The Waiting Game: Do You Feel It?

I've been following this thread with intrigue.

I'm 40 this year and felt like it my whole life but still don't know what I'm 'waiting' for.

I have a happy life with a partner who is a soul mate and am fortunate compared to many people in this World. Don't get me wrong life isn't a bed of roses but things are very good.

Maybe it's a natural desire and hope for Eutopia.

I think Klassified hit the nail on the head for me in his reply. It does not explain why i feel like i am preparing for something though. I was born this way. It started when i was 3 years old according to my parents. They bought me a tricycle. I rode it in a circle in the garage, got off and proceeded to take it apart to see how it worked. I tried various jobs until finally landed on the one thing that peaked my interest. Mechanics, it fuses electronics and mechanics together and is heavy on the problem solving thought process. This is apparently not good for a marriage though. According to a marriage counselor, the wife just wanted a hug, not a solution. I am in my 50's now and am as curious as ever about literally everything. Which is why i joined ATS.

INTJs are analytical problem-solvers, eager to improve systems and processes with their innovative ideas. They have a talent for seeing possibilities for improvement, whether at work, at home, or in themselves. INTJs have a hunger for knowledge and strive to constantly increase their competence; they are often perfectionists with extremely high standards of performance for themselves and others. They tend to have a keen interest in self-improvement and are lifelong learners, always looking to add to their base of information and awareness. INTJs live in a world of abstraction and theory, and may sometimes be absentminded in their preoccupation with concepts. Often intellectual, they enjoy analysis and complex problem-solving, and are much less comfortable with the illogical and unpredictable nature of other people and their emotions. They may not want to bother with people who they do not perceive to be their intellectual equals. INTJs are perceptive about systems and strategy, and often understand the world as a chess board to be navigated. They want to understand how systems work, and how events proceed: the INTJ often has a unique ability to foresee logical outcomes. They enjoy applying themselves to a project or idea in depth, and putting in concentrated effort to achieve their goals..

ive been waiting for something too, i dont know what it is yet.

reply to post by elgaz


I can understand your pov. and it makes sense looking at it from your perspective.

For me, I have had life changing events all throughout my life.

I see the beauty in the "now" as well as hope for a better tomorrow.

Whether I die today or the next, the future of tomorrow for my kids and the ones coming after me is important.

What we do today in the now, sets the waves in motion for tomorrow.

A lot of us have stated this feeling has been with us since we can remember.

It's a gnawing feeling that our purpose is greater than meets the eye.

This purpose is in my opinion helping to make tomorrow a better day than today. Learning each day how to set the waves in motion to sustain without collapse.

Does this pov make sense to you?

Originally posted by jcutler12888
reply to post by Thought Provoker

 

I agree 100%...it will definitely happen soon. You can practically feel time running out...

It makes me wonder if this is why so many people are reporting time 'speeding up'. I've noticed this, and so have many of my friends, and most of them are rational and level-headed.

Originally posted by thedoctorswife
reply to post by smyleegrl

 

I feel exactly the same as you, as a child i felt as though i was born during a special time in human history, and that i would be present to see something very special. However, i feel the same, im 45 next month, and starting to wonder if indeed i will around. Your not alone, many of us feel the same i think.

This is exactly how I feel to. I feel like i was put here for a purpose almost.Not that i'm special in any way, i'm saying this very humbly and without pretensions. I couldn't have said it better

reply to post by MamaJ

It's a gnawing feeling that our purpose is greater than meets the eye.

Considering most human eyeballs cannot perceive over 50 feet without losing significant resolution, and our understanding is even more limited, it should come as no surprise that many things about this universe transcend our comprehension.

I'm getting a little tired of watching the hitherto master race get its kicks out of sacrificing the little guys in an economic gladiator tournament that never seems to end, so maybe if this grand design became a little clearer and started knocking heads around so we could get our s*** straight, life wouldn't seem quite so pointless. As it is, the rat race is getting really boring, really fast.

As usual I come in late on these things, too busy living life I suppose. First I noted a lot of young ones on here with this feeling which I share. However I go back more years than most which to me seems odd, as I too am young, even at 74 and still wait. I experienced this feeling back in the early 50's, beeing pissed off at having my intelliegence and memory wiped, somewhat like living in a dense fog when I knew there was light elswhere.

Many were the time, I just wanted out of this experience and remember standing in a corn field late at night begging for them to come and pick me up when I was a kid, I did not want to continue with this experience which I knew I agreed to. Yes, there are others involved, I have experienced this on differing levels.

Now you would think I could provide some answers, but cannot nor would I, as each is on his or her own journey.

Originally posted by jcutler12888
I know that was a lot of information but does anyone else identify with what I said?

And does any of it have anything to do with this feeling...no, this KNOWLEDGE...that something is coming and will happen that is far bigger than me or you or any of us?

I just...want to know. I want some sort of explanation or at least to be able to have someone identify with what I said or say, "Hey, I've felt the same way, I've been through some of the same stuff and it made me feel this way even more" or whatever someone would say.

I've been living my life to the fullest every day, I'm not waiting for anything to change my life because only God and I can do that. But I know that no matter how much I try to block it out or ignore it, the feeling of waiting and knowing it's coming has been growing stronger every day since I was a child. So what the Hell are we all waiting for? What's coming???

For my take on this, please read my previous post in this thread. I think we got to a time in history where TPTB are getting too much in the way of evolution of the rest of the population, and God or whomever you think is responsible for what happens in our planet has decided that intervention is needed in order to reestablish the right course for humankind.

On a side note, I'm kinda astonished to read so many posts from like minded people in this thread, also the coincidences regarding some of the posters' ages, beliefs and way of thinking is incredible. BTW I'm glad to be one of the dumbest (lowest IQ) people in here for a change

There's another piece of information that I think is very important that I share with everyone who's posted: when we reach the turning point, there's a big chance we're going to be called to assist others during the change. Make sure you keep your eyes open for when the time comes.

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HI smyleegrl

i was reading some of the replies and thought you needed some of these

maryhinge (phil)

reply to post by Deny777


I just read your post and I think you hit the nail right on the head. I think that some of us have come to a point where our time is coming where we'll move on...how, why, when, and to where, I'm not sure. But I feel like its what's meant to be.

reply to post by maryhinge


Smiles only hide the pain. We don't need smiles. We need change. I think that's what we're all waiting for - a revolution, of some type, on some level.

You can't unsee things that you have seen, the same thing goes for you can't unwait things you have started waiting for.

If you as a child saw something, like for example one of your parents naked, that sight will never go away, the details might fade as you are getting older, but you can't unsee it by telling yourself "i didn't see it", it is psychologicaly imprinted in your mind.

If you start waiting for something, for example death, worldpeace, winning the lottery or the perfect boy/girlfreind, you have started the waiting game, and will forever wait for "it" to happen.

That creates the illusion of you waiting on something you don't know what is, even though you know exatcly what it is.

You are creating thousend of waiting thoughts through your life, they will allways stay in your subconscious mind, and your conscious mind can't deny that.

Nothing mysterious in it at all IMO.

reply to post by smyleegrl

That is exactly the way I would describe it. It's has though I'm the last one.

Such a thought provoking thread. I admit, it’s been on my mind since last night and have thought about it in depth. As I said early-early in the thread, I am 47 and I have had this "expecting" feeling for as long as I can remember.

I don’t want to bring the painful reality of current events into the overall conversation, but this is what I have been thinking about.

I think most of us know, there is something profoundly wrong with our world and the larger part of people. We are constantly absorbed with “stuff”…material wealth, possessions, physical beauty, sex…etc..etc…etc. Consumerism and materialism IS the religion of the world. Nearly all the word…even the poorest of the poor have been conditioned to believe that the accumulation of “stuff” is the key to happiness and success. That “things” are our purpose in life. “Stuff brings you happiness and without “stuff” you are a miserable person.

The want of wealth has been a driver of civilization for just about as long as there has been civilization… but it began it’s crescendo in the last century…coming out of the Depression. That was when we were systematically programmed to “buy stuff”…we have influenced the whole world and in reality…created this world, this reality based on that idea.

Fast forward to today. We have a society of thieves, liars and charlatans…all trying to get a little bit more than the next guy…THIS IS NOT WHAT LIFE IS SUPPOSED TO BE ABOUT! Or is it?

I think we are all aware that this is an unsustainable and an unfair system. There is no equality in this system…it is a predatory system that brings out and fosters our animal instincts, not our humanity.

Because of this, I think those of us that are “expecting something” have known all along that this system…these farms of human labor and flesh…cannot continue…they will eventually come to a destructive end.

So what is my point? I think we have all always known that this system could not go on forever. It was unsustainable and to some extent…evil in it’s nature. We have always known it WILL collapse on itself and what we are waiting on is that collapse because it is seemingly more imminent than ever before in our recent history. It WILL fall apart.

I think Governments, leaders and economists all around the world know this and they are doing everything they can (even if it’s wrong) to try and prop the system up and hold it together. They will only delay the inevitable…it is coming.

Maybe those of us that are in “anticipation” of some obscure event are the ones that will actually suffer the least. Maybe it will be up to us to pick the world up, dust it off and set it on the right path…maybe this is what we have all been waiting on.

Just the ramblings of an old man that spent last night and this morning reflecting on this thread and the thoughts of those participating.

Sorry for the long “wall of text”…




I hope it’s not too long ...that people will read it. I would love to hear others opinion on my “hunch”…

Originally posted by Philippines
In this thread: A lot of people waiting for "something" to change their lives.

I will probably catch a lot of crap for this, and maybe it has been brought up already, but I didn't want to read through 10 pages of people explaining their waiting situation.

Why are you waiting for outside influences to dictate a change in your life? That is EXACTLY why the "system" people are complaining about exists.

If you don't like your life, change it. Get out of your comfort zone, try something new. Travel the world.

Waiting gets boring, and in the meantime you get distracted from truly enjoying this life.

... I used to feel the same sentiments as many of you, years ago

There have been some awesome posts in this thread, including yours. Yes, others have said this too. I think however, there is a basic misunderstanding of what "the waiting" is.

The waiting talked about by most in this thread, isn't the kind of waiting you're referring to. It's an intuition, a knowing deep inside of you, an expectancy of an event that will affect all humans at a profound level.

I for one, have made many drastic changes in my life. I'm one of those people who takes the bull by the horns, and wrestles with him. Sometimes to my benefit, sometimes to my detriment. The point is, you're advice is good for those "playing" a whole different waiting game.

Yup, 32 here and I've felt the same way since I was really really young.
Lately, I've just been watching the world from a curious observer perspective. So many things are messed up that it would drive you nuts if you spent too long thinking over it.

You know what's fun?

Being a single dad who is trying to date when you're this kind of person.

You get to meet so many people who are entirely absorbed in today's crazy world, and when you try to talk to them about this sort of stuff, they look at you like you're the one that's weird.


fun times.

Originally posted by smyleegrl
This waiting feeling, its not as if life is passing me by so much as it is a sense of anticipation. There have been some very insightful comments about living life instead of waiting for life to happen.....very wise words, and to some extent, I'm sure that's been a part of what I've been doing.

But this feeling is different. I do live life, I do enjoy things in the "here and now," I am present in the moment, if that makes sense. But there's always this feeling in the back of my mind of waiting.

I guess a good analogy would be this: Imagine you've spent weeks preparing for a test of some sort. You are ready for that test (or at least you think you are) and now you're waiting for it to begin. It's a feeling of anticipation, curiosity, apprehension...but mostly, its a "Hurry up and lets get things going!" feeling.

smylee

I wanted to tag you again as this is "EXACTLY!" what I feel! I am at a very good point in my career, my family life has it's ups and downs but right now it's stable, financially I am secure. Am I in the job of my dreams? No but it really is not that sort of feeling. I have always seen something I want and I work toward it. It is not that feeling...


No this "Feeling" is bigger then my current status and my being in the now! I have felt this like many have said since 7 or so. I have been not only soul searching but also preparing for this mental (not as much as I need to physically LOL). I also do not feel I am a catalyst more that I am to witness it.


anticipation, curiosity, apprehension...completely describe this! No this is like a big party, a big event, or when you are planning a trip! It is about a real change that I know I will see in my lifetime.

NOT JUST IN ME...but within Humanity and I have known this all along. This is not just a personal destiny but something that will shape everyone on the entire planet. I know it and I feel it.

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Hi smyleegrl,

Yes I also have this feeling. I'm 25 and I still haven't finished my post secondary education. Had a job at an aircraft training/simulation centre that I thought I liked but something drove me to sabotage my position there. I feel as if I am waiting for something to change, as if I have some purpose that I am not yet aware of consciously yet somehow I can feel it deep down without knowing what the purpose is.

I am an atheist (yes I suppose some/most will call me amoral, but I have tried to adopt Christianity in the past but I just couldn't make such a leap of faith) so it is a confusing feeling. I would almost think it would be the same feeling a religious person would feel when they know "God has a plan for" them.

I go through my days just trying to waste the time for some future date, being pretty apathetic, unmotivated as if although this is my life and I should be trying my hardest to push forward it all seems unimportant. I've struggled with depression/anxiety for most of my life and perhaps that has something to do with these feelings. I'm not sure, in fact I am not sure of anything really - am I really here? Answer unknown - I can't prove I am, I can't prove I'm not..

I feel as if I am stuck in a bad dream - one that's just one big waiting game, waiting to wake up, waiting to get somewhere, waiting for something? I don't know but it's really awful.

I also have a "mystery illness" that has gone undetected throughout numerous medical tests and procedures. Swollen right tonsilar gland in the neck, recurring low-grade fevers almost every night (99 - 100.4 degrees F), irritability, brain fog, general unwell feeling, thoughts of dread, headache in the back of my head, sometimes I even catch a "phantom" whiff of ammonia, nobody can smell it but me.

I am getting so frustrated with everything my life is, and it is tearing me down, one little piece at a time. Don't know who I am, who I am supposed to be, where I should be, nothing. I question almost every night when the illness hits if it is worth living through. I wouldn't purposefully harm myself but I sometimes have terrible thoughts, thoughts such as "if I were driving and this large truck careened into my path and I died, would that be so terrible?"..

Maybe this is my punishment for being an atheist.. My hell on earth. That's sure what it feels like

Originally posted by XL5
Heh maybe only the smart high IQ people who have been hurt and who have had time alone to think have these feelings. I have an IQ of 132 and ALOT of time alone mixed with enough pain to make me question...why.

I hope it IS soon and that it gets people to dream of a better way and then do it.

What a load of tosh.

I'm 38 years old, have a higher IQ than you, have lost multiple of my nearest and dearest to cancer, (including a partner) so have had plenty of time alone, and 'still' don't feel like I'm waiting for something.

Just saying..