Mama

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Thank you Athlon.
Peace to you ~~

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Wow thats a beautiful poem. Your mum certainly will be watching down on you. Such a young age to be taken indeed. My thoughts are with you my sweet friend

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Thanks Doc. I appreciate your kind words.
You have such a sweet soul.
Peace to you ~~

natalia
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Thank you. I appreciate your kind words.

I know there are many without a mom. I'm very blessed to have had her for as long as I did.
My little sister was 10 when mom passed. My mom was an alcoholic.
Everything happens for a reason..imo of course.

Very beautiful!!

I too lost my Mom years ago when I was 24....I blame it on alcoholism.
Lost my Dad to Parkinson's when I was 14 so that poem hit the spot....Thanks a bunch

I still have my siblings, thank goodness, not to mention my husband of 27 yrs. who was there when my Mom passed.

Christmas is still the hardest for me where my Mom is concerned.
She LOVED Christmas and those old classic songs [Bing Crosby, Dean Martin, etc.] still makes me cry for her after all these years when I hear them.
You never forget....

Much respect~
snarky

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Writers inhale and exhale the same air of creativity as everyone else,
but we have no choice but to give it voice.
When we speak of those we have loved and lost
our words remember them above any cost.

Nate my heart goes out to you and please know there is a stranger in Boise, Idaho who cares.
Peace to you my friend.

That's heart-rending, but gorgeously sublime in the honesty of truly having to let go...

Å99

@Snarky-- thanks friend. I was 27 when my mom passed and I am now 29. I feel of course and have said before, it all happened for a reason. Thank you for reading and replying about the loss of your parents. My heart goes out to you. It's difficult for sure.
I'm so thankful I have my lil sis. She is now 13, she just had a birthday a few days ago. She's a lot stronger than I thought. Peace to you friend

@grayeagle-- I really appreciate your kind words my friend. I appreciate also that you care. I am proud and happy that I have friends on this site that do care and have been through similar situations. Peace to you my friend.

@akushla99-- letting go is really hard. Sometimes I feel I haven't truly let go. Other times I feel I have. I got a tattoo on the back of my shoulder that says 'let it be' and has her death date below it. I felt it would help me with letting it be and letting go, it has some.
Peace to you and thanks for reading.

So Mother's Day was sunday here in the states... It was kinda hard. I didn't really wanna do anything.

But.. The new Spider-Man is out in theaters and my son had a gift card. So we went and saw that movie. It was pretty good. I did enjoy it. But I have a poem I would like to share, I didn't want to start a new thread for how I felt on Mother's Day. And this isn't to my mom... It's a poem of just how I ended up feeling...

When I needed you most, you weren't even there
To wipe away my tears or brush back my hair
It hurt terribly bad to feel so alone
I tried my best to not let it rattle my bones
I had no one to talk to except for myself
I'm my own worst enemy or best friend I guess...

'Even if you were here, would you really be here?
Would you lend a shoulder to cry on my dear?
I can't see straight, my head is spinning
This life I'm living ...I see no beginning
Dark clouds circle round and round
I feel chained and broken on the ground
Reaching for you and wishing to speak
Thinking of this only makes me weak
I'll just look to tomorrow with hope and pray
That this darkness is lifted from me someday'

I feel that this time of year will always be hard for me no matter what. People say time will heal pain.. I just feel like it's getting worse.. I just can't explain it I guess.. I wrote this in January of this year..

a reply to: natalia

My heart goes out to you Natalia. Beautifully expressed.

a reply to: natalia

This brought tears to my eyes, beautiful and powerful.

a reply to: Samilton
Thank you very much...
You have been there for me and I do appreciate that..

a reply to: LucidLucinda
Hey thanks... Still brings tears to my eyes too.. I still don't understand and I try to let it be ... It's hard at times tho. Have a lovely day

So today marks three years that my mom has passed on.
I thought the darkness would never be lifted.. I wanted to share that I see a light now. I am seriously having more understanding about how this life works..
Sure we have ups and downs.. And I know that I have the power to push the darkness away and let the light in.

Happiness comes from within...by making peace with my past I can look to the future. Live for the day. One day at a time.

I'm happy how I am seeing things differently.. It's like something clicked and I can't throw a pity party and be sad.. I have got to be happy..sure I know sad days may come but when I look at the people around me..that love me..that makes me happy and I just want to live every moment like it's my last and enjoy every moment
Peace and love to everyone ~~>>>

a reply to: natalia

Aww, Nat. Huge hugs to you sweetheart!
I'm so glad that you are feeling better. These anniversaries are never easy to begin with, I'm so happy that the world is brightening in spite of it!! I hope things continue looking up!

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Thanks my sweet friend
Hugs to you too!!

a reply to: natalia

It's the emotional struggles that make us stronger and really appreciate every moment.

I'm sorry for your loss and can't imagine the ups and downs you must have felt over the last 3 years. Your mom will always be with you and I'm sure she is proud to see the kind and caring woman her daughter has become. Peace and love to you too!!

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No sad faces here today




a reply to: Jennyfrenzy
Thank you for your kind words. And I agree with what you say
I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for everything I have gone thru.
Peace to you too ~~>>

a reply to: natalia

Oh man! That's some sad stuff.