posted on Nov, 4 2010 @ 01:02 PM
I discovered my 'private parts' and sexual pleasure at age three - THREE! Not because someone touched me or because I had seen a naked magazine -
no, I simply was exploring my body, felt some sexual urges, and figured out how to masturbate! It is not unusual for very young children to be aware
of sexual feelings. Not all have this experience, but I did, so I know it exists.
That being said, after I discovered sexual feelings, I had no idea why no one ever talked about them with me - or even mentioned them at all. So, as
a child, I turned to my closest pre-school aged friends and asked them if they ever "touched their privates" - none proved to be as lucid as I was
regarding the subject, and most had no idea what I was talking about- BUT some did. The ones who did, like me, also discovered this interesting and
secret urge; and like me, their parents, supervisors, etc. never talked about it with them.
As a child, I obviously had no capacity to understand what was 'right' and 'wrong' to talk about and do. So, after finding out how AWESOME
masturbating felt, I started to do it all the time. I didn't understand not to do it in front of other people, so eventually my parents realized
they had a problem on their hands. I love them and all, but I think the way they handled this was not very healthy. Even after realizing I had
'discovered myself' - they STILL did not address 'sex' and 'sexual feelings' with me- all they did was act like they saw a horror show and
exclaimed "Never do that! Ever!!" Naturally, this only confused me more and got me more interested in finding out what this 'bad secret' that
felt 'SO good' was all about.
I learned quick not to talk to my parents or adults about sex. My best girlfriend at age 7 admitted to me that she too had felt 'sexual feelings'
and that she also learned it is not good to talk about them. So at one of our sleepovers (I still remember the conversation), we both agreed that
'touching' felt good and we had no idea why it was so bad. Naturally, we began to touch each other. As gross as this probably sounds to most of
you, I can assure you the feelings we, as innocent children, had felt at that time were that what we were doing was very NATURAL. It was exciting and
new and harmless, in our opinion. So we began to do this all of the time, and one time her mom walked in when we were naked under the covers. Again,
she did not address what was going on- all she did was say to us "Get dressed!" And that was that.
Obviously, our parents thought we were too young or immature to be talked to about sex and its repercussions. When in fact, I was a very intelligent,
ahead-of-my time, little girl - I had already discovered the feelings, so there was no going back - what I desperately needed was EDUCATION. But, our
societal taboos thwarted my need for sexual education - that I knew I was ready for. So, I decided to teach myself, which COULD HAVE turned out to be
a disaster.
The only reason I'm chiming in here is because I know that as a child, I had sexual feelings and I would totally have had sex with a male - at age 5
even - if I had the chance. Although I did not know what 'sex' or male private parts were, I'm sure it is very easy to figure that out when you are
'exploring'. Therefore, children do have feelings, thoughts, urges - and they do make decisions. They are sneaky too - you can watch them 99.9% of
the time, but the second you turn your eye, you better believe they are exploring what you don't want them to (just describing myself here).
As for the woman who was raped - I'm very sorry to hear that. But, I just want to point out that just because you didn't think about sex before
this happened to you at age 10, it does not mean that other children did not develop thoughts/feelings/urges before you did. Also, there is a big
difference between an adult raping a child, and two consenting, exploring, children.
I'm not saying it's right for children to be having sex at age 10, but that is my opinion, which has been created based on me growing up in this
society. What I am saying is that it is perfectly plausible for two very young minors to 'consent' to having sex - they are only following
instinctual urges. And these urges could happen in the one minute that a parent turns his back (I was supervised all of the time, but I still found
time to explore - like when I, or my friend and I, were supposed to be 'sleeping'). Just saying- don't blame the parents, this could happen to
anyone. The ONLY solution I see to this problem, is the only solution I longed for as a confused child - education. Even early on, children need to
understand sex. Some children, like me, are simply not as stupid as adults assume. Although I am a healthy individual now, I can see where I
could've turned out to have very unhealthy 'bad' feelings about sex and how 'wrong' it is. Or - I could've been taken advantage of. Either
way, I think we need to truthfully educate children about sex so that they can become healthy individuals (and this can be done in a simple,
non-dirty, matter-of-fact way - without all of the uptight emotions adults attach to the subject - kids really do understand when you talk to them in
simple terms!). Even if YOU think it is too early to 'ruin their innocence', NATURE disagrees. It is better to be prepared than 'shocked' when
exactly what you have been avoiding happens.