - but when I am stressed and can't sleep I imagine I am a gopher and go into my hole and then imagine which tunnels and which dirt rooms I am in. It's a coping visual mechanism I've developed. And it instantly relaxes me.

Sorry... too crazy for here? NAH, THIS IS THE SHED! I can be a gopher if I want. But I don't wear gopher clothing 'cause I have my own fur.

Oh and WIS - I am always tearing up. So we'll cry together. Let's collect our tears and watch the soak into the crusty earth. Too much? I think you get it though.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:48 PM
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Well I talked with her so no reason to worry. Left me confused as always as I am completely uncertain of the relations between us. I know what it isn't, but not what it is.

Ah, but that matters little. Hello everyone. To the new member of the Shed as well,
edit on 23-7-2016 by ksiezyc because: (no reason given)



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:50 PM
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a reply to: Quantum12

Oh my lovely silly Brother ( I still think you are).

I didn't want to get to personal out in the open. But Thank You, I just wonder why you wrote it I haven't been exceptionally nice to you, even critical at times.

Would you care to reveal why? If not that is fine.
Because I see my self as judgmental, sharp and not so very kind at times. Even prejudice.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 10:57 PM
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Kaelci and Seagull

I must slumber now.
I read your lovely elaborate posts and wish I had the wits to reply but I relate. Please forgive me if I reply days from now.

To all the other Shedites rest well and sweet dreams, know you are in mine.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:02 PM
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Hey Kaelci. Gosh, I told Night Star I was going to bed. What the...

Yes, I agree. Sometimes it's good to clean the mind and let it all out. I find if I do that that there is nothing left to cycle inside my skull, going "bump, bump, bump" constantly.

Having caught a few Oprah episodes in my time, and reading what successful people do, I have come to the conclusion that if one has a passion then you must, absolutely must, follow that drive. It is who you are. And no one can judge your work because it is a piece of you that you have created.

So if I may, write and write and write. Write as it feels natural. Just put it all down, even if the grammar and punctuation is bad. You can go back and fix it after. But write as it feels natural to you - that's when the passion, the magic shows. It can all be fixed up after. Hey if you don't want to become famous... well, worry about that later. I have read famous author feedbacks and they all say it was way beyond what they expected in terms of having to persevere with editing, and sometimes not going with what your original work was meant to be. The author of Harry Potter said that recently to Stephen King I believe. She was referring to her editor. She said to King, "They just don't get it do they?" Meaning the editor wanted a format/change things up but to Rowlings, this was her passion, her creation. How dare someone change her creation? I completely get that. It'd be like having to remove your arm and try on several pair that just aren't right but you'll have to put up with it.

So I guess what I'm saying is if writing is what makes you feel alive then go for it. Deal with the consequences as they happen. But get there first. My thought is if I were to become a famous author I'd stash away my $$$ and then quit. And then live off what I figure to be acceptable and THEN continue writing what makes me feel fulfilled and alive. Too many authors are a hit and miss. And so don't not fulfill who you are based on a "maybe". Or else no one would have made it in writing or anything for that matter. Just like learning to write your a, b, c's and then making words and then writing stories - it's all a process and you adapt and learn as you go. So if you were to come a famous author I'd say WELL DONE and be so, so, so proud of you but mainly because you did what your inside is begging you do and you followed through. And of course secondly I'd be proud of you for having shown people that you could do it. Thirdly: way to go for achieving what humans call status. So there you go: you can put your worries of becoming a recognized author in its correct place, which is a place of which you do or don't give power to.

And good for you for following up on the stones and meditating. Stones are very grounding. And I don't think it's just cause they are made of the ground, ha ha. They are solid and little bits of the earth. They are like tiny replicas of this earth that we are sitting like a tiny speck on. I think they are the most basic and simplest forms of this earth and yet so ancient and such forces of nature made it. A simple rock but such power went into making it.

You can grow anything you decide to. A little bit of light, soil, water, love and you have life coming out of this storage cell. Al plants want to live. So unless you've missed out on one of the basics then you're going to do fine. And probably quite fine because I think you have a lot of thinking that will be turned onto your plants and they feed off it like energy.

I know what you mean about life. In fact I'm tired of it. I mean I love it and love my family and friends but is this it? I don't need people to burst into song as I pass by, I don't need flowers to bow to me when I gaze upon them, but is this it? I think we are all yearning for what we all inside know life should be: peace, comfort, love, time for contemplation and sharing and giving. The world is moving too fast, and it's on edge and people are flipping out. My prescription for you is to go out into the woods. I have a park nearby that I take my dog to and it's amazing what even half an hour of walking in nature will do. It is soul soothing and rejuvenating and sometimes puts things into perspective. We have lost touch with the natural world. Unfortunately, when I get home I lose that sense of peace. So I think what I should do is move there and then come visit my house and reality for half an hour each day - turn it around you know?

Hugs!



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:10 PM
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Dear JustMike. I have been trying to catch up with everyone on the Shed to get to know everyone better. Forgive me, I don't mean to intrude in any way, but quickly (before I go to bed) would this help at all? Don't know if it was on ATS or not but thought I'd share it.

About a new discovery about the brain being part of the lymphatic system and could there be a connection between alzheimer's, MS, Parkinsons, etc.

www.nih.gov...
news.virginia.edu...



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:11 PM
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a reply to: ksiezyc

Hi ksiezyc! So wonderful to meet you. Sweet dreams.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:20 PM
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a reply to: Quantum12It got up to atleast 103. Possibly higher. I took a 2 hour nap. Its down to 83 right now at 920 pm



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:27 PM
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originally posted by: WalkInSilence
a reply to: visitedbythem
Rider how are you? Please elaborate. You boys some times sound like the blokes down at the pub.
" How are thing?" "Good" "Cheers"

Just tell us what is going on we do want to listen.
Grand Hugs Gentlemen.

Im doing great. I went by my sons house and got huggs from my grandson and checked out my sons garden. I pulled up a clip from an old episode about the Soup Nazi. He was serving some Mulligatawny Soup. I havnt made that in years. So I ran to the store, got all the ingredients, and made a kettle of it. Im serving it now with hot cream stirred in at the last minute, toasted french bread on the side



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:33 PM
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I am absolutely stunned by my beautiful Sheddite family today! I am speechless, sort of. So much magic and wonderful conversations and images and...WOW, just wow! I am so grateful for each and every one of you, for being the amazing and beautiful individuals that you are, for your creativity and humor and love.

I apologize for being away so long and not being able to join in all the fun. I'm home now!




posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:36 PM
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You look way too young to be a Grandfather!

Sounds like you had a lovely time! What the hell kind of soup is that? LOL! Sorry, it just sounds so exotic and something I'm sure I've never seen before.



posted on Jul, 23 2016 @ 11:45 PM
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a reply to: visitedbythem

You look way too young to be a Grandfather!

Sounds like you had a lovely time! What the hell kind of soup is that? LOL! Sorry, it just sounds so exotic and something I'm sure I've never seen before.

Thanks.
Heres from Wiki:
Mulligatawny [ˈmɐlɨɡəˈtɑːni] (About this sound listen (help·info)) is an English soup with origins in Indian cuisine. The name originates from the Tamil words mullaga/milagu and thanni and can be translated as "pepper-water" (மிளகு தண்ணீர்).

The original version of this soup consisted of a broth from lentils, fried onions and curry powder. Today it normally designates a thickened soup that is strongly spiced with curry powder and nutmeg. Often, strips of vegetables, nuts and rice are added, sometimes also port wine.

The original Indian dish was not a soup, but a sauce that was served with rice.

Mulligatawny soup is featured as a course in the 1963 comedy sketch Dinner for One.
I ommited the Port, and added hot cream at the table.I also ommitted Lentles, but added carrots, celery and Ckicken



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