All my conspiracies led to this

Heard on the radio yesterday Maynard James Keenan the lead singer of Tool and A Perfect Circle is comi9ng out with a new cd Pussifer (like Lucifer?). They were talking about how they didnt think these cds were used commercially so they didnt have to pay or wouldnt think of it and how people are upset that music in the past got ruined. Maybe they could pay someone to throw away their entire life , cause problems for the people that matter family not plastic garbage red carpet and work the fields earn money for them come up with ideas. Happened to get castrated , oh the beast you been a bad beast , got castrated cause of you , F... you pay me . Not dead yet right Em, F... you.

Just listening to music Tatu these russian young lesbians the song "perfect enemy " ... why would I welcome your domination ..I will forever be your perfect enemy.. and System of a Down Soldier Side .. where there is no one else but me. I come here because I have rights and I will not allow my freedom of speech to be less credible cause I got pushed into the mental illness field , do whatever I dont care. And speaking about eminem I had reason to believe Shauny was eminem under a different alias, signed on in 2004 with my real name different spelling, Edinsburgh is a nice touch garden of Eden. For those that dont believe what I had to do or my lifes quest I know I sound a little floaty at times my parents read through some of my earlier posts yesterday and whatever if I get brought up on charges cause I am not allowed to talk or not allowed outside I will still know the truth, why would I welcome your domination.

Anyone else find this to be deeply disturbing?
This is the type of stuff you see, and then it becomes a news story shortly after...

Sorry for putting this here just trying to have a voice or put stuff permanetly on the internet. I wanna stop playing pretend 4 whore men the bar code thing or a columbiner . I got set up for that did time because my fake freinds set me up possibly insulted by something I wrote. I was told by someone who attacked me when I was 13 almost killed for fun or a joke. OK, 911 didnt happen cause of the antichrists empire or any retarted # , I watch you people when you dont think I am looking . Make someone a reverse prostitute where maybe janes get money and a rock star and youre surprised when someone tries to kill me. Three years with my neighbors being obnoxious saying I have to leave or they dont want me there anymore. I dont care about spoiled little children. This retart Truman show pissed off at the music feel insulted and they ruined my life , 3 years with my neighbors cause these fags cant come up with ideas for their own music. The prophecy was vague, I am a priest but when I trip out god talks to me and I can see 2 millenia in the future and the big problem will be about 4 men on horses. Yeah right . Some people have real problems in their life and these leeches red carpet garbage cant think too hard for their own songs , need to exploit me. I am not a columbiner meglomaniac god damnit maybe shouldve paid me at some point if you didnt want me ruining your music. This girl who used to be a receptionist for my doctor is a member here and she said the money thing was real, big surprise (for sex). Broken down and paralyzed yeah maybe that will be a good idea for a song. Maybe that deserves 8th graders cutting off my penis and fufilling biblical phophecy. Gov. plant or spy or used thats all.

They staged the moon landings and maybe roswell, why we are alone in the universe or why everything is so perfect I dont know anything about god or if we are watched. But 2 or 3 generations after and this guy says was told by god a vision, had hallucinagins and that doesnt happen anymore.
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I already contacted the mods and site said I thought I was banned and deleted, and maybe shouldve been in the past. I said maybe never post again sometimes worked up in a frenzy. I shouldnt talked about certain things and trying to imagine what might have happened I couldnt deal. People play games with speech in hospitals , make up things , dillusions. I used to refuse my meds sometimes , sleep in the fetal position next to a wall cause I didnt want anyone touch ing me since 06 when people joked around about money. You can be pushed into a psychosis, reading some of my old stuff sounded incoherent nonsense. I apologize for my behavior in the past people everywher e I go static in the backround or make fun of me , the cards I was dealt.
Music is something beautiful , the bad memories sometimes resonate the most. Sometimes feel like ostrasized or target of witchunt for national smear campaign or people trying to rip me apart. I was on a mattress on a pillow , there was a dresser next to me and not a lot of realistic possibility. I am sorry for the long slow ride of going by a burning car. I couldnt deal and in the past a victum of physical abuse (13)and it messes you up sometimes carry weapons or try to think what could I do to get out of any situation. I am sorry , for unproper conduct , I was sorta out of my mind. I tried to leave the site in the past and ban myself , but I will not continue the threads.
Shouldnt of sorta kept a collection of online thought s just had years of nerves problems cause of some of this. Just I dont know whats going on ever, maybe like truman or real world reality show that might be underground if even real. Open to interpretation.

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I said in another post Its like a Riot , clean and simple. I wasnt going to post again. In response to the NWO and them over saturating the media maybe they will finally reach primary objective. Cause what am I doing here if not rioting, under P.risoner O.f W.ar.
Nick Carter from the late Krock 92.3 and now 101.9 RXP is KSpigpen and he hasnt been on in months on this site. They are still in my house I thought everything was over in January. When I was left in solitary from 2002-2007 I would spent my time fightin with the TV or being a shock jock. I went on a 2 to 3 month bender with psychedelics and might have been talking crazy, nothing gay happened I dont care about sound effects cause I thought it was funny or F up and I thought I was under video surveilance and its only wire taps. You do realize that is sorta like slavery if musicians want to pretend or everyone make up stuff.
He was listening to a conversation I had in my car months ago and is probably a really nice guy. Listening to Operation Mindcrime and my lifes misery , just one of the ways it couldve went big operation or game of elite or rich. Its my daily life they are ruining, sometimes I really dont care ohh that is such a good idea lets do the same thing a million different ways. I never signed up for this , and tried to display animosity or angst against the system or the masons. You know I was just trying to live my life with out you people Fing it up in many different phases or fronts.

In my house , in my house lucky me. Fifteen guys joking around about having sex with me or by force 2006 and Beeing itches on red carpet wanna pretend they know what it means to be homophobic. So F in tired of this , where did you get your info no pictures , well that makes sense what do you do when really drunk. In my house in my house they have privacy laws and whatever you do protected by constitution . Your allowed to buy a gun if the queen of England comes over says your property is hers. Used to laugh and do retarded # in front of tv cause I thought it was funny with my voice.

People say to me "you think youre cool" or I think "youre cool" by people workong at ... McDonaldes norms. I really dont care , cause of the music nonsense, I am a revolutionary, I wrote a manifesto in high school about society conformity the stereotypes and crossed taboos to commit social suicide. I am a political prisoner cause of mental illness my 3 year retarded baby game with neighbors and an attempted murder cover up and everyone let go and pretend it doesnt happen. Yeah the cops lov e me I am not their friend and they are not mine my mom said yesterday , I called them twice yesterday first time they hung up on me second time they said call back tommorrow cause of heavy rain all day and car accident s , bad day to file a complaint.
My mom doesnt want a paper trail that will F me over cause my hands are tied with neighbors no tangible proof and my credibility is less cause of my mental illness backround for first person accounts. Yeah having cars and girlfriends or boyfriends (from high school) and going to bars is cool and everything else is gay or not cool . I am sick and tied of younger children s supremacy game and I could care less grow up mature already. Everyday everyday cause of what britney says on MTV I gotta give my life. Yeah beast with head injury that makes sense in the year 2000 with cars or playstations. I personally cant even understand it when I read it over and over again 4 languages translated through and 2000 years is a long time , someone said on this site pale horse meant sickly green not white if you want the correct translation.

P.O.W.

Why dont you start from the start?

This does not make sense.

Why dont you start from the start and tell your story?

If you do that maybe some of the members including myself will grasp your hardship?

You might even find that some have more in common with you that you would expect?

Cheers!



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good luck on all future endeavors.

Sorry I didnt think anyone what respond just putting stuff on the internet have a voice. I started 2 years ago with my story of a massive conspiracy, others know about this and have left some info on this site even before I got here. This kid showed me this book about gov. secrets called Behold a Pale Horse a quote from revelations and it talked about wire tapping freemasons and the illuminati. Noticed stange occurances in music on MTV and the radio for 10 years, led me to this day.
I just came on to impulsively say the kid who threw a brick through a window who threathened my life and kept goating me a t night is the one who I yelled "WHO IS GONNA STOP ME" in the street not some girl on the phone. I will not be told where I can go and not by younger generation who caused so many problems for me so my attitude is you can not stop me I will do whatever the F I want.
Sorry just have learned to be extremely observant always can lead to abstract thinking or nonsense. There is this guy on the first page of the member list, location an angel in hell (like lucifer?). If other people know about my lifes misery the service I didnt volunteer for that I vent for here. I am sorry to sound egomanical about pop culture or symbols or anagrams or letters of numbers , just reminded of things bring baggage from my past and if I was involved in an experiment, or interpretation or opinions that might resemble revelations and different points of view. Like Dogma or da vinci code if you think of the reach of the masons through around idea about last sion, some just pop culture some music though saying evil or devilish.
Just angry sometimes when I write and someone has a name operation mindcrime what I was talking about when I first got here, sorry I didnt mean any offense. On the first page there is also the 4 location classified , the 4 what? Sorry I am just stressed out and tired and I cant get out of my situation.

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I do have to ask you.

Why, if you have had experience as I have of evil, are you not coming to the light of life??



If you want to ask anything, I will do my best to answer in this thread or in U2U.

Honestly, your not alone in your troubles and a certain man paid the price so that you might be forgiven as well as free of the world.



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Some of these tactics are deliberately designed to make someone appear as though they're suffering from a mental disorder. This, coupled with the fact that most targets are so emotionally drained & can't properly identify or explain what is happening to them makes them fish in a barrel.

According to the DOJ, mental tactics designed to cause psychological harm must last for months or years before they constitute torture. Organized Vigilante Stalking fits this description. Countries around the world, including the U.S., have used doctors to help abuse people, often for political reasons . It is also a documented fact that there was collaboration between doctors & the military when experiments were carried out in prisons, hospitals, & universities on unwitting people.

The DSM-IV is a diagnostic manual for identifying mental disorders. It is periodically put out by the APA. You don't need to purchase one of these manuals, as it is also available online at the following sites:

www.psychologynet.org... & www.psychnet-uk.com...

They collaborated with mental health specialists & designed a harassment program around key paranoid delusional symptoms outlined in the DSM-IV manual, so that a target will appear ill when explaining this to a mental health professional, & friends/family. It is one of several layers of protection used to help keep groups operating in secrecy.

The people who organize these harassment programs will try to assassinate your character.(7, 200) They will carry a case file on you that they will use for character assassination & to gain community support.

More here on pg 22 >>>>

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I was trying to leave for a long time because I saw all the problems this may have led to on other threads. Being critizied relentlessly and come back to stuck in my house 24/7 for 3 years where daily I am called retart, girl , faggot, dyke , baby and other names. I have been trying to get out any way I can and I have freedom of speech. I am sorry for my behavior at times I have never really been religious and I didnjt appreciate my whole life revolving around other peoples money of "their" holy war. Memory Shock just threathened me in so many words in a U2U. And you know whatever I am tired of dealing with little children who watch MTV , can you please ban me so I cant come back even if I want to it shouldve already have been done.

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Your basing your experience from the wrong end of the pool, specifically the shallow end.

Lots of people are in the deep end.

The reason I can see for you receiving a warning is due to the content of some of your posts. They are worrying in terms of your health and that of other people around you.

I can tell you that this site will not ban you just because you state your thoughts and it offers freedom of expression as well unless it is harmful to others.



[edit on 14-3-2010 by XXXN3O]

wonder if he is now on a government list!!!

this is too weird for me

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I was just going to edit my post if they didnt ban me , I watched the 5 minute video after posting and I know there is a whole world I dont know about. I was just trying to live my life you know how about another song maybe they can show a Blonde WOMAN and that will mean me. Or hospitals touch you when youre asleep maybe no one does anything cops dont work for you only the people the government doesnt own.

Originally posted by P. O. W.
I watched the 5 minute video after posting and I know there is a whole world I dont know about.

You are right...



If you want to do something, do the right thing.

Do not be a wimp from lifes hardships.

Live and live to your fullest!

It does not matter what others do to you, it matters what you do towards them, treat others as you would have them treat you. That is the only way they will learn otherwise.



[edit on 14-3-2010 by XXXN3O]

WOW, you seriously need to call for back up.

And strongly consider checking yourself into psych again.

You have overwhelming issues, theres no other way to address you.

Sorry man, go get help, NOW

Thank you for your kind words I know this whole site had to be patient with me. Life twisted by lunatics a cancer on everything good and sacred. I watched mtv for hours the other day saw lots of possible androgny , that doesnt matter, what matters is this sick * next door ruining my life and bringing me here. Other peoples music maybe subliminals pretty far way to go 3 years for maybe subliminals here there or nowhere. Heard her say the rest of us have to live down here, what princess doesnt understand living a comfortable sheltered life is that I launched a flare nationally ruined music for a bunch of people there was backlash on tv. My life is ruined I never had a girlfreind in my life cause of my career I dont get paid for 4 or 5 people tried to kill me and the cops let them go because they said I was gay when I was 13 a lifetime wasted.
I made myself a leeper didnt have 3 years to play with children ruined job prospects and burned a bar code into my forehead not literally. I dont care what britney says or what linkin poark says thats not life its false idol worship, maybe a dream for children but its not mine. In real life when you turn off the stereo, heard in 20 years what are you going to regret.
My local community might read this and lets pretend 5 or so houses havent been messing with me threatening me and trying to tell me what I can and can not do. # years throughout history there have been revolutions injustices and slave revolts if these * wanna wind up in ICU for being spoiled little brats, arrest me now then I will do whatever I want go anywhere I want.
I am completely innocent in my life being along for the ride sacrifical whatever on a columbine copycat I tried to get out of it and thats my life for 13 years being used in the system. These wanna be s wanna run there mouth off they will have to deal with there pretend imaginary world where there cool come crashing down , when I dont care. Send the FBI to my house I have been waving my hands back and forth forever.