I know this is off topic, but I would really like some advice:
When I was five years old, my family and I went to the beach, where it was rumoured that children fell down a hole in the tidal pool, and drowned. My
cousin and I wanted to see if we could find the hole (a pretty bad idea for 5 year old girls, I know) and we waded through the water, towards the deep
end of the pool. My cousin and I were holding hands, and then I suddenly felt my foot slip into the hole, and I lost my balance. I sunk into the deep,
dark hole and my cousin let go of my hand. I could swim, but I couldn't get out of the hole. I was terrified, and started crying, but then I realised
that I could feel the tears run down my face. I couldn't feel the water. I could breathe. I then saw a light move towards me, and when thinking about
that light I imagine that it had a face, but I can't honestly say that it did. After seeing the light, I felt the strength in my legs to stand up, so
I just stood up. But instead of being in the hole, I was in the shallow end of the pool, with strangers staring at me as though I was a ghost, and my
family sitting in the distance enjoying their picnic, without even realising that I was gone. My cousin was sitting right next to my mother, and till
this day I refuse to speak to her for letting go of my hand and then returning to the family and continuing as though nothing had happened.. Anyway,
after that day I started getting terrible nightmares that lasted until it became a reality.
I had many dreams that came true and have even met most of the people who have appeared in my dreams, but these dreams have a negative effect on my
body. For example, if I dream I am walking barefoot and I step in glass, I will wake up with a cut on my foot. I have woken up with scratches, cuts,
bruises and even hand prints around my neck. And one night my sister decided to sleep next to me in bed, because she was convinced that I was injuring
myself in a bid to gain attention, but then I woke up next to her with sand and leaves covering my feet, scratches on my legs and bruises on my
shoulders. My sister told me that I slept like a log and had not moved whole night (she has insomnia so she was able to watch me whole night), but
what scared me was that the leaves and sand came from a place called "perdekloof" that is a twenty minute drive away from my house, and that was the
place I had been to in my dream. I thought I might be astral projecting, but I haven't heard of anyone being able to carry objects with them, such as
the leaves and sand. After that night my sister wouldn't sleep at my parent's house (she is older than me and had been living on her own at that time)
and out of fear, I decided to sleep in my brother's room most nights.
Shortly after that, it was my birthday and it was storming. I remember looking out of the window and just wishing that the rain would stop because I
wanted to enjoy my birthday, and then the rain stopped. Biggest storm in South Africa, and then suddenly nothing. It stopped raining for days, even
though we were in the middle of winter and the weatherman predicted stormy weather for weeks. That was when I realised that I could manipulate the
weather, but it frustrates me because it doesn't happen immediately. Like, I would have to wait for nearly 3 minutes before it starts to rain when I
want it to.
I also learnt that when I wish for something to happen, it happens within 24 hours. This seemed great in the beginning, but we dont always want what
we wish for. This I unfortunately learnt the hard way, when I wished that something bad would happen to my mother and it did. I didn't mean for it to
happen, and I was only 14 at the time, but she grounded me and I said I wished something bad would happen to her and it did. I didn't want to wish for
anything ever again. I vowed never to even use the word "wish" again.
Then I started getting dreams where people I know would attack me. I think I had those dreams three times before I learnt that when someone attacks me
in my dreams they die in real life, within 24 hours. When I realised that I was able to determine when people are going to die, I became depressed.
Really depressed. I even tried to kill myself. Because knowing that someone is going to die does not help if there is nothing you could do. (Side
note: a few months ago I dreamt that my pregnant cousin was about to stab me, but then my boyfriend woke me up before my dream could continue. My fear
was that my cousin or her unborn baby would die, but she is still alive. The strange part is that her baby is now nearly two months overdue, and even
though she is convinced that the baby is fine, I am waiting to see what happens.)
I first realised what my dream meant in 2011, which caused my first phase of depression. And then in 2014 I realised that other things in my dreams
were coming true too. Like, EVERYTHING!
It wouldn't always happen immediately, but it happens within a month. Like with my boyfriend for example, I dreamt about him and our apartment for
three months before we met and bought our apartment together (yes, we moved in together almost immediately after meeting each other and things have
been AMAZING).
I have also learnt how to wish properly, and even though I have only made four wishes since the incident with my mother, all of it came true with
extreme accuracy.
I know that I have supernatural abilities, but I feel as though its locked down somehow. Like, even though I can manipulate the weather, see the
future in my dreams, and make wishes come true, I can feel a physical block that doesn't allow me to use my abilities to its full capacity. I have
tried meditation, but that only taught me that my ex was cheating on me, and my ADHD doesn't allow me to concentrate long enough for meditation to
become effective.
Sometimes when I want to stretch my abilities (like make things happen faster) I start to feel as though the space I am in is not big enough to
accommodate my abilities, like there's something huge inside of me that wants to break free.
Is there any way to strengthen supernatural abilities?
I would also like to add that last week I was looking for some guy (let's call him Sam) to discuss a legal matter, and then even though I found his
contact details on his website, he wasn't answering his phone nor was he available when I spoke to his receptionist. This morning I thought that I
should probably give up on the matter, but then I got a call from a recruiter asking me to go to an interview at Sam's company. Im not looking for a
job, but I'm on my way to the interview as I am typing this.
edit on 15-8-2017 by Mieko because: Adding details