posted on Dec, 18 2011 @ 02:18 PM
reply to post by Oxygenation
Thank you. I so needed your immensely comforting message today.The misery and loss of the past two years of my life (lost my dad, lost my brother,
lost my dog, lost my health, my job, and my financial security and am probably going to lose my house in a couple of months -- not really having a
"Christmas" this year.) is really catching up with me and I have never felt so desolate in my life. I am thousands of miles away from my friends and
family and am missing their warmth and love so deeply (my husband may, or may not, truthfully love me as he is basically emotionally unavailable.).
My dad, especially, was always so good at making sure I felt loved, and when I lost him, I lost that constant reassurance that I was a person who is
worthy of being loved. I'm sorry to be such a downer. Actually, I'm known for always being cheerful and smiling.
I hate to complain because it's
weak, and because I know there are people in this world who have it much, much worse than I do, but sometimes my sorrow and anguish just wells up and
spills over, like now, and I can't hold onto the pretense that everything is okay. I apologize for the public display of emotion. I know it's kind of
pathetic and pitiful.
I don't know you, and you don't know me, but somehow, strangely, your genuine message of love has made me feel a little bit less hopeless and desolate
today. I'm going to put a copy of your post on my fridge so I can read it on days like this and hopefully, like today, feel loved again. Thank you,
Oxygenation.....just...thank you. I love you too!
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