posted on Jul, 13 2011 @ 02:18 PM
I can't do anything about your health issues, but maybe I can help you to better understand what is happening to you.
When you were a fetus, as the time came for you to be expelled from the womb the contractions grew in strength and severity. You have no memory of
this, but if you did, you'd remember being unsettled (at the very least) about what was happening to your perfect little world - nice and warm, and
dark, and that wonderful rhythmic pattern of your mom's heartbeat that had always been right there, like an anchor in your life. If you could've
chosen, you'd probably have avoided all that unpleasantness, and things would've stayed the same forever. And why not? Who knows what lies ahead
after an enormous change. Especially one that introduces itself in such a negative manner. All indications were that leaving that womb would be the
worst possible thing that could happen, but the truth is that it was the beginning of what you wish to hold onto right now.
When I was in the military, they used to say that the best base you'll ever be assigned to is the one you just left. I don't know if that's always
true, but it's true enough to become a cliche in that community.
You're getting birth contractions again, and the only difference is that you're aware of them this time. And yes, they're scary as hell. We all can
assume that we know what to expect - the slipping from one realm to the next, and what to expect when we accomplish that transition - but when it does
present itself as a certainty, no one's completely sure or completely comfortable with what lies just ahead. If they say that they are, then the
percentages suggest that they're either putting on a stoic front or working to convince themselves of their own certainty. The truth is that
regardless of how sure you are intellectually that you have the journey mapped out, viscerally, your brain is terrified of the impending oblivion. But
the good news is that you aren't your brain. You will transition, even while your corporeal structure is left behind to begin its own version of
transition.
The human being doesn't even become fully developed until the body is cast aside. The final birth can be quick and painless, or the labor can be
challenging, but once it's completed, the human being emerges fresh and strong, and fully capable of taking on the whole of realty as the epitome
expression of dynamic existence that it is. You've got wonderful changes coming, and looking forward to them is a great way to step off into full
viability once the birthing process has completed.
I hope your birth is less trying than you suggest that it wants to be, but keep your focus on the brilliant future that lies just beyond it. Think of
it like walking through a tunnel, where the end of the tunnel is always in sight. Suddenly, the stuff on the walls, floor and ceiling of the tunnel
lose their significance, and only the opening at the end has any power to affect you. Good luck in your adventure.