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Originally posted by Deetermined
Originally posted by Staafke
I don't even bother anymore. I broke with my father 8 ye. Nobody understands that except for one special person, I think I'll call her tomorrow We have less contact since I moved away further and I do miss her.
Sounds like a great reason and a good time to reconnect!
Many blessings to you!
Originally posted by Staafke
reply to post by abeverage
Thank you so much, that reply really moved me
Funny thing is I played some violent games when I was young. I never dreamed of it except one time, when I was top of the world playing Unreal Tournament in hardcore instagib mode (instagib means one shot, one kill, those were skills back in the day kids! lol) I had a lucid dream of me jumping around like a monkey as I would in the game, launching beams at everyone in a deathmatch game. Loool so funny I suddenly remember this
But since a long time ago I refuse to occupy myself with anything violent. I play the occasional race/strategy/rpg/manager game, so nothing cruel. I refuse to watch "action movies" and I don't look at clips on the internet where they show for example the dead Ghadaffi or the Chinese kid that got run over and abandoned by everyone passing it... So there's no recent violent imagery to be processed by my brain at night...
I wish you peace also
My opinion is that as long as you're releasing some of that anger in your dreams, it will help you to cope in real life. However, you may want to find someone you can talk to keep these from bottling up and eventually exploding in real life.
Originally posted by abeverage
Originally posted by Staafke
reply to post by abeverage
Thank you so much, that reply really moved me
Funny thing is I played some violent games when I was young. I never dreamed of it except one time, when I was top of the world playing Unreal Tournament in hardcore instagib mode (instagib means one shot, one kill, those were skills back in the day kids! lol)
But since a long time ago I refuse to occupy myself with anything violent.I refuse to watch "action movies" and I don't look at clips on the internet where they show for example the dead Ghadaffi or the Chinese kid that got run over and abandoned by everyone passing it... So there's no recent violent imagery to be processed by my brain at night...
I wish you peace also
Had a brief episode where I went to a therapist because I was having violent thoughts (things like oh a knife is sharp and really can kill) silly things like that…but it really frightened me. This was around when I had some big changes in my life and a little trauma and thinking back I had dreams like that myself. I had (yes had as I think the stress triggered it and you can be cured) a mild form of OCD and learned that intrusive thoughts doesn't mean I am crazy, bad dreams doesn't mean I am bad. I learned to deal with them and honestly don't have them any more.
You mentioned you are depressed this also feeds it if that makes sense. You are depressed you have bad dreams from bad dreams you get more depressed because you had bad dreams. See the cycle?