posted on May, 6 2012 @ 09:40 PM
Ok, I'm going to for my first coherent post here guys! Explan as to why they haven't been thus far. Oooook. Since I was a kid I always baded god,
talk to me come on. I was also a loner since childhood, only child home alone a lot (I had a lovely home and in fact have never struggled financially
tho I despise the world, money) so, since that same age I've wanted two things, romance and to save the world by gettinig to the bottom of religion.
I've spent more time than I care to recall reading on zee internet, lol a chica at verizon was actually shocked a few months back at my data usage.
Ok, so two things both my weaknesses a third, guy would like to hear but no. Ok, so I overate my whole life until very recently its like I outgrew it
(just moved to texas, joined la fitness great gym- so that's been nice and second weakness, men. But strangely enough, I've always dated really
cool I guess u could say popular but just sexy dudes, but none of them can handle me. I can't get loved lol. Whyyy do I bitch? I'm not, I'm
trying to splain st lucy! So as I said, I've always studied religion not the bible though if seen many quotes from it and grew up goin to a beau
catholic church in oma, but I've been tormented for 20 years because I see an uncaring world and felt the need to find out if spec, jesus is real.
So a few things recently that are updates. I met a woman at my job, I go door to door ...she was a scorp like me, had been thru some personal hard
times but was very loving, tho this creeped me out. She did not bring it up but since we made instant friends iand she used to be in millitary I
asked, aliens?! She got a smirk on her face and one that reminded me of one I would get when having to tell someone some of the incredilous (sp?
Soory) things I know ie 911, barack in bed w george soros, bushs cray, my dads own turmult past w warren buffett and etc so I believed her when she
said it, I tried to pry more out and a got a bit, tho she laughed at my prying bc she said she couldn't talk. But she liked me, so she added they
could be all around be careful trusting bobby fountaine get to him in sec, and went on about their skin when I asked why they can't look like us. She
was like they don't really consider it skin. Now, given that I've heard some of grishams novels and the concept of manchurian candidadates are
real, why couldn't the mib series be? Moving on, I have three men in my life right now, but now like that. One my apt manager who has a crush on me
but who I intermit talk to on text, which is nice to just commu w someone really. Bobby fountaine who I found on here actly, and that dude has some #
on the government. Finally, my boyfriend, who is completely emo checked out of us right now bc he's outa a job and is used to making like 250000 so
his (leo, I'm a scorp) pride is killin him right now. I know I help but as w the whole rest of my life, I'm not gettn the satisfaction I need. To
be loved wholly and also have a wholly honest happy world. Sso here's my relatn w bobby, he says that civilizatn began over 100000 yrs ago, and that
a few yrs back they found a serpent w a cave in it, where the priests went behind the whole and talked thru the snake. Now, I believe wholeheartedly
in astrology, its just been money for me my whole life. And his input along with the website I also, just found of pateo.nl, let's just say we ll
need to change our paradigm of both the past and our current understandings w the info there (ifu go there download the free intros to their books on
the sun big bang and there's one more, and then watch the videos on either wholly science or myths can't remember, but one of them explains the past
and just leaves u with, aliens had to alter our dna evolutions is laughable but didn't go into specifics which drove me nuts . So, whew, either there
are aliens which I'm really not leaning toward, or the universe is truly a masq unyielding power (like I've always been attracted to) and the fem
planet or me, just takes it up the #ing ass until its over. My third theory is that bobby and I can change the world, I w my name being mary
magdalene or mary darlene, him w bobby or robert meaning like light of the world on etymology.com. and as the story of christ goes, he saved the
world by dying bc of our sins and you suspect maybe he was w mary magdalene and she was supposed to go and tell, but it wasn't the main focus , love
I fear, never has been as I have yet to see or have a relationship I respect. So, can this cheerleader save the world, guys I dunno I just don't
anymore I'm truly losing hope. For ex, that video was crazy bc the interviews gave it more cred, but do ppl see it like that? # no, cynics. And
then there's the jpan reactor, #. From what I've read we can't really even fix it, am I correct phage or someone? And then there's how oddly
I've used my relationships, used numbers and symbols to come to my conclusions, but never outside input, its always