I need all your love and prayer

a reply to: randyvs

The Netherlands. And I crying my head off right now.

a reply to: QueenofWeird

I'm so sorry...

I have also experienced the death of my mother, who was my best friend, and the loss of an extraordinary pet. I know how raw it feels and how I just wanted to do anything to STOP hurting so much. It really is hard to go through. I had to do life one moment at a time sometimes.

It will get to the point where you can bear it more easily. I know it doesn't seem like that now. But just get though this day and then the next.

I really am sorry. I'm sending you thoughts of strength and healing.

a reply to: QueenofWeird

QueenofWeird, my deepest condolences to your family and you with the passing of your mother. God Bless.
1 is sorry to hear about the issues you are having with up-keeping your pets, as it is understood many here Love their pets as members of family. But do try to keep a optimistic outlook on things and 1 shall keep you in thy prayers.

Sending you vibrations of peace and strength to overcome and persevere.

Good luck

NAMASTE*******

a reply to: QueenofWeird

Your thoughts may differ from mine, but we make our own purpose. We were born with free will, to do, or to not do, as we will.

I would suggest, and that's all it is, a suggestion... Log off here, and go for a walk. Was there a place that you and your Mom liked to go? A park? Someplace like that?

Go. Remember her like that, not what she was in the hospital. That was transitory. In that park, or where ever she liked to go, that's who she was.

Remember the laughter and love, because that's what made her "Mom", and what better memory is there?

a reply to: QueenofWeird

Get it all out baby and just know other people do care about you
and what you're going thru. If I could ask one favor it would be that
you take care of yourself first because you care so much.

a reply to: Benevolent Heretic

I know your lost your darling dog. It's a monstrous thing to lose a pet that is your everything. Even if he visits me from the other side I still have to go through to this life. I know it will get better but life sometimes throws too many curb balls to handle at the same time.

a reply to: Ophiuchus 13

I have fought my way through so much, but too much is eating at me and death is something that is too big for me to handle.

a reply to: QueenofWeird

Since Love is everlasting, your Love always reaches their Spirit like a soft hug, there is no separation. They can still share your joy with you, and hug you in Spirit when you feel sad.

But right now, it maybe too painful to think of your loved ones Loving you from Spirit instead of the physical. Just remember that there are still Loved ones in this physical world who are there to comfort you. You are never left alone, but surrounded by Love.

As for being in a financial struggle, you are not alone in that either so try not to be too hard on yourself. Many people are in the same situation in the moment and understand and will not judge. Hold on to The Hope that things will get better and Faith that you are always guided by Perfect Love regardless of where you are now.

a reply to: [post=19962369]seagull[/post

It's the evening here, and I walk a lot. I remember her all the time and now I have to miss my cat's love that was the most tender. I know it was his time, he was ill and couldn't go on anymore.

a reply to: randyvs

You don't how much your words mean to me.

a reply to: seagull

Man this world sure needs more people like OP.

a reply to: arpgme

I know the spirit world and can sense them. I can also feel my guides worry about me. My greatest wish is for there to be no divide betweem the physical and the spirit world.

my deepest condolences!

For me, the best healer is nature. When I have hard times I go for a walk in nature. Without any distractions like music or phone. Just walking and listening to nature, to the forest, to the birds. It really helps. Sometimes I even scream out loud and as hard as I can. It is maybe a bit wired, but who cares it helps me and I feel great relief after that. You should try it!

a reply to: UniFinity

I love nature too and I do scream silently as not to attract people's attention. I live in a crowded city and have a place with carboard walls. But yes I need to get it out.

a reply to: QueenofWeird

Dear QueenofWeird - I understand your words all too well - to want to die but not want to take your life. You just want the pain and struggle to be over. Right now you are in the pit that seems too high to crawl from, even if you had any scrap of leftover energy to do so. This is normal and just know that you are experiencing depths of pain that no words can express. You are in the midst of the storm. But you will get through this. Even if it’s a state of just enduring.

When it gets to be too much just let the feelings wash over you but don’t give them any power. What I mean is don’t think how “it’s too much,” or, “I will never get through this”. Just take a deep breath and exist.

Yes - go for a walk. Get out and smell the trees and leaves and inhale the sharp fall air. Notice the frost on the leaves and the patterns on them. Absorb the limbs of the trees and the shapes they create. Just soak into nature and let nature soak you in. This is the best advice (as someone else recommended too) that I can give.

You lean towards Buddhism but may I suggest picturing Jesus lifting you in His arms and just holding you and giving you rest while He takes on all your worries. I am praying for you. I believe our pets go to Heaven and your Mom and your cat are just on the other side. I know this is hard because they are there and you are here and you can’t be away from this harsh world. But it is not your time yet. Just know what an incredible life you gave your beloved cat and how much she adored you and was thankful for the life you gave her. And there is no being able to tell you the love your Mom had/has for you - that love is energy and power and alive and it’s still with you - just in another form. You will see them again and when you do this life will seem like just a dim memory, just a blip of time. Time is funny in that we experience it, but really it’s just a snap of the fingers. Just keep telling yourself that in a week you will have a different handle on things, and after a few months again. And then in a year, etc you will have grown so much and you will see things in a different light - not easier, but you will be more than you are now.

You can do this. All of us here on ATS are surrounding you and holding you - giving you our strength and comfort. You are not alone - ever. You can always PM me if you need. Your Mom and cat love you so much and they can see the path your life shines with - step into the glow and make them proud (as I know they are already).

a reply to: ccseagull

Thank your for your loving words.

a reply to: QueenofWeird

1 can understand QueenofWeird, it seems like there is always some kind of struggle with the spirit as it matures within existence (an eternal existence) So if you are a believer as is 1 then you will eventually find a balance though very uncomforting at times consciously & spiritually with the acceptance of the phases of life and death within existence, as the souls morph and ascend. But as your acceptance is gained also too is gained the verification of yours and your loved ones Eternal Selves. Which can help you to preserver or continue your souljourney why still in your "current" human form, hopefully as benevolent as possible, so that your soul can too ascend into the Eternal regions your loved ones who taught you benevolent ways more directly as family members have...

a reply to: QueenofWeird

My greatest wish is for there to be no divide betweem the physical and the spirit world.

Mine too, that Heaven and Earth be one. This is how I see it: the physical body is like ice and the Spirit is like water, it's both H2O, the ice is already One with the water that it's in and slowly it's melting. Warmth is what melts the ice so that it can flow freely as water.

The more Warmth (Love), the more the ice (solid/physical) will melt to water (spirit), and then it will be easy to realize that there was never any real separation.

Keep shining your Light and let its warmth melt the darkness so you can see through it.

a reply to: arpgme

Love you!

a reply to: QueenofWeird

Cats are special.

Annoying. Condescending. Aloof.

Yet somehow we love 'em anyway. ...and it hurts when they leave us.

You hang in there, my friend.