I Am Looking For Something

To end, do you feel that we're all made of the same stuff and the importance of our inner-journeys can connect us finally, or should I just write a poem or something?

No one can truly know how the world will end; not even those who say they have seen the future.

No matter how True it feels to them, they will never know until it happens.

And it haunts them every day.

Originally posted by CleverNameHere
So, let's get this started:

Have you noticed anything strange, lately?

Hello I will take a breath and post my accounts of strangness.

I started noticing things were different many years ago but there are too many differences that I have noticed to fit into a single post so I will try to be specific on the big things and leave out what I deem to be minor.

Last year on the 8th of May I had a UFO encounter with two machines and afterwards I was left with a powerful feeling of euphoria and great hope. My objective self has assumed I felt this because I experienced something amazing in the sky and that it was something I had always wanted to experience ever since I was a child.

Some months ago I had another UFO experience above my home and this time there were witnesses – most importantly my wife watched it too.

Lately I have been experiencing incredible dreams. The annoying thing about these dreams is that I forget them far too quickly for my liking and have started to log them on my laptop. The themes of the dreams are always similar in that I see incredible flying objects in the sky and they are always positive, never worrying, the dreams as so frequent now that I look forward to sleep.

The last dream I remember more than vaguely was seeing a UFO darting left and right in the sky as many people in a tree scattered park looked up at it in awe. One person to my right had dug a hole and was curled up in it praying to god to save her.

I was laughing and watching the UFO and in my dream state mind’s eye I was receiving imagery of some sort that looked like an anchor with a lot of convoluted hieroglyphics encircling it. The imagery was so strong that when I woke up I rushed to get a pen and start scribbling down what the UFO had been apparently sending me in my dream. I failed of course and was only able to draw the anchor. The encircling patterns that surrounded it had become lost.

I have been looking for “something” or “someone” for so long now I do not really know what it is. I do know that I am not fully embedded into society and that I feel like a watcher, waiting for something that will give me the answer to the reasons why I am so strange and disconnected from a society I find to be for want of a better word “alien” and difficult to understand. I read people very well and my wife and I have a weird link in that we seem to know what the other will say before it is said. What she was thinking about I might speak out loud and vice versa.

I know what I am saying here is opening me up to attack but I do not care because I am relating here my experiences and to give is to receive. If I can help someone in a similar situation to myself then it will be worth all.
The first experience last year drove me quite off the charts. I ended up separated from my wife for just under a year as I became a bit passionate and a bit manic and would not deny what I had seen or that something was given to me.

I saw them but they also saw me and the encounter was not an accident. I cannot say why I know this but I can say that something changed from then on.

I do not know why I am telling you this but I think it might be because you could be genuine and you could be a part of the puzzle. Just in case you are I have said what I have said.

Another thing I recently found out was a conversation with my brother. In 1978 as children we lived in Port Kaituma in a military GDF base called Papaya. We were looking out into the rain forest from the windows of the officer’s quarters where we lived.

I dreamed that my brother and I had seen a glowing reddish object drifting through the trees outside the base. It looked like a boiled sweet and as we watched it, it simply disappeared after a few minutes.
Well my brother asked me the last time he was in Scotland about the thing we had seen and I was shocked because I had always thought it had been a dream. He shook his head and said no we saw it together. He was eight years of age and I was nine.

I might seem a little weird but my brother is a Captain in the British army who worked up from the ranks and he is as normal as they come, not prone to flights of fancy at all.

I am an Aquarian with an AB negative blood group. I give this information because it might be important.

*edit*

Detailed accounts of my UFO encounters are on my profile.







[edit on 2-11-2009 by SmokeJaguar67]

Cran4,please review Ancient wars and Spaceships,you may find my post helpful in understanding why you feel "held back".Its because we are all being held back.
You are on the right path,the path of knowledge and changing perspectives or realities.

Dont stop now,you have opened the door.

This may not be an appropriate question but are you less than thirty years old?I only ask because I have a lot of relatives in my family younger than thirty and their generations SIMPLY LEARNED MORE THAN MINE IN A VERY MUCH SHORTER TIME SPAN,so they tend to "awaken"a lot quicker than older people.

You see religons wont admit it but THE BABY BOOMER GENERATION IS PASSING THE TORCH,and I am GLAD TO SAY THAT THEY DIDNT SPEND AS MUCH TIME IN CHURCH AS THEIR PARENTS AND THEY SURELY DIDNT TAKE THEIR CHILDREN THERE TO BE BRAINWASHED BEFORE THEY WERE WELL ROUNDED ENOUGH TO EXCERCISE FREE WILL.

No one ever says it because it is counter to current religous doctrines.Taking your children into ANY house of worship that subscribes to an illusionary divine entity BEFORE THEY CAN EXCERCISE FREE WILL IS A negatve and suffocating perspective to offer your own children.

You got to make a choice,---DIDNT YOU??????--.

Get my point.

Now accept that my personal belief DOES INCLUDE ONE CREATOR OF ALL LIFE IN THE UNIVERSE.

Just not one that doesnt show equal concern for all of humanity irregardless of their current perspective.

No killing,only helping,no divine forgiveness only accountability to humanity as a whole.

Simple isnt it?That is until you try to fit ANY EXISTING RELIGON INTO THIS PERSPECTIVE.

I believe in God,just not the lies that have been told to humanity since the beginning of recorded history.

Before some smarty pants tries to tell me that "they have a right to teach their children what they choose"I will say I disagree.

THE GOVERNMENT AND THE CHURCH TELL YOU EXCATLY WHAT YOU WILL TEACH YOUR CHILDREN.

Your rights are clearly spelled out to you.Or the alternative to the status quo you are being forced to follow is purposefully made extremely difficult in order to discourage alternative perspectives.If you are forced to work to support the survival of your family economiclly you cant very well HOME SCHOOL CAN YOU?Sure you have the option but it has been made nearly impossible---ON PURPOSE---.

You are being manipulated in so many arenas that it seems impossible to get out from under.

Listen,relax,the more humanity learns the closer to one shared perspective or reality we come and when that day arrives in the very near future,THERE WILL BE NO NEED FOR MONEY,THE CHURCH AS WE KNOW IT,OR GOVERNMENTS AS WE KNOW THEM.

These institutions will be replaced with institutions that have a global perspective as opposed to a regional perspective and they will carry humanity into the future.

No one has to rebel or fight to change anything at all,JUST KEEP LEARNING AND TEACHING PEOPLE ALL AROUND YOU THE REST WILL TAKE CARE OF ITSELF.

Have faith in your religons and governments,these institutions are needed by humanity,they just need to be cleaned up and out,changing of the guard, passing of the torch,call it what you will,but it is happening right now .

Speak your mind in open forums with your peers,dont be afraid to ask questions and do it in front of as many people as you can.Do it at church,dont accept blind faith as an acceptable excuse for atrocities against other humans,dont let divinine illusions stop you from being concerned for other people,when you talk politics ask how long your peers think it will take for one humanitarian institution makes itself available to humanity.

Just remember that whoever eventually stands up for humanity must be able to enforce the changes that we need,so believe me when I say that we need to bring all religons together in spite of governments and armies,the only thing powerful enough to undo the damage that has been done is the ORIGINAL POWER ITSELF AND THAT POWER IS THE POWER RELIGON HAS HAD OVER HUMANITY.

We need to reorganise and meld world religon BEFORE SOME SMARTY PANTS GOVERNMENT SEES WHAT I SEE COMING AND STARTS A WAR.

The war would simply set back this new perspective by an untold number of years,it will not eliminate it,this is the future and I dont believe any power in existance today can stop that.

Hi CleverNameHere....

I'm not sure what to post here..but just wanted to reach out. I'm not exactly sure how to U2U here...so I am posting on the thread. I have read this thread of yours....and you seem honest. I don't want to ask you anything in particular...to start with.....but is there anything you can tell me?

reply to post by one4all


Please stick to the thread topic. If you want to post that much information to one person, please use the U2U feature the site has.

reply to post by fynshine


I can't really tell what kind of person you are with such a small post.

If you're uncomfortable posting in the thread, click "member tools" on the menu bar of the site, then click "U2U Private Messages" to get to your mailbox.

reply to post by CleverNameHere


Hi I tried sending Private message....but it says I can't send any private messages because I have less than 20 posts. grhhh..

anywhooo...I don't have aim..othervise I would im you there.

Originally posted by CleverNameHere
Have you noticed anything strange, lately?

Yes!

Purple flowers everywhere... :eek:
here and there.

What do you think?

reply to post by CleverNameHere


I beleive Xanthos was your orginal name -- the golden.

Don't fear the waters. It was over your head, but that was long ago. The light can help you find the surface, but that doesn't mean that it's any more benign than the darkness; they are both symbiotic.

I'm sorry about your sister.

I wonder lately why I feel so pinched. There should be sufficient room, ample spacetime for even a large man. I've figured out how to quell the headaches, but this molecular squeezing is really irritating.

All best,

Argentus

reply to post by plutoxgirl


Even on the road to Hell, flowers can make you smile.

Even purple ones.

Hello CleverNameHere,

I have read this whole thread, and wasn't going to post, but I felt I needed to, for some reason.

Have I noticed anything strange lately?

I thought and thought about this and finally figured out what I was feeling, but couldn't coagulate into a whole: A lot of people in my life are thinking/worrying about the afterlife and are trying to be better people. They are more generous, understanding, forgiving and many other wonderful things.

This has been going on a couple of months now. I find it very interesting and I am glad it is happening (hope it doesn't stop). I function sooo much better when there is peace in my life!

"Perhaps the aliens will come, but it will only be to save us from ourselves."

I loved this quote from you. I truly hope we can save ourselves, and maybe, if all these predictions of disclosure are correct, the aliens can help us do it!

Peace,
FibroKat

reply to post by FibroKat


I can only hope that there are others out there in the vast universe that know the things that I know.

I believe it to be true 100%, but I am a schizophrenic. My 100% is not your 100%. My 100% is more like your 50/50; it's either right, or completely wrong.

A lot of energy is flying around the cosmos these right now. Humans can feel it, though they may not know how to acknowledge it.

Something is coming. Something is coming here. Something may already be here.

All we have to do is acknowledge it, and know that it is True.

People are talking of the afterlife, and trying to better themselves, but even they do not know why. They think it is just another object thrown in their path by life, or they may acknowledge it for what it Is; but it Is, regardless of what they know, or think they know.

When you feel Him getting closer, it is only natural to begin thinking again about the spiritual side of our species.

I keep saying "we." though I've said I think I may not be human, because I see humans as one of the most beautiful creatures. So capable of so many emotions and creating different energies, and they are so innocent that they don't even know it, and STILL they think that they could lives their lives better.

The Hope of Mankind will turn the downfall into an uprising.

We will conquer evil.

And we will finally see what it is like to live in a world of Good.

I am sorry...I forgot the main question on the forum..."have you noticed anything strange?"

Ok...to answer the question, yes I have. Lately, I have been seeing a lot of air activity around me. I don't know if they are airplanes or what not.....don't have a clue...but there has been a lot of activity around me lately. Its weird....I find my look drifting towards the sky too often now a days....It might sound crazy (sky was always here) --- but its true. I drive a lot...and previously I used to listen to the radio and do stuff in the car and keep my eye on the road (you know..normal driving stuff). Now, I don't like listening to the radio...and too often I look ahead down the road and then the sky (like the long road view). It sounds odd when I say it....but it feels different.

Originally posted by CleverNameHere
reply to post by plutoxgirl

 

Even on the road to Hell, flowers can make you smile.

Even purple ones.

Oh, sure.

Ladybugs as well.

Shine on.

I thought i posted a reply earlier Clevernamehere (I'm officially 3 fresh now) I'm moving toward a different perspective now and want to take your advice and have such a lucid dream that i never wake up, only problem is i don't dream. The drugs they have me on are wicked. so my question to you is how does one become lucid during the day, I KNOW its possible while on the meds because i woke up one night in the hospital recently, and my sweat smelled like roses, i took my shirt off, woke up, and it smelled like straight BO the following morning. I have this theory that reality is created through an individual and because of that individual reality exists. (ad that to your manual)

reply to post by clever024


I refuse to give anyone instruction on how to fall into a permanent coma.

If things are that bad for you, you need to see a psychologist.

They aren't all evil.

Originally posted by CleverNameHere
reply to post by clever024

 

If things are that bad for you, you need to see a psychologist.

They aren't all evil.

Maybe not but they're tricky buggers that need some occasional discipline. Can't let them think that they have the upper hand in all situations. Knock 'em down off their high horse I say.

reply to post by EnlightenUp


I disagree. Some are not helpful indeed, and only want to give you some anti-depressants or just give plain wrong advice. But I don't agree to point the finger to all of them. A psychologist can do really good things, provided that you have a good one. But a lot of people have a bad sense of what a psychologist really is and does.

Anyway, while I'm posting anyway, I can just as well tell a little bit about me and my experiences lately (jay my turn now ).
I've always had a highly analytical mind, and was very critical about paranormal subjects. However, I always was very curious, so I read a lot of books my parents had about UFO's, aura's, etc. at a very young age. I still have these books, some pretty old, at my room. I like to read Däniken, despite his jumping to conclusions and I was really fascinated by Ingo Swann's book 'Penetration', to mention a few. However, I always regarded myself as a 'physical monist', meaning that all emotion and cognition can be traced back to matter, and that supernatural phenomenon can be explained by delusions/imagination. I always found extraterrestrials plausible however.

This line of thinking was fortified when I went to study at the university (faculty social sciences), if you know what I mean. However, about 6 months ago (might be a bit more though), I started to realize certain things. I won't call it 'awakening' because that sounds too much new age to me, lol, but basically it can be regarded as the same procedure. To keep things short, I came into contact with certain things (psychics, websites), and it started me thinking about my mindset. As a result, I 'opened up' to the paranormal/supernatural. It didn't went overnight, and it isn't a sort of coping mechanism or some sort of 'wanting to believe' thing. I can really elaborate why I went to believe these things, but it's a little boring to tell :p.

To sum up, I really became a lot more open minded. Besides, I decided that the current society is influenced too badly by negative emotion (which is, in my opinion, addictive). Therefore I decided not to guide my life through negativity, and started living in a whole different, positive state. It's insanely hard, but I keep trying. I didn't always do the best thing in my life, and I really knew hate/anger and whatnot. But I experienced it, just to know what to look out for. I experienced it to do it differently. And not just me, because you know what? If you look at the whole world, we cannot go on like this anymore imo.
This all falls perfectly into place with my 'opening up' I mentioned earlier. It's hard to explain, as it is with all feelings, and I'm notoriously bad with words on the internet. It's too bad that I don't experience paranormal things myself by the way, ever (with one somewhat unimportant exception).

I could go on for pages, but I'm a bit reluctant to reveal my whole personality here :p. What a post btw

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Originally posted by CleverNameHere
reply to post by clever024

 

I refuse to give anyone instruction on how to fall into a permanent coma.

Weird, I have never seen this thread before but was drawn to it... when I saw your name I wonderd why you had chosen it , then your reference earlier to not waking up made me think of comas and now this post above...AND the mention of Schitzophrenia... hmmmm

Central Neurogenic Hyperventilation?

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