Hello..my name is ..and I am addicted to reading banned books...

hello momy im new to and you think you are a scatter brain wait to you see me -what was i sayin there where am i

Greetings Oldschoolmom.
I was hoping you would list the books? Or give us a download?
I have had a head injury. I got shot a little…
Hope to hear more about your science stuff?

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Hi dainoyfb,

Things you say give me the impression that you are a very intellectual and aware person. It's good to see.

Thanks. I am sorry if I mislead you, I have intellectual disabilities. I have been pretty limited since the injury I mentioned. I acquired my awareness from being a diligent mother I suppose.

I live to a degree in the past, my memory is there. I had to go to my bedroom so I could tell you the name of the book I have been reading currently, "Twelve Tests of Character" By, Fosdick. (1950). Embarrassing for sure, you will just have to decide if I am worth getting to know, I suspect it takes a degree of patience.

What are some of your favorite banned books or taboo readings?

The most common banned (figurative) books I am also currently reading are:

"The Deliberate dumbing down of America" By, Charlotte Thomson Iserbyt
"Emerging Viruses AIDS & Eboli -Nature, Accident or Intentional?" By, Dr.L. Horowitz
(I already read this when it came out but recently, something came up in the news that compells me to read it again).
It would be safe to assume, I read most of the controversial material in relation to the subjects I find interest in...I do not believe for a minute anyone has any business deciding what we can or cannot read or learn.

Lake Erie recently had a rash of dead fish pop up, something that has been happening for awhile around the world. I see that as important to figure out understand why. I am pretty sure government knows why, but they aren't sharing.
I suspect there may have been a lot of chemical garbage dumped in there, perhaps storage containers finally corroding and releasing contents. It is something I hope to get time to look into.
We have people smoking synthetic weed sprayed with pesticide and doing crazy stuff, then the government decides we need to spray towns with the stuff for West Nile virus...I like to see if I can identify patterns that make sense.

I studied a lot of german history between 1930-1950, I see that as a great psychological experiment (including biological) that has been studied, tweaked and utilized in many of the methods being used today.

I'm in Canada and there is some mystery iniitiative that has made it very difficult to get books of certain topics across the border. Sometimes people get inquiring visits from federal agencies when they order such books.

heh yes, they choose a particular type of personality for that job ha.... they don't have a sense of humor at least not when they have their "game face" on. Nothing scarier for the feds when the population has more time on their hands to pay attention (my opinion of course)

Rifle restoration, personal defense tactics, lock picking and other prepper related books of this nature are listed as indefinatly unavailable at Chapters. I've inquired many times but nobody can tell me why they will not order these books for customers despite bieng listed in their online catalog. Paladin Press books are famous for this issue.

I remember Paladin Press. I had to go to the website because it has been years since I looked at what they offer. I suppose they are having difficulty in keeping those type books stocked right now. (Ya know I can't help but getting a visual of the super over weight American couple buying a self -defense handbook ha!). This might sound silly but, I think the biggest battle going on is in the mind and the manipulation of it. I know it is the heart that needs the most preparation when it comes to those matters. For those who are interested in battle, I might suggest "The art of war" (Sun Tzu).

Yes, I see prepping is very popular today. If I had a say so in education curriculum, basic survival skills would be one of the classes; not to induce fear but for practical purposes.

I read your survival experience, very cool...literally ha. Great story. Although, looking at the pictures you included gave me the chills lol. We used to take the kids primitive camping every year like an educational vacation (ha, well we tried to pass it off as vacation) for 5 days. We never once tried to do it in winter; my fault because after I get a snowman built in the yard I am done with winter...brrrr. Thanks to your story, I learned a couple new things, thanks

You mentioned not being able to get some of the books you are interested in. Have you considered retrieving them from the net and storing them on a flashdrive? To my understanding their are all kinds of military training manuals online.
Thanks for the warm welcome,
It is nice meeting you to Dainoyfb. I look forward to getting to know you and hear more about your experiences.
Peace.

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Thank you JohnnyAnonymous, The links you provided here will make it easy for me to refer back to.

Hi Watcher777,
Thanks, I scanned over some of your threads, just the titles so far, I have some obligations to complete before I can delve into a topic I don't really know anything about. I believe we have other life in other dimensions and out in the universe but, that's my sort of where I leave off.
Thanks for the warm welcome, Nice to meet you.

We are Rigel4...... We don't bring cookies or warm milk for we do not need such puny food. We only devour Flesh on our way to a higher plain. Enjoy the ride on this depraved train wreck.

Hi Rigel4,
So I take it you work for the I.R.S.? just kidding ''
Have you seen any new films on the latest military toys? There is your goldmine for alien ships. Thanks for the warm welcome, much appreciated.

Americanist

Thanks for sharing Jill Taylor with me. I seen her video just a few years ago in a psychology class. I became aware of N.A.M.I. when I was doing a paper which caused me to study the hippocampus and P.T.S.D. (I was writing about the effects of war on military personnel). Wonderful testimony of hope. I am of the opinion that a choice of one or the other isn't the answer but a balance of the two.
Thanks for sharing it with me, nothing more enjoyable than a passionate and positive experienced shared.


Howdy billdadobbie,

Ya know baby...those squares may stunt your growth. Hi hi..Loving your avatar. Thanks for the welcome.

"From Dawn to Decadence" by Jacques Barzun

Jacques Barzun has an old fashioned starting point to his view of the world. He is old enough to remember the First World War from a childs perspective and he was distressed by the knowledge of death it imparted. His family sent him to college in America and he remained here to teach cultural history at Columbia.

He said, paraphrasing, Decadence is a historical term for a society in which a malaise has dulled the quality of life and society begins to loose its fabric and cultural developement. Technology the we need to survive is taken for granted. The institutions that were designed to keep us free have lost their orientation. Normal people view evrything as same old same old, like hollywood remakes everything is a rehash.

The last peiod of decadence was just before America and the western hemisphere were discovered. The discovery of the Americas rejuvinated western culture and led to the industrial revolution and the modern world. Without the new dawn the west might have become like every other civilization and collapsed into a cycle of civilization without progress, like Rome, Egypt, Sumeria, India or China.

Jacques Barzun wrote "The blow that hurled the modern world on its course of self-destruction was the Great War of 1914-1918". That is a big sign of decadence.


"Target: Patton: The Plot to Assassinate General George S. Patton" by Robert K. Wilcox

Patton was injured (attempted assasination) on his last day in Europe before returning home. The witnesses testimonies don't match and the records were lost, never entered into the files.

The OSS was extrememly accomidating to the soviet intelligence services, as in, we had soviet spies in the FDR cabinet. The soviets were directly or indirectly responsible for Patton's death. The book argues that our black ops did it, but the russians were in the U.S. chain of command at the highest levels and gave the order.



Free Text of "The Story of Philosophy" by Will Durant

archive.org...

Will Durant was appearantly a collectivist/communist/socialist but this book is very good. He discusses, critiques, and contrasts the history of thought in an unbiased way, usually giving the point of view of the individual who is thinking for himself. I guess when this was written in 1926 the life of the mind was separate from the economic doings of a normal day.

In the introduction he compares Science as analysis to Philosophy as synthesis. Philosophy is what you do everytime you make a decision and every one should know that. Philosophy is not strict, rigid dogma but a way to incorporate the experiences of your life into successful, helpful or at least best for you choices. This a good book to read a bit of from time to time when nothing else satisifies. "The Story of Philosophy" was written for the general public and was a best seller since 1926.

BTW At first glance I thought you had an assault rifle or a homemade grenade launcher on your shoulder.
Have you ever heard of Stella Angelova?

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He said, paraphrasing, Decadence is a historical term for a society in which a malaise has dulled the quality of life and society begins to loose its fabric and cultural developement. Technology the we need to survive is taken for granted. The institutions that were designed to keep us free have lost their orientation. Normal people view evrything as same old same old, like hollywood remakes everything is a rehash.

Yep... there is nothing I can even say that hasn't already been said a thousand times. Our founders understood the law of nature....

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Believe me when I say...there are lots of things that have neither been said or thought of before. You have stated that you feel that you have a disability. Perhaps...as I have witnessed may times...when one system of a Human Being is limited due to trauma...other systems become extremely sensitive and acute.

I have the problem of not remembering where I put my keys or sunglasses. I am also a notoriously BAD SPELLER! I was told that the reason for this is that my Brain has issues with any form of construct of concept or system that is not based on Logic...thus I before E except after C....sometimes!

You may have damaged a part of your self but a single person is actually 3 independent personalities. The Brain has a Left and Right Hemisphere which are unto themselves...2 identities. The Left side is the analytical side and the Right side is the creative side. Your THIRD personality lies within your Subconscious which is always active and records EVERYTHING that your senses have ever detected as well as EVERYTHING you have ever thought of. It is like a computer and it never forgets but it is so much more. It decides which side of you brain will be allowed to receive the greater portion of data about any event, subject or problem that presents itself. The Subconscious will release a small amount of data to both sides of your brain...both sides are connected and they will FIGHT FOR CONTROL over a subject. The Subconscious will determine which side is more capable with dealing with the information and provide the winning side with more information.

I caught a Virus that gave me Vertigo and since I am NEVER SICK and this was shortly after New England Patriot Teddy Bruschi had a STROKE...I went to the Emergency Room. They ran a CT Scan...the female doctor said...We need to run the CT scan again...which had me worried. She came back an Hour Latter and said...I was OK and there was a Virus going around that was giving people Vertigo. I said...why did you run the scan twice? She said...I thought that the scan might have been faulty as you have very thick and dense Neural Connections...PLURAL...between your Left and Right Brain Hemispheres...I have never sen anything like it.

Now I play in a Signed Rock Band, I can draw, sculpt, design, paint, create anything with ease....I also have an IQ of 174 which is 12 points higher than Einstein. On this board as well as in any chance I get to talk to a Professor in Physics...I discuss Quantum Mechanics, Quantum Particle/Waveform exchange between Alternate Divergent Universal Realities and I help run several Family owned Large Companies of which I am looked at to make decisions as well as a THIRD JOB that was offered to me in my Jr. Year of High School by a Man who I consider Family called..."UNCLE".

Back when I was in High School we had to take SAT's, IQ. Social, Placement and Psych Tests that Recruiters who were stationed in our Schools Guidance Dept. received as they were trying to shore up the ranks as this was right at the end of NAM. My Psych and Social Tests showed I had a certain...MORAL FLEXIBILITY that the recruiters look for as well as my off the chart scores on the other tests. My Friend had suffered a Brain Trauma and was BRILLIANT...but this trauma had left him a little slow and the Teachers as well as Colleges and Military Recruiters never looked at him or made him an offer...but I knew just how brilliant he was as 20 years ago a drug came out that SPED HIM UP. He now makes 6 figures and works for Electric Boat as an Engineer.

My point is that he learned because of him at one time disability...how to speed up his thought so he would figure out the answer quickly to give his body and in particular...his Slow Speech....time to answer as he calculated the answer before others but he had a hard time saying the answer in a normal passage of time manner. Speeding up his ability to think...was a necessity for him to compete and once he started taking the Drug...he was able to truly have his Body...work almost as quick as his mind.

So...I think you might find that your Brain and Body will find a way to reroute in a way to allow you to compensate for your issues. My issues...unfortunately...are governed by my Subconscious which I can sometimes directly access. Sometimes...it will not allow me to do so. As a Musician...I have committed to memory Billions of Bits of Data as if you know anything about Music Theory...and we play a complex Fusion style of Rock...sort of if you crossed ZEP with TOOL and YES with some RUSH in their for good measure. I have committed to memory Business Law, High Level of Training Info. used in my THIRD JOB...I can field strip many weapons in the dark if so needed and in this job...I am the OLD MAN by my TEAM's Standards but I am there to be a PROBLEM SOLVER. Split Infinity

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Believe me when I say...there are lots of things that have neither been said or thought of before. You have stated that you feel that you have a disability. Perhaps...as I have witnessed may times...when one system of a Human Being is limited due to trauma...other systems become extremely sensitive and acute.

Howdy SplitInfinity,

I was just tired when I said that...I have my own philosophy as I should have, based on the knowledge and opinions of others, I formed my own by considering what was said and comparing and applying as needed to my own experiences....and you will too. I understand what you are saying, and thank you.

You know the older person's brain doesn't jump back like like right? It is the young brain full of wonder and hope, their genetic program is more likely to permit for new growth and the rewiring, rerouting and repair of the neurons. I have that beautiful picture in my head then I hear of a baby getting a hep b loaded with toxins shot into the newborn baby....
I am listening to "justify to God" right now as I respond to you, once you mentioned that you are in a band, I knew I could get a better idea of who I am talking to by hearing your music. Thanks for not regurgitating crap to me, like they do in the schools, I appreciate it very much

I have the problem of not remembering where I put my keys or sunglasses. I am also a notoriously BAD SPELLER! I was told that the reason for this is that my Brain has issues with any form of construct of concept or system that is not based on Logic...thus I before E except after C....sometimes!

We all have our own styles of learning that when tapped into will bring out the brilliance in most people. I can visually imagine the neurons in a young mind expanding and creating all sorts of connections so beautifully that the process is pure art itself. I had two sons, one strong in music. My goal was to build up their weak areas by using their strengths. Without straying too much, a typical day would be to come home and find my children trying to reverse the training I had instilled in our family dog, basically experimenting with known methods used in behavior modification, they were about 10 and 12 yrs old at the time...ha. So when teachers today say kids don't want to learn I just want to strangle them, because they do and it is fun (I couldn't resist adding that tidbit, I am an old-school mom).

You may have damaged a part of your self but a single person is actually 3 independent personalities. The Brain has a Left and Right Hemisphere which are unto themselves...2 identities. The Left side is the analytical side and the Right side is the creative side. Your THIRD personality lies within your Subconscious which is always active and records EVERYTHING that your senses have ever detected as well as EVERYTHING you have ever thought of. It is like a computer and it never forgets but it is so much more. It decides which side of you brain will be allowed to receive the greater portion of data about any event, subject or problem that presents itself. The Subconscious will release a small amount of data to both sides of your brain...both sides are connected and they will FIGHT FOR CONTROL over a subject. The Subconscious will determine which side is more capable with dealing with the information and provide the winning side with more information.

Violence damaged me...ha.. So my subconscious notices changes in my environment better now. I was always pretty intuitive but now my brain will force me towards a more analytic analysis rather than an emotional one (I always second guess the way I describe things now as a result of the injury, it is frustrating).

Yes though, I agree with everything you said only I could not have explained it as good as you have...The subconscious is in the driver's seat even though we may not be aware of it.

I said...why did you run the scan twice? She said...I thought that the scan might have been faulty as you have very thick and dense Neural Connections...PLURAL...between your Left and Right Brain Hemispheres...I have never sen anything like it.

My immediate response was to laugh, her observation and surprise made me think of the dumb men jokes I recently posted... like it was unusual for her to witness evidence that she may be in the presence of a smart man

I will need to cont. this reply to you sweety, I am out of space

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This is an except from a book (not a college text) that I talk about below...

Experiments have been shown that the human retina can detect a single photon at a time and that the nose reacts to as little as one molecule of scent. These minute perceptions flow constantly into our brains, but they are squelched before they ever reach consciousness. That explains why in certain rare cases, brain injuries will trigger extraordinary leaps in sensory ability.

I fell in love with a book called, "The Einstein Facter", By, Win Wenger,Ph.D., and Richard Poe
I had to give copies to every interested teenager that walked in my door (some would come to my house after school to do their homework so they could get help that they weren't able to get). It is outdated by now I suspect but, it is an easy read and I always look for these kinds of books because I like simplicity. Why use complicated words that turn kids off before they realize how cool it is to have a computer built right into their body? I like to suck them in first, make them so interested they won't mind looking up a word or two when they delve deeper (back then, I had my own library, a whole room, three walls high of everything I ever read).

Cheap too, I think I paid about 7 bucks a copy. I mention this book because back in the 90's I used the exercise that it teaches and had success.

It does work, you can take a complex problem that you just can't figure out (that missing bit of data to pull it all together) and force the question into your dream. Eh, It is hard for me to explain... but, you can learn to access that data that seems unaccessible in your conscious state. It is all in the book.

The only problem with being able to continue to work on a higher level like that is our environment imo. I personally had too many things in my daily life that caused me to put the exercises on the back burner and bam..."use it or lose it" came into play. This is the case with many people, our daily lives are cluttered with problems that distract us from our potential, including jobs that do nothing to exercise the brain.

Back when I was in High School we had to take SAT's, IQ. Social, Placement and Psych Tests that Recruiters who were stationed in our Schools Guidance Dept. received as they were trying to shore up the ranks as this was right at the end of NAM. My Psych and Social Tests showed I had a certain...MORAL FLEXIBILITY that the recruiters look for as well as my off the chart scores on the other tests.

Yes, I understand that the moment you enter school, data has been collected about you and added throughout your childhood and will continue to be updated as you go through life. Based on this data, they are able to understand what attitudes, style of learning etc... you have and then they know how best to Identify those with the most potential and use their talents in the areas needed in their business. They can also take that data and use it to modify anything in you they think might not be productive. Pretty cool in that respect. I am not surprised that moral flexibility is important to those who control our current system. It is a controversial subject that I would love to see you start a thread on.

I have found through experience that moral flexibility is wonderful until life experiences teach you different....and for that reason it has much value but sometimes certain moral values are handed down and strictly adhered to because of particular experiences, and based on those experiences there is a desire to protect future generations from potential danger. The mind is a wonderful thing and has been manipulated throughout history (that's why history is important, so as to understand that there are lessons already learned).

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Cont.

My Friend had suffered a Brain Trauma and was BRILLIANT...but this trauma had left him a little slow and the Teachers as well as Colleges and Military Recruiters never looked at him or made him an offer...but I knew just how brilliant he was as 20 years ago a drug came out that SPED HIM UP. He now makes 6 figures and works for Electric Boat as an Engineer. My point is that he learned because of him at one time disability...how to speed up his thought so he would figure out the answer quickly to give his body and in particular...his Slow Speech....time to answer as he calculated the answer before others but he had a hard time saying the answer in a normal passage of time manner. Speeding up his ability to think...was a necessity for him to compete and once he started taking the Drug...he was able to truly have his Body...work almost as quick as his mind.

That is wonderful. I understand that through stem cell research it might be possible to be able to repair damage that our own brain cannot do as an adult. But, I have read very little about it. I think I am not so far behind in my studying to suspect that although there was great success and improvement with your friends circumstance, it is not a norm. I do know there has been great progress in drugs but, I am not a person who could agree that the ends justify the means in regards to the costs when it comes to human life. I could go into all sorts of examples to prove why I come to my conclusion but, my mind will be shutting down soon, It is at it's best only in the early morning ''.

I have read a few years back, about some extraordinary effects some experimental drugs have had on people. One being a experiment involving altering DNA through drugs....a particular one that comes to mind is a woman who after taking the experimental drug for one condition, had adopted an ability to sense emotions through scent. It is amazing she says she can smell fear, etc... Even though I also find it VERY cool and can imagine all sorts of possibilities through this research, I can't help but wonder how much is being done without effective controls...we are mixing plant,animal and human DNA ya know.... If I remember correctly, the result this woman had was random, interesting but how many "monster people" might be created in the process? I can't help but consider the people whose lives may be destroyed so another's life can be enhanced.
I understand the weight of this question because as I mentioned in the OP, I experimented a lot and well "didn't think things through" .... in fact, that is almost a signature trait given to me by my kids as they would laugh at some of the results they witnessed.

So...I think you might find that your Brain and Body will find a way to reroute in a way to allow you to compensate for your issues. My issues...unfortunately...are governed by my Subconscious which I can sometimes directly access. Sometimes...it will not allow me to do so. As a Musician...I have committed to memory Billions of Bits of Data as if you know anything about Music Theory...and we play a complex Fusion style of Rock...sort of if you crossed ZEP with TOOL and YES with some RUSH in their for good measure. I have committed to memory Business Law, High Level of Training Info. used in my THIRD JOB...I can field strip many weapons in the dark if so needed and in this job...I am the OLD MAN by my TEAM's Standards but I am there to be a PROBLEM SOLVER. Split Infinity

I don't see that as a defect. The dense pathways indicate to me that you would be a bit more sensitive to any change, so I see that you would probably have an acute "awareness" that should be enhanced further based on the directions you allow yourself to be trained to focus on. I don't know how anyone could see that as a disadvantage but, maybe I am not considering something.

Just as you mix your interests with your level of abilities I have, and most do as long as they find an outlet that allows for those abilities to flourish. I extended my knowledge and talents to my children, like parents should do. I utilized my knowledge of how they learned naturally and showed them what they must strive for themselves to enhance in their own abilities while they were young and while their brain has a seemingly infinite ability before it has completed its growth. There is a curve in the brain that after the peak.....it's all down hill from there (it's true..science is working on changing that but, we are not there yet)...so all I see as a parent is sort of a figurative "passing the torch" kinda thing. I must say, I am proud of the results.

Thank you for sharing your experience with me. I would be interested to see you start a thread on Moral fexibility and the pros and cons (if you can see any) in it. Cheers

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Now that I have a bit more knowledge about you...if you don't mind me asking...what Violent act was it that damaged you?

I am not young...nor am I old. But I have enough experiences to fill several lifetimes. The aspect of myself that is not something that can be FIXED...can be a Great Strength as well as a curse. I am aware that there are SEVERAL of ME. This has to do with the Neural Connections between my brains Left and Right hemispheres.

I was recruited to be trained to perform a very specific Job. This Job is one of Three I have but I am training a replacement as I am too old to keep doing it...still...it is this Moral Flexibility that allowed me to obtain it and I am VERY GOOD AT IT. It takes a great deal of mental concentration to perform it and my ability to sometimes have direct access to my Subconscious seems to occur when it is most needed.

Still...I would very much like to know what happened to you. Split Infinity

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Howdy SplitInfinity,

Now that I have a bit more knowledge about you...if you don't mind me asking...what Violent act was it that damaged you?

The back far low right quadrant of my head (where the cerebellum is located) was slammed on a support beam hard enough to knock me almost out, I remember being conscious but not being able to move for a couple minutes, shock perhaps. It caused swelling in that location to last a few months. My forehead was also pounded into a cement floor enough times to make the mark it caused stay visible 3 years. I was also choked out. So, the first few months I couldn't really talk either, I sounded like a frog.

I am not young...nor am I old. But I have enough experiences to fill several lifetimes. The aspect of myself that is not something that can be FIXED...can be a Great Strength as well as a curse. I am aware that there are SEVERAL of ME. This has to do with the Neural Connections between my brains Left and Right hemispheres.

Are you referring to disassociations when you say "several of me"? This is interesting and would like to hear more on this from you. The only knowledge I have from this is how disasociations are created or caused through the mkultra type projects and what is taught in abnormal psychology class.

I was recruited to be trained to perform a very specific Job. This Job is one of Three I have but I am training a replacement as I am too old to keep doing it...still...it is this Moral Flexibility that allowed me to obtain it and I am VERY GOOD AT IT. It takes a great deal of mental concentration to perform it and my ability to sometimes have direct access to my Subconscious seems to occur when it is most needed.

You got to know I am interested in this .... I am drawn to understanding how the mind can be ..how can I properly describe it?...tweaked to a precision? The experiments have been both extremely interesting and bone chilling depending how one looks at it.

I understand how moral flexibility opens up an endless amount of options and experiences heh...I would say that "may" have been part of the beating I got ....to teach me to be a little more flexible than I was with a decision I made.

Still...I would very much like to know what happened to you. Split Infinity

I hope I answered your question and I hope you will share with me more about yourself, I am curious of course.

Welcome to ATS OldSchoolMom !

Your introduction is intriguing
remind me of Johnny Depp in the Ninth Gate

the trick to "misfiring" is to do so in such a way that you reorganize at a higher level

you know there are quarter million mazeratti's that will break and just be done with...

then there are those awesomely old hondas that break and just get funkier, but keep on keepin' on

so i guess what i'm trying to say is be good to yourself, and pop some more of those brain cells

maybe then you will have the space to collapse right in sync


take it sleazy!

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lol... I had to go watch the movie, and I remember it now, yes..it was an awesome movie. I am about 30 minutes in right now... thanks...btw... I did make a lot of money off my collection, I can't recall how much all together but, I remember it helped buffer the pain.

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I was afraid you were going to tell me what appears to be Physical Abuse and if there is anything you should know about me is that will neither condone, allow or allow for excuses for physical abuse ESPECIALLY man on woman abuse although all abuse is bad.

I am an Alpha Male of the Highest Order. Some people tend to associate an Alpha Male with a Bully...that is not an Alpha Male. In the Human World...a TRUE ALPHA MALE is a Man who has Leadership Thrust upon them by their own conscience. He is a Man who is driven to protect people even from themselves and not only is he Physically Capable of enforcing civility...He rarely has to as the proper words can have greater effect than any punch. He also LOVES WOMEN and although has but a handful of True Friends...has a BOND between these friends and himself that only people who have experience certain things can explain. He has no concept of Jealousy...Has a way of carrying himself that unto itself will not allow for Physical Challenges....and does not have the ability to ever really get Drunk or Wasted...thus He is ALWAYS in control of his decision making. He Learns from his mistakes and even though he must possess an ENORMOUS EGO...does not allow that ego to integrate with PRIDE.

It is when Pride and Ego combine that problems start. Example...I help run several family Companies but I have two other Jobs so I am not there all the time...but since these companies are not public...I am the person who will eventually Own Them. I come in and observe and do not interfere unless I see a problem. I take the Exec. aside and talk to Him or Her. I listen to their reasoning...then I decide if I still believe there is a problem. I have extensive experience in the Business world and if I get involved...there is an issue. If I were to listen to the Execs reasoning...find it sound and STILL force change because of Pride and Ego...the Company suffers. I only make decisions based on LOGIC and Trends. Because of the way I handle this...I am able to gain Great Respect from people who work for the family. Thus...because they know there is an actual REASON I am pulling them aside...they tend to Help Figure Out what problems may arise and it is catchy to the point...People Realize it is OK to make a Mistake as long as you admit the mistake and Fix it...as well as if there is no mistake...I will not Pretend there is just to look as if I did not make a mistake.

Saying that...I am sorry for your Trauma and if I had been there it would not have happened to you. I am a Man of Peace that is capable of Extreme Acts of Violence...but never random violent acts...I am well Trained and if there are a few things that I would use the word HATE to describe...what happened to you would be one of them...the others are DECEIT....and something that I myself have experienced...a person of Authority...such as a Teacher or Other...believing that THEY KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR ANOTHER...OR THEY ARE THE AUTHORITY ON WHAT THE MEANING OF SOMETHING IS WHEN THEY WERE NOT THERE OR INVOLVED.

I am the first one here to admit I have a HUGE EGO...I am also not modest...but I will admit when proven wrong. I will give credit where and when credit is due...and I will attempt to be Polite even to those who are not...but I also will not allow a person to make statements where there is no logic or proof without challenging them. There will be times I will make statements that I cannot provide proof but I will provide a Line of Logic. And depending on what subject we discuss...you may notice that there are 3 of me. Unlike most people I am not one Hemisphere Dominant. So in a single topic...my Left Hemisphere will answer questions that are Analytical Based and my Right Hemisphere will answer questions that are Creative Based but sometimes the two MELD...and that is when I usually am capable of being able to access my Subconscious. It is only small access and Long and in depth access only occurs during...THIRD JOB ISSUES.

I was born this way and as I have said I am not Modest as I am in Top Physical Shape as well as a Stage Performer....I have a CD Release Party happening in OCT. of this year and a few Board Members who know me to an extent are invited. I am Very Wealthy but I EARNED EVERY PENNY! I also...most likely of the way by Brain Neural Connectivity has been set up...am a World Class Musician, Singer, Painter, Sculptor, Designer as well as dabble in Quantum Mechanics and Multiversal Theory dependent upon Quantum Particle Existence Transfer due to Alternate Divergent Universal Realities development based on PROBABILITY AND CAUSE AND EFFECT that governs choice as well as Random Actions based on Chaos Theory. I have a 174 IQ which is 12 points higher than Einstein's but like I said...I can't SPELL or remember where my keys or Sunglasses are. SI

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You basically just told everyone that you're a narcissist, and your word shouldn't be trusted in the least.

Thanks.

I'll be sure to note that when reading your posts from now on.

Welcome to the looney bin.

Originally posted by moniesisfun
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You basically just told everyone that you're a narcissist, and your word shouldn't be trusted in the least.

Thanks.

I'll be sure to note that when reading your posts from now on.

Narcissist? CLOSE! But not so. I do have this MASSIVE EGO...but it is there for a purpose. I play in a signed, international touring Band. I am a Musician as well as the Frontman. Having a Large Ego is a Prerequisite...and unless you have been on stage in front of over 100,000 people at a Large Rock Festival....you could not begin to understand.
I also have a Ownership Position and a completely different persona that I must become as I help run several Family Owned Companies. I also run several charities and UNLIKE MOST CHARITIES...100% of the Donations goes to the people in need or the project that is being done. i will not allow Lawyers and Consultants to EAT over 60% of the Money as is what happens on just about EVERY CHARITY you have EVER HEARD ABOUT!

Then I have my THIRD JOB. This job works with my First Job and I will soon be retired from it. This job perhaps most of all...requires my EGO to be working at 100% since the jobs nature entails that I become a PROBLEM SOLVER. In this aspect...since I have a Team that depends upon me...I can not SECOND GUESS MYSELF. i must get it right the first time. The one time I did not...I was shot in the Chest multiple times at close range. I was LAX...and am alive because of a High Tech. Vest. Luckily...none of my team paid for my mistake.

So...no...I am not one to spend Hours looking at myself in the Mirror...even though...again...Good Looks...BAND...something that is needed. Am I sure of myself...YES...I HAVE TO BE! There is nothing more dangerous to my team than to have me doubting my abilities. I have to be the one that another looks into my eyes and I his...and just by that...convey I am not Screwing Around! I have to be the ONE and only ONE that is not doubted. These states of mind have spilled into my personal life...but then again...there are THREE of ME!
Split Infinity

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I was afraid you were going to tell me what appears to be Physical Abuse and if there is anything you should know about me is that will neither condone, allow or allow for excuses for physical abuse ESPECIALLY man on woman abuse although all abuse is bad.

I was pretty sure I answered your question as completely as possible. Are you saying that you have no moral flexibility in this one area?

I am an Alpha Male of the Highest Order.

If I had a nickle every time I heard this.......

Now that you have made this claim, I am interested in you more because even though I have never considered myself an alpha female, others have told me I am just that and i personally think that I am not as "strong" as others claim. I was lead to conclude I was just surrounded by cowards at the time.
I am interested in where or how you came to the conclusion as to what an alpha male truly is. Is this a conclusion you have come by experience, through studying history, or some other means?

a TRUE ALPHA MALE is a Man who has Leadership Thrust upon them by their own conscience.

I would argue that leadership would be "thrust upon" someone not by one's own conscience but by those who see you as the best person who possess the qualities most productive for a team's advancement and survival.

He Learns from his mistakes and even though he must possess an ENORMOUS EGO...does not allow that ego to integrate with PRIDE.

The ego is typically based on the facts of a person's achievements and qualities. Genuine ability is normally based on pride. The arrogant person confuses these things. Pride leads to confidence instead of the arrogance.

It is when Pride and Ego combine that problems start. Example...I help run several family Companies but I have two other Jobs so I am not there all the time...but since these companies are not public...I am the person who will eventually Own Them.

And your point is?

I come in and observe and do not interfere unless I see a problem. I take the Exec. aside and talk to Him or Her. I listen to their reasoning...then I decide if I still believe there is a problem. I have extensive experience in the Business world and if I get involved...there is an issue. If I were to listen to the Execs reasoning...find it sound and STILL force change because of Pride and Ego...the Company suffers. I only make decisions based on LOGIC and Trends.

That sounds "kosher".

Because of the way I handle this...I am able to gain Great Respect from people who work for the family. Thus...because they know there is an actual REASON I am pulling them aside...they tend to Help Figure Out what problems may arise and it is catchy to the point...People Realize it is OK to make a Mistake as long as you admit the mistake and Fix it...as well as if there is no mistake...I will not Pretend there is just to look as if I did not make a mistake.

I agree. Lets not try to fix what is not broken.

Saying that...I am sorry for your Trauma and if I had been there it would not have happened to you. I am a Man of Peace that is capable of Extreme Acts of Violence...but never random violent acts...I am well Trained and if there are a few things that I would use the word HATE to describe...what happened to you would be one of them...the others are DECEIT....and something that I myself have experienced...a person of Authority...such as a Teacher or Other...believing that THEY KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR ANOTHER...OR THEY ARE THE AUTHORITY ON WHAT THE MEANING OF SOMETHING IS WHEN THEY WERE NOT THERE OR INVOLVED.

Thank you, had you have been there, it would not have happened because these types of oppression are not done in front of witnesses because we all know wrong from right and it was not an act that constitutes acceptable behavior. Many acts are carried out in secret because society knows it is wrong and would condemn it.

I would not use the word hate but, I would describe it as someone as having the moral flexibility to purposely find and use violence as an acceptable tool to gain power over others for their own interests. I do not see any circumstance that violence is acceptable other than to defend life from immediate danger...of course that is my own perspective.


I am out of space, and dinner is ready (my alpha male just cooked it)...I will cont. in the morning, good night