i wish

originally posted by: WalkInSilence
Are you Ok?
What does rough mean?
Are you in warm enviroment?
Do you have to comprimise your self to survive?
WIS

Little supplies
Tough choices
Weather is mostly nice , houston after all and have a very nice wool blanket for when it's not. And it's got me thru oklahoma winters
Compromise myself. Well that's a term that can mean a lot of things

originally posted by: Another_Nut

originally posted by: WalkInSilence
Are you Ok?
What does rough mean?
Are you in warm enviroment?
Do you have to comprimise your self to survive?
WIS

Little supplies
Tough choices
Weather is mostly nice , houston after all and have a very nice wool blanket for when it's not. And it's got me thru oklahoma winters
Compromise myself. Well that's a term that can mean a lot of things

Have you applied for food stamps and housing? If you haven't, please do. Not easy to get, but worth trying. I work in human services, and I see many like you. It's so hard. Our office has homeless clients, and we hold their mail for them. You never know. I will pray for you. It's gut wrenching to hear your story. You are very courageous for posting this. Thank you for sharing. I wish there was something I could do. Please take care of yourself.

a reply to: ChiefD

i would find it hypocritical of me to do either.

being as how i am not a resident of anywhere i am in a sort of legal limbo when it comes to governments

and i dislike them.

the purpose of my sojourn was to survive on my own

that i am doing

ty for your thought and prayers

I Wish - By Logic, ft. Lowkey and Renee Soul:

originally posted by: ChiefD

Hay Chief,
Very nice reply.
I wasn't Navy sadly, but a merchant marine for many years. So Hello Sailor.
Not a chief but an officer. Or so we were considered.

Yeah it would be nice if we weren't just silent bistanders to others suffering.

WIS

To Survive On My Own.

Why do we make each other say that?
Why is this such an honorable trait?

For Gods sake or who what ever you think governs your life, we are not islands.
I am not condemning you, but those who belittle those with what "they" call less.

Annu, it is such a true shame that we think we must survive on our own, I am sorry.
We are so selfish, so self centered.

It will be our demise.
I can't help and I can't even help my self, but I still have my mental/ spiritual ability.
Thank you for being.

WIS

double post

originally posted by: WalkInSilence

Double post, Hmmm

a reply to: WalkInSilence

when i realized that what little family i had left had no problem watching me try to survive for years i knew it was only a matter of time before any support i had would be gone. when that happens i realized i would be all alone on this planet

i had no choice but to make the decision

with no family to turn to and very few friends the realization hit that soon i would have noone to turn to for a meal or shelter or even a few dollars to obtain the necessities should something happen like losing a job or and crisis

i had to do it on my own as this world will not help someone struggling . that turning a blind eye again.

some will help but they are few a far between

alone wasnt the way i planned on before this realization hit me

i tend to be a giver , its hard for me to take anything.

pride or foolishness . i dont know. but i wont let me ask for help .

i think it stems from something my mother said long ago

"dont ask to be invited, if people want you there they will ask you"

i take that now as "dont ask. if people want to they will see your need and if they want to help they will help without you asking"

it seems few in this world want to help even when they see the suffering

i have taken my mothers words to heart and dont ask people if they need help. you can see it on their face and in their action . they dont have to ask me . they get what i can give without the asking.

I do wish I had an intelligent coment that could encourage you.
But I don't.
I HATE platitudes.
"Just be happy"
"Be gratefull and good things will come to you"
"You create your own reality, think possitive and positive things will manifest"
"Look at the bright side"
The list goes on and on.

The worst part is that the people who use these phrases just walk away, after they have told you how much they suffer them selves, as if it justifies your suffering.
People don't listen, there is just this endless stream of complaints regurtitateing and they don't want a solution, they want to suffer, they are addicted to the pity they get. And they want others to suffer too.
I don't understand it, but it makes for a lot of self centered behaviour.

Oh well this was a stupid rant, sorry, and see I don't have any thing comforting to say.

I just had a thought. No one has addressed the fact of all your lost dreams and aspirations, how your unique talents are just wasted because you never get a chance. That to me is the sad part.
You may think I am presumptious but I do relate to your situation.
Have a better day, today, tomorrow, forever.
WIS

Hay Annu,
Hope you are in a better place.
Thought I'd give a call, we tend to forget or dismiss the ones who are dismissed by society.
It is Easter, an important time for me, a time for re-evaluating my damn selfishness.
How are you?
WIS

a reply to: WalkInSilence

still alive

thanks for asking

not much has changed

stagnating i guess

hope you are well

Hay Annu,
I ask the same questions and hope for a different answer.
Because we don't like dispair. We think it is contagious.
Know you are in some ones thoughts.

Every day I pray for those who are forgotten, those who have no one to pray for them and those who no one wants to pray for.
Perhaps you don't believe in prayer, perhaps it is repulsive to you. If so I appologize.

I hold on to this thread because I want to hear you found a safe and lovely place.
WIS

Hay Annu,
Are you Ok,
Just a shout out from oblivion, I've been off line for a long time. A good thing.
Tell me how you are?

We post something here and assume it is read and then we forget about it as if the people who read it also forget.
I don't. People are real to me.

I hope you are well.
WIS

Hay Annu,
Good to see you around. I can't view the slides but I hope you are Ok.
WIS