Help needed explaining somthing about me.

reply to post by thefamiliar

The biscuits are out of the oven and ready To Be ate.

What do you want it to be if it has to be one thing that is causing this ??.

reply to post by TheFlagHunter


As I said, there are no biscuits.

If there are bsicuits and there ready then this is nothing to do with me? Although I am aware of the phrase " Take it out this ones cooked" then yes we have established that there is more than enough reason to belive I am what in conventionally understood to be "insane".

As in "sane" one who thinks like others do and conforms to preconcieved ideologies.
As in "Insane" not you? rama rama rama?

reply to post by linkshot1000


Linkshot, please rephrase that as I think it has lost something in litleral translation?

reply to post by thefamiliar


Link hunter, I mean no ill from my response but please understand that there are many out there who simply look for a response in asking questions. I am quite happy to shoot the noodle with you and can quite happily bounce back and forth in the world of happy banter and inane chit chat. To Me if no-one else this is a very real and very serious thing and although I understand your skeptisim and(quite legitimate)Light hearted approach then could we continue this in a different thread? I am genuinley more than happy to do so In a thread of your choosing and will quite happily trounce you in any conflict you may choose to engage in. To paraphrase(proberbly quite badly)" I now call on the Leader of the Opposition to test me on my Latin vocab)

sorry, that should have been flaghunter.

i read three times his/her post and could not find a damn question

what am trying to say is that hes just hoaxing of boredom i guess - maybe that explains, but am no better evolved entity- still trying to answer heck damn question and typing rubbish here


but damn, i do like those unbalancing marketing techniques, they actually work .

p.s. i should copy-paste

reply to post by angelx666


So You do not understand what I was saying and therefore came to the conclusion that I was making this up to gain attention? Not only does that not make sense it also worries me that you would take the time to post this?

Would you not be better off making an informed contribution to a different conversation?

Now we are beginning to see another side of you. I think link..... was seeking to learn what you hope this is. You've asked for help identifying it, but not told us really where you stand; so I didn't think his question was not so unreasonable. This is interesting.....

I can relate to your comments about good and bad. Circumstance and context play a role in deciding whether something is good or bad. So do "the times". Marriage to child brides was a good and probably practical thing once upon a time. Today it is a crime in a lot of places. Same act -- different rating then and now.

What I see is a person who sees and logically understands these things; these realities. A lot of people don't go any further than what the law says now. They don't even concern themselves with what the purpose of a law might have been, and whether or not that purpose still has any relevance to today. They don't question.

You, on the otherhand, have an unencumbered mind that is free to grapple with the whole thing -- the good, the bad and the ugly. That puts you at odds with probably most people around whose defense mechanisms won't allow them to go beyond what is nice, cute and friendly.

I don't think you are crazy. However, sometimes blinders and defense mechanisms serve a purpose. Without them you get exposed to all kinds of things that might be painful or scary.

Personally, I mostly have a very positive sense of what existence is all about insomuch as everything/experience has a purpose and will ultimately lead to a good conclusion. Sometimes that feeling is strong. Sometimes it is weak and I get freaked out too, but only for a moment thankfully. I hope you are able to reach a less scary place with this thing you are dealing with.

Thefamiliar, I wish you'd go into a little more detail concerning your experiences. At what age did these experiences start? Have you tried hypnosis?

Have you researched ancient Egypt or the pyramid of Giza? Sekhmet was known as a 'mighty' one.
www.ancientegyptonline.co.uk...

reply to post by Onboard2


Thanks for info, I will have a look when I have the proper time.
Yes I have tried Hypnotherapy and hypnosis. I actually trained to be a hypnotherapist about 6 or 7 years ago but never quailfied, firstly because I became dissolusioned by the business side of things. I feel that in the right circumstances hypnosis is very benifical but the cost is too prohibitive for most people to benifit. I am firmly against the quick fix methods often employed by practitioners and favour a more curative long term approach where the discovery of the true symptoms are followed by gradual adaptation to the situation. Unfortunatley this takes too much time for it to be affordable to both paitient and practitioner in the majority of cases.And secondly because It got very scary.

I have not gone into detail too much. As we have previously disscussed here there are more than enough people on the internet telling there story and I wanted if possible to avoid being put in the "typical egomaniac dissalusioned crackpot" Pile. This Is why I asked for questions to be asked, therefore I only respond to questions and elaborate on that which is percieved to be relavant to a particualr person who may have insight into a certain idea.

I got quite involved in hypnosis for some time as I saw it as a voyage of discovery. I mentioned before that meditation became impossible for my and self hypnosis went the the same way, I personally belive they are the same thing but different people with different beliefs need different routes to the same destination.

I began regressing myself not because Because I belive I have lived before so much but I was very interested in genetic memory. I never had any revalations or became a 17th century farm hand called Thomas! As I regressed further and further I began to act more and more feral, At first in regression but then more and more in my normal waking life. The last time I used hypnosis was a very unsettling time as I regressed to what I belive was a time before we were fully sentient. I still have very vivid memorys of "bieng" something that predates us in the way we are now, basically a wild animal with very strong instictive feelings. It scared me quite a lot as it was quite similar to the sense I had in my hallucinations. I cant be sure but this may have triggered a new period of these. It is hard to tell as I have always been suffering from this and unable to realise it is happening or In a period where it is subdued and in complete denial . It is only now that I have had the strength to admit and explore this when I im in something approximating a rational state of mind.

reply to post by wayno


Yes I can see that now I've looked again. I was tired after a very long day at work and flaghunters biscuit business was distracting me!

I really dont mind what it is if you can belive that. There are a number of possibilitys as discussed but what If I make the wrond decision?

If its a chemical imbalance or an illness and I dont take the correct course of action then I will waste my life worrying about something that does not need to be there.

If it is something spiritual and I allow mainstream medicene to subdue it then that is also a waste of a fantastic and beautifull oppertunity.

If its something sinister and I disbelive this as it is regarded as nonsense then I am ignoring thousands of years of history.

What was impossible yesterday will be commonplace tommorow. we are evolving all the time and 90 percent of our brains are unused and misunderstood. Maybe im using 10.2 percent and we dont understand it?

We live in a far more open world than ever before, more and more people claim to feel similar, now i dont know weather that statement is true or weather technology makes it possible for us to see further than the next village or that until recently you'd be headed straight for Bedlam if you didn't keep quiet?

Originally posted by thefamiliar
Not sure how to start this so maybe a little disclaimer.

I am going to ask for some help explaining something that has/is happening to me.
This is not an ego trip or a wind up or a story that I am making up to gain attention.

I am asking here for a perfectly valid reason.
After reading on here for a good few months I believe that this site has both highly intelligent members and a very diverse range of beliefs.

I am not asking for one person to tell me a definitive answer but for as many of you as possible to ask me questions so that I may gain insight and understand it better. Imagine a gestalt therapist if you will!

The reason I am asking is that so many people have had so many opinions of what is occuring I genuinly do not know who to believe but wish to move forwards in my life. I promise to answer any(if any!) questions truthfully as I am doing this for myself and there is no point to the exercise if I am not honest.

Many thanks

So, why do you hate your mother?

reply to post by NorEaster


I dont I wish to sleep with her, Its my Father that really gets me angry.

Originally posted by thefamiliar
reply to post by mydarkpassenger

 

sorry, again I am not trying to be ambiguous

There is quite simply somthing other than me inside my head.
At times(like now) I am a rational intelligent "normal" person.

at other times this is not the case.

I am trying to find out if this is as simple as bieng ill and requiring treatment or something more. I am open to any and all suggestions but can we take it as read that "crazy" is assumed the most likely reason and look at the alternatives?

Am I possesed by an entity, am I channeling? hell I dont know are aliens manipulating me on behalf of the nwo and the egyptian gods that created the pyramids??????

As I said people on here belive all kinds of bizzare stuff from aliens to god knows what? before I have myself pumped full of chemicals to stop it happening I want more opinions on what the alternatives are.

Get an MRI done. Period. What you describe could be a serious mental condition. If you're in your late teens or early 20s, it could be onset schizophrenia, and you're this close to your first full blown psychotic event the one that changes eveything forever for you. If not, then you need to see if there is any structural abnormalities (like lesions or a tumor) that could be affecting your frontal lobe. Blackouts and feelings of being "invaded" are common in situations involving tumors and structural problems.

If you're being honest, then you need to get to a doctor and fast. The fact that you know that these delusions are potentially delusionary suggests that schizophrenia is not the issue, but that leaves an actual brain problem (tumor, lesions, or whatever) as a very real potential. I haven't read the rest of tis thread, but to this point, this is what's screaming out at me as I read.

reply to post by NorEaster


Thanks for the concern and I'm glad we stopped the Freudian stuff, I was worried you were gonna hit me for a big fee.

I stated somewhere back there that although a lot of you are right that I should get proper medical advice that I have had scans in the past although for head injurys and nothing was noticed. I have also been diagnosed 3 or 4 times over the years with different results and medications. looking back my diagnosis proberbly ties in with medical fashions at the time.

reply to post by thefamiliar


Ha! I love that concept of "medical fashions of the time". You are so right about that. The latest thing is all the rage until they find out its all wrong.

I used to get 99 "pertentile" scores on my psychology exams in univ. -- which basically means that I did better than 99% of the rest of the 2000 or so students who took that same exam. Later in life I discovered that 99% of that stuff was wrong -- and to think of the times I used to argue with my mother when actually she knew better with just common sense.

The problem with most professionals today, and I think you know this already, is that they are too disposed to telling you what is wrong with you, (according to their field) and not what is good and working well. People here keep telling you to go get tested by this or that professional, but you have obviously been down that road many times.

I fully support your wish to figure this thing out with your own brain, with input from others. You must always stay in control of your own life to the extent possible. Good for you.

If I could say anything, it would be to not worry about whether you are right or wrong, so long as you know you are making the effort to get to the truth and are managing, which it seems like you are. Of course I do not know the scary details, and it may be easier said than done.

Myself I know that in the winter I get down and dreary really easy. Fortunately all it takes is a little St. John's Wort tea and I'm smiling again. Since that is a natural substance I don't hesitate to use it.

If you keep at it with the right outlook, which you seem to have IMHO, I am sure you will come to the right conclusion regarding your situation. As a final note, it might be best to focus on the "living a good life" part than on finding the right diagnosis, which isn't necessarily the same thing. Getting to know this demon of yours is a voyage of discovery. Enjoy any aspects of the trip that you can.

Hope I don't sound too ridiculous in saying that.

reply to post by wayno


Nothing ridiculous there.

Regarding getting down in the winter months is it really that suprising?
Its cold its dark, your bones ache, everything is a little bit harder?
I firmly believe that a lot of people who suffer with mental disorders(and there are a lot of them) Do so because we as a society ignore seasonality. We do the same job 52 weeks a year regardless of our surroundings.
We never used to do this, we would work according to the enviroment so in the summertime when days were good and the weathers warm we would prepeare for the winter, when it came we would semi hibernate, keeping indoors and acting accordingly.
Now an office worker will work 9-5 indoors regardless of what time the sun comes up or goes down, or weather its hot or cold inside or out. I think this combined with crippling monotony leads to what many people call depression, Its just not natural.

I have noticed an improvement in my general well bieng ever since I decided to live and work according to the seasons so In the summer I'm up early working outdoors in the fresh air and sunlight. when it comes to winter then I'm inside in the warmth doing a less physical job and recouperating. It's a shame that i'm looked down apon for not having a career and seen as someone who lacks commitment!

Ignore people who do not have your insight into things. I'm slowly learning to do that. Just because they don't understand doesn't mean they are right and you wrong.

In fact you are right. The natural way of things in nature is for there to be "rhythms". Stress and rest are opposites but go together. Too much of either is not good, but you do definitely need some of both. Its a balance. I think there are alot of people who would agree with you.
I personally hated the drudgery of routine when I was still working. I am retired now, and in the summer find it easy to balance exercise and creativity with rest. In the winter it is much harder to stay active.
Maybe I shouldn't try so hard, but then again, I'm not good with doing nothing indoors.
When not gardening I can veg. outdoors all day and just sit, or take a walk to nowhere in particular, but sitting around indoors is boring. I've always got to be doing something, like this for example. Probably still have not settled down from the rat race conditioning.

That's a positive ID on the biscuits. I'll commence the plan as suggested by your legend.