The Waiting Game: Do You Feel It?

Originally posted by smyleegrl

Originally posted by AfterInfinity
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This is going to be an extremely morbid reply, but...since you asked...

I'm waiting for something miraculous to happen. I'm waiting for a reason to live. In the absence of that, I'm waiting to die, because right now I don't see much justification for being here in this plane of existence. It certainly doesn't feel rewarding.

Again, morbid...but it's the most honest answer you'll get from me on a subject so vague.

No, I understand exactly what you mean. It's very vague, and disheartening.

Sometimes I find myself thinking, "I wish it would hurry up and happen already," even knowing that "it" might be death itself.

Ugh, I'm just so tired of waiting!

Il ditto that, im grateful for what ive got surely, but sometimes i feel like "is this it". Im not enamoured with life in general.
Whether positive or negative, something is in the post, im certain of it.

The sky is an illusion.

We dream our whole lives away.

As children we give up our freedom for security.

We trust our parents to guide us.

We hope that when we grow.

We will gain our freedom in time.

If we grow.

The truth is.

Our parents haven’t even gained that freedom.

they are still waiting.

hoping.

It is never coming.

It is a lie.

an illusion.

reply to post by smyleegrl


interesting...I've always described it this way to anyone I've been close with. I'm not sure what that "feeling" is about but I've had it for most my adult life. The feeling is somewhat like feeling misplaced...like I'm in a period of time that I'm not supposed to be in...

Its like watching a movie you have never seen before that makes absolutely no sense...but you keep waiting and waiting for the punch line, or for the last 10 minutes of nonsense o be highlighted with a moment of clarity...

For me deep down I feel as though I'm waiting for reality to fall apart at the seams...for the constraints and boxed in aspects of reality to disappear.

School > college > work > taxes > marriage > taxes > kids > taxes > white picket fence > taxes > retirement > taxes > death...taxes...

its too incredibly linear and boring to be the standard of life...especially when reality/life can be so incredibly vast...but yet its a formidable mechanism to try and escape.

To me I guess I feel like I've been waiting for the "game" to be over...I've always had a really hard time taking life (as we typically live it) seriously (although I get caught up in it at times) and because of this I feel as though I'm misplaced...in a time that doesn't correspond at all with who I am, what I believe and what I desire or am drawn to...

edit to add age: 30

I have to throw my hat in this ring as well. I'm 47 and as far back as I can remember, I have always had this hunch that something "special" or "profound" was coming.

In reflection, I have had a lot of special things happen in my life. I own my own business. I have a wonderful wife of 25 years, I have 3 healthy and smart daughters. One is an EMT, is married and just made me a grandaddy. My middle daughter is married and working on her masters in Linguistics and my youngest daughter is in her junior year of college studying Forensics. What nearly anyone with a sane mind would call "pretty special stuff"...right?

But that is not the feeling...notion or "sense" I have carried...it is something different and I cannot explain it either. I know I am blessed and wonderful things have been bestowed upon me...I do not question the gifts I have received. It's just there is this nagging in the back of my head (sometimes a gut feeling) that says "something is coming"...Is it someone? Is it an event? Is it going to be good or bad? I get no sense of foreboding...just the feeling that..."something is coming"...

I have no idea what "it" is but I completely understand what you are experiencing...at least I think I do.

I remember being very young and knowing that something was 'wrong' with the world.
I remember telling my parents and arguing about their 'you musts' and 'you have to do what everyone else is doing' attitude. But i KNEW it was all wrong. So, I stopped 'playing the game'. I do things 'differently' and I sympathise greatly with other people's, what I can only term as 'blindness'. Let's face it, the majority of our brothers and sisters will never wake up in time but we have to be HERE for THEM because they don't know what they're supposed to be doing and so are not preparing.

Now, in all honestly, reading that back it all sounds completely 'batty' but it is what I have always felt.

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Ive always felt like im a different race from my peers. I can remember in my late teens being dragged out to nightclubs by "friends", and not having any clue how people could be enjoying being packed into dark, hot, expensive hellholes incapable of holding a conversation also Ive never understand the human desire for the aquisition of material wealth.

its horrible and difficult "being different". I want our time to come, i want my world/life back. Does that make sense??

It's no coincidence that so many feel this way.

Whatever it may be, is in fact deeply injected into the collective subconscious. The ones that are more "tuned in" can feel this.

I'm just releaved that I'm not the only one going through this.

Worry not my dearest ones, when the time comes you will KNOW.

What are you waiting for? Why are you still waiting? By that I mean, things are already happening. How many more signs/events do people need?
It's like you're waiting for a train, yet it's parked right in front of you waiting for you to get on.

Originally posted by Ghost375
What are you waiting for? Why are you still waiting? By that I mean, things are already happening. How many more signs/events do people need?
It's like you're waiting for a train, yet it's parked right in front of you waiting for you to get on.

If the train is there, I do not see it.

But I understand your point. There's a certain part of that waiting feeling that makes me feel like I'm the only one in the room who doesn't get the joke.

Look far enough backwards and maybe you can see tomorrow........in which case, hold on tight because we're in for a bumpy ride!

Yes, I hear ya. Waiting since I was a very young girl. Waiting, waiting. Always felt that the world as we know it, society as we know it, would change drastically during my lifetime, when I was older. That colored my view of my life. Sometimes I regret falling under the spell of this "waiting" for some type of grand change.

I always had this "back of my head" feeling that -- what's the point of ANYTHING I do in normal, everyday life, because the world was going to change and nothing I was doing was going to change that or prepare for this great change. This feeling I had wasn't from books, wasn't from 2012 talk, wasn't anything but what I "knew" inside me since elementary school. I told no one, as I had the sense that no one felt this feeling, since I never heard it spoken of.

It colored my inner world so much that I worred for my kids, what kind of future would they have, would they survive whatever change was coming, would it be a life worth living or some type of Mad Maxx world? When older, I read a lot of far out stuff, and did learn about 2012 and wondered, could that be it? But as 2012 drew nearer, I realized that wasn't it.

I worried as I commuted, worked 10 hour days, climbed the ladder, raised my kids, paid my bills---was it all for naught? I worried that I wasn't "prepping" in a sense (long before I ever heard of preppers) -- meaning I wasn't learning how to survive off the land, live without societal norms, farm, hunt, gather -- make candles for god's sake! I worried that I wasn't "prepping" for a spiritual shift, becoming open, aware, enlightened. Nagging feeling that would never leave me and one that I couldn't share with anyone.

Sometimes I think, what a waste of a lifetime, worrying, wondering, trying to learn more about non-traditional things in a world that sees that as crazy. Sometimes I think it was a "trick" if you will, a big cosmic trick, leading many of us to think great change was coming, have some anxiety about it, be afraid maybe, or spend time chasing our tails with metaphysical, religious or other roads, trying to figure it all out.

Now, I think I've come to a place of "aaaahhhh." A letting go of all this. I am past the age of 40, when I was sure my life was going to change completely as the world was going to change completely then.

Yet, there's a place in me that wonders if indeed the changes are in the process and we're in midst of it. However, we're the proverbial frogs in the kettle as the heat grows. Boiled alive, not jumping out, and one day our society will be completely changed from when we were little ones -- any sense of freedom and justice, gone.

What say you all?

Ok, I'll bite, but keep one thing in mind, I am one of the most sanest crazy people you will ever come across/ meet.

I've had the feeling I am here for a higher purpose, not spiritual, I have been kicked around and Crapped on my whole life. I am an honest person, Like this life experience is "training" for that purpose. I have said this before on here, I have no clue on how I'm still alive, I should've died more than 4 or 5 times. Due to accidents, or actions of my own stupidity. Alas I am still here, also waiting, for what ever to come to fruition. As just like a few before me, the time is almost here.

Now, I turn to luck, no matter what happens, an asteroid, a nuke, I'll not be one of the lucky ones, and perish on impact, but I will live through the brunt of the aftermath. And fairly close to the impact zone none the less.

we all feel this way because we know that the way we live our lives in general is wrong. deep down we know this.
society is wrong. the haves and have not's is wrong. famine is wrong. material wealth is wrong.
and so on and so on.
we are not of this society. well, we are, but it does'nt sit right with us.
we know there's a better way, but yet we cannot change it.
the feeling of something's gonna happen is, for me, a false positive.
that is, something should happen. but because it does'nt, this feeling continues to slowly torture my soul.

Yes OP I feel it more now than ever. But that's not all I'm feeling.

I'm living in an extremely quiet place in Arizona.

For the past two plus weeks, for lack of a better description, the atmosphere (or the ground or both?) seems to be vibrating here. It's most noticeable in the morning hours before the sun rises, but it's there constantly. Sometimes it tickles my eardrums.

I would to start a thread, but my access to the internet is very limited nowadays. A friend and I drove to a secluded place away from his village last week, and he also could hear/sense this vibrating. He thinks the feds or someone is tunneling, but I'm reserving judgement.

It's very subtle most of the time and if I didn't live in such a quiet place, I probably wouldn't notice it.

Anyway, the waiting game is certainly getting more interesting in my neck of the woods/desert.

Edited to add my age: 47.

We are here to help eachother and everyone else through........whatever happens.

reply to post by smyleegrl

All my life I've had this feeling of.....waiting.

i'm still workin' on it.

gimme a break!

great thread op....
it could be something as simple as everyone who has this feeling has lived a previous life.
also, im just wondering, can everyone state their blood type?
just a long shot.
i recall reading a theory that anyone with a certain blood type, i think it was rh negative, or just negative, will be saved when we recieve our "visitors". or something to that effect

EDIT: i dont know my blood type

Fellow 'waiters'
I salute you all. Interesting the common theme and age profile of members who have replied so far. It's almost palpable this tension. I have been awaiting something I cannot describe or envisage for a long time now.

I lead the life of a hermit and have shut myself away from the world, this isn't due to depression or being anti social. I simply cannot pretend to fit into theworld as it is. I am not unhappy although lonliness can get overwhelming sometimes. (Celibacy ain't much fun most of the time either )

I do all my talking here on Ats and for many weeks at a time the only human I interact with on a personal level is the person I thank when buying groceries.
I too feel like I am waiting,
Waiting for my place in the world to reveal itself.

Maybe not too many misanthropic hermits here, but it is nice to know that I'm not the only one awaiting death or destiny
Thanx Smyleegirl s&f4u.

How many here would throw their hat in the ring if i the question
were asked : Are you a loner, or perceive yourself to be.

I know that I desire to be among people. but the reality is
i generally do not like other people and therefore spend a lot of time
thinking the thoughts we are discussing here. I wonder if being
a loner type is parallel to this waiting for something feeling?

I also wonder how many of you have had precognition experiences
in their younger days?

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yes yes yes yes and yes